"She stares at you unable to realize why you won't tell her. She realizes you no longer love or need her. She cries at first for the lost but she slowly realizes she's crying because she knows she'll be okay with out you." – Natalie

Sorry, I couldn't get this chapter out Friday, I was having internet problems.

Chapter Eleven

Things had mellowed out. It was very quiet in Forks, which seemed weird to me. Jacob and I haven't had much time to hang out lately because of the pack. He stays busy. And I hung out with Edward and his family almost everyday. Things were getting weird. There's always something happening in Forks.

I was sitting around the Cullen's house while we watched some sports game.

"Bella…" Edward started. He pulled me from my thoughts.

"Hmm?" I asked.

"We're going up to Alaska for awhile to see Tanya and her family… because she left rather suddenly once you'd gotten better." Edward said. I didn't even realize she'd left I wonder if it was because of me.

"Alright… how long exactly?" I asked. Edward shrugged.

"Um, a week or two… but if you're not comfortable with that, then… I'll stay back with you." Edward said. I thought about it for a long minute. Having Edward all to myself would be nice but I could tell even through his façade he wanted to see them.

"No, go, they're your family." I said.

"Thank you Bella." He smiled.

"When are you leaving?" I asked. I looked for a clock and it was almost ten.

"Whenever you fell asleep." He muttered. I smiled.

"Edward… why don't you run me home quickly?" I asked. He nodded we headed out to his car. The ride was quiet. I was thinking about Jacob. I was worried I hadn't seen him around lately and with the wedding coming closer I wanted him to be there.

"Bella?" Edward asked quietly.

"Yes?" I asked.

"What are you thinking about?" He asked. He hadn't asked me this for years.

"About the wedding." I asked. It was mostly honest because I was thinking about the wedding and some of its guests.

"Are you nervous?" He asked.

"No, I'm anxious for it to come. I'm nervous for how it's going to go… or that I'll trip. I'm scared because I'm afraid something's going to happened and mess it up. And I'm worried about some of the guests on the list not showing up… or that my mom and Phil won't be able to get out here because of the weather or something like that…" I admitted.

"Bella, don't worry about that. Alice has seen many visions about the wedding and they've all turned out very well. I promise, nothing will happen." He whispered. We were sitting outside my house. I looked over at him.

"I love you Edward." I smiled.

"You're my life now." He said it so simply it startled me. He leaned down and kissed me.

"See you soon." I whispered. I was sad he was leaving but I knew I'd be okay. I got out and headed inside. He waited until I had the door closed and he zoomed off. I headed upstairs and went to bed. The next few weeks would be long if Jacob wasn't talking to me.

The next few days I couldn't get Jake to take any of my calls so finally after five days of being avoided I got into my truck and raced down there. I was driving faster than I should have and my truck was groaning every time I stepped on the gas. I parked my truck and raced up to his door. I rang the bell and no answer. I slowly open the door.

"Billy? Jacob?" I called. No one answered. This was weird. I closed the door and walked in. No one was in the living room, or the kitchen. I got to the narrow hallway and there was and light coming from Jake's room. I slowly snaked my way to his door. I peeked through the crack and saw two people kissing on his bed. I knew it was him but I couldn't see who it was with. She rolled over and I saw. I let out a sharp breath. They both froze. I quickly turned from the door wishing I hadn't seen that. Mostly because it was weird but it made me a little jealous. I stumbled getting out of the way by which that time I felt a hot hand grab my arm.

"Bella, what are you doing here?" He growled I flinched as he spoke. He dropped my arm and I stumbled backwards.

"I'm sorry…" I stammered. "You weren't returning m-my calls-s…" I whispered with big eyes.

"Bella!" Jake growled. He looked so mad. I just ran out of his house. My hands kept shaking as I was trying to get the key in the door. He came out by my truck.

"Bella, where are you going?" he asked. I was trying to hold in my tears but I couldn't. They spilled down my face. I looked down.

"I'm going home." My voice was thick. I got the truck door opened. I hopped in and started to car and sped off. I cried the whole drive home. I think I was crying at first for how scary Jacob was but I realized that I was crying for the fact that I didn't have him anymore. He wasn't my brother, he wasn't my friend… he wasn't with me anymore. He didn't want anything to do with me.

I got home and raced into the house and made it to the sofa; were I clasped and cried. Jacob no longer needed me as his friend or sister. I was completely useless. Charlie was on a fishing trip with Billy and Mr. Clearwater. So I was alone. I finally cried myself to sleep.

I woke later that morning with red, puffy eyes. I slowly headed upstairs to get cleaned up. I took a long shower trying to get the horrible day off me. I got dressed and walked down stairs. I heard the TV on. I slowly made my way into the living room.

"What are you doing here?" I growled.

"I came to make sure you were alright."

"I don't need you looking out for me." I snapped.

"Relax Bella, I don't bite."

"What do you want?" I asked. I was still hurt.

"Why'd you come over last night?"

"Jacob, I told you, I just wanted to know why you weren't answering any of my calls. I was getting worried." I told him.

"Bella, I told you we couldn't be friends anymore." He said. his voice was pained.

"Jacob, I don't understand why!" I shouted.

"Because Bella, he's going to change you over. Maybe not right now, but it will happen and I'd rather see you dead than see you as a bloodsucker!" He shouted. He was standing up now.

"LEAVE!" I shook the house as I shouted. "JACOB BLACK YOU WILL NOT COME INTO MY HOUSE AND TELL ME YOU'D RATHER SEE ME DEAD THAN WITH EDWARD!" I yelled.

"You will not tell me you want me dead." I kept whispering over and over again. The words were skinning. He started to come near me.

"No! Just leave me alone!" I cried.

"Bella…" Jake started.

"Please, just get out." I begged.

"Bella." He looked like he was in pain now.

"Jacob, you want me dead fine whatever, but I won't have you around to…" He cut me off he came over and kissed me. At first I was trying to push him away but then I realized, I didn't want him to go away. I wanted him. Our lips moved together. His warm hands slid down my back. I tangled my hands in his hair. His hands rested at my waist.

I now realized that I did not want Jacob to leave, I wanted him to come closer. I wanted there to be no space between us. I wanted him now.

I'd like to thank Zombie's Run This Town for the idea for this chapter.

Bands I recommend:

Blue Foundation

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