Time for yet another update and I hope you're all enjoying yourselves and slowly falling in love with Embry like I did. Read. Review. Enjoy at will. Adios.

I glance over my list once. Well fine, I looked it over about ten times the past five or so minutes. What did Embry think he was going to do? Complete every little thing I've never done before. He asked me two days ago to make a list of things I never got to experience, so I did. And boy do I have a list. I sigh and look it over, yet again.

-go to the movies

- go to the mall

- buy something just to buy it (not need it)

-go to any type of amusement park

-hang out

- dance

- learn to swim

I sigh. What is Embry going to think of me when he sees this list? Will he think I'm pathetic? Will he laugh? Ugh, my head is pounding and swimming in possible reactions. I lean back on my couch and tilt my head back, staring at the ceiling.

Three loud knocks catch my attention and my head snaps to my sliding glass doors. Like he's being framed in a picture, Embry stands on the other side, hand connected to the glass and a toothy smile carved into his face. My eyes meet onyx and I suddenly find myself pulling open the door, letting him in. "Hey, Katie."

"Hey," I reply, Embry placing a scorching kiss on my cheek. There he goes again. Making me melt and go all goo-goo eyed like a love sick puppy. Which in all honesty I kind of am. I spin around on my heel and make my way over to my couch, Embry trailing silently behind me. I collapse into the cushions, and pat beside me, signaling Embry to do the same. The cushion sinks with his weight and a warm arm wraps around my shoulder, dragging me closer into his side. Smiling, I rest my head on his shoulder and close my eyes, enjoying every moment. His lips press against my hair.

"What's that?" I raise my eyebrow, but can't find it in me to actually respond. I'm just too comfortable. "Is that your list?" I feel the paper between my fingers being tugged slightly. "Can I see it." I nod and release the paper into his hands and snuggle deeper into his side. Chuckling, Embry says, "Someone's affectionate today." His arm tightens around my shoulder and reads at my list. After a few moments, Embry sets the paper in my lap and sighs.

"Embry?" He hums in response. "What are you thinking?"

I pull away from his embrace and look up at his face. His eyes are deep and glistening. Tears threaten to fall and my heart clenches. It feels like someone just punched through my chest and ripped my heart, stamped on it, and threw it back at me. I reach up and nuzzle his face with mine, a small whimper escaping my lips. His hands grasp my hair and he buries his face into my neck, breathing deeply. I run my hands through his cropped hair and hold him close. "What am I thinking? I'm thinking that it isn't fair. That you deserve better. That I should have prevented this."

"How? I just met you about a month ago. We lived on opposite sides of the country."

"I don't know. I just- I just should have." He lifts his head from my neck and rests his forehead against mine. I run my fingers along the sides of his face and rest at the base of his neck. His face is so upset and ashamed. My wolf howls for him to smile, for his eyes to light up again, and I don't need to be told twice. I fist his black hair and drag his lips down to mine in a passionate kiss. He's being so stubborn, not fully kissing me back because of his shame. Thinking quickly, I nibble on his bottom lip and Embry groans. I smile to myself. Score one for the broken wolf! Embry catches my lips and molds them together, tongue toying with my lower lip. What is he trying to do? He licks my bottom lip again. Hesitantly, I part my lips and his tongue dives in and flicks with mine. I sigh against his mouth and fall deeper into Embry's arms. Embry pulls back, leaving us both breathless. Panting, I rest my head against his shoulder and I close my eyes.

"Wow," I breath. Embry chuckles and nuzzles the top of my head.

"What are you thinking?" Embry mocks me. I scowl at him but keep my head resting on his shoulder, which is surprisingly comfortable.

"That I like kissing you. That you taste good. That your shoulder is really comfortable."

"Good." Embry wraps his arms tighter around me and leans back till his back is on the couch. He swings his legs up over the arm-rest and cradles me against him. "Is this comfortable too?" I nod. I can honestly feel him smiling, I guess its an imprint thing. His happiness and relaxed demeanor rolls off him and circles around me. I wonder if he feels the same thing, but with my emotions. We lay there, together on my couch, for god only knows how long before Embry speaks again. "So about this list." I prop myself with my elbow so I can see his face, and Embry does the same. I bite my lip in anticipation, waiting for him to continue. "I can fix about all of them, and we can do probably two today." I raise my eyebrow and open my mouth to speak, but he places a finer to my lips and continues on. "Emily and Sam wanted to met you. Officially and all, so if you want, we could go over?"

"Uh, sure." His smile widens and takes up his face, eyes shining and excitement rolling off him. I smile softly in return. He is just so cute sometimes. Embry jumps up and grabs my hand, leading me out to the front of the house where a old jeep is parked out front. "Nice car." It's old, black, dirty paint. It probably hasn't been washed in a while, just the rain and nature taking care of it. It's so Embry.

"Thanks." Embry opens my door and helps me in and dashes over to the drivers side. "You're going to love Emily. She's an amazing cook."

Embry pulls his jeep in front of a small looking house, and cuts the engine. Looking around all I notice is trees, the single trail like road that leads to the house, and the house itself. It's old and looks like it belongs with the forest. Happiness and authority, along with a bit of safety roll off of the house and hit me like a brick. My werewolf senses are already picking up traces of muffins in the oven, quiet talking, and busy feet running through the house. Like the gentleman he is, Embry opens my door and helps me out with his trademark smile. Swinging his arm around my waist he ushers me towards the door. Embry lifts his hand to the door knob when the door is swung open.

"You finally made it back Katelyn!" Emily claps. I smile back in return.

"Hi Emily. How are you?" I fidget slightly in Embry's arms, nervous of how everyone will perceive me now that I'm not protecting their life from angry vampires. Embry rubs his thumb in a soothing circle on my side, completely relaxing me. I lean slightly into him and watch Emily's eyes soften watching us.

"I'm just so glad you guys are together now. You really deserve each other." I look up at Embry with critical eyes. Did I really deserve this perfection? This god like man? What could I have ever done to deserve him by my side, his love? "Come in, come in. The muffins are almost done." Smiling, Emily turns and trudges off to the kitchen leaving me and Embry to sit in one of the two couches off to the side. Like before at my place, Embry wraps his arm around my shoulder and fits me into his side. I try and fight it a little at first. Is it alright to be acting like this in someone else's home? In front of others? But being as 'love sick' as I am, I give in and complete mold into his side.

Heavy footprints catch my attention and I snap my head to the doorway Emily ran off into. Walking over is Alpha Sam. I jump up immediately, not giving Embry a chance to keep me down and nod at him. "Thank you for letting me come," I struggle for the right word and look at Embry, "hang out?" I look back up at Sam in intimidation. This man is an alpha. A true alpha. Sam's barking laughter catches me off guard and I study him to look for what I had said wrong.

"You're so formal! The boys are gonna have fun with you. And the pleasure is mine. Emily has been dying to have you over."

"Oh."

Sam smiles tauntingly. "Not intimidated are we? Alpha Katelyn?" I feel Embry's confusion in the back of my head. Hearing Sam address me as Alpha flipped a switch in my head. I stand tall and straighten my shoulders. My face blanks out of emotion and I watch Sam under a critical eye. His smile widen and he extends a hand. "There you are." A quick as the flip was turned on, it flipped off and my shoulders slump a little and my eyes relax. I grasp his hand gently and nod.

I feel Embry's touch at the back of my shirt and I let him pull me back into his side. Sam sits in the couch across the way and props his elbows on his knees and leans forward, face serious. "I never did thank you for protecting my Emily. Or the other girls. So thank you, you couldn't even imagine how it felt."

"I think I have an idea," I say, looking up at Embry sadly. He stares back apologetically and kisses my forehead.

"Sorry." I smile lightly and look back to Sam. A smell, not as intoxicating as Embry's scent, but definitely inviting fills my nose. Looking around, my eyes land on Emily and a plate piled high with fresh muffins. My eyes close and I breath them in. Delicious. Emily walks over to Sam first and he grabs two off the top and kisses her sweetly on the cheek, murmuring a 'thanks'. She turns and smiles at Embry and me and extends her plate at us. Embry quickly grabs three and drops two in his lap, chewing contently on one. She puts the plate in front of me and my eyes widen. "I- I can have one?" I stutter.

"Of course you can! Take as many as you like," she urges, pushing the plate a bit closer to me. I lift my arm and grab the muffin at top and place it in my lap and stare at it from every angle. "You just want one?" I nod and smile up at her. "Alright then. Usually you wolves have such an appetite. Go ahead and take another if you feel like it."

"Half wolf."

"Excuse me?" All three sets of eyes land on me. I clear my throat. "I guess you can say I'm a half wolf. I-I wasn't born with the gene."

"Then how-" Sam trails off.

I shift uncomfortably in my seat and look from eyes to eyes, lingering on Embry's confused set before looking back at Sam. I sigh and explain. "When I was living in Spain, I ran into some vampires. They took me back to Italy and threw me in this room with no windows." I take a quick look around and survey their reactions. Sam; deep in thought. Emily; confused but a hint of what's going on. Embry; mortified. I take a shaky breath and continue. "I was in the room for about four days or so, every day a few others were added, and I wasn't the first one there. By the end of the week, there were twenty four of us. The room was so dark and we couldn't see. We had bread thrown in about twice a day with a water jug for all of us to share. People were getting weaker." I close my eyes and it's like I'm there again. In that room, where round two of hell started. I hear their cries and moans. The smell of wastes. The smell of bread. Cold and dark. Very, very dark, except for Emma. My light in all of the darkness. I smile at the thought of here smiling face. "That's where I met Emma. She was thrown in two days after me, and she was the youngest there. She lived in Boston before they took her. Only twelve. She was afraid and torn from her family, something I had the luxury of not having. She cried the entire first day for her mother, but then the others started to get annoyed, so they decided to force her to be quiet. I didn't like that." Memories of fists pounding against my back and Emma's screams fill my head. I shake my head, trying to rid myself of the memories. "Long story short, she stayed by my side the entire time." "How does this tie into you being a wolf?" Emily asks quietly, caught up in the drama of my story. Of my life.

I look down and whisper, "It's coming." I sigh again and lean into Embry for the support I so need. This was his first time hearing this story, and I could already feel the tension coming off him. His arms wrap around me and drag me into his lap, crushing me into his chest. "One day, the doors opened and all I remember was it being so bright. My eyes couldn't adjust right away. Suddenly someone cold grabbed my arm, hard. The air filled with screams as we were all dragged out one by one from our room and place in this big arena like room. The walls were made of stone and the ceiling was about three stories above us. I was looking around for Emma and scrambled over to her. She was so scared and was crying so hard. I held her to me and held her face into my chest so she didn't have to look at what was happening." I pause, trying to fix my voice so it doesn't sound so full of tears. I cough to clear my throat and continue on. "We were all being held down and having something injected into us. I realized later it was blood or something with the gene in it. Emma and I were separated and each were infected. After all of us had been worked on, all the cold, pale guys left, locking the door behind them. As the day drew on, I became violently sick; extreme fever, pain ripping through my body, headaches, convulsions. Our bodies became weak and slowly people started to die." Emily gasps and covers her mouth as tears started to fall from her eyes.

"Did-. Did Emma-?"

I look at her with sad eyes and continue. "You'll see." Sam brought Emily into his lap much like Embry had with me. I snuggle closer into him and feel his arms tighten in response. "I was sick for about a week when I changed. It was slow, and one of the most painful things I have ever experienced. When I finally phased, I realized that the pain was gone, but at that point I was freaking out. I realized how many people died. What started out at twenty four, had dwindled down to eighteen. No one realized that I had phased because of the pain they were in. I rushed over to Emma and she passed out from seeing me. I felt horrible, but then they came in. Three pale, cold, disgusting guys entered the room. The stench made my nose want to bleed and I felt so angry. I had the desire to kill them, but I didn't want to leave Emma's side and leave her unprotected. They are the leaders of the vampires and they explained to me what was happening and why."

"What was their reason?" Sam questions.

I growl deep and low, shocking everyone in the room. "Guard dogs." Suddenly the room is filled with two other sets of growls and Embry bound his hands into fists, grabbing at my clothes to hold me even tighter.

"I had resisted, and tried to run away, with Emma of course, but they just beat me till I couldn't move." Growls erupt again, but this time I just continue. "They had threatened me and everyone else alive and told me the rules and expectations and said to pass it on to my pack mates. Within the week everyone else had phased at least once and I, being the first one to phase, and under the most control, took over as alpha." I grimace at the next thought. "It wasn't… too bad. I had demanded more food and water for my pack, and we received it. I set up times for us to be on duty. Pretty much we just sat in their thrown room and watched over, and followed their orders. Within a week though, people started getting sick again. I begged for a doctor and they just laughed at me, saying that I was alpha, and I should deal with it. I tried to keep everyone alive. I gave out my food to the weakest and spilt my water with Emma. I took over some of the shifts and let the others rest… It wasn't enough. Over the course of six months, my pack had became a pack of four. Emma being one of them. By almost eight months, it was just Emma and I. Slowly though, Emma started getting weaker, but denied it. I forced her to sleep, eat, and drink. I took over her shift and mine at times and made her stay back in our room. It wasn't enough, just like with the others." I take a deep breath, but my breath catches in my throat and I bury my face into Embry's neck. His hands went to work, smoothing out my hair, rubbing my back, whispering encouraging words in my ears. After a minute I pull away and kiss his cheek. I turn back to Emily and Sam to see Emily buried into her husband's shoulder, tears streaming down her face. "She made me promise her, her last night, that I run away and live a normal life." I smile at her exact words. "'I want you to run away. I want you to go buy a house and get a normal job. I want you to make friends and get married with kids. And I want you to kill as many fucking vamps as you can.'" I chuckle. "She had such a potty mouth." I look back up to Emily to see her smile cracking through and her brush her tears away. "So I did. I escaped a month later and hid with the luggage on the first plane I could get on. Not my best experience let me say." Emily chokes back on a laugh.

"I bet."

I smile and continue on. "As fate would have it. My plane landed in Port Angeles. I had remembered that my cousin Jessie moved out by there when I was a little girl so I went to investigate. Eventually I found her and she let me stay with her. I renovated her basement into an apartment and the rest you all know."

"What about your family? Your parents must be worrying about you." My mind goes blank, all that I see is darkness, I hear nothing, feel nothing, sense nothing but darkness. 'He hates you,' my mind murmurs. 'He tries to kill you. He left scars on you. Blamed Mom's death on you.' My darkness takes on a red tint and my muscles clench. 'She left you with him. Brother left us with him too. He broke you. They all broke you.' I'm swimming in thick red and my body is shaking violently. "Katie?"

My eyes snap open, but it's not really me, and I feel Embry's arms clutching me to his body, trying desperately to calm me down. Too bad he can't. Not right now. My wolf is taking over. I grind my teeth and glare at Emily and Sam through the corner of my eye. "Funny. Don't care 'bout girl. Never care! Try kill. Try brake! Bad, bad man. Bad woman. Bad, bad, bad." My voice takes on a new sound. Slightly ragged and deeper pitched. Growls rip through my chest and erupt through my lips. I glare back up at Embry and try to force my way out of his embrace.

"Kate-"

"Release!" my wolf commands. Under an alpha's command, even though not his own, Embry body ripples and obeys my command, fighting against it the whole way. I jump out of his arms and brace the door frame of the front door. "Bad man. Try kill everyday. Hurt girl. Make bleed. No love. Broke girl. Broke girl lots."

Sam stands up. "Who are you talking about? What girl?"

"Girl inside," my wolf gestures, poking herself in the chest. "He bad man. Try kill girl. She good girl. Broken girl."

Embry jumps up and stare us down, my wolf and I. I try to fight back control, but my wolf is so angry. Emily looks over at Embry's confusion clear on her face. "Embry. What is she talking about?" Emily's voice becomes hysterical. "Did her father-" A growl erupts through my lips. Emily jaw drops and hesitates to continue. "Was Katelyn abused?"

My wolf nods my head. "Bad man did bad things," she urges.

"Like what?" Sam inquires.

"Beat girl. Make cry. Burn girl with fire and water. Rape girl. Girl no like, but could not get away. Girl tried but was weak. Girl got strong and ran. Leech put me inside girl. I protect girl with Embry. Embry good man. Very good for girl. Girl loves Embry."

"I bet," Emily smiles. "Can we have her back now?" My wolf stops shaking and nods. The redness surrounding me fades away and I'm falling. I feel myself gaining control again. I also feel myself fall into strong, warm, familiar arms. What the hell just happened?

I open my eyes to onyx and look up expectantly. "What?" he asks.

"What just happened?" I ask in a small voice. Embry looks down at me, mouth wide open and snaps it shut. He shakes his head and lifts me to my feet gently.

"Hey, you never met Caleb." I look around and stare at Emily's excited face before she dashes up the stares. I glance back at Embry with questioning eyes. He smiles softly. "Caleb is Sam and Emily's son. He's like my nephew." Small feet rush down the stairs and come running and jump into Embry's open arms. He looks so much like Sam, only a four year old version, but he has Emily's laugh and eyes. My eyes soften at the boy as he hugs my boyfriend's neck, laughing away. "Hey, bud. This is my girl, Katie." Big dark brown eyes drift to me and I fall into a trance. His mouth drops and he shrugs out of Embry;s hold and runs up to me, staring up at me. I crouch so we can be eye level and I smile softly.

"Hello." Caleb's eyes widen even more and he continues to stare at me.

"Are you a wolf like Daddy too?" he asks excitedly. I nod and he jumps up and down. "Woah! That's so cool!" I chuckle softly and he grabs my hand with his tiny little fingers. "Do you wanna play with me?" I nod excitedly and let the boy lead me out the door to the yard. Giggles and sighing hit my ears, but I ignore them as the little boy leads me out excitedly. My heart warms at the sight of him and his smile, I think I just feel in love again.