Charmed... the other way around Chapter 11:
Autumn 1995 Part 10
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It had been an amazing date. Andy was a perfect gentleman throughout the whole night. At first he talked with dad and Claire while I got ready again. Then he kissed me right away when I appeared at the door.
Dad shoved a condom into my hands as we left. I swear I never was as embarrassed as that few seconds. I was just glad, Andy didn't notice. Or at least he didn't show it.
When we sat in his car he blindfolded me and then drove me to the beach. He sat me on some blanket and then told me to wait, while he lit the candles. When he finally removed the blindfold I was sat in the middle of the beach, candles all around and some food there. Small food you could feed each other with. He had some champagne there, but I refused to drink, without him and I told him not to drink, when he drove.
I always thought dad and Claire got me to feel a lot safer and more comfortable than I ever could possible be, but back then, the feeling was overwhelming. A hundred times stronger as well.
He sat pretty much the whole evening behind me, his hands on my waist as I leaned into him. We listened to the soft sound of music, which came out of a small radio he had taken along. For countless hours, I just sat there, feeling protected, safe and home, while starring at the beach and how the waves rolled onto the sand.
He startled me when he gently kissed my neck
"can I ask you something?" he asked me lowly, almost scared if he spoke out the words, something bad would happen.
"What is it?" I asked, turning slightly, to peek into his eyes for a moment
"why are you so... keen on the smoking part?"
I looked down and got up, walking a few steps away from him, starring out on the sea again, and my back towards him. I felt his arms around me again only a little later. he didn't say anything. He trusted me on answering him, when I was ready
"it's... different reasons. When I still lived in the foster home, they... showed us all kind of horrible stuff... so we wouldn't start getting into nonsense. They showed us also the consequences of smoking. I was shocked. Such a little stick could so fast make your life go downhill. I knew I never wanted to smoke but... I like... didn't care if others did. Then dad and Claire found me... and dad introduced me to my grandpa... he lived only half a year longer. Cancer. Lung. His smoking most likely had caused it. I was with him a few times... and he was almost suffocating once. I felt so bad for grandma... and I swore to myself, I'd never want anything to do with smokers. I just don't want to go through the same." I told him. A tear leaving my eye
"I knew what it could do... but seeing it... having it so close at your heart... I never got how dad could just... go on smoking... killing himself..."
"I... I'm sorry... I didn't... I didn't know..."
I smiled slightly
"you still don't know much about me... and you probably won't know for some more... cause... it's... it's just too hard to talk about... not even Claire and dad know some stuff about my past..."
"it's okay... I'll wait. Tell me when you're ready... it's okay... really."
"you don't mind me having like... secrets form you?"
"who says I don't?" I turned around in his arms and looked at him. He was smiling slightly down at me and I looked deep into his eyes. The eyes I could only see because the moon lit his face.
"I think... I'm falling in love with you, Andy... please... don't make fall too hard when you let me fall..."
he smiled back at me
"I know, I'm in love... and I won't let you fall, cause... you've got my heart already... and how should I live without my heart?"
I smiled even more as he leaned down and kissed me, as suddenly a song, I knew all too well started to play on the radio. I pulled away
"c'mon... let's dance..."
"oh no..."
"c'mon... please... you almost screwed our date... so... c'mon... you've got no choice"
Andy sighed and gave into my pleas, he grabbed my hand in one of his and pulled me closer with the other resting it on the small of my back. I just snuggled into his chest, as he gently lead me over the beach. All I cared about back then was this moment, Andy and that song...
Maybe it's intuition I knew I loved you before I met you There's just no rhyme or reason I knew I loved you before I met you A thousand angels dance around you I knew I loved you before I met you
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
only this sense of completion
and in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
I am complete now that I found you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life