Hey guys... I know I said I'd be finishing this before summer ends... Woops... Ehm. Anyway! I have two stories waiting to be written down so I'll finish this as soon as I can. I can't promise you that I'll be updating often but I will promise you that I'll finish this before starting the others.
I've never experienced such a bad case of writer's block before but now I'm cured! I typed this at like 2 AM in the morning (which I have recently discovered is the time where my creativity really flows). I was having some trouble with the endings because it was confusing and it made no sense at all. Then it hit me last night(really early this morning) and I'm excited! It fit perfectly and... Yeah.
Honestly, I'm scared of posting this. I swear, I don't know what happened. It just went this way and that and then went the other way then turned left and... I don't know how to feel about this, or if I'm conveying the emotions I want to be felt right... Argh. I decided that this will be like a test chapter. I'll wait for 5 reviews and if the positive reviews outweight the negative ones then I'll keep this. But if it's the other way around, I'm ripping this chapter away and rewriting the whole goddamn thing.
Since I'm eager to know how you guys think about it... Read away! - Runs and hides -
"I can't believe he did that!"
Sarah laughed with Daniel as he walked her to the front porch.
"None of us could either! He took the joke more seriously than we thought he did," Daniel said as he leaned on the railing and composed himself from the story he was telling her.
"Still! Jumping into a pool filled with ice during winter… That's crazy!" She wrapped her jacket tighter around her as the cool wind gently brushed them. Daniel silently nodded with a smile, gazing at her illuminated form under the porch light.
"Thank you for tonight, by the way. I know it was sudden that I invited you to dinner but I'm glad you agreed." Sarah smiled up at him and fiddled with the zipper of her jacket.
"It's no problem. It's been awhile since I went out with a friend, so it's kind of refreshing from my boring life."
Boring?
'Yeah. What's it to ya?'
So you consider Jareth in your life boring?! Her mind replied as she grew still.
'Jareth… Jareth is different.' Her mind snorted at her.
Different? Different how?
'He's special. He can't be considered normal in the first place, him being a magical creature and all that,' she answered her mind and mentally asked her to shut up.
Oh so when something ordinary comes along, you spring up and completely leave behind the life you practically begged for when you were younger? Sarah frowned. She didn't like how her mind was speaking to her. She didn't like how it acted like it had a mind of its own. It made her feel like an intruder was occupying the brain that she was supposed to be there instead.
'Oh shut up. You don't understand. I was a mere child with her mind filled up with fairytales. I didn't know any better.'
Oh look at you, sounding so mature. I guess that's what you are now huh? Mature?
'Yes,' she hissed. 'That's what growing up means.'
Growing up doesn't mean you have to completely leave behind your childhood! Especially the one man whose eyes dazzle you in your dreams!
'How – never mind. Forget it. You won't understand it if you keep clinging to these childish nonsense!'
Oh look at you now. Sounding like Karen did 3 years ago. That only made Sarah angrier.
'Look. You're ruining a perfect night! Why don't you go back to wherever you are when you aren't busy chastising me?'
Your night isn't the only one who's ruined.
"Sarah?"
Woman, you really need to get your life out of this shithole you keep digging before you find yourself buried in it.
"… Sarah?"
"Ah!" Sarah quickly composed herself and pushed aside the last comment her mind said. The feeling of forgetting something came back to her again for the twelfth time this evening. Everytime she was about to grasp it, Daniel would bring her back and it would slip out of her reach. "I'm sorry. What did you say?"
"Are you okay? You seemed like you were spacing out a moment ago…"
"No no. Just… thinking to myself. Don't worry about it," She smiled in response to his raised eyebrow.
"Are you sure you don't need to go to a hospital or something? I mean, I did see about a hundred emotions cross your face in a span of 2 minutes." She lightly punched him on the shoulder and stuck out her tongue. Daniel laughed.
"Maybe you shouldn't be so boring that I need to seek refuge in La-la land," she teased him. "Or maybe you really should be checked in, preferably in a mental ward." She scoffed and made a beeline for the door.
"Sarah! Wait, I was only kidding!" He caught her by the arm and spun her around to face him. She was currently failing at hiding her grin as she refused to meet his eyes. Daniel smirked and forced her to look at him.
"That's better… I like seeing your face, even if they can't contain one emotion at a time." Sarah blushed as he tucked a few strands of her hair behind her ear. The wind slowly danced around them as he moved closer. Daniel smiled down at her and caressed her cheek.
"I'm really glad you were free tonight."
Psh, Free? Really? Sarah ignored her mind again and smiled up at him.
"Well if I didn't, I wouldn't have gotten free dinner."
"Is that the only reason why you accept my invitations to hang out? Free food?"
"Maybe…" They grinned.
"No wonder you're getting fat." Sarah's eyes widened and punched him on the chest. "You are so rude!"
Daniel winced and rubbed his arm. "Maybe I shouldn't tease you anymore tonight… Who knows if I'll be able to leave this porch alive."
"I'm sorry!" Sarah started to fret around him when he laughed and held her hands to stop them. "I was only teasing," he winked. She gave a huff, but couldn't resist smiling. Daniel stared at her with kind eyes and circled his thumb on her palm. He let go of one hand and touched caressed her cheek with a finger.
"Seriously though. Thank you for going out with me tonight," he whispered and she noticed that he leaned closer just a bit. A gust of wind made her shiver and he pulled her closer to him. Excitement filled her, yet a feeling of dread crept through her nerves. Her heart beat faster when Daniel started to lean closer. Sarah closed her eyes as anticipation filled her.
They jumped apart when the door opened, revealing Karen with a small frown on her face. "What a cold evening! Shouldn't you be getting inside, Sarah?"
Both teenagers looked down. Daniel coughed and rubbed the back of his neck. "uh… I think I should go, Sarah. It IS getting late and I don't know if it's going to get colder so… Good night." He shuffled his feet, looking undecided. Making up his mind, he gave a slight nod at Karen's direction. "Good Night Mrs. Williams, Good Night Sarah." He got in his car and drove off.
"What a charming young man…" Karen tilted her head and looked at Sarah. She blushed, looked anywhere but her, went inside and head straight for the kitchen. Her mother followed her. She sat down on the stool as Sarah leaned on the counter, drinking a glass of water.
"You were out kind of late tonight," Karen started as she glanced at the wall clock that read 11:41 PM. "It never bothered you before," Sarah replied.
Karen sighed. "I know I can trust you, Sarah. I just can't help feel like…"
"Like what?"
"Like you're about to make a huge mistake." Sarah sighed and rolled her eyes. 'Not you too, mom. I can't help feel like you and my mind are in cahoots with each other.'
"Call it a mother's intuition but… Why do I feel like you're confused?"
"Confused? What are you talking about? I'm not confused about anything." Karen tucked a stray hair behind her ear and sighed.
"Is that boy really the one you're interested in?" Sarah choked as she stared at her mom. "Of course I'm interested in him. Why are you even asking that?"
"It's just that you don't react the same way with him."
Sarah tilted her head at her mother. "Same… way?" Her heart skipped a beat.
"You have a totally different reaction between Daniel and someone else."
"Someone else? There's no one else!" Sarah started to become defensive. Karen was observant, she'll give her that.
"I'm your mother Sarah. You can tell me anything. I've dealt with boys before. I was a teenager once too, you know… And I know what heartbreak feels like, especially from someone you really care about."
Sarah looked down at her glass. Karen continued on. "I don't completely understand what's going on but you're going to end up hurting one of them, if not both."
"It's nothing," she mumbled. "It's just… It's complicated. I'm just protecting myself from getting hurt."
"And you think he won't get hurt too?"
"Trust me… Nothing hurts him. He doesn't have a weakness."
"All men have a weakness, especially when they're in love." Sarah turned her back on Karen. "He's hurt me before. Who's to say he won't hurt me again?"
"And you're just this amazing force that doesn't hurt anyone, even unintentionally?"
"I'm not hurting him."
"That's what you think." Silence filled the air between them. Sarah could feel Karen's gaze on her as she stared at her glass. "I just feel like one day he'll get tired of me and just… walk away," she whispered. Karen stood up, walked towards Sarah and placed a hand on her shoulder.
"Talk to him. You might be surprised at how much he honestly feels about you. Fix it before it breaks completely." She smiled at her mother and hugged her.
"I'm going to bed." Karen kissed Sarah's forehead and nodded.
"Alright. Good Night."
"Night." Sarah headed for her room. "Think about what I said!" Karen sighed as Sarah just waved her hand and disappeared up the stairs. She stared at the direction her daughter went for a few minutes and sighed.
"You don't know how cruel you can be Sarah, even if it's unintentional and unconscious."
Sarah sighed as she opened the lamp by her desk. The talk she had with Karen gave her the feeling of forgetting something for the thirteenth time that night. It left as quickly as it came, but was quickly replaced by a feeling of dread. She couldn't put a finger on it no matter what she did. Feeling the tiredness catch up to her, she went straight to her bathroom and brushed her teeth. She went back to her room and sat on her vanity.
Sarah put down her brush and looked at her reflection. The light coming from the lamp grew a bit brighter and she stood up in shock as she finally noticed the figure sitting by her windowsill.
"Jareth! You scared me!" She turned to face him and smiled at him. Her smile quickly disappeared as she saw the state he was in. He was holding a crystal in his hand as he looked up at the moon. His face was expressionless, she noticed. It didn't escape her attention the way he was slouching and how it was like someone drained the life from his hair. She got worried.
"Jareth..? Is everything all right?" Jareth didn't respond and this worried her even more. She moved beside him and placed her hand on his arm. "Are you tired again? You know you're free to sleep here."
He slowly looked at the hand that was on his arm. From her hand, his eyes followed the path up her arm, to her shoulder, rested on the pendant he gave her and finally landed on her eyes. What she saw there shocked her. His eyes were void of any emotions. Jareth offered her the crystal orb.
Curious, Sarah took the orb and watched as an image of a beautiful gazebo by a stream filled with floating water lilies and lotuses appeared. She opened her mouth in awe. "This is beautiful Jareth." He only stared at her and waited. The image turned to the middle where there was a bunch of pillows arranged to form a circle, replicas of Jareth's Crystals floated gently around. She saw a glimpse of a wine bottle in an ice bucket and suddenly gasped. The thing she forgot was finally in her grasp.
"Oh my God… Jareth… I am so sorry!" Jareth looked away and back up the moon. "You forgot," he whispered.
Sarah covered her mouth with her hand. "Jareth I truly am sorry!" She moved to touch his shoulder but he stood up and walked towards her bed. She couldn't help but feel rejected.
"I would have forgiven you, you know… About the forgetting thing," he whispered, his back towards her. "I would understand if something important came up." He traced the edge of her bedside table. "I got worried about you when you didn't come. I thought you got involved in an accident or something," he humorlessly laughed. Sarah swallowed deeply, nervous about where Jareth was going with this.
"Naturally, I looked for you with my crystal… You could imagine how foolish I felt when I saw where you actually were… and who you were with." Sarah instantly knew who he was talking about. He didn't even need to say his name. They understood perfectly well. She willed him to look at her but he didn't.
"I'm sorry Jareth. Daniel and I had a project to finish for class and it was the only time he was available," she reasoned out.
"I don't think dinner was a part of your project."
"No… It wasn't. He invited me for dinner and I couldn't say no." Jareth snapped and turned to look at her, his anger rising.
"Damn it Sarah! Stop it! Stop being unable to deny him what he wants!" He shouted at her. She was taken aback by his sudden outburst but quickly composed herself.
"He's my friend Jareth. You know I would do anything for my friends," she said calmly.
"Am I not considered to be your friend, Sarah?!" He couldn't keep the pain in his voice as he said this. Sarah looked at Jareth with sad eyes. "Of course you are! Why are you even doubting that?!"
"Because it seems like he's more important than I am." Sarah's jaw dropped at the accusation.
"I am not! You're both important to me, Jareth. He's a close friend of mine and I didn't –"
"You don't want to lose him? Is that it?" He finished for her. "It seems like he really isn't your friend if he can be lost that easily." He crossed his arms over his chest and glared at the wall.
"It's not that. I just wanted to please him, to make him happy. Please Jareth, understand. You know I can't say no to my friends when they need me."
Jareth scoffed. "Then I guess you were just lying when you said that I'm your friend too? Because whatever I do, it's easy for you to say no." Sarah stared at him in shock.
"What is this really about Jareth? Why are you making it out like I don't give a rat's ass about you?"
"Well Sarah, with the way you've been acting lately, it seems like you'd rather spend time with a plain human boy who radiates lust whenever you're around than with someone you've known longer."
Sarah glared at him. "My every moment can't be spent revolving around your world, Jareth! I have my own life too, you know!"
"I'm not asking for much, Sarah," he said exasperatingly. "I'm only asking for a little of your time, love." He stepped towards her and cupped her face with her hands, his eyes begging her to understand. Sarah stepped away and stared angrily at him.
"Oh yes, because you ask for so little," she mocked. Jareth took a deep breath and sighed. He rubbed his face tiredly.
"Are we back to this old argument? I'm not perfect, Sarah. I can only handle so much. Try to understand me the way I try to understand you."
"What? Is a little mortal girl too much for the great Goblin King to handle?!" She sneered. She crossed her arms on her chest.
"I never implied that you are incomprehensible."
"Then why are you acting like a spoiled brat? Like it would be a huge disaster if I don't spend time with you?" Jareth didn't answer and turned away from her again. Sadness radiated from him but she couldn't understand why. She sighed and touched his back. "What is it? What's really bothering you, Jareth?"
He took a deep breath and slightly turned his head to look at her. "You really want to know what's really bothering me? Fine. I'll tell you." He turned around to face her, his eyes filled with sadness. Sarah placed her hand on his cheek. He gripped her hand tight and leaned on it.
"I'm tired, Sarah," he whispered. "I'm very tired. Each time I see you with HIM, I get this pain in my chest and it hurts. I can't help feeling that that should be ME." Sarah caressed his cheek with her thumb as she saw the turmoil in his eyes.
"I'm truly sorry Jareth… I know you were excited about tonight. I was too, honestly! It just slipped my mind…" Jareth closed his eyes, took a deep breathe to lessen the pain and walked away from Sarah again.
"I keep wondering what's so great about him that pulls your attention away from me. What makes him more important than I am?" Sarah's eyes widened as her anger came rushing back.
"You? Why is this always about you, Jareth?! I don't understand! Why are you so affected by Daniel?!"
"Because I'm jealous, Sarah!" He shouted at her as he clenched his hands. He looked at her with fierce eyes and his breathing deepened. "I'm jealous! Are you happy now?! I'm jealous because everytime you're with him, I can't help feel that he's taking you away from me!"
"What? I do-" He couldn't take it anymore. He pushed her against the wall and pressed his mouth on hers. Sarah's eyes widened as he roughly kiss her. He placed an arm around her waist, the other on the wall by her head and pulled her close to him as possible. He pushed his tongue inside her mouth and she clenched her eyes shut. She tried to push him away but he only pressed himself harder on her, pinning her hands on her side. He continued his assault on her mouth as tears started falling from her eyes.
Jareth released his hold over her mouth and held her chin. She didn't understand what was happening. She knew her Jareth wouldn't force himself on her like that. They were breathing heavily. She stared at his eyes with hate but was only shocked with what she saw. Red was swirling at the edge of his eyes. She froze at the sudden coldness she felt coming from him.
"You're MINE, Sarah. I protect what's mine. My kind, the Fae, are very possessive and they lay claim on what's theirs." He whispered coldly. Sarah clenched her teeth and slapped him. Hard.
Jareth stared at the side, shock and disgust filling him as he realized what he had just done. He stepped back and looked at her horrified, the red disappearing from his eyes.
"Sarah… I… I'm sorry…" She wiped her mouth harshly and glared at him. He was shaking as he cupped her face, wiping the tears from her eyes. "I'm so sorry…" he said brokenly. She pushed him with all her strength, his legs hitting the edge of the bed causing him to fall on it.
"I. Am. Not. Yours. Jareth," she enunciated each word with hate. "You can't decide what I can or cannot do."
He looked at her, sadness filling his eyes once more. "I know that," he whispered. He looked down at his hand. "And you know what makes it worse? I have the power to change your mind. The thing is, I will never forgive myself if even the thought of manipulating you to forget about that bastard crosses my mind."
"Please Sarah… There's only so much a man can take," he begged her. He reached forward and caressed her face. She only stared at him with wide eyes as different thoughts enter her mind.
"You seem so different around him."
What proof do you have that he was only really distracting you?
"I would rather spend the rest of my nights with you than sleep, Precious."
"I wanted you to have a piece of me, wherever you go."
And I'll be there for you, as the World Falls Down
"Will you always wear it?"
"… If even the thought of manipulating you to forget about that bastard…"
Sarah gasped and stepped back. Everything clicking into place as the realization hit her.
"You…."
"Sarah…? Are you alright?" He stood up and slowly walked towards her.
"Don't! Don't you dare come closer!" He froze and continued to stare at Sarah. She was bowing her head, her hands clasp together at her chest. She started shaking and tears started to fall once again.
"I get it now…" She whispered.
"Get what now? Sarah… Please look at me." She shook her head and clenched her teeth.
"I understand why…. Why I've been feeling like this… Why I've been so confused and messed up." Jareth tilted his head slightly, confusion evident on his face. He held his hands up as he slowly walked towards her.
"Sarah, love, I don't underst-"
"Don't you dare move any closer!" She shouted at him. He stood still again, watching Sarah.
"Just like the peach…"
"I'm sorry…?"
"Ever since you gave me this necklace… Ever since then, I've been feeling messed up, confused even." She cradled the necklace in her hand as Jareth's eyes widened in understanding and panic.
"Sarah, no. That's not why I gave it to you!"
"I'm right… Aren't I? You… You spelled this necklace so that you could get close to me… So that… You could take advantage of me, didn't you?!" She gripped the necklace harder and screamed at him. Jareth felt like someone punched him in the gut.
"No wonder… No wonder you kissed me and I allowed it. No wonder I couldn't fight back. I'm so messed up. I'm so messed up because of YOU!" Jareth stopped breathing as she accused him. He swallowed and stared at her speechless.
"There's a limit, isn't there? That's why you're so persistent to be with me all the time. So that the spell could totally take over me and have me… have me fall in love with you," she bowed her head again as she cried harder. Jareth couldn't speak, couldn't move.
"Are you alright with that?! Are you alright knowing that my feelings for you isn't even real?! You would be, wouldn't you…? As long as you get your way… You're a sick bastard, you know that?"
"No! Sarah I never spelled that necklace! I would never manipulate you!" He reasoned out.
"Really? Isn't this similar to the peach dream? Hmm?! Who says you can't do it again!" Jareth rushed towards her and gripped her arms, his eyes wild. He had to make her understand before… Before…
"No Sarah! Never! I would never trick you like that! What you feel are your own emotions!" Everything was turning against him. What happened to the peace between them? What made her think that he would even do that? He placed his arms around her and held her close. He shook as she deliberately pushed him away.
"Get away from me! GET AWAY FROM ME! To think that I actually… I…"
"Sarah no! Please listen to me! I would never –" She pushed him away hard and glared at him. His heart stopped as she looked at him with pure hatred.
"I wonder how many times you've done this to other girls… Make them fall for you. And then what? You move on to another girl when you get tired of them?!" Jareth clenched his hands and tried to calm himself.
"My kind aren't like that Sarah. When we fall in love, we fall in love once and it's forever! We would do ANYTHING for the person we love, even if it costs us our happiness! We would never force the person we love to do anything they don't want to!" Time was running out and he couldn't have her hate him. Not now. Desperation clawed at Jareth as he kneeled before her and placed his arms around her waist.
"Sarah listen, I beg you! I love you! Only you! I have been in love with you ever since you started my Labyrinth! I would never, in my entire life, dream of drugging you or manipulating you to love me! Please!" He pushed his face in her stomach and held her close. She stood still. The fact that he was kneeling in front of her shocked her. The Goblin King kneeled for no one.
He quickly stood up, cupped her face and stared deep into her eyes. "Understand Sarah. I love you! I love you with everything I have. With the millions of women out there, it is YOU I want. It is YOU who I will ever dream of. I will never hurt or break whatever is precious to me." He placed his forehead on hers. He prayed, prayed to anyone out there that she would forget this foolish accusations.
"I came to you because I wanted to be with you, in whatever way you'll have me. I'm sorry I let my feelings for you rule me. I'm sorry. I promise you I won't interfere with your life anymore. Just… Please… Let me be in it. Don't push me away. It hurts… It hurts when I'm not with you, but I'll forget. I promise I'll push aside everything I feel for you and give you your freedom. Just please…" His voice was tormenting to hear. He sounded like he was crying. Sarah shook her head. She couldn't let his act fool her. She had to protect herself from him, from giving her the power to break her.
"You're such a good actor and a liar."
Jareth froze. He slowly looked at her. She started laughing. She was laughing at how amazing he was, at how good he was at making people believe that he actually cared. Jareth slowly stepped back, his heart in her vice-like grip. He told her the truth. Now his heart was in her hand, and she could do whatever she wanted with it - including breaking it into nothing.
Her tears had already stopped falling and she glared at him. "What do you want me to say? 'Oh Jareth. I believe you. I'm so sorry I ever doubted you. I love you. I love you too. Take me away to your kingdom and we'll live happily ever after'? Hah! What a joke."
She had thrust a dagger at his heart, leaving him immobile and staring at her with unbelieving eyes. He couldn't accept what he was hearing. What had he done to mess up so badly?
"Get out," She spat at him. He didn't move.
"I said Get out."
"No." Jareth stared straight at her eyes, determined to give it one last shot.
"What?"
"I said no. I'm tired of bending to your will, Sarah. I'm not your slave. I'm fighting for what I want this time. This time you won't get what you want on a silver platter. I'll make you see the truth." Her anger heightened and she clenched her hands.
"Now I'm the bad guy here?" She snorted. "Please Jareth. Don't you see? You will always be the villain. You proved that to me. I thought you were playing the villain for my sake during my run in your labyrinth but…. You proved me wrong. Not only are you the villain in your kingdom, but you're a villain in my life as well."
"I know what I saw in you Sarah. I've been with you these past few years. I know you care. Stop this foolishness… Please." She laughed at him.
"You think I'd actually fall in love with you? You're charming, handsome, witty and powerful, I'll admit. But let me tell you this..." She gripped the necklace with one hand. "I would never fall in love with a heartless monster like you."
Time slowed down. She pulled at the necklace until the chain broke and threw it at his feet. He felt… Nothing. He stared at the necklace on the floor… His gift to her that she threw right back at his face… His heart that she bruised, broke, cut and crushed to nothingness.
"You have no power over me, Goblin King."
It was just like their final meeting in the Escher room. She said the same words, he felt the same pain. Except this time, there was nothing else to feel. She was glaring at him with all her heart. She watched his face, waiting to see his façade break. But it didn't. There was nothing but sadness and loneliness in his eyes. He didn't move, didn't speak. He just stood there, staring at the necklace. His eyes were unfocused, like he wasn't even there anymore.
He slowly bent down and gingerly picked the necklace up. He cradled it like it was the most fragile thing in the world. He caressed his finger on the crack that appeared on the crystal. He was shaking, but it didn't matter if she saw or not. Why would she care? She hated him. She hated him. She felt absolutely nothing but disgust towards him. And he needed to accept that.
Closing his fingers over the necklace, he turned around and headed towards the window. He couldn't let her see how much she had broken him. "I knew you could be cruel… Sarah," he whispered as a single tear fell down from his eye, hidden from her view. He took a deep breath before continuing. "But I never thought you'd be this cruel."
Sarah was shaking. She was about to break down, and she knew it. She felt overwhelmed with everything that just happened. She stared at his back, torn between running towards him, holding him close and completely turning away from him. She was shaken by what he told her.
"This is Goodbye then, Sarah. I promise you that our paths will never cross again," he whispered. "I'll make sure of that…" And with that, he disappeared.
Sarah collapsed. She hugged her knees and sobbed.
Are you happy now?
'Please… Go away.'
I warned you.
'Just… Leave me alone!' She hugged herself closer, realizing everything she just said and regretting them instantly.
She stayed that way for the rest of the night, crying and wishing. Wishing that she could take back everything she said. Wishing she could erase the pain she has caused, erase the pain from his face.
She stayed like this till her parents found her in the same position, exhausted, eyes red from crying. What the girl didn't know was somewhere within the Goblin Kingdom, surrounded by broken walls, crystal shards strewn everywhere and dead plants, was a man with once-lively blonde hair who hid himself deep within what little comfort his Labyrinth could give him, hugging his leg as one stretched out before him, cradling a broken necklace close to what was barely his heart, with one blue one brown unfocused eyes, going deeper and deeper into a painful and lonely dream that he someday might not wake up from.
- starts to sob and grovel - I'm sorry! I honestly don't know why it turned out this way ;^; . Maybe because I'm out of practice or I just can't get my words right. I'm really sorry!
Please Review and tell me what you think or else I feel like I'm just gonna break down if you guys don't...
~ Dreamers see the Future
Lys-Rayn