Chapter 11
She calls him up
She's tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain't comin home now
He's tryin' to forget her
That's how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together
Good Charlotte, I Don't Wanna be in Love
~EPOV~
I hated life. It had been nearly a month since Bella left. I was tired of the disappointment of not seeing her at school. I was tired of laying in my room wallowing in my own pain. I've had enough.
It was a Friday night when I left for Seattle. Nobody saw me leave, they were too wrapped up in their other halves. Alice and Jasper, Emmet and Rosalie, Carlisle and Esme. I was sick of their love being flaunted in my face.
Seattle was the closest big city, and I was in need of some alone time. I planned on going to a club with my fake ID and getting drunk. I would get a hotel room, because I was just that responsible. Not really, but if I got pulled over, their would be hell to pay.
After a couple hours, I was in Seattle and it was about 10 PM. I drove around the downtown until I found a promising-looking club. The sign said After-Party Dance and Bar. I parked my car and walked in.
~BPOV~
I literally never left the house. Except for when my hunger became unbearable, and my eyes were as dark as midnight in Forks. I never stopped thinking about Edward. I couldn't find thrill in anything, even hunting, anymore. If vampires couldn't go insane, this was as close as they could get. I felt like a lunatic at night, staring at the moon, rocking back and forth until the sun came up. When the sun came up, I stared at it and rocked back and forth until it went down.
It was like that for nearly a month, until one Friday, Kate commanded me to go home. She sounded like a drill sergeant in boot camp. "BELLA! YOU GET UP AND GO TO FORKS!" Kate yelled.
"I can't hurt him," I barely whispered. It felt unusual to talk, I hadn't said a word in at least a week.
"Bella, you're killing yourself. You wouldn't hurt him. I can see it in your eyes when you talk about him. He is your world, so how could you destroy him?" asked Kate more gently.
"It's not something I can control," I murmured.
Kate wasn't having that. She pulled me up by my wrist, and dragged me to my car. I didn't even try to resist. She plopped me into the passenger seat and for some reason, unbeknownst to me; Tanya climbed in the back. Kate got in the driver's seat.
"Bella, we're going to a club! In Seattle! And you can't pull your little drama queen stunt anymore, because we're done feeling sorry for you. Don't even try to argue," said Tanya. Oh how I hated her.
The club was called After Party. It would be fun if Edward could've been with me, and if Tanya wasn't here. Heck, going to school was even enjoyable with Edward. I wished he could be here with me, but what were the chances of that? I looked at the clock. It was 10:03 PM.
~EPOV~
Maybe forgetting Bella wouldn't be as hard as I thought. A minute after I sat down at the bar, I saw someone. She was about 5'8", with long strawberry-blond hair. She had full read lips and a hot body. Even with all that, she still wasn't as beautiful as Bella.
I tried to push Bella out of my thoughts, but I couldn't do that. The blond girl walked up to me and smiled. She didn't smile at anyone else, just me. I was a little shocked. First Bella, now this girl?
She was just about two feet in front of me, and I could hardly breath.
"What's your name?" asked the girl.
"Edward Cullen," I answered smoothly.
"I'm Tanya."
I looked into her eyes. They were the same exact color as Bella's, and I couldn't stop staring. I leaned into Tanya, forgetting about everything, wishing she were Bella.
"Come dance with me," said Tanya.
I just followed her, and found myself missing Bella. I realized that maybe just staring into a match of her eyes would be all I would get of her. I unconsciously leaned in closer to Tanya while we were dancing. She took it the wrong way and kissed me.
The shock of the kiss surprised me, and I kissed her back. Then it felt wrong, horribly wrong. It felt like I was cheating on Bella. We never even kissed, and we sure as heck weren't going out, but it felt wrong. I leaned back abruptly, surprising Tanya.
"What's the matter?" she asked.
"I...I'm sorry," I answered. I just turned away and started walking. Then I saw her. Bella, with her face frozen in disgust and shock. She saw me kissing Tanya.
I stopped, and Bella and I just stared at each other. The she ran to the bathroom.
~BPOV~
I had been dancing with Kate, actually enjoying the outing, and excited to see Edward again in Forks. I saw Tanya across the club, dancing with a man. He was familiar, even though I couldn't see his face. I stopped dancing and stared at Edward. My heart would've been beating as fast as a hummingbird's wings.
Then my heart would've stopped. Edward and Tanya were kissing. Not just kissing, almost making out. I just stared in horror. Edward pulled away from her, and she looked hurt. Tanya was such a player. She wasn't even the slightest bit hurt.
Edward started walking away, and then stared straight at me. I stared in disgust and shock, wanting everything that happened tonight to be a dream. He was staring at me with almost...a sort of longing. What a fake.
I ran at a fast human speed to the lady's room. I felt like I would throw up, if vampires could. I felt like crying too. I ran into a stall and started gagging, but nothing would come up. I was crying and choking when Kate found me. Even if my heart wasn't alive, it had just broke right then.