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Erin

"You excited?" Jay asks me as we ride up in the elevator towards the maternity unit.

"About the baby yes? About having to experience Kat in a labor, that one's going to be a hard no," I respond with a slight laugh, only half joking.

My best friend has always been loud and she's never been afraid to let people know exactly what she's thinking and the pain will probably only accentuate that. If you couple that with her near hatred of Jay, you might say that I'm a little nervous. I'm hoping that she'll be civil, we do have an agreement after all, but I'm pretty sure pushing a large baby out of a very small holes is an acceptable reason for all that to go out the window.

"It'll be fine," He assures me, placing his hand on my shoulder and somehow knowing exactly what to say.

"I know," I tell him, the elevator bells dinging as we step out into the linoleum hallways, my heels clicking along the floor. "Hi," I say as I approach the front desk, "I'm here to see Katherine Walsh,"

"Room 463, take a right and just follow the signs," She tells me. "You can't miss it,"

"Thank you," I say, taking Jay's hand in mine and nodding at her before continuing down the hallway to see Kat. I'm not sure how far away we are, but I don't hear any screams yet so that has to be a good thing.

"You sure she's going to want to see me?" Jay asks, "She did slap me in the face last time,"

"Uh," I say as I bit down slightly on my bottom lip. "I'm sorry, I know that you came here with me, but do you mind heading to the waiting room? I'll come see you soon once I've cleared the premises and made sure that she won't kill you,"

"Not a problem babe," He says as he presses a kiss to my forehead. God what did I do to deserve him?

"Thank you," I say gratefully as I pull away.

"Just shoot me a text if you need anything," He tells me.

"Hello," I say as I knock on the door of room 463, the wooden door cool against my knuckles.

"Come in," I hear quietly from John.

"Hey," I say, stringing out the word as I walk in. To my surprise, I look over to see Kat very asleep in the bed. "Uh isn't she supposed to be like screaming in pain?" Based on John's phone call, I thought that this would be going very differently. Louder.

"She got the epidural like half an hour ago and then she was out like a light," He explains, a look of relief on his face. "I'm just going to hope that she sleeps for a while, the longer she sleeps, the longer she's not in any pain and that's good for everyone."

"Okay, I'm just going to text Jay, let him know that he can head home,"

"Jay's here?" He asks surprised. I'm sure that he knows the whole story, Kat isn't the best at keeping her mouth shut, especially with John.

"Yeah, we're out having drinks with some friends when you called and he kind of insisted on coming with me," I explain to him.

"Don't let him hurt you again," He tells me, a slight warning in his voice as he places a protective hand on my shoulder. John has always been protective of me. He grew up with four little sisters back in Vermont and after he moved out here, he didn't stop being that big brother. So when he married Kat, I guess I kind of took over that role for him. I don't mind though. It's kind of nice having him around and it fits my theme that my family doesn't have to be blood.

"He won't," I assure him. "You know what happened last time, he was only trying to protect me,"

"I know, but it still hurt you." He says, looking at me with those big brown eyes.

"It's okay John, I can handle myself," I tell him.

"I never doubted that Lindsay, but sometimes you just need a little back up,"

"I'll keep that in mind," I tell him.

"Anyway, you want to head out too? I don't think too much should be happening for a little while," He tells me as he returns to the chair in the corner of the room.

"I'm good here, if that girl wakes up and realizes that I'm not here, you will be raising that kid on your own because she will be behind bars after she kills me," I tell him with a slight grin.

"Okay," He says with a chuckle. "Well grab a spot, we're going to be here for a while,"

At 3:48 in the morning, after many hours of screaming, hard labor, and a whole lot of swearing, my best friend became a mom. He came out yelling, big blue eyes and a head full of flaming red hair.

John stepped out of the room a little while ago to make a few calls, let the grandparents know, so for now it's just me, Kat, and that little boy.

"So, I know you been keeping your lips sealed," I say as I stand next to her bedside, watching Kat stare into her baby boy's big blue eyes, "but now that he's here, you feel like letting your best friend in on his name?"

"His name is Noah," She tells me.

"That's good name," I tell her, "Noah Walsh. President Noah Walsh, Dr. Noah Walsh, Mr. Noah Walsh. It's a good name, you guys did good,"

"Noah Aaron Walsh," She tells me quietly. "That's his name,"

"What?" I ask, looking down at her with wide eyes.

"Er Bear, you are the most important woman in my life. You have been since the day you walked into the Allen dorms. I know that I didn't have a girl, so it's not perfect, but I want my child to have your name. Even if I have to spell it a little different,"

"Thank you," I tell her softly.

"Not necessary," She assures me, "He is your godson after all,"

"Really?" I ask as I look down at her.

"Duh," She says as I let out a laugh, "who else would it be?"

"Well now I've got two godchildren to spoil," I tell her with a smile.

"Yeah, I'm still a little pissed that Emily beat me to the punch on that one," There she is, there's the Kat that I know and l love. It's good to know that motherhood hasn't softened her yet. "You better get started on this baby making business because I've decided that our children will be best friends, so get on that,"

"Okay sounds good," I tell her, hiding the stab of pain that I feel in my heart.

"You want to hold your godson?" She asks.

"In a minute, I've had to pee for like the last three hours, so I'm going to pop out for a second, then I'll be right back," I assure her.

"Okay," She responds, "I love you,"

"I love you too," I say behind me as I walk back into the hallway, walking back towards the nurses station. I find the bathroom quickly, but I get lost on the way back and end up wandering in circles through the hallways. Goddamn the identical hallways and confusing arrows.

"Jay?" I say in surprise as I spot him sitting in the waiting room. I thought he went home hours ago. I told him to go home hours ago. It's Saturday now, but I still didn't expect him to be here.

"Hey," He says sleepily, his voice hoarse.

"What are you doing here?" I ask as I rush over to join him.

"All in right?" He says as he tosses an arm around my shoulder.

"You don't have to prove that to me," I insist, "I get it,"

"I just, I don't know, I think I still feel guilty about what happened all those years ago," He admits to me.

"Don't," I tell him, laying a hand on his chest. "You have made up for it and so much more,"

"Erin I'm going to be trying to make that up for you for the rest of our lives," I don't say anything, but that doesn't fly by my. I didn't miss it. He said the rest of our lives.

"You don't have to do that," I say. But knowing that we aren't going to get anywhere, I change the subject. "Kat had her baby, they're both doing great and he's freaking adorable, red hair,"

"What's his name?" He asks, his eyes sparkling.

"Noah," I say with a smile. "He looks like Kat, bright red hair,"

"Oh Lord," He says with a groan, "hopefully he won't learn to argue like his mom or they're going to be in for a lot of trouble,"

"You want to go see her?" I say, "I don't think she could even be mad at you right now," I say with a bit of a laugh.

"Eventually, but I just want to sit here with you for a little while," He says as he pulls me in close to him. "Have you ever thought about what our kids would look like?" I feel my breath catch in my breath. I have thought about it, I've thought about it so many times. But not since the day of the accident.

"Jay I have to tell you something," I say nervously. I've thought about telling him so many times, but it never really seemed like I needed to. Until now.

"What you're not pregnant are you?" He says with a laugh. I don't say anything for a moment. "Wait you're not actually pregnant are you?"

"No," I say gently, "it's kind of the opposite actually,"

"What's going on?" He asks, looking at me with those big blue eyes.

"Jay I can't have kids," I finally tell him. God I've wanted to tell him that for so long, but I've been so scared. Since we met, I've known that Jay's wanted kids. He's never been shy about that. I was also apprehensive about the subject, but by the time that we broke up, I was on board and I was ready.

"What?" He asks, those three wrinkles appearing on his forehead as he tries to process.

"I can't have kids," I repeat.

"What do you mean?" He asks, looking down at me.

"When I was 24, I got into a car accident. It was bad, I was in the hospital for a couple weeks and there was a lot of internal damage. There was a lot of abdominal bleeding and I had more surgeries that I can count, that created a lot of scar tissue, so I can't kids anymore," I choke out. It's something that I've struggled with since it happened. He was the one who made me want to have kids, after him I didn't even know if I wanted them. But suddenly, I didn't get to make that choice anymore. It was made for me, stolen by someone who decided to get behind the wheel after drinking.

"Erin," He says slowly as tears begin to run down my cheeks.

"I'm so sorry," I sob quietly as I bury my face in his chest.

"No, no, no," He says as he runs his fingers through my hair. "It is not your fault and it's not an problem,"

"Yes it is," I say as I slowly remove my face. "You have wanted kids for as long as I've known you, I can't be the one to take that away from you,"

"Just because we can't have biological kids, doesn't mean we can't have kids. There are so many other ways to do it," He assures me.

"But it won't be the same," I say quietly. "They won't have your eyes or my dimples, they'll never be able to say that they have their father's smile or their mother's nose,"

"Erin listen to me, who is your mom?" He asks me.

"Bunny, we don't talk about her, you know that," I say, not really understanding his point.

"No, Bunny gave birth to you, who is your mom? Who raised you? Who helped to make you the incredible person that you are today?" He asks again, more force in his voice this time.

"Camille Voight," I say as I try to pull myself together. "Camille Voight is my mom,"

"Did she give birth to you?" He asks.

"No," I say quietly.

"So there you go, no it won't be the same, but maybe it'll be so much better." He says before pressing a kiss to my forehead.

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure that that is not something that I'm willing to lose you over," He promises me. "I told you I was all in, you're going to have to try harder than that to get rid of my Lindsay,"

"Thank you,"

"You're my girl, thanks isn't needed. Now can we go see that baby?"

"Of course, c'mon,"

Jay

When Erin told me that she had something to tell me, that was about the last possible thing I thought she was going to say. She's not wrong, of course it's going to change things and it did throw me for a bit of a loop if I'm being honest. But it won't change anything between the two of us.

Having kids of my own was always in the plan for me, but I'd rather have Erin. Plus it's not like we won't have kids, but it might just take a little more effort than it usually would.

I'd be lying to you if I said it didn't hurt just a little bit when I saw John and Kat in there with Noah, just happy. It looks so easy. But I'm not willing to lose Erin over something like this. I'm not willing to lose her over anything, not again.

Besides, we're moving forward and I refuse to allow us to move backwards.

Living together has been a bit of an adjustment. We did do it in college for a year, but that was also with Kat and Alex and we were also 21 and 23. Things have definitely changed since then, a lot. It's not like crazy adjustments, just little things. Like she likes her coffee mugs arranged in a certain way and I like to roll down the toothpaste tube, while she prefers to just squeeze it until it runs out.

But it works and things are good, really good. I just hope I don't screw it up.

So I have a very busy weekend and I will try my very hardest to get another chapter up, but I make no promises, so the next chapter for this will probably be up either Saturday sometime or Monday night as I will not have my laptop at all on Sunday.

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Addie