Mikey's POV

I paced back and forth in my room. A million thoughts were racing in my head. I couldn't believe I broke up with Gerard; he always inspired me to be the best person I could be.

'I can't so this. I'm sorry.' I don't care if what we had lasted only four hours. I loved him and that's all that mattered. He was my whole life, and I just left him in the glass shards of my broken heart.

What's worse is that I could have had all I ever wanted, and I let him slip right through my fingers. Oh how sad. I know, right? It was too late for me to try to get both my big brother and true love back. Or was it?

I suddenly didn't give a shit. Who was I kidding? I still deeply loved him. I had to apologize to him for hurting his feelings and for being a complete douche to him. Now's the time I had to spill out my feelings; he has to know how I feel about him. I have to let him know how much I care for him.

But what do I say? 'Hey, Gerard, I'm sorry for being an asshole. Take me back?' HA! Yeah right.

I was still unsure of what I might let escape my lips, as I walked out of my room. I decided to just say what I felt. But that was going to be difficult considering all my emotions were mixed up…

I made my way down the hall, but I stopped to stare at a picture on the wall. It was a photo taken of me and Gerard as kids. We were both covered in mud. I smiled at the memory. I realized that if I messed this up, maybe Gerard and I would never be close like that anymore. That was the last thing I wanted.

I took a deep breath and gently opened the door. I expected to see Gerard pouring out his emotions at his desk. Instead I found him sleeping on his bed. He looked so sweet and innocent when he slept. The sun shone on his face, making him even more beautiful than I ever imagined possible. There were tear tracks on his cheeks. I also noticed tears on his drawing of me that rested beside him.

Had I caused this? I felt worse than I had this morning. All the more reason to cut. Then I remembered when Gee said he'd kill himself if I bled to death. I wanted to try and quit for him. I tried not to think about my blade. I remembered how he said he was so worried about me, that he really cared about me.

How much he cared…how could I have been so stupid? I walked over to his desk to see more of his drawings. Instead, I tripped and sent papers everywhere. Shit.

Gerard jumped up, startled. His eyes were wide with terror until he finally realized who was in his room. He smoothed his hair black hair back, as if he was trying to impress me, which I found insanely adorable.

"Oh, hey Mikey. Why are you here?" He voice cracked, like he was going to cry again. I really wanted to tell him how sorry I was, that I was sure of my feelings and that I would never make that mistake again.

I sat down beside him and stared at the floor. It was gonna be impossible to apologize to Gee with him looking so angelic. Why did I have to fall for him? I couldn't believe I was about to do this. I was so fucking nervous, but I had to face my fear; it was now or never.

"Gee, let me start out by saying I'm sorry." I gathered all of my courage and let my eyes get lost in his. I swear, if I could live anywhere in the world, I would choose to live in his eyes. So beautiful, the only other people in the world that could notice the purpose of the world in his eyes apart from me were the angels.

"Really?" Gerard was so dense. I couldn't believe that after all these years, he still didn't know when I was serious.

"Yes. I'm sorry I was a jerk, and I understand if you don't wanna try this again. Honestly, I'm crazy about you and I never wanted to hurt your feelings."

"You still love me?"

"I do. And I don't care if our 'relationship' lasted for four hours or not."

"Uh, I believe it lasted for an hour…" Gee blushed.

Wow, time slowed down. "An hour, or four hours, I still got to be with you. Gerard, I love you and I swear this is the last time I'll ever break your heart. I'm so sorry," My hands were shaking and I was breathless. "Can you forgive me?"

Gerard's face was full of uncertainty and confusion.

"You…love me?"

Oh my god, Gee was deaf. This was frustrating, and I was getting angry.

"Gerard! I do love you! How can you question me after four times of me telling you? I'll tell you again! I love the shit outta you. I will always love you. Gee I love your smile. I love your hazel eyes. I love your drawings. I love your singing voice. I love your voice! I love the way you break my heart. Gerard, when I say I love you, I don't say it out of habit. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me."

Tears sprang in my eyes because it hurt that Gee wouldn't hear me out. I guess it'd be hard for him to trust me after what I said. I could hear his thoughts echoing, 'Three cheers for sweet revenge'. I pushed the thought aside and leaned over to kiss Gerard's sweet lips, like I had done once before. Mmm paradise.

I pulled away, immediately regretting it. But something else was on my heart, and I wanted to share it with Gee. I said my words slowly, in case he didn't hear me.

"I love you."

"I love you too." He didn't stop to think about it.

I was confused. "What did you say?"

"I said I still love you. I want to try this again."

"Why?"

"Because. When you love something, let them go. If they come back, they're yours. If not, they never were. I want to try again, Mikey, because you came back."

I still couldn't believe it. "How could you want me back after what I did?"

Gerard snatched my arms and pulled me as close to him as he possibly could. "Don't make me change my mind, Mikes." He laughed.

I giggled, pushing my brother off of me and onto the bed. I fell beside him, smiling and knowing nothing could go wrong this time.