Disclaimer: Don't own any of Full Metal Panic's series, or it's characters

Rating: M

Takes place after The Second Raid, anime/OVA only, but with a few nods to events from the manga. Sousuke is more-or-less the same, and Kaname should be the same, but she'll be a bit quicker to her softer side in some cases - and that might translate to somewhat out-of-character depending on your point-of-view lol. Will be a fairly long story, but will only start to show it after the first few chapters.

That night

In the bathroom, Kaname had never felt more... gah, she couldn't tell if she was more excited or afraid! But if she was afraid, she wasn't sure what scared her more; the waiting (which was killing her), thoughts about what awaited her tonight, or the fact that she had nothing against giving up her first time to Sousuke-

She shivered a bit, crossing her arms together tightly.

"But... if I didn't want to, would Sousuke be here at this time at night?"

She had no answer, to her mental question or in general. Still, she had to come out of there eventually, even with Sousuke's seemingly endless patience...

When she did come out, it was with slow steps, her gaze downward. When she glanced up, she stopped, surprised and uncomprehending before her face fell. "...what is that?" she asked flatly.

Sousuke looked around, the 'that' in question being a thin sheet of metal propped up perfectly on the middle of her bed, which he was sitting on the right side of. It should have fallen with the slightest movements, but two clamp things hung from the ceiling, preventing that. "This will allow us some privacy, when we change" he said evenly, until the last word. "Also, it will allow us to prepare for seeing each other - uh..."

"Bare?" she eventually supplied, feeling conflicted, yet her cheeks still heated. "So you don't want the full experience?"

"I did not say that" he answered, his answer exact, as always. "I would just prefer some core experience about every important aspect, before I learn too much about the smaller details and acts. Also, I would prefer to avoid 'freaking out' partway through, as has happened before."

She didn't respond to that verbally, but she thought that was pretty smart of him, if a bit different (the first part anyway). Still, what were you gonna do?

"So, you're ready?" she asked, heart pounding. "As you can be, I mean?"

A moment, then: "I am" he answered, not easily, but determined nonetheless.

After that, she didn't think there was anything more she could say, or hear from him; they were both willing in their own ways deep down, nervous and scared as all hell, but still here. So, she slowly stepped over to her bed, sitting down on the left side, Sousuke watching her the entire time until she was hidden from his sight.

She slowly sighed, then after a little twitch, her hands started moving.

She heard nothing but the rustling of clothing from both sides, as well as their breathing, but she could tell Sousuke was going slowly. She wasn't surprised; she was doing much the same. But eventually, she was completely bare and trying to fight off a chill that had nothing to do with the air. Leaning backward took more effort than she thought, but she managed to lay on the bed, shivering again.

Ten long seconds later: "Kaname?"

She slowly breathed out. "Ready as I'll ever be" she said faintly.

"Ready as I'll ever be."

His answer was not verbal; he pressed a button on the device beside him, which withdrew the clamps securing the metal 'wall'. Before it started tilting, he grasped it from above to prevent that, placing the device on the floor at the same time. After that, he held the wall for a moment, then he resolved himself and pulled it away from it's spot, placing it on the floor. And now there was nothing between them, something he was distinctly aware of - but he was committed to this.

He slowly looked to his right, directly at Kaname, who slowly noticed and looked his way. Her cheeks were already rather red, and the same might happen to him soon, but he remembered what she'd said about not being tense.

Never once looking away from her face, he slowly reached forward, his fingers touching hers gently. Her fingers reacted to his first touch, but after that, she hesitantly grasped his hand back. Her fingers felt soft against his touch, and he reflected this was the first time they've ever formally held hands as a couple - if you didn't count the times she'd grabbed him by the hand, vice-versa, and the ones that lead to accidental touches. Even as he thought this, he scooted himself closer to Kaname, who moved slightly when his shoulder bumped against hers.

Note to self: the 'touch barrier' is not simply one touch, but potentially multiple ones as well.

They spent some time looking at each other, feeling the other's breath somewhat, but he was the first to speak:

"I am not looking forward to hurting you, Kaname."

She slowly glanced down at herself, then back at him, her other hand slowly covering her own chest (he was slightly relieved). "No guy does, Sousuke," she whispered faintly, "and neither am I, but - it's gotta be done. And after that, it should never happen again."

"I see."

Several moments later, he saw Kaname close her eyes, and lift her head up a little. Seeing what she desired, he slowly leaned forward, closing his own eyes. Their lips touched gently, and a hand found his hair after a few moments, even as he was pleasuring her upper lip. This simple interaction went on for awhile, but he managed to lift himself up at the same time, slowly placing his knee in-between Kaname's legs for better positioning. This touch surprised her, but she made way for his legs, for which he was grateful.

After he judged enough time had passed, he removed himself from Kaname's lips, who gave off a small gasp that seemed to indicate that she didn't want him to leave; a good sign. Still, he slowly redirected his mouth, aiming down toward her neck - he didn't entirely understand this reaction, but he had seen it's effectiveness. And indeed, when he slowly kissed her neck, her pulse rate seemed to spike, and Kaname held him even closer to her body. He felt slightly uncomfortable when this action lightly smushed his genital against her leg, but either she didn't seem to notice, or she didn't mind.

Still, his movements were increasingly confident as he went through this. Even as his mouth worked on her neck or her lips at any one time, he started using one hand in combination as well, slowly moving it up and down her arm. The small shivers that went through Kaname showed that she liked this, even if it seemed too mundane to him, even now.

Kaname was not inactive, but he had sorta expected that; this was a shared act. As their kiss heated up, she was the first to use her tongue, which got a strangled gasp out of him. And more than that; her hands moved up and down his arms, shoulders, and eventually his chest - this touch surprised him, especially when she seemed to fixate on his scars. And also, strangely, her legs seemed to really enjoy rubbing against his skin.

He didn't understand all of it, but he hoped to in time. Also, he noted that the first step seemed to be over, as Kaname definitely acted like she was 'in the mood'.

So, resolving himself, he moved one hand onto her chest.

Kaname squeaked at this contact, startling him, as he'd never heard her make that particular sound before. However, when she merely continued to hold him, he took it as another good sign, slowly moving his hand again. Kaname breathed out from his caress (was that the right word?), then she launched herself at him, kissing him hard. He returned her affection after a moment, both of them almost upright now, then his fingers brushed against her left nipple. She truly gasped, deep in her throat, and her hand dragged his other one to her right breast.

His concentration slipped at that, allowing Kaname's tongue to push into his open mouth and gain the upper hand, but he corrected that oversight in seconds.

This continued for some time, both of them kissing and, uh, 'teasing' each other's spots. As he worked on her breasts though, Sousuke felt a small change come over her nipples; they seemed to be getting harder and more 'erect' the more simulation he gave them, and her breasts in general, though on a smaller scale. He got flashes of that same process happening to his genital, and wondered why that happened - at least until his fingers slipped, accidentally pinching them, and Kaname moaned as a result.

He gasped, blinking at the sudden increase of pleasure, then he saw Kaname look at him. Her expression was extremely similar to the one she'd given when she thought she'd been having an intimate dream.

Panting a little, she pulled him against her, quite literally.

He lost composure when her breasts pressed against him, but he was more fixated by his genital against her stomach; he was feeling a peculiar sensation down there, like he was rapidly 'filling up' with something. When he realized what it meant, he began sweating.

But he didn't have time to dwell on it: Kaname heavily surprised him by pushing him backwards onto her bed, then sitting up on top of him. He tried to retain what composure he could, but the distinctive feel of her genitals on his body was making that difficult.

Kaname's face was red, and upon further reflection, he had no proof that he wasn't the same. "My turn" she breathed, her eyes half-lidded.

He opened his mouth to ask, but all that came out was a startled gasp; the result of Kaname rubbing her genital against him.

He did not understand how simple rubbing could produce this reaction - this very good reaction - but she continued slowly, making it harder to think at all. She worked on his stomach, panting and moaning at times, going from slow to a slightly-faster speed once she got used to the motion (his reactions to the sensations adjusted accordingly). But then there was a change; she began to move down his body, going to the patch of skin below his stomach, and then-

He groaned as his genital twitched directly against hers, his heart pounding and sweating profusely. Kaname continued to rub herself against him, and her panting soon became cries of pleasure, her legs tightening around him. He found his fingers were dug into the covers; he was tense- no, he was not tense, this was a reaction brought upon by the pleasure! How was this possible!?

When his gradually-becoming-harder genital suddenly became wet, he gasped, snapping up by instinct (Kaname did not notice; her eyes were closed). But he did not see it, he felt it; during Kaname's rubbing act, her genital was becoming stimulated, and as a result were becoming wet. In essence, she was doing part of his job for him.

Amidst all the sweating and the pleasure, he did not know how he felt about that, but he carefully chose (or felt maybe, by this point) that he should wait a bit longer. So he focused on that fact - but in that focus, the sensations he felt seemed to come in even stronger, as well as the pleasant gasps/moans from Kaname's mouth. It was an entirely simple thing she was doing, albeit with intimate parts of both bodies, and yet it was so strong his mind was boggled. And more than that, his sense of time was heavily distorted - was that normal?

Eventually, he felt his genital come to the end of it's hardening process, or so far as he could determine.

When he was sure, he gripped Kaname's arms, kissing her hard at the same time. The resulting sound was part moan/gasp/something else he couldn't identify, both of surprise and pleasure, and she stopped her rubbing. When he pulled away enough, Kaname seemed particularly dazed, but he didn't let that dissuade him: "This part is over, Kaname" he said, more strained than he'd initially thought. "Let me, uh, take over."

Panting heavily, she didn't respond, not verbally.

Slowly, he pushed Kaname forward until she was laying back-first on her bed, her eyes still half-lidded. He felt almost entirely ridiculous with a hard genital drawing his attention, but he couldn't let that sensation distract him. So instead, he turned his gaze to her genital, having to open her legs quite a bit to do so (she made a sound when he did this, and when she realized what he was doing). And much like the videos he'd witnessed, he saw an... unusual assortment of flesh, moderately simulated and lightly wet so far. He had failed to understand what people found appealing about the female genital - he still failed.

But he didn't need to understand; he just needed to work with it, and as far as he saw, Kaname was not yet 'ready'. She was somewhat close, but would require further simulation.

"Sousuke?" Kaname breathed, panting a bit with red cheeks. "What are you do-Gah!"

His hand had touched her genital, lightly moving over it before he'd carefully pushed one finger inside. In preparation for this, he'd turned his head somewhat and closed his eyes, but he was still sweating and panting from the effort.

Despite all that though, the sensations he was feeling far outweighed any discomfort. Upon his entry, Kaname's genital had squeezed itself tightly around his finger, a hot wet blur that made him gasp at such a thing, and quickly assuring himself this was not a conscious reaction; she was not doing this on purpose. Trying to focus, he 'dug around' as best he could, trying to memorize the sensations and what they meant against the information he'd read about. He distinctly felt the outer wall of her opening, a rougher part from above, and had nearly slipped to the outside edges more than once. So far, everything was in it's general place, but he needed to make sure they all were.

Even as he did so, Kaname squirmed and gasped from his digging, her face glaring red. And during some of his digging, she moaned and cried out - and he inexplicably wanted to hear her utter those sounds again.

He worried if something was wrong with him, but this was no time for such questions!

Judging it was fairly time, he added a second finger to assist (Kaname screamed when this happened), all the while panting and sweating; he was beginning to feel the strain.

Near the end of his 'search', his fingers happened upon a small 'orb'-like object - and as soon as he touched it, Kaname's entire body had bucked, as evidenced by her cries. He paused, then slowly repeated the touch, with similar (maybe stronger) results that confirmed his suspicion. Feeling relieved that'd he located one of the two major 'pleasure spots', he returned to the upper 'rough' area, making Kaname's chest bounce from his efforts, though he did not see this. However, he did not hear or feel any significant reactions by Kaname from his search, so he reluctantly resolved that he had to go deeper.

His two fingers carefully pushed themselves in as far as they would go. Kaname screamed hard, startling him with the sheer pleasure he heard, as well as from volume.

He still forged on, striving to locate that elusive 'G spot', though why it was named such when little connected it to such a name would forever elude him. He knew it would not be apparent just from feel, so he tried to 'stroke' at the same time, but this was taking quite some effort. Kaname's sounds and moans assaulted him all the while, both chipping away at his composure, and stunning him with the fact that he was enjoying them on some level.

"Ahaha!"

He paused, not moving his fingers. Was this the spot? He had felt a sudden few drops appear afterward, but was it a coincidence or not? Slowly, he 'stroked' the same spot where his fingers had been. Kaname's body jerked and she gasped, and suddenly the wetness became even wetter somehow, even as something had 'spurted' onto his fingers.

He again felt relieved, despite the sensation, and he noted the position of her spot; about 3 inches in, 0.125 centimeters to the left, and in an otherwise fairly innocuous location.

Despite knowing he wasn't done, he pulled his fingers out, needing some time to compose what was left of his resolve. As soon as he did so, Kaname's moan was out of pleasure and some reluctance, but was replaced by out-of-breath panting.

There were several things occupying his attention after that moment:

First was the matter of his fingers, which were coated in 'juices' and otherwise did not appeal to him, but he couldn't just wipe it on the bedsheets. Plus he hated to leave a stain on either of their bodies, but a 'twitch' from his genital struck him - didn't his genital need to be 'wet' too, for maximum ease in penetration? With heavy reluctance, he grasped his own hard genital, trying to work as much of the juices across it as possible. He hoped he wouldn't have to do this too often; it was not anything remotely in his expertise, or comfort.

Secondly, when he'd opened his eyes, he was startled by the sight he saw. Kaname lay on her bed, hair spread out from throwing her head back multiple times, arms and legs in a jumble, so to speak. She was panting heavily, eyes half-lidded and an expression that made him shiver slightly - he was startled, both that he shivered in the first place, and that he felt this was actually a good thing!

Third, when he slowly glanced at her genital, he saw that by all standards she was 'soaked'. He was stunned; he knew that what he'd done had been a simple inspection of sorts, surely inadequate, and not even a long length to the pleasuring. How was it possible that she was overflowing already?

Even as he struggled with all this, Kaname slowly stirred, though she continued to pant. "Sousuke" she breathed, looking at him, cheeks red and her expression 'hot' (for lack of any other word, and he wasn't even sure if it was the correct usage).

Her use of his name startled him out of his thoughts; it had been said in a tone that even he could only describe as 'wanting'.

"Sousuke" she breathed, lifting herself up and wrapping her arms around his neck, all in slightly jerky motions. "I love you."

She'd said it before, but all he did was continue to pant, as well as sweat.

"Sousuke" she breathed again, keeping her grip but also pushing herself closer, touching her wet genital just off-center of his own.

If he thought he'd been sweating before, it was nothing compared to now; the moment had finally arrived. He felt paralysis threaten to take him over, but with a grunt he fought it, hard. He was Sousuke Sagara, operator of the Arbalest, and student of Jindai Hight School; he would not be subdued by this kind of panic response ever again, not while others depended on him to do his best. The resulting conflict made his blood boil-

-and Kaname must have noticed: "Sousuke-"

"I'm fine" he said in a hurry, nearly rasping. "...or I will be" he added more calmly, after a few moments.

He did not see or hear her reaction, but he did feel it when she moved closer... and when she kissed him.

He was startled; he felt the standard pleasure-glazed symptoms in her kiss, but for the most part, this one was soft and loving (as far as he could tell).

"I understand - take your time." she breathed, slowly hugging herself against him.

He was left sitting there, amazed quite frankly. They were both sitting up completely naked, even had her chest pressed against his, but suddenly he felt calm again - the strangeness and the newness of the sensations were still present, but he was still 'okay'. If he understood Kaname correctly, she'd wait for him to recover, even over her own wants. He felt slightly confused, as many of these events simply did not make sense from a logical point-of-view. However, he remembered that this activity had very little in connection to logic - it was essentially pure want, pure emotions, something he was still unfamiliar with.

He slowly breathed out - he was doing it again; slipping into that over-analysis 'mode'.

Gathering up what remained of his resolve, he slowly slipped his arms around Kaname's back, which seemed to surprise her, especially when he gently pulled her head from the crook of his neck. "Sousuke?" she breathed, making a muffled gasp when his lips touched hers, and when his hands slowly wondered over her breasts and genital at later points.

Even as he slowly 'pushed' Kaname forward, her really getting into the kiss, he felt that her body was still 'ready', despite the time that had gone on without stimulation. He wasn't sure how, but that wasn't required.

Kaname broke the kiss when her back hit her bed, and she looked at him, he looking back evenly. Several seconds passed, then she managed a smile, slowly wrapping her hands around the back of his head with red cheeks, as well as adjusting her open legs on either side of his frame.

Taking this as a sign, he moved one hand downward, slowly grasping himself again with reluctance - still, he found that without it, inserting himself correctly would have been difficult. Kaname reacted with a hitch when he prodded her entrance, and both of them started panting again for different reasons.

"Ugh, just do it already!"

For some strange reason, this sudden outburst relieved him; that was definitely Kaname right there.

He pushed himself forward slowly, and Kaname gasped, her grip tightening as she squirmed. He made an incoherent sound as well when her genital squeezed him with far greater force than he'd anticipated, rendering him incapable of comprehending anything except just how great this was! He went in as far as was allowed, an act that caused Kaname to cry out loudly, than start panting, with a mixture of both pleasure and pain. He thought he should adjust himself, but he remembered that moving at this stage would just make things worse - just in time too. So, he kept himself utterly still, trying to process everything, and failing.

Time passed slowly for him, but eventually, he noted that the pain aspect of Kaname's panting was disappearing. Then she gave a little cry that startled him: "Kaname?"

"Oh" she breathed in a strange tone, eyes half-lidded, but not aimed at him. "This feels really good, better than I ever imagined it to be..."

He realized she was talking to herself more than him, so he slowly thought to himself, then gave her a brief kiss. "I agree" he managed to say.

It took her a second to register this, then she looked at him. "Well? What are you waiting for?"

He did not know, but he didn't think she'd like an answer in this case - so he slowly planted his hands underneath his own frame, on either side of Kaname. Merely to test the motion, he slowly pulled out almost all the way and went 'back in' only slightly faster. It was an exceedingly simple motion, but the sensations strongly resurged, making his breath hitch imperceptibly (and Kaname to gasp). Still testing, he repeated this motion several times at a slow rate, with no pauses whatsoever - but even this gave him the urge to pant.

As he went along this test, Kaname squirmed and breathed out at his motions, one hand moving to where their bodies were joined. "Ah, Mmph."

If he interpreted that correctly, she desired more, and he knew he'd eventually have to comply if he was to accomplish his objective.

So he did.

Kaname cried out, panting even as her body bounced hard.

She never would have believed Sousuke was capable of this, or that he made her feel like she was on fire, even as she taught him about it! His every movement had been hesitant and unsure, but also calculating and part of a larger plan; she'd felt all of that and more from the moment they'd started. But yet again he surprised her, and she was overjoyed deep, deep down. But it was more than that - she was thoroughly enjoying this, and not just the pleasure; the fact that she could be openly soft and loving, something that had been denied her by her past.

If she weren't pleasure-glazed, she might have tried to keep it under by instinct. But she was.

All this passed through her brain in a second, and then another burst of pleasure rocked her, making her gasp.

She clung to Sousuke's neck as he worked, him grunting every now and then, but it made her blush. And after she got his rhythm down, she tried to return the favor, pushing her hips back and forth against him. Her first attempts failed miserably, but eventually she did it a few times in a row, and it surprised Sousuke - but he did not stop. Nor would she have allowed him to stop.

Gah! Oh that one felt good, and she tightened her grip around his neck.

How long this went on, she wasn't sure, but eventually she felt this becoming slightly worn - and Sousuke appeared not to notice.

"Stop" she rasped, crying out after that. "Sousuke, stop!"

Heavily startled, Sousuke did so. "Kaname-?" he breathed, as near a rasp as she'd ever heard from him.

"Flip me" she breathed out. The loss of his thrusts made her feel desperate; another thing she'd try to deny.

He looked at her, sweating, panting a little and utterly nonplussed. It wasn't until she's said "Positions!" that his expression had cleared somewhat, after a few seconds. Then he took her left leg and tried to pull it over to his left (her right), criss-crossing her legs, moving with a knowledge that he'd seen-but-not-tried-himself. His first two attempts made her cry out, as she didn't twist that way, but the third managed to turn her to her side. After that, she mostly turned herself over, now on her hands and knees. "Don't stop now!"

A slight 'Uh' from him, then he carefully gripped her hips, starting to move again after several long moments.

The pleasure she'd been feeling came back, only stronger and white-hot now.

Oh yes! Oh yes yes!

Crying out hard ("Ah!), she flung one hand back behind her, grasping twice before she managed a good grip on Sousuke's leg (the touch startled him). This made it even easier to push her hips back against Sousuke, sending thrills down her spine! Still, despite all the pleasure she was feeling, one aspect kept distracting her - her bouncing chest. Big as she was, it merely felt strange... her first instinct was to have Sousuke hold them, and be a win-win, but another told her that'd make it harder for him (smaller detail for later).

Luckily, she still had one free arm - so after a couple of unsteady tries, she managed to keep a grip on them. And as she did this, her back lifted up a bit, changing the angle a little and increasing her pleasure! Oh yes!

This went on for a long while. She'd thought/felt at some point that the positions should change again (maybe something a little more 'outrageous'), but she also felt that'd be another smaller detail in the way. Best keep it simple, she reluctantly decided amongst all the pleasure, somehow.

Eventually, Sousuke's 'thing' did something peculiar... which she realized was actually tightening.

"So-Ah! Mmph! Sousuke!" she cried out, panting. "Stop!"

She had to say it a second time for him to hear, but yet again, he was startled into stillness. This time he merely panted, but she didn't blame him - or really care at this point. "Position" she breathed out, also finding it hard to breathe, even as she turned to her side carefully. "Back to- to before."

He didn't respond, but after she'd turned to her side (a position that made their 'joining' extremely tight), he slowly worked with her leg again. This time, he'd only twisted her the wrong way once, and only slightly at that. When her back hit the bed, she looked up - and she saw his expression: a sweat that had nothing to do with temperature, and an expression that was beyond stunned, about the pleasure. She panted a little, then pulled him down into a kiss.

"Mmph" Sousuke breathed out in response to this.

"Go on. Now."

He slowly held her around the shoulders, and briefly broke their kiss before she desperately pulled him back down and would not let him go, to his surprise. After he registered this, the thrusts resumed after an eternity, making her gasp into his mouth (oh yes!). He did not attempt to remove his mouth again, but neither did he attempt to kiss her back - at least until she started sucking on his lip, which was hard during 'this'. During their uneven kiss, Sousuke continued to 'tighten', while she only felt a slightly-mounting pleasure, amidst the hot sensations.

Whether consciously or not, Sousuke's pace increased the closer he got, which caused her to gasp and cry out as he rammed into her. "Sousuke!"

He grunted, apparently frustrated about something. "Kaname" he breathed back.

She cried out, feeling him tighten even further - then hit his edge.

This sensation rocked Sousuke, causing him to gasp, his sudden size increase inside rubbing her the right way before he hurriedly withdrew. She couldn't help the desperate cry at that, only to slump against the bed, panting hard. Oh god, that had all felt so good!

Because of the sudden exhaustion, she couldn't move, and she couldn't see where Sousuke was... but she did feel it when the bed moved under his weight. After a moment, half-opening her eyes, she glanced to her left.

Sousuke lay beside her, his whole body in a sweat, and his (dazed) expression focused on something way beyond the ceiling.

"...You did it" she breathed softly, feeling all kinds of warm.

He blinked slowly, or did the motion. "I did not think such sensations existed before" he whispered faintly.

She found his hand, somehow, and squeezed it. "But you've learned" she whispered.

"I have" he answered, slowly turning to look at her, only to stop. "I am... I am falling asleep."

"...huh?"

His voice got a touch of confusion, and his eyes started to close, which he struggled against. "I can't fall asleep now" he muttered to himself, increasingly faint. "I still have many q-questions to ask, and things... to do..."

All that followed after that was the sound of his breathing. His eyes stayed closed.

Unable to process this, she just looked at Sousuke, still feeling a subdued warm.

Before she fell asleep though, she remembered saying something playful, something along the lines of: "I always thought I'd be the one who fell asleep first..."

Even during this, Sousuke's core being will never change lol

Still, we're almost done here, so one left to go.