Edward was in so much pain, he couldn't take it anymore. He wanted the pain to go. Disappear and never return.

Then he was numb, he couldn't feel a thing, he had his thoughts and nothing else. Like he was just a brain.

And there was the light, bright and painful, he wondered if this was death, or heaven? But surely he would be in hell? For what he was and all...

His eyes open, having the weight of led, but he manages it, "Edward?" A voice croaked, beside him was Esme, pale and tired looking, exhausted.

"Esme." He whispered back, feeling a lump in his throat, he wasn't dead. He wasn't in hell. He was in heaven, with the Cullens. "You found me."

She smiles, tears leaking from her eyes, "No, not me, you had a rescue party." she pauses to think for a moment, "Seth, Leah, Bella, Alice and Jacob found you, well Seth and Jacob did. They called us and then we all helped you."

"And-and my parents?"

"Gone, and they are never going to hurt you again." She said in such an angry, determined voice it made me never want to doubt her. But then she shakes her head, taking his hand, "But don't worry about that, focus on getting better."

Time went slowly in hospital, yet quickly at the same time. It was about 2 weeks after he woke up he was allowed to have any visitors other than Esme or Carlisle, Alice was there as soon as she was allowed crushing him in hugs. Maybe not the best thing as he wasn't in the best condition. But he didn't care, it was his sister, and he hugged her back with all his strength.

The week after that he was discharged, but not completely, Carlisle was in charge of his treatment at home. So Carlisle and Esme stayed home with him while everyone got him school work while they went to school, which turned out to be a lot. But it was nice to be doing something normal! So he did it without complaint.

But there was always something wrong...Jacob.

He hadn't seen him and it hurt. It turned out everyone knew about the wolves now, and knew about the imprint, so where was he? Why hadn't he come?

"Edward?" Carlisle asks him from the door to his room, "I need to ask you something."

"Ok."

Carlisle came in and sat on his bed, looking nervous, "Do you like it here?"

"Yes."

He smiles, a small one, "Are you happy?"

"The happiest."

Another smile, "What would you say to...Esme and I...adopting you?"

"What?" Edward asks in shock.

"We have been wondering for a while, if you would like we could adopt you, be our son. Don't say anything yet but we are planning the same with everyone else."

"You'd want me to be your son?"

"Of course."

"But I'm a faggot, I'm a disgusting-"

"You are not those things, you are an incredible young man who stole our hearts the moment we saw you walk through the door. You aren't possensed, disgusting or a faggot. You are just a regular person with an amazing heart." He smiled then, though he was crying too, "Don't ever say those things about yourself again, it will never be true."

"But why would you want me as a son? I can see why with Em and Jazz, but me?" He whispers, crying slightly.

"Because we love you, Edward. We love all of you. Your are our son regardless, we just thought it would be nice for it to be official."

"I love you too." Carlsile looked completely shocked, wide eyed. "I have for ages, you and Esme are the parents I've never had. I kept catching myself call you mom or dad, but I stopped myself."

"Why would you stop yourself?"

"Incase you didn't want me, were ashamed of me like they were!" he says crying fully now, tears streaming down his cheeks.

"Edward..." Carlsile reaches across, hugging him close, "We would never think that..." He rubs his back. "Ever. Now would you like it?"

"I'd love it, but I don't want their name."

"Well then, soon to be Edward Cullen, lets go tell everyone else shall we?" Carlsile asks and he nods, so Carlsile helps him up from the bed and down stairs to the lounge, Esme was there basically hovering, she looks at Carlsile with so much hope in her eyes Edward was happy he had accepted as him not doing so would have crushed her.

Carlisle nods with a smile and Esme hugs Edward tightly before sitting him on the sofa, and he couldn't help but grin at his new parents. His mom and dad.

He hears everyone else come in and he was certain they would accept too, his brothers and sisters.

He smiled, a truly happy smile, and everything sad or painful disappeared.

But then Jacob walked in, and it was like ripping open a massive scab over his heart.

Jacob went obediently with Alice, who had basically dragged him into her car when he came to talk to her. "Alice, I don't want to go!"

"Well screw you Jacob Black, do you know what a state Edward is in right now? And the supposed guy who loves him is no where to be seen?"

"I know he's not well Alice!"

"How do you know? You haven't seen him since he was half dead at the beach!" She all but screams at him. He flinches at the images of Edward, covered in his own blood. It made him want to be sick. "You actually have no good reason for not going!"

"I know."

"So I am fixing it, you will come over and speak to him and make both of you happy again!"

He remains silent and allows the pixie to drag him into the car, basically tie him up in the back, then skip around the car and gets into the drivers seat. Crazy Alice...

When they get to the house she lets him out but still drags him up the steps ahead of everyone else, everyone smiling at them as they passed. Couldn't she see he didn't want to be here? He only went to her school for an update on how he was doing! He didn't want a visit!

She drags him into the lounge but freezes,"Edward? What are you doing downstairs?"

"Carlisle brought me down, have you guys redecorated?" He mutters but I could hear his pain, I look at him now, he was pale and thin, with bags under his eyes and looked newly sad. Like someone had ripped his happiness from him moments ago.

"Jacob? I didn't know you were coming!" Esme said with a smile, though she seemed annoyed.

"Yeah we wanted to play fetch!" Emmett said in a laugh, Jacob glares at him.

"Alice dragged me here, it wasn't planned."

Then Edward wasn't in the room.

Edward runs from the room, Jacob didn't want to see him? He didn't want him! He felt himself shatter, and it hurt, wasn't Jacob supposed to want him? Isn't that what the imprint meant? Forever protected and wanted?

He gets into his room that looked more like a hospital room now and locked the door, backing away from it like it was a monster from a horror movie. He gets on his bed and curls up, resting his head on his knees he sobs, they rip through him.

Couldn't he be happy for a single moment? Why did it always get taken away?

"Edward, are you ok!" Alice yells from the other side.

"Go away!" He yells back, curling up tighter. The tears falling faster, before from joy, now from pain.

He closes his eyes and hopes for sleep, hopes for escape, anywhere. Come on! He hummed a melody, drumming his fingers on his lips simulating the keys, and tries to lose himself in the fake music. Tries to remember what it actually sounded like on the piano.

"Edward." He closes his eyes tighter, until it hurt, humming louder. Block them out, block it all out!

A hand was on his arm now, he felt a shock run through him and heat spread through him. Was this why he had always been cold? He raises his head to see a pair of brown ones staring back, "I'm sorry, I didn't think you'd want me to visit, so I didn't. I went to see Alice to see if you were ok, then she dragged me here."

"Why wouldn't I want-" he freezes remembering the last thing he had said in the hospital so long ago. "I was angry that day."

"I know, but I didn't want to upset you by coming over, so I didn't."

"But I wanted you to."

Silence.

"I never want you to go." Edward mutters. Jacob just stared. "I love you..."

"I love you too Edward." he whispers, he sits in front of him cross legged,and leans forward to kiss his cheek. "I will love you forever, I'm yours. I'll follow you around like a lost puppy."

He smiles and laughs slightly, "Should I get some pet supplies then?"

"You'll need a hell of a big dog bed for me."

"How about mine?"

He smiles but shakes his head, "I don't think Carlisle and Esme would be happy with that."

"They're my parents."

"I know, but a werewolf sleeping in your house?" Jacob mutters, "Wait. Parents?"

He nods, "They're adopting me Jake, I'm going to be a Cullen! They were going to ask everyone else too...I don't know if they are now."

"So you won't leave?"

"No, I'm Forks bound forever."

He then sees Jacob cry, tears leak from his eyes and he smiles, looking at Edward with big happy eyes he kisses him properly. "Congrats."

There was a knock on the door, interrupting him from kissing him more, "Come in!" He yells, then Alice is there, tears in her eyes, "You ok Alice?"

She nods happily, "Just wanted to say hi brother."

He slides from the bed and goes to the door, crushing Alice in a hug, "Hey sis."

She just sobs.