CHAPTER 11
Realisations
Nessie's POV
I continued to sit there with Mom and I could feel myself get sleepy again. I leaned my head against her hard shoulder and felt myself drift off. I dreamed my dream of Jacob on the beach again, without him asking me if I wanted cheese.
I could have stayed there forever, Jacob and me laying there on the beach. Maybe someday we would do that for real.
I was suddenly awake and found myself in my own bed. Jacob wasn't there. I looked at my alarm clock which read 11.30 am.
Jacob was gone. I figured back to his house to start his official day of business. I wasn't even aware of the time I had woken up earlier, but I knew it was early.
I couldn't hear Mom or Dad in the living room so I presumed they were at the house. I sat up to stretch out some fresh kinks and whisked my legs out the bed. My mobile was still in my little clutch which I had dumped on the floor last night. I reached over to get it and pulled out my mobile. I had a text from Lottie asking me when I was coming over.
I replied back that I would be there in a few hours or sooner. I needed a well earned shower.
I stretched again and felt all relaxed. I forced myself to stand and I stumbled my way to my bathroom.
I started the shower and thought about my date with Jacob. It was amazing. I loved spending time with him. I loved kissing him. I loved him touching me.
I think I loved him.
Now I must be crazy
No you're not.
I am.
Mom knew she was in love with Dad after they had met.
So?
Jacob is meant for you.
And?
So it would stand to reason you would love him already.
Shush you.
I hated arguing with myself. It sounded mad to say so, but we all argue with ourselves at some point. And I knew it was right.
AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!
I got into the shower and set it to as hot as it would go. The heat never scalded me and I liked it hot.
Jacob is hot.
I had to clear my head. I started washing my hair and myself. I concentrated on every little detail so I would not think of something, or someone else.
After applying conditioner and then rinsing it out, I blasted myself with cold water. Cold water I could feel better than the hot so I shuddered when the blast hit me. Cold water makes my hair all shiny.
I stepped out and got myself dried off.
One plus one is two. Two plus two is four. Four plus four is…
Jacob…..
Just think about him, just for a second. Is that so wrong?
Did I love him already? Was that even possible?
Oh I don't know. You can't get him out of your head.
It was like I had the devil me on one shoulder and the angel me on the other, battling it out.
I knew the decision before it was even made.
I was in love with Jacob Black. And I knew, just knew that he felt the same way I did.
At least I think he did!
I continued to brush my teeth and I returned back to my room to get dressed. I dived into my walk in and I picked out: surprise surprise, my favourite flared dark blue jeans, the icicle top I wore when Alice wanted to show me off, and a pair of black ballerina pumps with large jewel stones at the toes.
I blow dried my hair and let it hang loose today. I collected my phone and shoved it into my pocket.
Recently I was getting off lightly with hunting. I had a lot of donated blood recently and I knew I was going to have to go. I decided the time was now.
I changed my pumps for trainers and I jumped out the open window and headed north. I could hear some elk nearby but I wanted something carnivorous.
I ran further north and found a two mountain lions. They were fighting each other. I stopped suddenly to allow my approach to be quiet.
I had hunted mountain lions before, and they have never harmed me yet. Dad wasn't so keen the first time incase they were able to.
I crept up behind them and I could hear their thumping hearts and the juicy bloody behind their necks.
My mouth pooled with saliva.
I walked out slowly and both of them made a noise of surprise. The both stopped fighting each other and got ready to pounce on me. The one on the right did and I met him mid air. I quickly snapped his neck so he would feel no pain and I sunk my teeth through the fat and muscle to hit my target. The other mountain lion ran off and I drank from this one quickly so I could catch up with my other prey.
I put him down and chased after the other one. I quickly caught him climbing up a tree and I followed him up there. I could see the shock on its face. Its heart was beating so fast it knew the end was up. I felt bad for ending these creatures' lives, but I needed to survive and rather it than a human. The one thing I always tried to do was to end its suffering quickly. I did not like to play with my food.
Unlike Emmett.
It lunged for me and I swiftly dodged to the right. It clawed at me again, missing me. The third time it clawed I caught its paw, dragged it to me and snapped his neck also.
I drank from this one much more slowly, savouring the taste. Once I had drained it, I carefully laid his body down onto the ground. Emmett laughed at me when I did this, but I always felt as I got older, that these animals were sacrificed to keep me going, so the least I could do is pay him his last dues. It also meant that other animals were able to survive also.
I ran back home feeling rather sloshy. I made a quick detour to the cottage to put my pumps back on. I ran over to where the others were.
I ran through into the kitchen, spotting Mom and Dad sitting playing chess. Alice was sitting on Jasper's knee and Rose and Emmett were nowhere to be found. I didn't want to know what they were up to.
Carlisle and Esme were upstairs in his library; I could hear them talk to each other quietly.
"Hey Nessie," Alice called. "Sleep well?" I could see Jasper smirking into Alice's shoulder.
"I did thank you for asking. I would ask you the same, but…" I trailed off, knowing she would get my meaning.
"What did you do this morning honey?" Dad asked without taking his eyes of the board.
"I went hunting. Figured that there was only so much donated blood I could get."
"What did you hunt?"
"Mountain lion."
I could see Dad crease is forehead. I knew he didn't like me hunting them, but he didn't get much of a choice.
"As long as it was ok, that's what matters," said Mom. She moved a piece on the board. "Checkmate."
"You are getting too good for this for your own good," Dad said with a mock expression on his face.
"You just don't like to lose Edward."
Dad folded his arms. "I don't mind losing to you."
"I know you don't love."
Sick bucket please.
Dad whipped his head round to me. "You have a cheek missy. I am trying not hear what you are thinking but kind of hard when you are shouting it from the roof tops."
"I am not shouting anything."
"Figuratively speaking Nessie. You are thinking it though," he said tapping his temple.
I blushed a deep red. I did not want him knowing about my feelings for Jacob. I had seen Dad roll his eyes.
STAY OUT OF MY HEAD DAD!
He chuckled.
"I am going to go to Lottie's to hang out for a while."
Dad nodded. "Do you need anything else to eat?"
"No thanks. Full." I patted my stomach. Dad and Mom both smiled.
"Have you heard from Jacob this morning?" asked Mom.
"No, I didn't want to disturb him, but I was thinking of passing by to say hello."
"I think that would be a good idea," Esme flitted down the stairs. "I've made up another hamper for him as I have a feeling he hasn't stopped all morning."
I raised my eyebrows. "Really?"
"Yes. I heard some people in town talk about it when I was getting some groceries. It is definitely getting some good advertisement via word of mouth."
"Cool, I'll definitely stop by then."
I grabbed the hamper from the work top and made my way to the front door when I stopped as I remembered the news Jacob told me last night.
"Hey guess what Mom."
She looked up from the new game they were playing. "What is it Nessie?"
"Emily is expecting twins."
Everyone looked up at me and smiled.
"Really?" Esme asked.
"Yeah. She didn't even know she was pregnant. She thought she was putting on weight as she was still getting regular periods but she did a test and there we are. She hasn't had any morning sickness. She had her scan the other day which confirmed she is carrying twins. Sam is over the moon."
"Where they trying?" Alice asked.
"No, complete accident. We all know how they happen." I looked over to Mom who suddenly looked down at her game whilst trying to suppress a smile.
"That is certainly nice news for them," said Carlisle who just came down the stairs. "I wonder if they will change when they get older?" He said more to himself.
"Maybe, if they are girls they may even imprint on some of the others wolves. I am sure Sam would love that," I smirked.
"Emily is starting at the garage today isn't she?" Alice enquired.
"Yep. She is starting this afternoon. A good way of earning some money seeing as they haven't got that much," I commented.
I left them to what they were doing as I said my goodbyes to everyone.
I left the house and ran via the cover of the forest. I would come out directly behind Jacob's house as it faced onto the forest. Very handy.
I ran for a further five minutes and I reached the back of his large garden. I strolled through the back door and went through the side door of the living room to reach the garage.
I wasn't expecting the site before me.
There were two cars in the garage, and a further seven queued up outside waiting to be worked on. There were no customers about so I could see Jacob working faster than the normal human to get the job done. He suddenly stopped when he heard me.
"Hey gorgeous! How are you today?" he jumped out from under the car he was working on and made his way over to me. He was almost bouncing.
He leaned over to kiss me and kept his hands behind his back. I could see they were very dirty.
The tingle came back as soon as he touched my lips with his. I automatically wanted to curl myself into him but he stopped suddenly.
"I don't want to get you dirty honey. I am filthy." He held up his latex gloved hands. "Esme bought me these so I wasn't constantly having to wash oil out of them. Good idea actually."
I smiled. That was Esme for you. "She also asked me to bring you some food." I held up the hamper.
"Nice."
He removed his gloves and threw them in the bin. He grabbed the hamper from me and made his way into the office. He took out a large sandwich and dug in. I was happy sitting and watching him.
"I see that you are very busy?" I asked him.
Jacob gulped down whatever was in his mouth. "I am really busy. Thankfully I can work at Jacob speed as there is no one about. I have already fixed five cars this morning. Those two out there are finished and I have seven more waiting for me out front. It's been minor things so far. New exhausts, new tyres etc. I just need to move those two so I can crack on with the rest." He said all that so fast as you could see he loved his new business. "I have a few to get serviced as well."
"What time do you finish?"
"I finish at 5.30 pm. I made a sign to go on the front doors this morning with opening hours," he took a swig of juice from the carton. "I asked Emily this morning if she wanted a job and she is coming in this afternoon to give it a go. Sam is pleased as he took on work at the local lumberjacks in Port Angeles. It means they have a bit more cash to spare."
I nodded and smiled. He was so excited. I loved that about him.
"And I try and encourage the customers to leave so I can work faster. It is literally a five minute walk to La Push and there is a bus service going back to Forks. The boys also start with me next week so that should be interesting." Jacob shovelled the rest of his sandwich into his large mouth. He took a few chews and another drink from the carton. He was inhaling his food rather than eating it.
Jacob delved into the hamper and removed more food from it and continued to eat. I watched in amazement as he demolished all the food in there.
After about ten minutes he cleared all the wrappings and laid the hamper on the floor. He suddenly grabbed me, lifted me into his arms.
"What are you doing?"
"Taking a well-earned break," replied Jacob who smirked at me. He kicked open the side door that lead to the living room. He threw me onto one of the black sofas and landed on top of me.
I wrapped my arms round his neck. "Now what are you doing?" I asked in a little shock.
"Taking advantage."
Jacob started kissing me slowly along my jaw line, and it was making me shudder. He reached my mouth and planted feather like kisses on my lips. I couldn't take it anymore and I grabbed his head to force him onto me. I felt him smile and he lifted his head.
"Patience."
"Patience my ass," I exclaimed.
Jacob smiled again and started kissing me back at the beginning. He reached my lips again and this time he exerted more force and I repaid it back.
My hands started roaming up and down his back. I was taking in every muscle. I could feel his 'reaction' to me so I lightly rubbed myself up and down. I loved the tingling feeling it was giving me.
Jacob stroked my hair and face and I grabbed his bottom. I could feel him smile again and I didn't stop caressing his bottom.
It is a very nice bottom.
We were still lightly grinding against each other when Jacob brought his right hand to lightly caress my face which led to my neck. He then just caressed me a little lower down and I could feel his two fingers lightly touch the outside of my breast. His hand caressed lower down to my waist and it came to rest on my hip.
All the while his hand leaving little electric sparks where he had touched me. I didn't want this to stop!
Then the doorbell rang.
"Crap!" Jacob cursed. He lightly jumped up from the sofa and turned his back to me. I couldn't see what he was doing but I had a faint idea that he was readjusting himself! I decided that wouldn't be a bad thing so I sat up and smoothed down my hair and rearranged my clothes.
Jacob answered the front door and it was Emily.
"Hi Jake. I tried knocking in the garage but I couldn't see you."
"I was through here with Ness, just chilling," Jacob said nonchalantly.
Emily peered round the door and noticed me adjusting my top. She smiled slightly. "Ok Jake. I believe you but when your brother's find out you won't live it down."
Jacob opened the door wide to allow Emily to come in.
Wow – she was definitely pregnant! Although she was only three months there was a definite bump. I smiled at her and she beamed back at me.
She walked over to the other sofa and Jacob went to the kitchen to fix up a drink for her.
"So how is pregnancy treating you Emily?" I asked.
"Great! I am still getting used to it though. Your hair is sticking up at the back," she said trying not to giggle.
The phone rang again and Jacob ran to get it whilst I tried to flatten the back of my hair.
"What about Sam?"
"Sam is really excited. He is going to be a daddy. He couldn't think of anything better," Emily gushed. "I have to say that I am getting excited too."
"What do you think you will have?"
"I expect boys, to carry the line, but you never know. Twins don't run in the family so who knows what's in here. At least it isn't a litter!"
We both chuckled at that thought.
"You know when Mom was pregnant with me, Dad could read my thoughts. You should get him to listen in when you are further along."
Emily hesitated. "I don't know if Sam would like that."
"This isn't about Sam, it is about what you want. Wouldn't it be cool if you could know what your unborn babies were thinking? It was just a thought." I shrugged.
Emily let herself think about it for a moment then smiled. "You know, I think it would be interesting. Remind me nearer the end and I will get over to see Edward, only if he doesn't mind of course." Emily beamed at me.
"He wouldn't mind at all. Remember now that you guys are all family…"
Emily interrupted. "I know you guys are. Life has certainly been made easier because of you two."
Jacob ran back through and gave Emily a glass of juice and plopped down next to me. There was silence for a minute as Emily and I both felt that we should continue our conversation. That was for another time.
"So Jacob, what exactly do you want me to do then?" Emily asked.
Jacob thought for a second. "Currently, the way it is going, I am going to have enough money to pay for two wages. Mine and yours. The boys are getting funding from the college to put them through the course and I get funding for onsite training which is more than what I thought and they get good pay. I am already getting bookings for tomorrow and for the rest of the week. I need to you take over basically as a receptionist. Keep customer records, order parts, finances, book appointments etc. Things like that."
Emily nodded her head. "I think I can do that. How long are the boys training?"
"Well, Quil and Embry have helped me in the past with projects, but they need a bit of fine tuning. Seth has no experience but will pick up it up quickly. They are in college for two years. I did two years training with onsite experience. They go back to college every now and then to do some theory, but most of it is practical."
"It isn't exactly hard but give me time to sort things out. I know with being employed this late in the day being pregnant, I am not eligible for maternity pay."
"I had thought about that and if you are willing, you can bring the babies here and work from the house. I'll even get you a little headset." Jacob joked.
Emily thought for a second. "That is actually a good idea. I can take as much time as I need to get into a routine and then just come back. I like it."
"When is your due date?"
"Well, the date I have been given is February 14th 2012."
Jacob sniggered. "Valentine's babies."
"Don't laugh Jacob. I think it's nice," I chided swatting him on the arm.
"Bet Sam is thrilled with that!" Jacob openly started laughing. It took him a minute to contain himself.
Emily just smiled. She mouthed the word "Boys!" to me. She did actually look like she was glowing.
I noticed the time and it was past 1 pm. I would need to get to Lottie's.
"Hey guys, I am going to head off and let you hash out the details."
Jacob stood up and walked me to the door. He embraced me and gave me a quick peck on the lips. "If I don't see you tonight, I will see you tomorrow after school honey."
"Ok." I went to leave but Jacob still had a hold of my hand. He suddenly pulled me back and planted a long hard kiss on my lips, which I reciprocated.
He darted his tongue in and out to tease me and I ran mine along the top of his lip. I heard him moan slightly.
I was pressed up against him and his hands were travelling up and down my back. The tingling was back in full force and it was travelling from the top of my head to the tip of my toes.
Then he suddenly pulled away.
"Nessie…"
"Mmmm."
"I will have to get back to business. I don't want to but I have to. I will do my best to see you tonight."
I pulled him in for a cuddle and rested my head against his large chest and I breathed in his lovely woody scent.
I pulled away and smiled. Jacob stepped back inside the house, I walked out his drive and dashed off into the forest not looking back. I ran hard until I could hear the familiar beat of his heart.
While I was running to Lottie's I wondered why it was so hard to leave. Was it always going to be like that? I knew I was going to see him in a matter of hours but why did I feel like that?
Did he feel like that when he had to leave?
Maybe I was falling in love.
I shook myself out of thought as I made it to the perimeter of Lottie's house and ran round to the front where the driveway started. I walked over to the little booth where the security were and found no one in there. So I dashed up to the house and knocked on the large front door.
After thirty seconds Lottie answered the door. "Hey Ness." I noticed she had a fresh white bandage on her neck. I heard Carlisle call it a mepore the other day.
"Hi, um where is the staff at the front of the house?"
"Gemma and I gave them the whole day off. Everyone. Matt has left us some food in the kitchen; he wouldn't leave until he did that. Figured it would be easier for you to get in and out quickly," she shrugged. "I sent you a text letting you know."
I pulled my phone out and there was a text. "I didn't read it. I was at Jacob's."
Lottie raised her eyebrows and smiled mischievously. "Oh yeah?"
I tried not to smile at her suggestion as her suggestion was totally right. "Are you letting me in or not?" I said a little harshly.
Lottie stepped aside and let me in. I noticed she was grinning like a Cheshire cat. I followed her to the living room and we both sat down on the sofas.
I noticed she was wearing the baggiest jeans ever. They were quite cool and she teamed it with a dark blue long sleeved Scotland rugby top. Her hair was pulled into a twist at the back secured by a huge clip. She wasn't wearing her glasses.
"What you get up to then?" Lottie asked.
"Wouldn't you like to know?"
"I do actually? I was meaning your date and today." She rolled her eyes.
"Oh, well I could show you actually."
I reached over to Lottie and grabbed her hand. She gasped as I showed her from when I left her yesterday to knocking on her door. When I let go she shut her eyes and shuddered.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Your feelings for Jacob are….intense. I thought it was weird for me to have intense feelings like that with Keith, but that is so much more than what I am feeling."
I sat forward. "What do you mean?"
"You do know you showed me everything?"
I nodded. "Yeah."
"Even the part about Jacob's 'reaction'." She used finger quotations for the last word.
"I didn't think I had shown that."
"I don't think you meant too, but because you have these feelings for him you just did. I don't mind knowing about it, that's what friends are for, I thought you should know." Lottie had this wicked grin on her face which I know picked up that it was similar to Emmett's when he is 'implying' things.
I tried to change the subject feeling a little embarrassed. "You said you were getting feelings like that for Keith?"
"Yeah. I spent the whole night with him."
"Eh?"
"Not like that! Talking. Don't get me wrong. We kissed."
"Yes?"
"And I got that tingly feeling that you get when you with Jacob. Not as intense but I think it's getting that way. I don't know if that's normal?" Lottie asked looking slightly concerned.
"I think it is. I started getting that when I was realising my feelings for Jacob and now I just need to touch him to get that feeling even before I knew what the imprinting meant. To be honest it is getting to be like a drug to me. I left him there just now and it was so hard. I just didn't want to be apart from him."
"I don't think I am there quite yet with Keith. He left this morning to get the rest of his stuff and to sort out the huge hole he left in the motel he was staying in. He is going to Jacob's after that. I did offer him a room here but he didn't want people thinking badly of me. Plus it would be easier for him being near the pack because he is still getting used to it all."
"I think it would be best at the moment. So what did you do last night?"
Lottie sat further back on the sofa recalling her memory with a dreamy smile on her face.
The one thing I have noticed with Lottie is that she uses her hands to talk. It's very funny to watch. I don't even think she realises she is doing it.
"We went for that walk into the forest. (pointing to the forest) I introduced him to my horses as we past. Beau not being too keen and Bailey wouldn't leave him alone. It was very funny (waving her hand). We were walking around the field with Beau at the furthest end possible and Bailey following right behind us.
"We then went into the forest and just walked. We sat down at a small clearing and it just felt natural to sit in his arms and talk. We told me about his life in England and I told him about mine (she put her hand on her heart). He explained about his Mum and how hard it has been for him, which I could sympathise as I lost Dad earlier this year. He feels now that he can belong somewhere as before he felt a bit lost (her hand waved into the distance dismissively – you get the idea!)."
"When did you get back?"
"'bout 2 am this morning and we feel asleep in my room."
"Really?"
"We were both on top of the covers and he was very warm. I was fully clothed and you can wipe that smirk of your face Nessie." She pointed at me menacingly.
I snorted. "You got me."
"Before we got home, we had a little kiss underneath the trees. He is an amazing kisser and I just wanted to melt there and then. I get that tingly feeling in my lips and a butterfly feeling in my tummy. I can safely say that I have never had that before."
"So what did you do before you went back to your room?"
"I showed him what my damaged brain could do. He thought it was very impressive. Said I should work on it to improve. Then we kissed some more. In fact I think we spend a good hour kissing before we both dropped off."
"What time did you get up?" I asked.
"About 10 am. We both came down and had some breakfast. Tony didn't say anything, he seems to like him. Didn't tell him to leave – not that he would dare! We had breakfast and he left about an hour ago. We were just chatting."
"Cool. Seems that you two have really hit it off then."
"We have. He is such a nice guy. It is really amazing that his whole wolf thing determines who his mate for life is."
"How is he coping with being a wolf?"
"Surprisingly well. He phased in front of me and I have to say how impressive he looks. He is absolutely huge. He tells me he is almost the same size as Jacob."
"I think because technically he is the second born he was really meant to be the Beta. He is almost the same colouring as Jacob but lighter. Very like his chestnut hair colour."
"He keeps his eyes when he changes. I think he has his mother's eyes as the Quileute's all seem to have really dark eyes," Lottie said thoughtfully.
"I noticed that. His eyes are nice though. Jacob said he will try and see me tonight."
"Keith might be able to get back here for a few hours tonight then. He is texting me later to say as he wasn't sure what was happening. He says that they are giving him a few days to get used to the wolf thing, come out on patrols with the other to understand what they do. He is looking forward to that part as he says he isn't going to be looking for work at the moment."
"How is he going to live then?" I asked.
"The money he inherited would do him at least three life times. His Mum was a very wealthy lady but nice with it. She donated to a lot of charities."
"What is he going to do about England then?"
"He is going to keep the large mansion that he and his Mum lived in as he can go back there whenever he wants. He needs to apply for a visa to stay in this country. Technically he is immigrating and he is hoping now that he has a brother that should help. I am not sure about how the visa thing works but he wants to keep it legal and above board. I called Mum last night to ask about mine and she said now that I am technically an American citizen as well as a British one. Don't ask me how it works as I have no idea."
"I may ask Dad if he could sort something out if Keith is having problems. Mom knows someone who could do that."
"I'll pass that onto Keith if he has difficulties. Should be ok but good to know he would have a back up."
"You wouldn't want him going anywhere soon."
"Definitely not! I feel like I already have a claim on him and him me. Isn't that strange?"
"I don't think it is; I think that's an imprinting thing."
"It is very strange that whole imprinting process. It seems more common than what they thought it would have been. Not that I am complaining as I really do like Keith. And he is good looking. He is very similar looking to Tom Welling when he played Clark Kent in Smallville."
"Who?"
"You never watched Smallville?" I shook my head. "We have some DVD's to watch madam. I also think at some angle he looks like Cillian Murphy."
I thought for a second. "Oh, I know who he is. He is nice."
"He sure is, but Keith is much more hotter. He and I are very different. Like chalk and cheese. He is very quiet where I am…"
"Loud. Gobby. Blunt, talks a lot."
Lottie narrowed her eyes at me then started laughing. "Can't deny it really. All true. But he has so much depth to him. I could listen to him all day."
I smiled at her last statement. She was falling for him already and that was obvious. "Hey, where is Gemma?" I asked.
"She and Adeline have gone shopping but they are meeting their guys at Jacob's house about 6 pm. They get back from the college about 4 pm and they are just going to hang with each other I think."
"Oh well. Is there anything you wanted to do today?"
"Not really, just hanging with you if you don't mind!"
"Not at all. Although I do think you should take someone's jeep down before he really gets pissed."
Lottie smiled at that thought. "I really should. Well, I am not doing anything now, why don't we nip over then head back."
"How do you want to go? I can carry you if you would like, it would be quicker than the car."
Lottie hesitated for a moment. "You won't be like Emmett?"
"No, for starters you can hop onto my back."
"I'll crush you."
I gave her a sharp look. "I am half vamp. You wouldn't even feel heavy Charlotte. And you are not as heavy as you would think," I scolded. "Stop putting yourself down like that."
"Well, I am not exactly anorexic now am I?"
"Not the point."
Lottie looked down. "You sure?"
"Yes. Why don't we go now? I think you will enjoy it more if you are on my back and I won't go as fast as Emmett."
Lottie sighed and stood up. She grabbed her red over-the-shoulder bag that had a subtle playboy logo motif on it and popped her phone into it. We made our way out the house and she locked it with a set of keys and put them into her bag and put it over her shoulder like a messenger bag so it would be secure. She also grabbed her glasses from the table and placed them on.
We walked down over to the field so we were out of sight of any security cameras and any peering eyes if there was any.
"Come on then, let's get it over with," Lottie sighed resignedly.
She jumped up onto my back and secured her arms around my neck and secured her legs round my waist.
"This is very weird," she laughed.
I had to giggle too as it would have looked strange. I set off on a fast run heading towards the house. I could feel Lottie breathing hard against my neck.
"Hey Lottie, you should look, it isn't that bad."
"You sure?" she mumbled.
"Of course!"
I felt Lottie lift her head and after a few seconds her breathing slowed. We were passing the scenery quickly but with Lottie being on my back it made a big difference.
"Hey, this isn't so bad. It is quite surreal now that I can experience it properly."
I continued to run and we made it to the house in less than ten minutes. I stopped directly next to the garage and I helped Lottie down from my back. She stumbled slightly as she was getting used to being on the ground again. I had to giggle at her.
We both looked up and then looked at each other and fell about in a fit of laughter.
"It's still there!" Lottie exclaimed whilst holding her stomach.
"Come on, you had better get it down unless you want Emmett to punish you."
"Nah, he loves me too much to do that."
"Delusional much?" came a voice from behind.
"Oh!" Lottie jumped. She quickly turned round with her hand up and froze Emmett who was stand directly behind her. She then put her hand to her heart; I could hear it beating fast.
"You scared me you big git."
"I know. Funny," Emmett replied sarcastically. "Have you come to get my jeep down?"
"Only if you say please."
Emmett stayed quiet.
"Now that just won't do. Now you have to say pretty please," Lottie pouted.
I could see Emmett trying not to laugh.
Lottie turned back to me. "Let's go back to mine. I am sure I could keep him like that for a good couple of hours if not days if I concentrate hard enough."
"Can you do that?" I asked.
"Sure, I tried it on Gemma once and I left her at home for a full day. I actually forgot about her," she giggled. "That earned me three days of silence and a slap upside the head."
"Ok, if Emmett won't say pretty please then let's go."
I walked over to Lottie and she jumped onto my back again. We were about to leave when…
"Ok ok. Pretty please can you get my jeep down," Emmett said defeatedly.
Lottie sniggered then jumped off my back. She made her way over to the garage and put her right hand out and suddenly the jeep flew off the roof and landed back down onto the ground next to Emmett, who was still frozen.
"Happy now?"
"Only when you unfreeze me."
"Hey Nessie, I think I should do what I did yesterday to Emmett. It was rather fun," Lottie said mockingly.
If Emmett could have gone any paler, he would have.
"No, I don't want that to happen again Lottie, please," Emmett begged.
Lottie strode over to him and was almost nose to nose. "You have to say the magic words."
"Pretty please?"
Suddenly Emmett dropped to the ground and he ran over to his jeep to inspect it.
"You could have done some real damage you know!" He shouted.
"Nah. I wouldn't have done that. You under estimated me though and that will teach you not to pull anything stupid with me again," Lottie said whilst wagging her finger at Emmett.
Emmett crossed his arms and huffed. "Well….I'll be nicer then," he muttered.
"What was that? I didn't hear what you said?" Lottie asked putting a finger to her ear.
"I said I will be nicer," Emmett said through gritted teeth. He checked out his jeep again and stomped off back into the house.
"You did hear Lottie," I whispered.
"I know." Lottie smiled. "Hey, I did what you asked; what do you want to do now?"
I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know. Any suggestions?"
"Do you have a Wii?"
"I think Emmett has one."
"Do you think he would let us play on it?"
"We could go and ask."
We made our way to the front of the house and let ourselves in. Dad and Mom were nowhere to be seen. Alice and Jasper were watching TV. Emmett who had his arms wrapped round Rosalie was standing at the back of the house looking out onto the forest. Esme was in the kitchen baking and Carlisle was watching her.
They all turned their heads as they acknowledged that we had entered. They could probably have smelled Lottie, or heard her.
"Hey Emmett, do you have a Wii?"
He turned round to look at us "I do, it set up there." He pointed to our large TV that Alice and Jasper were watching . "Why?"
Lottie spoke before I could. "Do you have Mario kart?"
Emmett narrowed his eyes at her, showing he hadn't quite forgiven her for the jeep stunt. "I do."
I could see Rose trying to suppress a smile. Alice and Jasper had both turned to look at Emmett and they had smirks on their faces.
"Do you fancy letting me beat you at it?" Lottie asked with that all too familiar wicked smile on her face.
"Nope."
"You are a huffy git aren't you? Can't stand to be one upped by a woman."
I could see Emmett getting a little angry at Lottie's statement. "Now see here – " he raised his fist.
Lottie put her hand up. "It's alright, I know you are too chicken. Nessie and I will find something else to do." Lottie turned her back on Emmett so she could walk out the door. She winked at me.
I could see Emmett balk at her last statement. "I. Am. No. Chicken." He walked over to the TV and connected the Wii up to it. As he was doing this Rose silently walked over to stand with us. She nudged Lottie lightly and smiled at her.
Lottie mouthed. "Too easy."
Rose smiled wider.
Esme and Carlisle had amused expressions on their faces whilst Emmett made a show of setting everything up and doing it rather noisily while he was at it.
Emmett turned towards us after he had finished with a bunch of remotes in his hands.
"Who's playing?"
"I definitely am and I am so going to kick your arse," Lottie challenged Emmett.
Emmett had his usual smile back on his face. "We'll see; you don't strike me as the type to play computer games."
Lottie shrugged her shoulder non-committed and sat down on the sofa facing the TV and I sat next to her. I hadn't really played this one much.
"I'll play," Jasper said.
"So will I," said Alice.
"No cheating Alice!" Lottie said whilst tapping her head.
"I would never – " Alice put her hand to her chest.
"Yeah right. I have heard about your games with Edward. Play fair." Lottie laughed at Alice who stuck her tongue out at her.
"She has you sussed Alice," Carlisle laughed from the kitchen.
Rose sat down on the other sofa and indicated for Emmett to pass her a controller.
"Are you playing Rose?" I asked.
"Why not, it will be fun to see Emmett lose. He hasn't had a good weekend of it so far."
"Hey, you are meant to be on my side woman!" Emmett accused Rose.
Rose hissed at his comment. "I am always on your side sweetie but it is good for you to learn to be a bit humble," she said acidly.
"And why would I want to do that?" Emmett put his hands on his hips.
"Where is Mom and Dad," I asked Rose.
"Probably shagging," said Lottie who then slapped her hand to her mouth. "Sorry!"
I looked mortified. Emmett was laughing hard and everyone else was trying to suppress smiles.
"That's not funny. I do not want that image in my head thank you very much!" I glowered at Lottie and Emmett.
"Sorry Ness. The gob tends to go before the brain engages."
"But it's probably true though Ness," Emmett boomed. He put his hand up to high five Lottie who returned the gesture.
"Ew," I mumbled. I really didn't need to hear all that cos it probably was true.
Emmett set up all the controllers and handed everyone one, although Lottie got hers thrown at her.
"Very mature Emmett," she sniggered.
"I thought so."
Emmett made his way next to Rose and at beside her and he set up the game until we could choose our characters. I chose Princess Peach, Lottie chose Yoshi, Rose chose Mario, Emmett chose Bowser (just like him!), Alice chose Toad and Jasper chose DK. Emmett set up the first race.
"We'll start at the beginning and work our way up," said Emmett.
We started the first race and it was clear this was going to be Emmett getting his own back on Lottie, although his attempt was going to fail from the beginning; Lottie was good.
She was very good.
After she won the first four races, Emmett was getting in more of a foul mood. He finally spoke up.
"I thought you weren't any good at this," he accused.
"I never said I was. Those words didn't actually leave my mouth. I did say I was going to kick your arse though," she turned to the rest of us. "I've been playing computer games since I could remember. I love the racing games and Zelda."
Emmett's mouth set into a hard line. "I will defeat you."
"We'll see about that," Lottie challenged, eyes narrowed.
We started the next set of races and we were all having fun. Emmett moved to sit next to Lottie and they were ribbing each other.
Emmett won the next lot and the Lottie won the third set of races. I could see Rose and Alice getting bored as they weren't winning anything, but Jasper had a smile on his face. Maybe he was enjoying emotions of the camaraderie from Emmett and Lottie.
We were about to start the fourth race when Alice interrupted.
"I think I have had enough. I don't like losing. Lottie you are too good."
"I think I'll do the same," Rose said quietly. I could see she had dark shadows under her eyes. She never properly hunted since that incident on Saturday. "I think I'll go and hunt. Alice, you coming?"
Alice jumped up from the sofa. "I could go for a hunt."
"I'll come with you," added Carlisle. I forgot he was in the kitchen. He gave Esme a quick peck on the cheek then joined the others and left out the back doors. Esme was still baking adding more to her large basket.
"Esme?"
"Yes Nessie."
"What are you making?"
"I am making scones, muffins, pancakes and biscuits." Esme started rolling out more dough.
"Who are they for?"
"I make them for the special needs school that is in Port Angeles."
This got Lottie's attention. "I didn't know there was a special needs school there."
"There is and it is poorly funded. I help them raise money, although most of the money they make comes from Carlisle and me. They are going on a field trip tomorrow and I wanted them to take some food with them."
"That is a lovely thing to do. Are you going with them?" Lottie asked.
"I am weather permitting. It is meant to be overcast tomorrow so I should be able to go."
"Where are they going?"
"We are going to a science museum. Should be fun. I like working with them."
"Are you like a carer?"
"I don't get involved in getting them ready as such, but I help during the day during school time. Some of the children have been abandoned by their parents and some parents can't cope with them so they are sent to this school."
Lottie frowned. "That isn't very nice. So it is like a boarding school?"
"Yes. Some of the residents stay there. Some just come during the day for the schooling."
"I take it that it is a nice place?"
"Oh yes. The money raised has helped renovate the old building. It used to be an old convent, and it was refurbished a few years ago. I helped out with a lot of it. Money raised now goes towards equipment such as hoists for the pupils that are paralysed and equipment for the school. It is very much government run; the carers and teachers get paid but funds are sparse for building work and volunteers like myself; not that I would take the money even if they offered."
Lottie looked thoughtful for a moment. "I take it the kids have learning difficulties or disabilities?"
"Yes. Some of them are hard work. The parents of those that come during the day get the chance to get respite care, so that they and their child get a break from each other. We encourage it."
"Do you think they would take some stuff if I went out there and gave it to them?"
"Like what?"
"When I had my accident, Dad built me a light sensory room to help me sleep at night. My room had loads of fibre optic lights, bubble cylinders that have little fish float in them and lights that reflected shapes on the ceiling. I don't use them anymore and I know light sensory is good for development especially in children with learning difficulties such as autism."
Esme smiled. "I think they would like that very much. They don't have anything like that yet."
"I have loads of it. There is a load of old stuff in the garage that I brought over from Scotland, it is in there so I would need to dig it out."
"I know they would appreciate it very much," Esme smiled.
Lottie turned back to us and smiled. "Right, where was I? I was in the middle of kicking Emmett's arse."
"You were not!"
"Was so! I won the last one. This fourth one can be the decider."
Emmett caught Jasper smirking at him. "What are you laughing at?"
"You. You two are like bickering brother and sister. Very funny."
"The annoying brother I never had!" Lottie said then reached over and ruffled Emmett's hair.
Emmett tried swatting her away. "Hey. Don't touch what you can't afford."
"Is someone getting pissed off cos they aren't winning?" Lottie said adding a pout at the end.
"No."
"I think you are."
"Someone is in the huff." Lottie said in a singsong voice.
Emmett folded his arms again. I could only sit there and laugh.
"Emmett, you are so childish!" I commented. "Come on, play the last game."
Emmett picked up the remote and started the next game.
Lottie beat him on every single race.
Emmett stood up quickly and Lottie jumped as she hadn't noticed him do it. "You are cheating!"
"No I am not. How can I be cheating?" Lottie countered.
"You just are!"
Jasper burst out laughing and I followed suit.
"Jasper, if you keep laughing I will kick your ass so hard you are going to be shitting boots." He turned to Lottie and growled. "You deserve to be hit repeatedly! But I am not allowed," Emmett growled.
This made Jasper and I laugh even harder. Lottie joined us after a second.
Emmett threw his controller down so hard it smashed into bits and he dashed off outside presumably to follow Rose.
"Bye Emmett!" Lottie shouted.
Could hear a faint grumbling in the distance.
"You have him good and riled Lottie," I said giggling. "You know he will be planning revenge."
"We'll see. He knows what I can do! He'll come round; he has just thrown his toys out the pram."
We sat there for a while chatting away. Jasper was telling Lottie a bit about himself and how sometimes his vegetarian life can be difficult. Jasper had moved to sit next to Lottie and they were sitting very close. Lottie didn't even flinch.
"Do you know that you have taken all this very well Lottie," Jasper commented.
"Well, when you can do what I can, there is no reason to doubt anything else. Why can't there be supernatural things in the world. I think it is kinda interesting. I would have said 'it's cool' but I wouldn't want you to take it the wrong way."
"I see what you mean. It is 'cool' in a way." That word coming from Jasper sounded unusual! "We have the strength, speed and extra senses. But then there is the thirst."
"And I can't imagine what that is like for a second," Lottie started. "And I don't think I would want to become like you. For starters it goes against what the wolves want, and now that I am imprinted to Keith, obviously I would not want that, but then there is Nessie."
"Yes, I am like the little freak of nature," I laughed.
"You are not a freak Nessie, all I am saying is, if we can live for a longer period of time, that in itself is pretty cool, but if I did age and Keith didn't, that would be strange for me. I can see why Bella wanted to change."
Jasper looked at Lottie with piercing eyes. "Are you saying you would consider this life?"
"No, I am trying to see it from both points of view. If I could have all the attributes that made you guys what you are without the blood lust then that would be wicked. But I don't envy you guys on the thirst."
"What if you were changed without your consent?" asked Jasper.
"Then we would cross that bridge if we came to it. Although I think I would put up quite a fight."
"I believe you would," Jasper smiled.
"Why did you ask that?" I queried.
"I was thinking about what Eleazar had said on Saturday about the Volturi. If they found out about you I think they would turn you in a heartbeat."
"You really think so? What if I refused?"
"I have no idea. They may do it anyway. They may do something where you would have no choice."
"I thought they were meant to be the 'good guys'."
I snorted at that. I knew they were but not when I last seen them.
"They are meant to be, but they would do something that would benefit them then they would carry that out. You would be their best offensive weapon. Maybe even better than Alec and Jane," Jasper clarified.
I thought for a moment. He was right. If she was powerful now, I could imagine what she would be like as a vampire. Scary.
Lottie thought for a second. "They would have to catch me first."
Jasper smirked. "I believe they would have a hard time trying. Which is why you should continue practicing. When are you practicing next?"
"I was thinking about after school tomorrow. If anyone is willing."
"I will always help. Just don't take off my head."
"Off with his head!" Lottie shouted.
I looked at her then; confused.
"Alice in wonderland quote Nessie. From the cartoon anyway. I seen it when I was little and that is what the queen of hearts said."
I nodded. Some things went right by me. "I'll help you practice. Shall we meet in the clearing again?"
"Sure," said Jasper. "You finish school about 3.30pm?" I nodded. "Then we shall get to the clearing about 4pm, get it out the way then you can go and get something to eat."
"Who do you think will come?"
"Alice and I will definitely be there. I don't know if Carlisle is working but if not he will be there as he is taking notes and checking your progress."
"Emmett?" Lottie had that smile back on her face.
"I don't know. If I do what you did earlier with the whole 'chicken' thing he may come."
"Wicked." Lottie rubbed her hands together.
Jasper stood up. "I think I could do with a hunt myself. I hope you don't mind ladies." He ducked his head ever so slightly.
"Go ahead." I waved at him with my hand. He ran out the back door.
It was just Lottie, Esme and me left.
"What do you want to do now?" asked Lottie. She checked her phone. "It is almost 5pm."
"We can head back to yours if you like," I suggested.
"Yeah sure."
We both got up and Esme flitted towards us giving us each a hug.
"I'll be back later Esme, Jacob said he was going to stop by," I said.
"Ok, Bella can always phone if she wants you back. It is a school night after all."
"Oh god, we have to back tomorrow Nessie," Lottie groaned.
"I know. You will be fine."
Lottie nodded. "I need to get my bandage changed tomorrow morning. It is getting a bit manky. The nurse gave me a few to change them. I'll need to ask Bessie or Matt."
"What about the ones on your stomach?"
"They were very shallow cuts. The same on my neck. I am going to take off the mepores tonight. Let the air heal them up properly."
"Are they ok to be left?"
"Yep. They look raw but they should be ok. People are going to gawp anyway, might as well give them a good show."
I smiled and shook my head. That was Lottie – straight to the point.
We left the house and Lottie jumped on my back again and we ran back to Lottie's house.
There was still no one in so I could run freely right to the front door. We let ourselves in and went directly to the kitchen. I was full from hunting earlier so I wasn't hungry.
Lottie pulled out food from the fridge and heated it up in the microwave. She offered me some but I refused, I was still full from hunting earlier. Once it had heated we both went to sit in the dining room. I grabbed two cans of vimto from the fridge for both of us.
Lottie sat and ate her meal, not talking to me out of rudeness, but because she was hungry and eating her meal. I sat thinking about Jacob again and how hard it was being away from him this very moment. It was a strange feeling thinking I was getting dependant on his company, and he mine. It was a nice feeling but also a little scary as I hated the part of thinking I could exist without him.
No. That would never happen. I knew that.
And I would see him again tonight, without a doubt. Even if it was for five minutes.
I would be happy with that.
Lottie scraped her chair back and took her dish to the kitchen and washed them quickly.
"You want to sit in the living room?"
"Sure."
We trudged through and I could sense Lottie was getting tired. She flopped down onto the sofa and yawned.
"I'm tired," Lottie stated.
"Never," I said.
Lottie made a face. "School tomorrow. I know everyone is going to be asking me what happened and to be honest I don't think I can be arsed with it." Her head rolled onto the back of the sofa.
"It has been a long weekend for you hasn't it?"
"Yep. Vamps, wolves, almost getting killed. Twice. Nothing beats an action packed weekend." She waved her hand in the air.
"What are you going to do now?" I asked.
"Without being rude, I think I am going to head to bed."
"That's not rude, if you need to sleep then go," I smiled at Lottie. "You were up late last night with Keith. I really don't mind. Besides, it means I can see Jacob a little longer."
Lottie smiled wickedly. "I bet you do."
"Now stop that; you are getting as bad as Emmett and don't be doing that when my parents are around in a good five mile radius: they will kill him and then me," I chided.
"No they won't. I reckon there would be a lot of shouting, but no killing," Lottie joked.
"And do you have to make it sound so dirty?"
"Yep."
"So are you going into school tomorrow?" I said changing the subject.
"Fraid so. Do you want to meet me there or grab a ride?"
"I could grab a ride with you, I could get you at the bottom of the driveway and there would be no suspicion that way."
"Cool, say about 8.30?"
I nodded. I stood up to indicate I was going because Lottie was beginning to look really tired. She got up from the sofa and followed me to the front door.
"Thanks again Ness. I know we didn't do much today but I appreciated the company."
"It's no problem, that's what friends are for," I said whilst I rubbed her arm. "You just get some sleep."
"Cool, you are a good mate Nessie. I'll see you tomorrow at the end of the drive chick."
I walked onto the drive, waved at Lottie then sped off in the direction of home.
Whilst I ran, I was thinking of Jacob again. I just couldn't help it. Lottie thought she felt her feelings for Keith were intense, although they had barely known each other for two days. But I felt more than that with Jacob and it was like I couldn't get enough of him.
I wanted to see him tonight and I wanted to tell him about how I was feeling. When Mom met Dad, she knew after getting to know him that she was in love. She would always be that way for him.
I stopped abruptly in the middle of the dense forest and just realised something.
I am in love with Jacob Black and that there was absolutely nothing wrong with it.
I felt a smile creep up onto my face. It wasn't so bad. Dad couldn't get pissed off with me, he had no right too. Mom would support me however I felt. Emmett would ridicule me as he always does. And hopefully life would go on as normal.
But how do I tell him?
I started to pick up pace again after my abrupt stop and made my way back to the house.
I stopped again to smell the air. I needed to talk to someone; these thoughts weren't bothering me, but I needed to get advice. I wanted Mom.
I could smell Dad's scent leading towards the cottage and I knew that by now he would have 'heard' me coming. I internally groaned.
Was this the sort of conversation I wanted with my Dad? I don't think he would take it very well.
I turned to run back in the direction I came.
"Nessie?"
Damn. I turned myself back to Dad who stepped out of the cottage. "Yes Dad?"
He walked over to me and embraced me in his arms. "What's has got you all in a fluster?"
I reciprocated his cuddle and I took a deep breath. I wanted to say it first rather than let him hear it second hand.
"I know you wanted Bella, but can I help sweetie?" he caressed my hair, soothing me.
"You are really not going to like this Dad but if you are offering some advice I would gladly take it. But you have to promise that you can't get mad at me." I broke free from his grip to look him directly into his golden eyes. I gave him a very hard look so he knew that I meant it.
"Ok…" he said slowly.
I took another deep breath. "You know that I care for Jacob very much?"
Dad nodded keeping his poker face in place.
"Well, over the past few days I have realised that I am in love with Jacob." I let go of the breath I was holding and I closed my eyes waiting for the shouting to begin.
But there was silence.
After what felt like hours but really only ten seconds, I opened my eyes to see Dad with a look of shock on his face and standing completely still.
"Dad?"
He held up his hand to indicate to give him a minute. There was a rock nearby so I walked over and sat down on it whilst I waited for Dad to compose himself.
I sat there for ten minutes. So I took my phone out my pocket and had a look on my facebook page.
There was a sudden movement to my right and Dad had moved over to sit on the ground next to me. It was odd having him sit there looking up at me. I put my phone away and I folded my hands together, unsure what to say next.
"Are you sure?" he asked.
I knew what he meant. I nodded and looked at my hands, a tiny bit scared of his reaction and what he might do to Jacob.
"I am not going to do anything to the do – Jacob," he corrected himself.
I gave him a sharp look. "I know you wouldn't, but I am sure you would like to imagine it."
Dad gave me a sharp look back. "I think you underestimate me Renesmee. Although I may not have liked the fact that Jacob imprinted on my daughter, I do actually regard him as a brother of sorts. He is the true Alpha and he helped us when we needed it the most, and he continues to help us when we need it. He is my wife's best friend and I imagine he will always be in our lives. I may moan about him from time to time – "
"All the time," I interrupted.
"Ok, all the time, but Jacob knows how I really feel about him. I have a lot of respect for him and although I think of you as my baby girl, he is right for you in every way," Dad sighed looking down at his hands.
"I may not like it," he continued. "And I think you are still too young to know about any of this, you are only meant to be five next month. five going on seventeen," he said more to himself.
"I know Dad, but I know my own mind."
Dad took my hand and engulfed it in his own. "I know you do sweetheart. I know. I knew this would come sooner or later and I was kind of hoping for later," Dad smiled Mom's favourite smile and he looked at me again. "But I suppose our lives are never going to be normal now are they?"
I smiled at that. "Very true. Do you think you can accept this then?"
"Of course I can," he said looking slightly offended. "I support any decision that you make. I may not have to like some of them, and I may get a little vocal about them, but I will be there for you."
"You don't like this decision?" I asked.
"Well….as you can see it took me by surprise." I giggled a little showing Dad through my gift what he looked like. He cringed. "Sorry Nessie."
"There is no need to be sorry. I suppose I can see it from your point of view. But you will never lose me as your daughter. I will always be your baby girl, no matter how old I am. I am lucky I have two fantastic parents and such a fabulous family and I am so grateful for that." I rubbed Dad's hand, reassuring him a little. "I love you Dad."
"I love you too Ness," he replied. He got onto his knees so he could embrace me. We stayed like that for a long time when he finally pulled away. I liked having our time together. "Just remember that I loved you first."
I smiled into him.
"Ok then Nessie. What was the advice you were wanting?"
I was confused for a second and I think it showed. "Eh?"
"You were wanting advice about how to tell Jacob how you felt."
"Oh yeah, sorry, got side tracked." I paused for a second to gather my thoughts. "Um, yeah, what should I say to him?" I asked.
"I am going to be completely honest with you. With you being his imprint and also never ageing and if he keeps his wolf, he will never age, it is likely that you both will be together for as long as you live."
"And your point being?"
"My point is that you are going to have to tell him at some point. And will it bother you being with only one person for the rest of your life?"
"No. You and Mom have never been with anyone else and I certainly don't want to be with anyone else let alone picturing myself with someone else so why should it bother me?"
"I was just checking," Dad sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. "My advice to you is simple. Just tell him straight out."
I contemplated that for a second. "And are you ok with this?"
"Honey, of course I am ok with this. It is hard watching you grow up so quickly but to be honest, I couldn't think of a better person for you."
I felt my eyes beginning to water a little. He was being so understanding about this. Dad took my hand again, stood up, pulled me with him so I was standing and he sat back onto the rock and I sat on his lap, cuddling in to him.
"But I don't want you rushing things Nessie."
I paused again for a moment. "What do you mean?"
"I am aware of the conversation you and Jacob had when you were on your date, it was all he could think about. You should listen to him about not rushing things," Dad advised.
"You mean sex, don't you?"
"I do. I am a traditional man Ness, and you will find that Jacob is also. He will want to wait until he is married. And I would like for you to respect that."
I felt myself cringe a little. I did not want to be discussing my intimate love life with my Dad. I was remembering Jacob and I discussing that particular subject when we were at our picnic.
He chuckled. "Doesn't matter about discussing it Nessie, I will find out anyway. I can't really help it, especially when you think about him all the time and he you."
"He thinks about me a lot?"
"All the time. He finds it very difficult being away from you now."
"I felt like that earlier; when I dropped his basket off at his house. It was like I didn't want to leave him at all. I could have stayed in his arms forever."
"I never ever want to let Bella leave, it is too painful."
"So you understand how I feel then?"
"Completely."
"So what should I do then?"
"You should speak to him Nessie. Just ask for a little time to yourselves and tell him what you told me."
"You don't think he will run scared?" I had seen this far too much on TV.
"I think he will surprise you darling."
"You think?"
Dad tapped his temple with his finger. "I know so."
I smiled, reassured at his comment. I would just need to tell Jacob there and then. It was just finding the time to do the there and then.
"Why don't you text him and ask him to meet you somewhere," suggested Dad. "Away from prying eyes," he said nodded a little towards the large house.
"Good idea Dad." I pulled out my phone and I sent Jacob a text asking him if I could meet him at his house in an hour. I noticed the time was 6pm.
"Can I ask you a favour sweetheart?" said Dad.
"Of course," I replied slowly.
"When you are thinking of Jacob, in a way that I don't need to know about, can you try and keep it to minimum please? I don't need the image of you and Jacob getting up to stuff in my head."
I burst out laughing. "You have a cheek!" Dad gave me a piercing stare. "Do you recall when I brought Gemma and Adeline back that you and Mom were almost shagging up against a tree!" I continued to laugh. "Dad, you are so hypocritical!"
Dad looked at me in shock for a moment then started laughing along with me. "Ok, point taken."
My phone vibrated in my hand. Jacob replied telling me to come over at any time.
"Why don't you go now sweetie. Get it over with so to speak," Dad suggested.
I looked at Dad then. "I have to say, you have taken this very well. Better than I thought you would."
"Told you not to underestimate me. But like I said before; please respect Jacob's wishes about sex. I know he wants to wait until you two are married."
I rolled my eyes. "Jesus Dad! You don't need to remind me. I know," I whined. "Just don't mention the sex stuff in front of Emmett, he doesn't need any encouragement. Neither does Lottie for that matter."
"I think Emmett has found a playmate there," Dad said thoughtfully. "Don't get me wrong, he worships Rose, but she doesn't seem to like playing computer games and things like that. He doesn't remember much of his human life now, but she reminds him of what it's like to have a sister. He likes that."
"You can see that. Lottie is fond of him too, in a brotherly way of course. She never had any other siblings until Gemma came along."
"I think it's nice," said Dad. "Also. Somebody is stalling." He looked at me and raised an eyebrow.
"Ok, ok. I'm going. There was a time I recall that you would have locked me up and thrown away the key."
"That time has passed honey. Now off you go."
I bent down to kiss Dad on the forehead and I gave him a hard warm hug which he reciprocated back.
I stood up, smiled at Dad then ran in the direction of Jacob's house.
The butterflies in my stomach where fluttering as if their life depended on it.