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So, Bex knows. At least I'm not alone anymore. It won't be so hard now. I never expected that anyone would care if I left. Did people really think that I always kept tabs on Cammie? I thought I was sneakier than that.
Well it doesn't make a difference now, does it? Zach is not here anymore. Bex is the only one who knows what happened to Zach, and no one knows what happened to Cammie. I just hope she is safe. It would be so easy to disappear again, I was thinking about it. I could stop trying to defeat the circle, and just focus on finding Cammie.
This seems like it would be the best option. To disappear again, but I have a duty now. I am on a mission to defeat the circle and know their secrets. I think I may need some help, not just with the circle, but with my life in general. I am so confused on what I want and what I need to be doing. I'm letting my personal life guide me much more than I should allow.
"Isaac?" Bex said pulling me away from my thoughts, "are you okay? You're just staring."
I look around the small room to see if anyone else is with us, also for cameras and microphones. Nope. "I don't know Bex. I'm just confused on what I should do right now."
Bex sat down in the leather chair across from me, a sign for me to continue.
"I thought it would be better if I ran away, hid myself from the world, but I wanted to be involved, so I created Isaac. Now I'm wondering if that was a good idea."
"Why do you doubt it was a good idea?" Bex asks.
"I just feel like I'm torn. I want to be involved with defeating the Circle like I am now, but I also want to just find Cammie," I answered.
Did I really just do that? Did I just tell Bex Baxter how I really feel? She got up and moved to sit next to me on the couch.
"I'm sorry. I know that I should not be submitting to deep thoughts like this, it can only hurt what I am trying to do," I say.
"It's no problem, my mom says that even the best spies doubt themselves every once in a while," Bex says reassuringly, "deep thought is what keeps a spy on their toes."
I let out a deep sigh.
"You really love her don't you?" Bex asks.
"Yes, I really do love her. I have since the day we met."
"We can get through this okay? Everything will turn out all right. We can defeat the Circle. We can find Cammie," Bex told me reassuringly.
The next day, Bex was added to our ground team. This shall be interesting now though. It was a lot easier before Bex joined to do things, but now we will have to figure out a new back story that we can fall back on when things go astray. Before, I was acting as Joe's ward and we were taking a trip around the world. Now things could get interesting.
The Baxters, Joe, and I were sitting in a conference room debating options for a back story.
"Well, Bex could be another ward of mine," Joe suggested.
"Maybe, but I have a feeling that people might get suspicious with two young people of the same age and opposite sex being the wards of one person," said Grace.
"Maybe Isaac could still be your ward, Joe, but then Bex could be his girlfriend that you allowed to come on the trip?" Abe mentioned. All eyes turned to Bex and me, questioning our opinion on this plan.
I glanced at Bex, who seemed to be waiting for me to speak. "Well, um, it could work. I don't know, if that's what we want to do I'm fine with it."
"Is that okay with you, Bex?" Abe asked his daughter.
"Yes, it's fine. I think it will work smoothly," Bex replied.
We separated our little meeting to get some sleep. However I found it difficult with my mind cluttered with so many things.
Can we really pull this off? Where is Cammie now? What happens if we can't stop the Circle? What happens if I come face-to-face with my mom and she recognizes me? What if Cammie sees me with Bex, and recognizes me and thinks we are cheating on her? How did Bex recognize me so easily when the others didn't seem to notice?
The last question was lingering. I realize that I won't be able to sleep no matter what I do. I get up and sneak quietly out of the room. I walk down the hall to a waiting area, and begin looking through a bookcase.
"You couldn't sleep either, huh?"
I jumped. Who else was here? I turned around.
"Bex," I breathed, "I was afraid you were someone else."
She smiled. "No just me here to scare you out of your skin."
"I have a question," I said pulling The Importance of Being Earnest off of the shelf.
I moved to sit down across from her.
"Shoot."
"How did you know it was me? I mean, how did you realize so soon? Joe hasn't seemed to notice, and I've spent a lot of time with him."
"Isaac, first of all, I must say, nice choice in books. Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest. Are you feeling a bit like the characters? Being two different people?"
"Please answer my question," I replied.
"It wasn't difficult. I mean I heard their conversation too, and watched your reaction. Your reaction is what gave it away."
"Oh. So it was obvious?"
"Kind of, but If I hadn't have heard my parents' conversation with Mr. Solomon, I wouldn't have noticed. You're better than that," Bex explained.
"Is there anything else that I can do, to make it less noticeable?" I asked.
"No, and to tell you the truth, I wasn't entirely sure at first. I asked you the question to see if my suspicion was right. If you would have said no, I wouldn't have thought more about it," Bex admitted.
"And I thought you knew and that you would kill me if I said no and you could tell I was lying. Kind of funny isn't it?"
"A little, I just thought that you would be with Cammie, I mean, that you two would run together."
"I tried. She wouldn't come with me," I said solemnly. I hung my head.
Bex got up off of the couch to sit next to me.
"Don't worry," she said putting her arm around my shoulders, "Everything will turn out all right. We'll find Cammie and defeat the Circle. It will turn out just fine."
"You are lying through your teeth," I accused.
"Not entirely true. I have hope. Hope is what allows me to say things like that without flat out lying. Maybe you should find some."
"Hope is something I lost a long time ago," I muttered.
We sat there for a long time. I turned the book over and over in my hands. It seemed like hours before either of us spoke.
"We should probably get some sleep," Bex whispered. I nodded.
"See you tomorrow," she said getting up off the couch and heading to her room. I stared after her for a moment.
"Bye," I whispered. I made my way back to my room very slowly. I looked at the clock when I got into my room. 4:15. I laid down in my bed, waiting for sleep.
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