Title: Selling My Body, Selling My Heart

Chapter 11: A Body Only Settles When A Heart Does

He was pressed against my bare body. I felt his cold hands run down my thighs and find an entrance into my pantie line. My arms was wrapped around him like a helpless baby falling from a cliff. My heart was pounding even harder than it was when I cried last night. I could feel Jimmy's panting through my ears. He kissed my neck softly. My skin itched but it didn't need a scratch. I felt so comfortable it was uncomfortable. I never felt this way about sleeping with someone since I lived with Sean.

I didn't want to do this but my body wouldn't let me. I couldn't convince myself with enough horrible reasons not to let the love of my life make love with me. I am a horrible person. I'm lonely in a house that my ex-boyfriend left me in. I have a drunk mother that I refuse to live with and a father that I forgot everything about except his voice that I hear once every two months. I am no longer Ellie Nash. I am a prostitute in love. I don't deserve this feeling. I don't deserve anything or anyone. I am telling myself all this and as Jimmy is nibbling on my ear, I can't even find enough strength to push him off.

"Ellie... I..." His body arise off me and I stood there looking at him buckle his belt back up. "I can't... Ellie."

I didn't know whether to be relieved or heartbroken. It was an even feeling for me. I felt as if a great weight was lifted from my soul but at the same time, I am still missing that part of me that wishes I was with Jimmy.

"Why?" I asked sounding like a desperate whore.

He took a deep breath. "You're a wonderful person Ellie. After all that happened between us this day, there's no doubt that I love you..."

"And?"

"There's no way to sugar-coat this but... I don't want to be your sex partner, Ellie. I want to be your lover. And not your Sean replacement. I want to be your Jimmy. I don't want us to start at where it's going to end. If we have sex, what's going to happen once we go to school? You're going to pretend all this never happened and use me every now and then for your ex-boyfriend?" Jimmy's voice sounded angry.

"Sean and I are over." I wasn't going to cry I told myself. I felt like crying thinking about all this again but I didn't want to. "And you wait until I'm naked to tell me this shit!" My voice rose as I searched the room for my bra.

"I didn't plan for this to happen Ellie! It was hard for me to turn away from this too."

My clothes were back on and I walked around the room nervously. It was early in the morning and I did nothing but cried the entire time I was here. I couldn't afford to cry anymore. I am sick of it. I sat next to Jimmy on the bed and held his hand.

"Sean and I are over, Jimmy!" I said sounding desperate again.

"Are you over Sean?"

I felt a tear escape my eye like a inmate in prison. It tried to make a clean run against my cheek but I wiped it halfway.

"After school, Jimmy. After school, I'm going to Wasaga Beach for closure between me and him. I don't know where we'll be after I do this but if it'll keep us closer then I'll do it. Okay?" I continued to caress his hand and felt him squeeze it tighter.

He stood up from the bed and motioned his head toward the door. "Come on. School is almost starting and I gotta pick up Hazel."

I picked up my bag and the school project and walked outside with it, where Jimmy was already in the car and waiting. I threw all the stuff I was holding into the back of the car and sat in the passenger's seat. I looked at Jimmy as he backed out of the driveway and smiled.

"So, you and Hazel?"

"We were over before all this. Hazel and I are just holding the little we got left for the crowd. It's not official but we both know that the second we find someone else then we're calling it off. Like a celebrity couple." Jimmy then looked at me and smiled.

Before I could think too much about anything, we found that we were right in front of Hazel's door. I jumped into the back of the car so Hazel could get the front seat and continue her act with Jimmy.

"Hey baby!" She said joyful while she pecked him on the cheek and he drove out the driveway. "Hey Ellie!" She said after she turned around and noticed me in the back. "Finished the project?" She asked as she looked back at Jimmy.

"Yeah. It took us all night! Right, Ellie?" He asked in a innocent voice as he looked at me through the rear view mirror.

"Yeah... Right!"

I guess that even though Jimmy and Hazel don't really date anymore, they still act like they do in person because they still feel some affection toward each other. I didn't expect Jimmy to give Hazel the play-by-play of last night but they really don't act any different then they did when they were dating. They had all this drama in their relationship for the longest but never showed the audience a hint of it, neither did they show themselves.

A/N: I am so sorry it took so long to update this story even though I said I'll try as soon as possible but that is a real challenge when you have such a tight schedule with school tutotials and healthy eating schedules.Anywayz, I like the outocme of this chapter and even though I been announced the ending of the sleepover, this is the official ending (for real this time, obviously)! I would like to thank everyone who reviewed and I looked up my status for this story and this is my most popular story of all, and most reviewed! I am so grateful for this and I have yet to read one insulting. Thank you so much!