As Meredith, Derek, and Izzie drove to the hospital Izzie couldn't help but let her mind wonder to the night before. What the hell were we thinking? What happened between me and Alex sitting down in Joe's and George getting up and getting drinks that made us jump each other?……Well you two did have that intense eye contact, that probably had something to do with it…..No that can't be it. George O'Malley's gaze does not have that big of an effect on me it had to be something else……why can't you just admit that you have feelings for him…… Why are you all of a sudden switching sides? Two days ago you were trying to wipe every feeling I had for George out of my head now you are like the George O'Malley cheerleader…… I've had a change of heart because it is now obvious that you are completely head over heels in love with him…… I am not in love with George, am I?…… I think you are….. Shit! What am I going to do?…… Well as much as you are in love with him he has made it clear he wants nothing to do with you so as much as it pains me to say this you just have to forget about him and your feelings.
Izzie sighed as she looked out the back seat window watching the city pass her by. Forget about George? Could she do it? Could she cover up her feelings for him and watch as he dates other people? Just stand by as he brings home other girls and has sex with them in the room right next to hers? Could she do it? Did she have a choice? George doesn't want anything from her, all he wanted last night was sex from her, so that didn't give her much of a choice between telling him how she felt and ignoring her feelings. She had to ignore them because he wanted to pretend like it never happened.
They pulled into a parking place at the hospital and as Meredith and Derek got out Izzie just sat there nor wanting to face him yet. She didn't want to have see him and talk to him yet. Hell she didn't even know what she was going to tell him yet. She didn't know if she was going to yell at him or tell him that she wanted to be more then friends with him. She was just to damn confused.
"Hey you coming?" Meredith asked through the window. Izzie looked up at her and gave her a small fake smile.
"Yeah I'll be in in a minute. I just need to wake up a little more." with that Meredith walked off with Derek.
Yeah I need to wake up from this horrible nightmare that is my life.
George had been sitting in the on-call room for twenty minutes trying to hide from the rest of the world. Actually you are just hiding from two people. Izzie being number one because you don't know how to be a man and just tell her how you feel. And second Callie because yet again you can't be a man and tell her you are in love with someone else. So basically you just hiding in the dark like a baby about to cry your eyes out because you feel like your world is spinning out of control. You have been staring at the same wall for twenty minutes because you think if you stare at it long enough then you will become a part of the wall then you wouldn't have to deal with anything…. Man I am so pathetic! If I was Alex I would have already told Callie I don't have feeling for her, found Izzie told her how I feel, found and empty linen closet and been half way to happy by now. But no I'm George who is actually considering dating Callie, never telling Izzie my feelings and hold all my feelings up in this dark and twisty place deep inside of me until it one day explodes and I end up with no girlfriend and no best friend. And the truly sad part of this whole thing is that I'm actually wishing I was more like Alex. That's right I have sunken that low.
BEEP-BEEP George's pager went off he looked down at it Callie. George sighed heavily then hoisted himself up off the bed and left his safe dark empty room behind him. He headed toward the pit looking for Callie as he went. He finally found her at the nurses station writing on one of her patient charts.
"Hey." he greeted her "You paged me?" Callie looked up and smiled at him.
"Yeah I just wanted to make sure you were ok. You left so suddenly last night I just wanted to know if there was anything wrong?" Callie asked looking worriedly at his tired and worn out face.
"Everything is fine I just had to get to the hospital, like I said last night I was on-call. But everything is ok now." he said trying to sound convincing.
Callie nodded ok and gave him a small smile. "Alright, well anyway I was just wondering sense last night was some what of a bust, if you wanted to try again….say tonight?" she asked shyly. Damn it!! What do I do? Do I want to go out with her again? Do I want to tell Izzie how I feel and chance the risk of me getting my heart ripped out and stomped on? God why does my life have to be so damn complicated?
"I'll get back to you on that I….I got to check my schedule." he lied the truth is he just needed time to sort things out.
"Ok well when you figure everything out, just tell me. I'll be waiting." Callie said and walked away. George gave a slight nod to himself and looked down at the counter.
"Hey George have you seen Izzie?" Meredith asked while walking by in a hurry.
George looked up at her and shook his head "No, not here. Why?"
"Bailey has been looking for her everywhere and is getting more and more pissed off by the moment. Can you go check the car?" Meredith said walking backwards slightly.
"Yeah." George took a double take. "Why the car?" he asked.
"That's the last place I saw her." Meredith turned and walked away as fast as possible. George sighed and headed toward the parking lot.
Izzie had been sitting in the car for an hour now still not ready to go in the hospital and face him. She decided that it was easier to just refer to him as him. The sound of his name even if it was just in her head made her want to vomit and made her heart start hurting. She had been lost in her own thoughts trying to think about what she wanted to say to him she almost didn't even notice a tap on the window next to her.
She looked up and saw the one person that she was hiding from.
"Izzie why don't you come out of there?" George said smoothly , so smoothly in fact it sent a shiver down her spine.
"I'll come out when I'm ready." she stated trying to stand her ground, shaking off the shiver. He doesn't want me so I'm going to not going to want him either…..except the fact that you want him so much that your heart aches every time you even just think about his name and all you want to do is grab him and kiss him until you both run out of breath…… technicality.
"Come on Bailey is on the war path looking for you and I'm sure on top of everything else you're going through you don't want Bailey riding your ass all day." George stated.
Some thing in Izzie finally just snapped. She opened the door and got right in his face. "Everything I'm going through? You mean everything you are putting me through?" she shouted at him and stared storming off to the hospital.
"What?" George chased after her grabbing her arm and turning her around to face him "What do you mean everything I'm putting you through?"
"How about bringing bourbon home and proceeding to drink most of it then having sex with me!" she shouted "Or how about you getting mad about the fact that I had with a date with Alex and insulting me right in front of him or what about having sex with me last night and then this morning treating me like I'm some kind of slut you just picked up at Joe's!"
"Hey you don't get to pin all of this on me! It takes two to tango! There where two people drinking that night and two people in that bed…BOTH TIMES! And I didn't hear you complaining! Nothing was happening against your will last night!" He shouted at her "And I did not treat you like some kind of slut I just picked up at Joe's!"
"Oh yeah right you were two seconds away from leaving a twenty dollar bill on my nightstand!" she yelled back. By this time they both were seeing red and couldn't hold back their anger anymore.
"Really twenty dollars!? You think I would spend that much money on you!?" He yelled. The next thing heard was the crack of Izzie's hand sweeping across his cheek at full force. The force of the smack was so strong George fell backwards onto the ground.
"You know what George you can go and fuck off because I want nothing to do with you ever again! Do understand me!?" She screamed down at him. George stood up quickly.
"That's fine because I want nothing to do with you either!" George yelled.
"GO TO HELL!" she screamed lastly at him and turned and stormed into the hospital.
"RIGHT BACK AT YOU!! George screamed after her.
After that George knew he was threw he was moving on and Izzie could fall off the face of the planet for all he cared. George raced through the hospital until he finally found who he was looking for. He marched right up to Callie and tapped her on her shoulder.
Callie turned around smiled "What's going..." she was cut off by George's lips crashing into hers. He put all his anger and hatred toward Izzie into that kiss. When they finally broke for air they both were out of breathe.
"Tonight sounds fantastic." he said flashing her the best smile he could muster up.
"Hey Meredith have you seen Alex?" Izzie practically shouted.
"Yeah his in the locker room." Izzie walked toward the locker room "Is everything alright?' Meredith shouted after her but she was into much of a rage to answer back.
Izzie stormed into the locker room and found Alex closing his locker. She marched right up to him.
"Hey what'd going on?" he asked and then Izzie slammed him against a locker and planted the most passionate kisses she could muster up. I HATE GEORGE O'MALLEY!!! HE CAN GO ROT IN HELL!! All the screaming in her head just fed the kiss.
After a minute or so they broke a part, Alex was kind of out it.
"What…..what was that?' he stuttered.
"That was a thank you for a great time last night and me wondering if we could do it again sometime?" Izzie asked trying to hold in her anger.
"Most defiantly." Alex said.
"Good." they stood there for a second. "You can go." she finally told him.
Alex rushed out and Izzie opened her locker and looked inside it for a second then slammed it shut again and she sat down on the bench trying to get herself under control. God I hate him! He is such a jackass! What in the world did I ever see in him?!! I hope he goes and jumps off a bridge!!…. You're really that pissed over him?….. YES!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!!!?? HE BASICALLY CALLED ME A HOOKER AND A CHEAP ONE AT THAT!!…. Ok then can I ask you one thing?…. WHAT?….
If you hate him so much then why is it that when you were kissing Alex you were thinking about him?