John sat on the way wondering what to say or do when he got back, it was a mess but he could see most of it was him with encouragement, only once was it not him in a close situation. He decided to not think and just go with the flow when he saw him, with the drink fading he knew he'd be calm. He got out the car and walked up to the door, it was opened and he stepped in, he felt funny being back but needed as quickly as possible to find Finch. He bounded upstairs and was greeted by Mrs P in the hallway dusting a unit
"hello Mr J, back so soon" she said not smiling
"yes"
"Mr H implied that you would never come back"
"well what can I say... I love him, faults and all"
"well good" she said and walked away down the hall.
John wondered what she had meant but carried on towards the bedroom, what had Finch said or done that implied he wouldn't return? Ever?
He got to the door, he could hear Finch was inside, sobbing, John rested his head on the door for a second then opened it
"oh.. God... No..." said Finch jumping up
John walked in towards him, Finch started walking backwards away from him
"John please.. I... Oh god... No"
John could hear him but had a much greater need for the lips, he saw Finch crash against the wall and John was quickly in front of him, he leant his left hand on the wall while the right went for Finch's cheek, the tears didn't suit him but Finch moved his face away and winced
"John... No.. Please.. I'm begging... Don't do it. I'm sorry I offended you but please..." and he started to sob
It hit John Finch thought he was going to hit him, he moved his hand to Finch's shoulder but he pulled away
"I'm not going to hurt you" he soothed, whispering
"aren't you?" said Finch moving a little to look at John
"no" whispered John and he moved in towards Finch again, he needed his lips
"then what are you doing?"
John could of laughed "its a funny concept I put my lips on yours and we kiss" he said wishing Finch would stop talking and let him kiss him
"but..."
John quickly caught Finch's lips with his, Finch responded but not how John expected him to, he knew to explain
"I saw Ed and I know, its forgotten now I just want to love you... So can I?" he didn't need permission but it posed his point better
"oh yes" and Finch grabbed him at the neck and pulled him into his lips.
The passion and feelings could of burnt John to the core, it meant so much, he didn't think he'd been kissed by anyone with such feeling,it blew his mind. He pulled back and rested his forehead on Finch's, then it hit him, he was changed he had just shied away for one moment which wasn't that important anyway. Then Finch moved and locked his lips with his again, running his hands along Johns chest John wanted it to be skin to skin but knew to wait. He felt Finch pushing him back and he went with him, making sure not to break kiss then his legs hit the bed, he stopped but Finch clearly had other ideas, he pulled from the kiss and pushed John causing him to fall on the bed. John wasn't sure what to do or say so stayed quiet waiting to see what Finch would do next, he didn't have to wait long Finch moved towards him and slowly knelt either side of Johns legs and eased himself on top of him then onto his lips. John was stunned, Finch was never like this with him, he never be on top, ever and here he was on top, pushing his tongue through.
John was amazed by the whole situation then Finch moved off of Johns lips and kissed his cheek
"you make me so aroused at times" he whispered then kissed down Johns neck.
He Could feel his arousal straining in his pants, but words failed John, especially when he felt his top go up and Finch's hand go onto his bare skin. He could easily of bowled him over and made love to him all night long, he felt it could go that way, he hoped it would. His aroused surged though him and took Finch's words and actions as a I need you so followed suit and eased Finch's top up at the back, he took a deep breath then gently put his hands on his bare skin. It felt amazing just to be feeling him again, for him to be so open and...
"umm... That's nice" moaned Finch
"it is but would be better if we were kissing" said John
Finch moved up and smiled "I could kiss you all day"
John smiled and Finch started to place gentle kisses on his lips, he could of cum there an then in his boxers, this was how he loved to be with someone he loved and it was so sensual. This was where he belong, laid out with Finch, loving, and caring for each other. John grabbed Finch at the neck and slammed his lips against his, it was rougher than he expected it to be but he didn't care, he needed Finch more than ever, the time apart had confirmed it to him he needed him, this moment was his moment with him to show how much he needed him.
He pulled back from the kiss "Harold" he whispered
"yes"
He cupped Finch's cheek "will you never, ever, leave my side again, I can't survive without you"
Finch smiled
"I mean it. I need you so much"
"then call this your home and move in with me, live with me. that way we will never be apart"
John was stunned by the reply "really?"
"yes really. I can't be without you either, as long as all this forgotten,I'd love you to live with me, here"
John could of cried, this was a huge step and was needed "then I will"
"but on days I will need time..." John felt the pause
"and so will I" he cupped his cheek "but we need to be open and honest with each other. No tuning back to the old ways"
"no I'm liking this improved me, and I want us to be happy"
John just smiled and pulled Finch back onto his lips.