A/N: Alright, thanks for the reviews so far, love ya for doing that. Last chapter gave us a little heads up for this chapter. So here it is, Chapter 11!

I ran home immediately after I put together in my head. I was going to tell Riley everything. I knew what I felt was real. I walked up the steps and opened the door.

"Embry! Shut up! You're gonna make me wreck." Riley's voice filled my head and I smiled. I walked into the living room finding them playing Mario Kart on the Wii.

"Don't break anything." Emily laughed wiping off the counter.

"What she said." I laughed. All heads snapped to me and Riley winked at me. I looked down and if I could, I would blush. I walked into the kitchen with Emily.

"How'd it go?" They all knew about me seeing who was best. Even Riley and Edward.

"Good." Was all I said sitting on the counter.

"Good? As in..?" She questioned.

"I don't know." I shrugged and smiled.

"So, not good but, great?" She nudged my shoulder.

"No, not good, or great. Horrible." I sighed and shook my head in my hands.

"What happened?" She rubbed my shoulders. I could tell all the guys were listening so I don't have to repeat it. Riley is gonna be pissed.

"We talked." I whispered and she nodded.

"What else?" She poured something into her mug and stirred.

"He asked me to, um.." I didn't wanna say it.

"Asked you what, Bella?" She drank her hot tea and looked at me waiting for my answer.

"To, marry him." I closed my eyes and I heard a lot of gasps.

"What did you say?" Jacob asked. Great, now there all in it.

"I said..." Riley looked lethal. Ready to kill. Hot.

"You said, yes?" Paul yelled.

"No, I said NO, I yelled NO at him and he ran off angry." I tearlessly cried. The whole was quiet. Quiet except me crying. Without tears.

"No? I thought you love him?" Sam asked coming in kissing his wife on the cheek.

"I do. Just, I guess, love isn't enough anymore." I shrugged and hopped off the counter.

"Love isn't enough?" Embry smiled. I rolled my eyes.

"For him anyway. I mean, I can't trust him like I did before. I want him in my life, just not in a relationship. Maybe as a friend. Or like a brother. But not a boyfriend or possibly a husband. My heart belongs to someone already." I looked down and heard 'Aww's' fill the entire room.

"Me right?" Embry said confidently.

"Actually, yes. It is you." I smiled and put a piece of hair behind my ear.

"Well, I'm honored, but I was kidding." He blushed.

"I was too." I nodded and patted his shoulder.

"Aww, I wanted a vampire after me." He whined. Riley smiled and I smiled back.

"No, seriously, but, who is it?" Jared asked. I didn't even know he was here.

"I'll tell you guys later. Emily, can I talk to you, in private?"

"Sure, let's go." She took my hand we quietly walked to first beach. "So, what's up?"

"I'm honestly in love with two guys and have no idea what to do." I shook my head and sunk down on the bench.

"Bells, the only thing I can say is do what your heart tells you. If it says Edward, then Edward it is. But if it's Riley, then go for him. Don't hold back." I nodded and put my feet up on the bench.

"I just don't wanna hurt them." I whispered to her.

"You are hurting them by not choosing who you really love."

"Is there something that helps me pick better?" I asked annoyed. I just wanted help with this situation.

"Yes, get two peices of paper, write down there positive's and negative's and whoever has the most positive's, then that's who has your heart." She started walking back which was aprobably a good idea. I needed time to think.

So, here I am:

Edward is probably mad that I don't want him anymore. But the more I think about it, I love him just as much as Riley. We have a past, a complicated past but still a past. I couldn't shove that under the rug so easily. It's gonna take a while before I'm really over Edward. Even if I'm never over him, does that mean I can be with him again and trust him?

And where does that leave Riley? After that amazing kiss, I want him. I know we are best friends and that's gonna ruin something in the later future. Like if we get in a fight, that ruins our friendship. I hope he wants me to because if I ever admit I'm in love with him and he doesn't feel the same, that just ruins everything. Does he want me like I want him?

God as got to hate me. I mean, two people possibly in love with me and I'm in love with both of them. He couldn't just give both of them someone to love more than me so I can be free of the love blues?

"God, if you're listening. Please, just please, possibly make this easier for me. I would really love the help. Maybe just a little advice also." I called to the sky.

A/N: Sorry that this is shorter but I love you all for reviewing so far and I hope you keep reviewng til the story is over. And maybe if you are lucky, there will a sequal.