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I'm sorry, but this chapter isn't dedicated to anyone, because I don't want to reveal Alice's secret. Yet. Please don't hate me :)

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-BPOV-

OK, Bella. So breathe.

I did. But it didn't help. At all!

My hands were shaking as Alice was watching me calculatingly. I agreed that she should drive me to school because I don't know if I would have been able to drive. I was to nervous about having to see Edward again.

I wanted to go away from here, to never have to face him again. I wanted to start a new life, but I couldn't. Charlie was all I had. Renee had her life with life and with the baby she was expecting and I was not welcome there. And I had nowhere else to go. I was caught in this crap.

The engine of Alice's Porsche stopped and I realized that we had arrived. My heart was beating like crazy. Here we go!

"Bells." Alice said.

I looked at her but didn't answer. I couldn't trust my voice right now.

"Are you okay?" She asked me.

I nodded, but we both knew that it wasn't true. I was far from being okay.

"Listen to me, Bella. Don't let Edward mess with you again. You have to be strong and move on. He mustn't see what he's done to you. It'll only feed his pride. Got it?"

I forced a smile and nodded.

I knew Alice was right. But I couldn't do it. I was too weak. And my feelings for him were too strong.

Stupid heart! Why do you have to feel like this? I don't want to! But you are way more stubborn than me! Ugh!

As a tear escaped from my eyes, Alice pulled me into a hug. I was so lucky to have her as my friend! I don't know what I would have done without her. From the first day of school here, in Forks, two years ago, when I moved in with Charlie, she was always with me. Alice and Rose were true friends, even though Rose showed up later in my life. All these memories are so alive in my mind...

Alice and Jasper adored each other and everyone but them could see that. Rosalie and Jasper were siblings, Alice was my best friend, so Rose and I decided to help them a little... The way we did it... Not important now. But they ended up together and Alice and I gained another friend. We never left each other's side since then. We were like sisters, and I was so lucky to have them.

"What are you thinking of?" Alice asked me as we were heading to lunch.

I smiled weakly.

"Just keeping my mind busy." I replied.

Alice corked an eyebrow at me.

I chuckled, but the sound wasn't natural like it did when I was with Edward yesterday, in the cafeteria.

"Do you remember when I came in Forks and we became friends?"

Alice laughed.

"Of course I do." She said with a high-pitched voice. "You tripped even before you had a chance to make a few steps."

I smiled a little wider.

"And you came and helped me...And you chided Edward because he was laughing at me and you almost beat up Mike Newton."

As soon as Edward's name came out from my lips I felt all the color draining from my face and my smile fading. Alice saw that, but fortunately she went on with our memories and I soon forgot about him.

"Oh, oh, oh!" Alice sang as we were sitting at our table, Rose joining us. "Rose! Do you remember when you and Bella helped me and Jazz?"

Rosalie chuckled, her eyes glittering.

"You and my brother were both so stupid! I had to ask Bella's help. It's hard to believe that she doesn't have a boyfriend, knowing how good her plan was!"

The three of us laughed. And it felt so good! It had been long since we laughed like this together. Alice and Rose both had their lives now, their priorities, and I couldn't take these things away from them just because I didn't have my own life.

I stopped laughing and I paled again as soon as I met a pair of emerald-green eyes watching me intensely.

-EPOV-

As I was sitting at my table, I could see her and her so called friends laughing. And her laugh was absolutely wonderful. I would give up anything just to hear her laugh again. And now, I was utterly pathetic. This girl was affecting me way too much.

But I still couldn't tear my eyes away from her. She was fascinating me! Her brown hair...Her big and sad eyes...I cringed as a thought appeared into my head.

All the pain in her eyes was because of me. She couldn't smile for real anymore because of me. I had hurt her more than I intended to. I had no idea that she would suffer like that. And it killed me to know that it was all my fault.

I didn't realized that I was staring at her until our gazes met, her laugh stopped and she paled. It's clear that she wasn't too happy to see me.

It was now or never. I had to fix that. Even if we couldn't be together or...stuff like that. I couldn't let her that hurt anymore. What was the least I could do? Maybe apologize...And if I'm lucky enough she would slap me and tell me she wants me out of her way and that she hated me with all her heart.

I stood up and I could see her eyes widening as she realized that I was making my way towards her. And now I knew that the beats of her heart had fastened. I still had this effect on her.

As Alice and Rosalie caught sight of me, I knew that it wasn't going to happen today. They looked like they were going to kill me. Crap! I was so focused on talking to Bella and apologizing that I forgot about them.

"What do you want?" Rosalie hissed, standing up.

"Talking to Bella." I hissed too.

"Maybe Bella doesn't want to talk to you."

The voice didn't belong to Rosalie or Alice, so the tree of us turned to see Bella heading to the exit, trying hard not to cry, like she used to do always.

Good job, Cullen! You only made things worse! Now, she isn't going to listen to you no matter what you do! And it's now like her so-called crazy friends are going to let you near her again! I chided myself.

I had to get out of there before Alice and Rosalie remembered that I was still there and started hunting me to death!

And I knew where I wanted to go. My place... My meadow. It was the only place where I could think about what I was going to do. Because I had to do something! I couldn't let my Bella like that. Right now she was hurt and she was feeling small and humiliated. And it killed me to know it.

I couldn't lie myself anymore. My feelings for Bella were too strong to be controlled anymore. And if I hurt her, I was hurting myself if I was trying too make her happy, I had a chance to be happy too.

Awwww...His Bella? Isn't that cute?

Oh. I changed my mind. This chapter is dedicated to everyone who reviews this story :) It's your way

of showing me if you like it or not. :)

So, what do you think is the way Bella and Rose helped Alice and Jazzy? Ch.11 is dedicated to the best answer :).

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