Chapter 9
Lea's POV
***start flashback***
Today was just another day of filming on the glee set. We were filming the episode "New York."Cory and I were just about to sing the song pretending together. We had both admitted to each other that we both had feelings for one another. But we had to keep it a secret from the rest of the cast. Most importantly we had to keep it from the fans and the press. I finished getting ready and headed towards the set. Cory was already there and ready to go. Cory and I took our places on the set and both began to sing:
Face to face and heart to heart But I hold on I stay strong Will we ever say the words we're feeling? How long do I fantasize? I stay strong Will we ever say the words we're feeling? Keeping secrets safe Will we ever say the words we're feeling? Will we always, always, always be pretending?
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not OK
Wondering if we still belong
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be pretending?
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
And we can choose the ones we love
But I hold on
Wondering if we still belong
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be
Every move we make
Seems like no one's letting go
And it's such a shame
'Cause if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know?
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
(Tear down all the walls)
Will we ever have a happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
(Only be pretending)
Will we always, always, always be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be pretending?
Cory's POV
We both finished singing and I looked into her eyes. There was so much love in the look she was giving me. I smiled at her and she smiled back. I wanted to kiss her so bad right now. I just couldn't though. Not with everyone around. I knew then that I wanted to have a family with her. She was so beautiful to me.
Lea's POV
I finished singing and looked into his eyes. He had this cute half-smile on his face which I thought was so adorable. The look her was giving me was filled with so much love. I had to fight the urge to kiss him right there in front of everyone. I knew that I wanted to be with him forever. He was so caring and I knew he would never hurt me.
***end flashback***
Dianna's POV
I brought Lea out of her thoughts by calling her name. She looked over at both of us. She told us what she had just been thinking about. Naya looked at me and said "Lea you need to talk to him. Its really obvious its bothering you."Lea nodded and said "I know I just don't feel ready to."She looked over at Sonny who was silently eating her lunch. Sonny gave her a small smile and continued to eat her lunch. I could tell that seeing Lea being anxious was affecting Sonny a lot. I had taken her to the doctor one day so Lea could have some alone time. The doctor weighed Sonny and told me she had lost weight since the last time they had seen her. She told me Sonny had lost 10 pounds since her last visit. The doctor told us that stress can cause weight loss. Lea had been shocked to find out how stress was affecting Sonny. Lea had been making sure Sonny was eating alright since I told her about the weight she had lost. Since then she had gained back some of the weight. We were all glad to hear that she was ok.
Sonny's POV
I was sitting next to Lea eating my lunch when I heard the front door open. I immediately got up to go to my room. I figured it was Cory but I really didn't want to see him. I had become more afraid of him since I had that bad dream. Dianna must have known why I was leaving so she came over to me and pulled me close to her. I looked over at Lea to see that she had a scared look on her face. I looked towards the front door right as Cory walked into the living room. Lea turned towards Dianna and asked "Can you please take Sonny with you?"Dianna just nodded and took me upstairs to get some of my things. I grabbed my stuffed dog and some other things to take with me. Once I had packed I followed Dianna back downstairs. We walked past Cory and I grabbed my jacket and put it on. Naya picked me up and started towards the door. I waved at Lea as I felt a tear slide down my face. She came over and gave me a kiss as she quietly said "Its going to be ok. I promise. Ill see you soon."I reached for her but she shook her head no at me. She motioned to Naya to take me out of the house. They took me out to Naya's car and I strapped myself in. I looked back at the house as Naya started to drive away. Dianna tried to comfort me but it was no use. I was too upset.
Cory's POV
After Naya, Dianna and Sonny had left I sat down in the living room with Lea. She didn't look at me but asked "Why are you here?"I looked down at my hands and sighed. This wasn't the same Lea I had first met on the set of glee. I reached out to take her hand but she pulled away from me. I let out another sigh and said "Lea we need to talk. I know your hurt by what I did. But I need to explain something to you."All I got was a nod. I took that as my chance to explain everything. She finally looked up at me and I noticed she had tears in her eyes. I reached out slowly and gently wipe the tears off her face. She looked up at me and asked "Why did you do it?"I pulled her close to me and said "Thats what I came to tell you."I was silent for a few minutes as I handed her a tissue. She wiped her face and looked up at me. I took a deep breath and said "I never meant for you to see that picture. It was a mistake. All of it. I never wanted to kiss her."I paused and tried again to calm Lea down. She looked up at me and asked angrily "Why did you do it then?"I stood up and walked away from her a little. Neither of us said anything for a little while. Lea came over to me and quietly asked "Cory?"I turned towards her and yelled "I was drunk ok?The night it happened I had a little too much to drink. I must have left my phone logged into my twitter that night. The next thing I knew this picture was on my twitter. I never meant for this to happen."Now it was me who had tears in my eyes and Lea who was comforting me.
Lea's POV
I walked slowly over to Cory and gave him a hug. "Cory I'm so sorry. I didn't know. I should have listened to you that night."Cory shook his head and looked down at me. "This isn't your fault. I was stupid. I don't blame you if you don't trust me. I would hate myself too."I walked him over to the couch and we sat down. He calmed down a bit and said "I never meant to hurt you."I didn't bother to respond. I leaned into him a kissed him on the mouth. Both of us were still crying a little bit. As we pulled away we both gave each other a small smile. I looked into his eyes and said "I'm willing to work on forgiving you. It might not be easy at first. It will definitely take some time."Cory just nodded and I rested my head on his shoulder. We stayed that way for a while then I decided to call Dianna and tell her to bring Sonny back. She said she would come right over with Sonny. She told me that they couldn't get her to calm down. I agreed that it was best that they bring her back. I said goodbye to them and went to wait outside for them. Cory came to wait with me. I was kind of afraid to see how she would react to Cory still being there. I also didn't know how she would react to me forgiving him.
Sonny's POV
A few minutes after Lea called I was back home. As soon as Naya stopped the car I got out. I started to run towards Lea but quickly stopped as I noticed that Cory was standing behind her. Lea came towards me and motioned for me to come with her. I backed away and shook my head no. Dianna came up behind me and tried to get me to go inside. I pulled away again and stepped towards Naya. She picked me up and motioned to Lea to come over to us. I listened as she said "I don't think she is comfortable around Cory."I nodded to Lea to show her that I wasn't ok around him. She nodded to me and walked over to where he was standing. She must have asked him to go inside. Once he was out of my sight I went inside and went up to my room. I layed down on my bed and immediately fell asleep.
***beginning of dream***
One minute I was with Lea and the next I was back at my real parents house. This was really weird and I was unsure what was happening. I called out to Lea but I got no response. I looked around me and noticed I was in my small bedroom at my birth parents house. I called out for Lea again and this time I heard footsteps. I looked towards the door to see my dad coming towards me. My real dad. What was going on? Where was I? I wanted to call out to Lea again but I stopped when I noticed him coming towards me. I immediately got down on the floor in a ball. I covered my head with my hands as I felt him start hitting me. He managed to pry my hands away from my head. He pushed me down so I was laying flat on my stomach. I tried to cover myself again but this time I was slapped upside the head. I lay there in pain as I watched my dad come closer to me. As I saw his hand go up to strike me I noticed it was no longer my dad I was looking at. It was Cory. I screamed in pain as I felt the sting of his belt on my back. I was beginning to lose consciousness as he continued to hit me. I tried to stay conscious but it was just no use. I closed my eyes and let myself slip into an unconscious state.
***end of dream***
Lea's POV
When Sonny came into the house she immediately went to her room. I assumed she had fallen asleep when she didn't come back down. I was sitting in the kitchen with Dianna, Naya and Cory talking when we all heard a loud scream. We all ran upstairs towards Sonny's room. I was the first to run into her room. She was still asleep but was tossing and turning and sobbing heavily in her sleep. I was afraid she was having trouble breathing. I knelt down next to her bed and tried to wake her. Nothing I did seemed to work. Cory and I kept trying to wake her for a good ten minutes. It took us a full 20 minutes to wake her. As soon as she woke up she reached for me and said "Mommy make daddy leave. I don't trust him."Cory looked over at her and said "Sonny I'm not going to hurt you. Why don't you trust me?"Sonny didn't answer him but instead looked at me and said "In my dream daddy hurt me. At first it was my real dad but then I saw Cory standing above me."I shook my head at her and said "Sweetheart it was just a dream. Daddy didn't hurt you at all. He would never hurt you. Why don't you let him hold you?"Sonny allowed Cory to hold her but I knew by the look in her eyes deep down she wasn't able to trust him yet. Just like it would take me a while to trust him again, it was the same for Sonny.
Later that night when Sonny was in bed Lea and Cory decided to talk to her a little more tomorrow. They could both tell that something else was bothering her. They knew that she had been dreaming about the abuse done to her by her real parents. Why she had dreamed that Cory would harm her they didn't understand. Cory knew he would never harm her. He was going to do all he could to prove it to her.