A Lost Love Chapter 11: His Songs, a twilight fanfic

Okay, well i didnt get as many reviews as i wanted but for the people that did review i thank you guys soo much. You have seriously kept me writing this, and thanks to you i havent given up on this. It would make my week if more people did review though...pretty please?(BTW. im giving you Alice's baby face through the computer. =P) but yes. some of you have been worried and asking me if this is still a Bella/Quil story, and YES it is. =) lol i know it seems Bella/Edward. but its not. i just have all the chapters written out in my head and i need to have these songs in here so i've been filling it with edward fluff that isnt going anywhere. but please enjoy, and pretty, pretty please. Review?

Disclaimer: Twilight characters belong to Stephanie Meyer, and Taylor's songs belong to her as well as Big Machine Records. I own nothing...sadly.

random fact: jump then fall(mentioned below) has been on repeat on my ipod for the past week and a half. it is my current song love. its my favorite. you should listen to it ;)

Bella POV

It was the middle of my second week at school and I couldn't believe that I was already so close with the Cullen family; especially Edward. I sighed at the thought of Edward, he was amazing, a god perhaps; but he wasn't mine. Sure, I could worship at his feet but Tanya would always be the one in his arms. Edward told me everything, how much he loved her and how he never thought he could feel that way about someone. It was painful beyond belief hearing about how he knew he was in love and how he didn't want to mess anything up with Tanya, he was his life.

The sound of the door opening broke me from my train of thought and I turned to see Alice walking through my front door. My father loved Alice, mostly because she was friendly and unbelievably charming. The Cullens had been over at my house every night and I was glad I had friends so close, of course that wasn't exactly the case for Tanya. I was trying my hardest to win her over, in hopes she would finally come to terms with the fact that I could never make Edward choose me. No matter what I tried to do or change about myself, and no matter what I told Edward he would always love Tanya. I just wish she would realize that too and stop being such a bitch.

"Bella! Come on, I thought you liked being early for school. You know so you can play your guitar and write awesome songs you're going to be singing to enormous crowds. Edward told me to come pick you up, because he isn't going to be in school today." She rolled her eyes and sat down beside me.

"Uhmm, W-Why isn't he going to be in school." Alice could tell I was worried; my stupid stutter gave that one away. She sighed and stood up again.

"The queen bitch decided they needed some couple time together so they are going on a little bit of a road trip. I think she said they were going to Vancouver or something. He was opposed to it but we both know she has him whipped." I nodded and looked down at the ground.

"Look Bella, everyone knows you like him except for him. The kids an idiot for not realizing that you are the one that's right for him. But don't worry Bella, one day he is going to realize that he belongs with you." She gave me a soft smile and put her hand on my back.

"I hope you're right Alice. Tanya is never going to love him the way I wish I could. Its so frustrating that he doesn't understand how perfect we would be together. I'll just have to wait though, for him to realize I will always be here for him, no matter what." I smiled and stood up with Alice. We walked out to her car and I was comforted by the speed she drove with; it reminded me of Edward. I closed my eyes and imagined it was him driving; this passenger seat had never looked so good. I could almost see him laughing at something I said, I always knew how to make him laugh and I was happy I could reach a part of him that no one else could.

I was suddenly awakened from my little fantasy by Alice when she yelled.

"Oooh, Bella we're here! Come on, I know you've been writing songs about Edward and I want to hear them!" She smiled at my face, I had gone completely red and my cheeks were burning. I shook my head and closed me eyes.

"Bella, please, please, please, please, pretty please." Her sound was pleading and I opened one eye. I regretted it right away because of the heartbreaking look on Alice's face. I was immediately reminded of Emmett's face when he would upset Rose and he would beg to be forgiven. I laughed and Alice gave me a breathtaking smile.

"Oh fine, you silly pixie." I opened the door and got out; holding my guitar in one hand.

"Yay! So uh, not tryna be nosy or anything… but how many songs did you write about him?" She looked at me with a playful smile and giggled.

"Pshht, you know. Ha, ha, not like an obsessive amount or anything. Pshht." I was acting totally suspicious and I turned away from Alice. I wasn't surprised when Alice spoke to me in a stern voice and raised on eyebrow.

"Really Bella, really? Tell me the truth." She continued giving me the look until I finally broke.

"Okay, more than a few. But he's just so amazing Alice. I have never met anyone like him before. I mean yeah there was Jake, but he hasn't called me since we broke up and I swear he hates me. Edward is just so, so….perfect." I was smiling like an idiot, and me and Alice both burst into laughter at my ridiculously huge crush on her brother.

"Okay, well if you have so many amazing songs about him, then let's hear 'em." She smiled widely and held the music room door open for me. We walked over to two chairs sitting side by side and I pulled a music stand so it was in front of me. I coughed and looked at Alice.

"Okay, they might sound a little strange. I used different names since I didn't want him to overhear and freak out. That could wreck everything, and I can't lose him." Alice nodded politely and I started strumming my guitar.

"Okay this one is called Hey Stephen." I bit my lip and started playing.

Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving
But I know I saw a light in you
And as we walked we were talking
I didn't say half the things I wanted to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy you might have me believing
I don't always have to be alone

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I've got some things to say to you
I've seen it all, so I thought
But I've never seen no body shine the way you do
The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same

They're dimming the street lights, you're perfect for me
Why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now so come on and come out
And pull me near and shine, shine, shine

Hey Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well they're beautiful
But would they write a song for you?
Haha

I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself
If you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself, myself
Can't help myself
I can't help myself

"Uhmm, Bella. WOW! That was amazing. Sing more!" I laughed and nodded. The look on Alice's face was priceless, she really loved my songs, and that made me extremely happy.

"Okay this is Stay Beautiful."

Cory's eyes are like a jungle
He smiles, it's like the radio
He whispers songs into my window
In words nobody knows
There's pretty girls on every corner
That watch him as he's walking home
Saying, does he know
Will you ever know

You're beautiful
Every little piece love, don't you know
You're really gonna be someone, ask anyone
When you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh but if it don't, stay beautiful

Cory finds another way to be
The highlight of my day
I'm taking pictures in my mind
So I can save them for a rainy day
It's hard to make conversation
When he's taking my breath away
I should say, hey by the way

If you and I are a story
That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I'll never get to hold, at least you'll know

"I already know you want to hear more Alice so I'll play Invisible next." I bit my lip and looked down.

She cant see the way your eyes light up when you smile
Shell never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you cant see me wantin you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

Theres a fire inside of you that cant help but shine through
Shes never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

And I just wanna show you
She dont even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
Like shadows in a faded light
Oh were Invisible
I just wanna look in your eyes and make you realize

I just wanna show you she dont even know you
Baby let me love you let me want you
You just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

She cant see the way your eyes light up when you smile

I looked up to see Alice almost in tears.

"Bella that is soo beautiful. Are there any more?" She looked up at me with hopeful eyes and I smiled.

"Well there are some more, I mean. Teardrops on my guitar, and Jump then Fall…and I'm working on others. You can take your pick of which I play last." I smiled at her and played around with my guitar while she weighed her options.

"Well, weighing the pros and cons I have decided that I want to hear Jump Then Fall. So it is said, so it shall be done." She used her manly voice for that last sentence and I burst out laughing.

"You are such a loser Alice, I love it." I shook my head and then pulled out my music. I started strumming and just lost myself in the music.

I like the way you sound in the morning
Were on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard
I like the way I cant keep my focus
I watch you talk, you didnt notice
I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together

Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, Ill shine for you

Woah Im feeling you baby
Dont be afraid to jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Baby, Im never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
Cause Im gonna stay through it all
So jump then fall

Well, I like the way your hair falls in your face
You got the keys to me, I love each freckle on your face
Ive never been so wrapped up, honey
I like the way youre everything Ive ever wanted
I had time to think it over
And all I can say is come closer
Take a deep breath and jump then fall into me

Cause every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, Ill shine for you

Woah Im feeling you baby
Dont be afraid to jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Baby, Im never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
Cause Im gonna stay through it all
So jump then fall

The bottoms gonna drop out from under our feet
Ill catch you, Ill catch you
When people say things that bring you to your knees
Ill catch you
The time is gonna come when youre so mad you could cry
But Ill hold you though the night until you smile

Woah I need you baby
Dont be afraid please jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Baby, Im never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
Cause Im gonna stay through it all
So jump then fall

Jump then fall, baby
Jump then fall into me
Into me

And every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, Ill shine
And every time youre here, baby Ill show you
Ill show you you can jump then fall
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Into me

"Wow, Bella. I am so proud to be able to say I am your friend. You are going to go so far with your music." She gave me a soft smile and she put her arm around me. We sat there for a couple seconds and she abruptly stood up.

"So, Bella…" I could tell she was hiding something by the way she kept looking at the floor.

"Yes Alice?" I was kind of nervous to hear what she was going to tell me, it was obviously not going to be good.

"Well what if I said that I kinda told Jessica Stanley that you would help out with the charity thing for the school."

"Well I guess it wouldn't hurt to play one song, yeah. I could do that."

"Haha, well uhh. You see Bella, you're kinda the main musical act. So its kind of like your first concert…." My mouth dropped to the floor and I was in shock. Alice gave me an apologetic smile and I couldn't breathe. Everyone would be there. My dad, the cullens, my classmates, everyone in town basically, maybe Jake, and Edward. He would hear everything, he would know who the songs were about….OH GOD.