"W-What's wrong Em?"

JJ's heart was thumping wildly her mind sent into overdrive, meanwhile Emily was sat opposite her in the exact same position.
She knew that was a mistake, but as soon as JJ offered to kiss her, there was no way she was going to say no. After all she had been imagining this same scenario for months now, but something deep inside Emily thought that this was wrong. She was taking advantage of the vulnerable, upset woman. There's no way this could be right.

"Emily, you've been telling me for days that it's okay to open up and talk when something bothers you- please do the same with me" JJ pleaded the panic inside her eating her alive with every second Emily remained silent

Why would she say yes if she didn't want me to kiss her? But of course she didn't, you're a mess. She probably feels used- there was a reason for waiting until things had calmed down a little! Christ. Way to go, fuck up the last stable relationship in your life.

"Jay, that probably wasn't a good idea.. I-I don't know what that was but I'm not able to handle just being a fling for you, and you just got out of an abusive relationship. You should be focusing on you" Emily blurted, and it was clear that her words, despite their truth hurt JJ

"Sweetheart, do you really think you'd ever be a fling to me?" the blonde interlocked their fingers, and a small spark of hope lit inside her when Emily allowed herself to smile slightly "Em, I've had these feelings for you for months now, but I've done everything I could to push them away.. which I definitely should still be doing now because I'd be a wreck in a relationship right now"
JJ paused and took a deep breath, allowing herself to stop rambling and make her point "I care about you a lot Emily, and you said I should focus on me, by doing this I am- whenever I'm with you I feel like the real me again, I feel safe and happy. Please, if you feel the same and if you want something between us- give this a chance"

Emily was conflicted.
The last thing she wanted was to take advantage of JJ or rush this, because that'd end up in disaster for them, but on the other hand the blonde was sat opposite her, pleading with her to give them a chance, which was exactly what she'd wanted to hear.

"Jay, I need you to be sure about this" Emily hated how selfish she sounded, but she wasn't going to risk their friendship, and her heart so easily

"I'm sure Emily. I know how I feel about you" she confirmed, and Emily obviously believed her, because after a brief pause they shared another kiss.
This kiss was even slower than their previous one, but still full of feeling, and JJ hoped that it took away any doubts Emily had about them doing this together. Once they broke apart, JJ saw the smile she had expected to see from Emily the first time, and the relief flooded through her
"I really love doing that"

The blonde smirked a little, despite the blush crossing her cheeks "me too Em"

Emily moved herself closer to JJ, allowing her to cuddle against her and after a couple of minutes sitting in a comfortable silence, the situation brought itself to the front of Emily's mind again.
"Hey, would you mind if I asked something?"

JJ looked up and met Emily's eyes "of course, what's up?"

"Would you be comfortable talking about what happened today?" Emily wanted JJ to open up about both the talk with Aaron and their situation in the hallway so she was careful not to specify a particular topic

It took JJ a minute, but eventually she began her explanation

"Aaron wanted to know why I didn't ask for help, and why I lied to him about needing help a little while ago.. he was pretty upset that I wasn't comfortable coming to him or any of the team about it, I felt guilty" she recounted, the tears coming back to her eyes at the thought "I wish I had said something sooner, but I just wasn't comfortable Emily"

Emily nodded and ran her hand over JJ's thigh hoping to offer some comfort "It's okay Jayje, it took some time, but you got out of there that's all that matters now"

"I guess.." she didn't sound very confident but that was expected, that would come with time, when she got stronger and more comfortable with herself and the situation she was in "..and then with you, when I came out, I grabbed you. It was too rough, it made me feel like Will" Emily wasn't surprised at JJ's admission, she'd thought that was what had happened, but that didn't mean that the words didn't bother Emily. She hated that the younger woman felt like that, because of him.

"JJ, you're nothing like him. You didn't kick me, or beat me- you hardly even grabbed me, you just wanted to go- you aren't an abuser. And I'm not at all concerned about you ever becoming one, you aren't like that. You're soft, and caring, and sweet- not at all abusive" her words were kind but did little to reassure JJ, who still appreciated them despite that

"Emily, what am I going to do about Will?"
If she was honest this whole situation was playing on her mind a lot lately, she wanted to close the book, put it behind her, and that wouldn't happen if she kept sitting here pretending that everything was okay

"That's your decision Jayje, do you have any idea on what you want to do?"

JJ shook her head, reluctant to admit to the older woman that she wanted to avoid the legalities. You saw how she was, she'll want proper revenge, she wont support a little sit down and talk with your abuser
"You know I'm a profiler, right Jayje, I can kinda tell when you're lying- that and you suck at it" Emily teased, playfully winking, which made the blonde smile softly

"Okay, please don't be mad, but I don't really want to go down the legal route" she admitted and was surprised, but ecstatic when Emily pressed a small kiss to her forehead
"Jay, you don't need to ask me not to be mad, this is your decision, all I care about is your safety. I can certainly understand you avoiding the legal side of things, and if that's what you want, I support you fully"

JJ sensed the dark-haired woman had cut herself short "...but?"

"But for your safety I'd advise a restraining order- even a temporary order. He needs some kind of reason to stay away from you, but as I said JJ, this is up to you, if that's not what you want that's okay too"

Maybe that's not the worst idea, I should really consider that. "Okay Em, I'll think about it, thank you for talking about this with me" she curled even closer against the older woman and adored the scent that surrounded her, she loved how things had worked out for her and Emily.
If only we could stay like this forever.