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I'm sorry for mistakes I did in this chapter…

CHAPTER 10

THREE HOUERS LATER! AROUND 12:30 ARE

REN:

Ren woke up, because he was thirsty. He comes out from the bed to look for the water. His head was aching as well. Then he looked around to find out that this is not his apartment. He looked at the bed and he saw orange hair. "I know only one person with this color of hair! God I beg you, please don't tell me that this is the person I think it is!" He come back and took a glance at a person, who was sleeping in the bed. When he saw who it is, he got on his knees and hide face in his hands. He stifled his voice. But inside he was screaming: "GOD! WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT HAVE WE DONE? SHE WILL HATE ME! HA! IF ONLY HATE ME, SHE WILL DESAPTE ME! SHE WILL THINK THAT I'M EVEN WORSE THEN SHO! AND SHE WILL BE RIGHT! SHE WILL THINK THAT I USED THE ACT AND DID… THIS WITH HER! CALM DOWN! Think what to do! Gad it's too late for thinking and for calming already!" He has to drink something so he stood up with the air of a martyr. He felt like if he won't do anything then he will break… "She is going to leave me… alone… what will I do? … I can't lose her. I have only her. God, if you really exist, then please don't let her leave me!" He was so lost in thoughts that he didn't pay attention at what he is taking… So he just took the bottle from the table, in which was whisky. But he couldn't stop thinking about her hating him or leaving him. He started drinking and didn't mind when he realized that this is whisky. More, he didn't care about this. He thought that this is even better. The memory of previous night slowly started coming back. "She tasted so good… and how she felt… I wish it wasn't just an act…" He sat in a corner in the room, where he had a nice view on her in the bed. To him she looked like a goddess. "She is so beautiful." He started making plans how to keep her for himself. (AUTOR NOTE: They weren't good… well he got a little drunk right… I know what you think AGAIN… but it won't be that bad I hope so…)

1. I can steel act and pretend like nothing happened… she will think that I'm even bigger jerk then Sho, so no this one is out… but she thinks about me as professional so…

2. I can run away and leave her here… Yhm after that I'm sure she will love me. The first one is better, then this!

3. I can kidnap her and run to some island and close her in some room so she won't be able to escape and she will be only mine… Well I like this one the most but I don't think that she will like this one like I do.

4. I can pretend like I don't care and… I'm an idiot. How can I do that? It was her first time and I will say: "Hi! How did you sleep will you make me a breakfast?" I'm sure she will like that. I would act like Sho would!

5. I can tell her how I fill about her and that I will take responsibility for everything that happened. I'm sure she wanted to lose her virginity after the weeding and I'm sure not like that… while acting and with drunken man… beside I think she was drunk as well… God she will think that I really used her! But it's better to say the truth then lay! I will tell her whole truth! And I don't think that she will run away from me. After all we are in Hawaii, if I remember correctly. Okay I just have to practice before she will wake up!

PRACTICE:

Ren stood up and sat on a sofa so he had his back on bed.

"Okay… how should I start talking with her…" – "Great now I'm talking to myself… no it's just practice!" – "I love you!" – "Sure, if I just burst like that she won't run away screaming! Get a grip of yourself!" – "I'm sorry… I didn't men to do THIS with you… it's just that I… I what? I just wanted to feel you, I wanted to taste you… you were so gorgeous and beautiful that I couldn't resist! I can't just say something like that! Maybe I should start from telling her about my past? … No first I should start from telling her how I feel!" – He didn't realize that Kyoko started waking up. – "I'm sorry… I love you! It was a mistake… I shouldn't sleep with … I mean I love you… I don't want you to leave me… I want to spend the rest of my life with you… I loved you for more than 2 years already what I want to ask is will you forgive me? I know that I don't deserve you! … To me you are a goddess; while I'm mere human… you are like an angle to me, who I shouldn't touch. I was afraid that I will break you. I'm really sorry! I didn't want to end like this… in bed… I mean –"– Before he could end anything he saw Kyoko in his shirt taking whisky from his hand and started drinking it. "Did she hear that?"

KYOKO:

She started waking up with a pain in her head and a thirst in her throat. She heard some voice.

"I love you! It was a mistake… I shouldn't sleep with … I mean I love you… I don't want you to leave me… "– "its Ren voice… wait what is he saying?" – I want to spend the rest of my life with you… I loved you for more than 2 years already what I want to ask is will you forgive me?" – "God! What have I done? He will never forgive me! I was so selfish! I was just thinking about myself and didn't think about him! And… he has a girl who he loves… I'm sure they were together… He said that to Bo, how could I forget about something like that?" – "I know that I don't deserve you! … To me you are a goddess, while I'm mere human… - "I need a drink! I have to apologize and leave… can I really do that? Can I just leave like that?" She stood up from the bed and wore his shirt – "you are like an angle to me, who I shouldn't touch. I was afraid that I will break you! I'm really sorry! I didn't want to end like this… in bed… I mean – "– "God he really loves her! I'm sorry, but it steel hurt! Was I really that bad? Was it really so unpleasant? So it was only me who liked it! I'm shush an idiot!" With all what he said she forgot about little pain in her stomach. Kyoko took whisky from his hand and started drinking it. "Yesterday it tasted much better… screw it! I don't care!"

"I'm going to take a shower and then I will leave…" – She said it really quite, and she wasn't even sure if he heard her. She was scared that if she will say it louder she starts screaming and it will end really badly. When she turned and started walking to the bathroom he caught his wrist.

"Wait!" – She jumped a little and turned around. - "We need to talk." – "He looks ashamed. What should I do? Its mine fault I know that! It was me who seduced him… who wanted THIS… but steel I wish he acted different after what we did… STOP! If you won't you will start crying and he will feel guiltier!"

"About what?" – "I don't want to say more, but I have to!" – "It was just a game that's all… I think that it's draw… you really are the best actor in Japan after all." – "Good it should be alright. He will think that it means nothing to me and he can be with that girl who he loves so much… *PAIN* … STOP! Stupid heart!" She looked at his face and smiled. After that she took her eyes off of his face.

"You… really mean it?" – She wasn't looking at his face anymore.

"Yes I –" – She looked at his face and saw pain. "Did I hurt him? But how? The one who should show pain is me not you!" She cough up and said again. – "If you want to be winner I don't ca – " – She couldn't end because he didn't let her.

"KYOKO!" – He shout at her. – "Do you really mean it?" – He said it with pain in his voice. She started getting mad. "How dear he shout at me! It should be me not him shouting. Of course not! Are you an idiot or what?"

"YES! WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY WAS NOTHING TO ME! JUST GO TO THAT GIRL AND PRETEND THAT IT WAS NOTHING! BESIDE I WON'T SEE YOU EVER AGAIN! RIGHT? IF YOU WANT I WILL STOP WORKING IN LOVE ME!" – She was mad and started shouting at him. "Whatever, just say him everything… after all you won't see him ever again right?" Tears started getting out from her eyes. She saw that Ren was so in shock that he didn't say anything. – "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU? I HAD A GRAET TIME YESTERDAY? OR THAT I WANT YOU TO FUCK ME MORE? BECOUSE WHAT WE DID YESTERDAY WASN'T LOVEMAKING! IT WAS FUCKING THAT'S ALL! BECOUSE IF ONLY ONE PERSON FEEL SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT THIS IS LOVEMAKING RIGHT?" – Now she was furious and whisky got to her head. – "AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M NOT SORRY! I HAD A GREAT TIME AND I DON'T REGRET SEDUCING YOU OR PROPOSING THAT GAME!" – She looked in his eyes and got closer to him. She could see shock in his eyes and something else but she couldn't really say what it was. She calmed down a little bit. – "And do you know why I don't regret it?" – He was so in shock that he didn't say anything or move. – "Because it felt great, I loved it." – She got even closer to him. She was just inches from him. Just one more move and she could kiss him. – "And yes I want you to fuck me more…" – Now she was looking in his eyes… she wasn't crying anymore… she didn't want to show him her weakness. "He has a girl that he likes! THAT'S WHY YOU SHOULD STOP IT KYOKO!" – "But well I don't think that I was the person that you wanted to be with at that moment…" – She turned around and went into bathroom. She didn't close the door; she just started purring water and unbuttoning shirt which she was wearing. "I want more of his touch. I will let him decide what he wants to do!" She turned her head and said. – "If you want you can join me." – "What am I saying! Whatever it's too late already so why should I care? If he wants then I don't care! But I'm sure he doesn't want… he is not like Sho… Hahahaha… And it's not like I want him to be like Sho! Because he is so different from him. That's the reason I love him so much!"

REN:

When she stopped drinking she said something but he didn't hear it. But when she turned around and wanted to go somewhere he stopped her by catching her wrist.

"Wait!" – She jumped and turned around but he didn't care that he startled her. – "We need to talk." – "What is it? Does she think that I let her go before we talk? What we did yesterday was nothing to her? Maybe she is really mad at me?"

"About what?" – "Is she serious?" He looked at her with disbelieve. – "It was just a game that's all… I think that it's draw… you really are the best actor in Japan after all." - *PAIN* "She doesn't mean it right? There is no way that this was nothing for her! Maybe she didn't hear what I was saying? I should say it now…"

"You… really mean it?" – "Look at me!" He wanted to shout this but he was afraid of what he would see. "It hurts to even think that she was thinking of what they did yesterday only as a game!"

"Yes I – "When she said yes he couldn't just put a mask he showed her his real feelings, the pain he felt that she caused by her words. She coughs up and started again. – "If you want be winner I don't ca – "– He couldn't believe what she was saying. "Is she serious? She thinks that while I was with her I thought about game?" He lose it shout at her.

"KYOKO! Do you really mean it?" – He didn't even try hiding the pain in his voice. He wanted her to know how he felt about this. But when he looked in her eyes he saw that she was getting… mad.

"YES! WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY WAS NOTHING TO ME! JUST GO TO THAT GIRL AND PRETEND THAT IT WAS NOTHING! BESIDE I WON'T SEE YOU EVER AGAIN! RIGHT? IF YOU WANT I WILL STOP WORKING IN LOVE ME!" – She was mad and started shouting at him. Tears started getting out from her eyes. "What is she saying? What girl? She must really hate me if she doesn't even want to see me again. What have I done! I lost her!" He was stunned and so in pain that he couldn't say anything. – "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU? I HAD A GRAET TIME YESTERDAY? OR THAT I WANT YOU TO FUCK ME MORE? BECOUSE WHAT WE DID YESTERDAY WASN'T LOVEMAKING! IT WAS FUCKING THAT'S ALL! BECOUSE IF ONLY ONE PERSON FEEL SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT THIS IS LOVEMAKING RIGHT?" – "What? She thinks that I fucked her up? That there were no feelings in what I did? She really thinks that I used her! I have to… WAIT! Does this mean that she have feelings for me? Or does she know how I feel and… " – "AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M NOT SORRY! I HAD A GREAT TIME AND I DON'T REGRET SEDUCING YOU OR PROPOSING THAT GAME!" – She looked in his eyes and got closer to him. "What is she saying?" after what she said he couldn't help but feel a little happy he knew that he shouldn't but he couldn't help it. He just hopped she won't see it and won't get even more mad at him. She calmed down a little bit. – "And do you know why I don't regret it?" – He was so in shock that he didn't say anything or move. Her attitude changed completely. – "Because it felt great, I loved it." – She got even closer to him. She was just inches from him. Just one more move and she could kiss him. "I want to kiss her! What am I thinking in a moment like this! I have to explain everything to her!" – "And yes I want you to fuck me more…" – Now she was looking in his eyes… she wasn't crying anymore… "WHAT? What is she saying? That she doesn't care if he loves her or not" – "But well I don't think that I was the person that you wanted to be with at that moment…" – "She thinks I love some other girl! She thinks that I only played with her… and she doesn't care about that?" She turned around and went into bathroom. She didn't close the door; she just started purring water and unbuttoning shirt which she was wearing. He couldn't stop looking at her. She was beautiful. She turned her head and said. – "If you want you can join me." – "What did she just say? That I can join her? No KYOKO first I have to tell you how I feel! So there won't be a misunderstanding! How can you even think that I love someone else?"

He went to the bathroom and was standing just after her. When she wanted to take off his shirt he stopped her. He put his hands on her shoulders and said with a little husky but more than husky it was a tender voice.

"Kyoko, look at me." – He felt like she was trembling under his hand. It hurt him. Was she so scared of him? "Maybe I shouldn't…" Steel trembling she put her head on his chest. It shocked him a little.

"I'm sorry." – If he was shocked before then now he didn't know what was what he felt now.

"For what?" – Well he didn't know for what she was sorry. in his mind there was only one thing she should apologize, that she thought that for him it was just a game. She looked at him and tears started flowing again.

"I knew that you had a girl that you love and steel I… seduced…. you…" – She looked at him ashamed of what she did. Then she turned and rested his head on his chest again. – "I don't know what got into me… I wanted you for myself, I think? … Or maybe I did it because I love you? But… I shouldn't do this… especially because I love you… Anyway what I did is unforgivable so I understand if you don't want to see me ever again." – She was saying this with closed eyes and tears didn't want to stop felling from her eyes. "Did she just say that she loves me?" He couldn't believe what he just heard. He couldn't stop smiling even though he knew that he shouldn't.

"Kyoko, do you really think that I don't want to see you anymore?" – It's not that he wanted to teas her, he just wanted to know how she thought about him.

"Well… I don't know… what to think…" – She didn't open her eyes. – "I feel like I… betrayed your trust… I know you are deferent… you wouldn't hurt me on purpose…" – She opened her eyes and he could see how much she was sorry for everything. – "That's why… I love you…" – She reached her hands to his face and pulled it to hers and she gently kissed him and pulled away. – "I'm sorry. If you want I can go to that girl and apologize to her." – He was looking at her and was wondering how this even happened.

"Really? Do you even know who is THAT GIRL?" – He asked with raised eyebrows. It felt like she tried to shrunk and he felt sorry for her. He steel was mad at her for thinking that he did it for a game. – "And do you really think that I did it for a game? That I used you in shush way?" – He felt really hurt. – "Do you think that I would be able to sleep with a girl I don't have feeling or that I would be able to betray the one I love?" – He wanted to know if she really thought so bad about him.

"N… no, of course not!" – She said it immediately. – "You are not like Sho… but then… "

"The girl I love and I would anything for her is YOU. The sweetest and cutest girl I even met is you, Kyoko. I know that I should tell you that before we slept with each other but – "– He didn't end his sentences because she turned in his arms and captured his lips with hers and she pulled him in the shower.

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