rOSE, WAKES UP IN THE HOSPITAL. ENJOY.. I WON'T PUT A DISCLAIMER UP ANYMORE. JUST KNOW I DON'T OWN ANY OF S.M.'S characters.

RPOV

BEEP. .

Ugh, I'm so tired. Everything hurts. My face, my arms, my hands, neck, stomach, legs, and down there hurted too.

The pain from my crotch and the sound of the monitor brought me back to what happened. I remembered everything that happened. I remembered his face, the way his hands groped my body, the way they entered me and tore my body apart.

Remembering the events of the night before made me panic. Where was Royce? Did he get arrested? Where am I? Am I ok? Where is everyone?

As the panic hit me like a ton of bricks, the heart monitor went crazy. My heart went crazy. I still had my eyes closed afraid of what would happen if I opened them. I felt something in my hand but I couldn't get myself to open my eyes for fear of who it would be.

I knew who I wanted it to be but I also knew I didn't want it to be him too. Emmett. I wanted him to hold me. To encircle me in his death grip arms and make me feel safe. To feel that nobody could break through his arms and hurt me. But I didn't want to see the pain or sorrow, or remorse in his eyes. I didn't want him to feel sorry for me.

I wanted him to.. I don't know what I wanted from him anymore. If I'm being honest with myself I don't think I wanted him to touch me. I know I can trust him with my life but I'm not sure if I could let myself be touched by a man yet. Or ever again. The idea of knowing that as a woman I am vulnerable to attacks like the one I went through yesterday sent the heart monitor racing even more.

When I heard my angel's voice, my eyes flew open and I could read every emotion I feared would show in his face. I loved him. More than anything. I trusted him. I needed him now more than ever but I can't expect him to baby me through this. It wouldn't be right to him. I had to give him an out.

"Rose, are you awake?" his voice sounded pained.

"Hi" was all I could muster up to say without crying in pain. Everything was throbbing. I winced as I tried to sit up more.

"No Rose don't move, you must be in pain. I'll call dad and tell him you need more medication. It will put you to sleep but you probably need more of that too." he tried his best to give a little laugh.

I mentally counted to ten while chanting, talk to him Rose, don't let him see your pain because he will just feel worse. Just tell him you want him to stay.

I took a deep breath. Well it was the deepest one that I could muster up; and said, "Ok, but I want you to stay. I don't want to be alone. I'm scared Roy" but I was cut off by Bella and Charlie coming in.

"HE, has been arrested, and he is being held without bail, honey; there's nothing to worry about. You are safe and he will stay there until his trial." Charlie said his name with a vengeance.

I sighed. Thank God I didn't have to worry about him.. For now. Bella and Charlie entered the room and after asking questions about how I was feeling; Charlie excused himself and returned 5 minutes later with flowers, balloons, and a teddy bear. Sometimes I swear the chief of police wouldn't harm a fly. He was a softie at heart.

I let out a small laugh when he walked in and instantly regretted it. The pain in my ribs intensified with my laugh. I winced in pain and tears instantly poured out of my eyes.

"Rose are you ok?" Bella and Emmett asked at the same time, I fought back a laugh. I knew they would laugh too but they were being serious.

"I'm *wince* ok, my ribs must be bruised. They *wince* hurt so much" I did my best to sound cheerful.

"No, Ro. Two ribs are cracked; my dad is on his way in right now. He'll give you the medication and the pain should subside." Emmett said in a sad voice.

CRACKED? He cracked two ribs, that bastard. He was going to pay. I would do whatever I had to do to make sure he'd pay for what he did to me.

The anger I had towards him made the pain in my body completely disappear. My brow furrowed and I had anger in my voice. "Chief Swan, I know your going to ask at some point so I will just say it now. I'm going to testify against him."

"And we will be there to support you every step of the way" said Emmett. Bella agreed. Chief Swan just said ok and excused himself to get coffee.

Carlisle walked in with a smile on his face. I knew he was trying his best to not be sad. He was like a dad to me and I sure didn't want anyone lurking around being sad. I would try my best to not be a victim. I would be a survivor. I knew it would take time but I promised myself that this would not define my life.

"Hello Rosalie, good morning dear. I know you are in pain but I need to measure it on a scale from one to ten. Ten being the worst."

I thought about it for a minute and answered him the best I could. "When I laugh, it's a ten. But other than that it's about an 8."

"Ok, I'll give you the medication accordingly. This will put you to sleep and while you are out, Emmett will need to go home, shower, and maybe get some sleep. But if you'd like, one of your parents, friends, or of course Esme will stay with you." he said while adjusting the valves that were attached to my IV tube.

"No dad, I'm not leaving her. I promised." Emmett had a voice of authority with his dad. Carlisle was about to agree but I interrupted him before he could.

"No, Emmett, it's ok. I know I asked you to stay but if Bella can stay then I'll be fine for a few hours. Get some sleep, eat something and shower because I can smell you from here. Besides, I'll be sleeping too right?"

"Ha ha Rose, very funny. But I'm not tired I slept fine. I'll go home and shower and bring you some pajamas so you don't have to be in the hospital gown anymore. Heaven forbid you wear something that someone else has worn" he spoke in mock horror.

"Whatever, just don't forget my toiletries and socks, my feet are freezing." I said. He nodded, kissed me on the forehead and left.

I felt the medicine kick in but I wasn't feeling tired yet. I was glad I wasn't alone. I knew Bella would be asking questions, but I knew she wouldn't ask for a play by play.

As Bella let out a sigh, I mentally said here it goes

"Rose, are you ok, no bull. Tell me straight. I don't want you to sugar coat anything for me or anyone."

Well, if there was anyone who I could be truthful with it was her. I took a deep breath and began. "Yes and No. I'm scared, in pain emotionally and physically. I'm angry and sad. I'm scared that it could happen again, that I'll never be able to have a normal relationship. My heart hurts to watch Emmett feel bad for me. To watch everyone feeling bad for me. I feel like it only makes things worse. Everything in my body hurts, from the top of my head, to more private parts. I'm angry at him and what he did which makes it easier for me to know that I'm going to testify. And I'm sad because I feel like I set myself up for it to happen." wow, what a speech. I felt like I just had a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.

Bella smiled. I knew she would tell the others that I didn't want to have them feel bad for me. I knew they would try their best to hide their feelings. "Rosalie Hale, I don't want you to feel like you set yourself up for anything. It was all him. He made the decision to violate you. It was a stupid decision which will make him pay for what he did. And Emmett just feels like he could have prevented it from happening. In a way we all do."

It wasn't their fault. I knew that and they knew too. If that's how they felt I had to tell them they didn't need to feel that way. Obviously if I just told her then they wouldn't believe me. I decided to wait until they would all be here which would probably be when I wake up again. As I was dozing off I tried my best to smile and ask her to make sure everyone was here when I woke up. I vaguely remember her tell me she was going to make sure they were.

EMPOV

As I was walking out of the hospital I felt my heart telling me to go back. I knew that if I stayed and she found out I didn't go home she'd be pissed.

I got in my car and headed home. When I arrived, I walked up to my room and slumped onto my bed. Maybe an hour or two would make her happy if she found out that I slept. I set my alarm for 2 hours and instantly sleep came over me.

I woke up two hours later feeling refreshed and energetic. That nap did me good but I was eager to get back to Rose and be with her. I looked at my phone and noticed I had a text from Bella, I hope nothing happened. I heard that people can go into shock and suffer from anxiety attacks after a traumatic experience. I felt my muscles ease up once I read the text.

Rose wants to talk to us all, she's asleep now but Carlisle said she should be up around 1. Be here by then because if she's still in a lot of pain he'll have to give her more medication that will put her to sleep -B

I looked at the clock, it was 11:37, I was ok for now. I took a shower and got dressed. I still needed to go to her house and get her things. I wanted to make sure she was as comfortable as possible. After I showered and got dressed I sat down and wrote her a note. This was the best possible way I felt like I could express my feelings. I would tell her everything I wanted to tell her. She could keep the letter forever if she felt the same or she could throw it away if she didn't feel the same.

When I was done writing the letter, it was 12:15. It wasn't a long letter but I just couldn't put into words what I wanted to say. I had so many emotions that I wanted to say but I felt like I got to the point after 3 drafts.

I grabbed a bag from my closet to put her stuff in. I threw in a white shirt of mine, knowing that she secretly stole them from me because she liked to wear them every so often.

I let myself into her house and walked into her bedroom. I sat on her bed and felt empty inside without her. I sat there for about 5 minutes before getting the things she needed.

I headed back to the hospital with hope. Hope that she would feel the same, hope that she'd be ok and that eventually we'd move on.. Together.

Upon reaching the hospital, I ran into Edward. He was putting the alarm on his Volvo when he seen me. He walked over to me with a slight smile on his face.

"Any idea what she wants to talk to us about Em?"

"No, but she practically yelled at me to go home and shower. Plus she gave me a list of things to bring" I laughed at the memory.

"So how is she? Did you find out what you were going to say?" he seemed a little too happy that I was going to tell her.

"She was in pain this morning, but when she found out 2 ribs are cracked, she was angry and said she would testify which is good. And yes, I decided to write her a letter."

"What does the letter say" he asked while wiggling his eyebrows.

"Oh, nothing. It just says, Rosalie, will you be my girlfriend circle yes or no" I laughed.

He laughed and slapped me on the back, "Lets go Casanova, your girls got something to tell us"

MY GIRL, I like the way that sounds, Rosalie, mine. Nobody else's. I began to get nervous as we walked toward her room. What if she said she doesn't want us to be there when she testifies? What will she say about the letter? I started to sweat a bit and I was getting nervous when we ran into my dad in the hallway.

"Hello boys, Emmett, did you get some sleep" I nodded and he continued. "Good, now go on in there, Alice and Jasper are already inside the room and I just checked on her. She said her pain is at a 6 through low 7."

"She's up?" I asked nervously. Crap I said I'd be here when she woke up. I thanked my dad and Edward and I headed into the room.

When we walked in, she smiled at me. And hugged Edward. I showed her the things I brought and she thanked me before begging her speech.

"Ok, there's something I need to talk to you guys about."

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