Chapter 11

Nick's POV

Demi had gone home last night, only to think I wish she had stayed the night.

But she didn't have clean clothes and had to leave due to her having a busy day of photoshoots, which sucked because I had the whole day off until tonight.

But she said she could see me in the afternoon, which I guess makes up for it a little.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't doing the play, and she wasn't doing photshoots and interviews, and we weren't famous. I wish we could give it up and just hang out like any other person would do on another beautiful day. I wish we could just hang out at the beach, splashing water at each other and building sandcastles.

But today was a busy day, and I had to make my fans happy. Which I guess is more important, in some ways. Plus, it's not like meeting them is a chore... I just would love to spend more time with Demi.

I can be selfish once in awhile! Does it hurt? Not much.

Anyway, aside the business of both our lives, I'm also kind of dreading the conversation I'm going to be having with mom, dad and my brothers. I mean, maybe Joe will be okay... and mom, and well yeah, Frankie won't mind... but I don't know, I still worry Joe could get annoyed. And Kev, well he'll defend Joe like always. And dad, well he's kind of the reason I haven't spoken to Demi in so long.

I mean, I love my family. But sometimes... they can really piss me off.

Well, the only 2 that don't are Frankie and mom. They're a whole lot more understanding than Joe, Kev and dad.

I don't get why they can't be understanding as well.

What the hell did Demi do except go into treatment in the middle of the tour?

And even then that wasn't her fault. People weren't helping when she was in the terrible state that she was hiding away from everyone.

Okay yeah, maybe people honestly didn't know that Demi was hurting, but some of them were so unbelievably insensitive and should have known when it was time to leave her alone or when they were being rude.
I know Joe wasn't intentionally trying to hurt Demi when he was with Ashley, but he still should have thought about her feelings. I guess Joe didn't realise how much Demi was in pain.

Thankfully Joe wasn't the problem... well, he was only a tiny bit.

Demi didn't go into treatment because of him, because she is stronger than that. I'm sure if she hadn't had a lot of shit happen to her, she wouldn't have be as sensitive as she became. She wouldn't have broken down, and she wouldn't have gone to treatment.

Maybe me and her would be together? I don't know.

I kinda wish that didn't happen though. I wish she didn't go to treatment, I wish she didn't cut or purge, I wish she didn't get bullied by those nasty people. I wish that she could have been mine way before Joe and for all I know, could still be with me when we started a relationship at 16. Maybe if Demi wasn't going through her troubles, I wouldn't have dated Selena!

But I dated Selena for all the wrong reasons like the idiot I was.

I only dated Selena to make Demi jealous. I only dated Selena to get over Miley. I only dated Selena because I couldn't have Demi. And yes, I was an ass for doing that.

But I've learnt now, I've learnt how dumb I was.

I've learnt that the only thing I could do now is be patient.

Because Demi told me she wants me, but she wants to wait.

I'm fine with that, because knowing she wants me is enough.

Knowing that she is prepared to take the leap soon, means that we'll be together, and that it might not be much longer of a wait. And hell, I've waited 4 years, I can wait a year or so more.

If I'm lucky, I might not even need to wait a year!

But it's Demi decision, and she needs help before she even decides to rush into a relationship that could break into pieces.

I know that Demi won't be easy all the time, but I'm prepared to deal with that. Whatever it takes, I'm staying by her side.

I fucking love her, and no one is changing my mind.

When you love someone, you're prepared to do anything. And that's how I feel.

This may sound cliche, but I would die for her.

If someone threatened to kill her, (which is very unlikely) I would glad stand in the way and let them try and get through me first.

Like I said, it may sound cliche... but it's the truth.

I would do anything for her.

I'm even considering marrying her... you know, if she wanted to marry me.

But sometimes I doubt that, because she can't possibly love me the same way I love her.

This is actually hard to say, but I love her just as much as my brothers... maybe even a little more. I don't know, but I do love her enough that I would do anything for her.

But she's not a really demanding woman, so I know I wouldn't need to do a ton for her.

To be honest, she trusts me so much, I could do almost anything and she'll understand why I need to do it.

Aside her issues, she's pretty much perfect for me.

But for some reason, it feels like I'm the only one who sees how amazing she really is.

I just hope to god her fans see her as she is too.

I'm sure they do, otherwise they would have left her side a long time ago.

But Kevin and Joe didn't see how she is, so they left her. I guess Kevin also did because he had Danielle to distract his mind for a while, and even now she's his everything, and nothing else matters anymore.

Joe? Well, he doesn't really have an excuse. He had Ashley distract him for a little bit, but now there's nothing to stop him from being friends with her like they used to be.

But both of them are being ignorant as hell still.

And you know what?

It's fucking unnecessary.
They're being kind of childish, and if I don't say something... they won't get it.

It's weird because even though they're older than me, somehow I turned out to be the maturest.

I mean Frankie's more mature than them for christ sake!

But anyway, I guess I can't let my brothers decide what's best for me.

I already had a few discussions about this, but they wouldn't stay calm.

We haven't spoke about Demi for a long time.

It's been a good year since we have discussed her issues and such.

They're being really dismissive, tense and suddenly quiet whenever I bring them up.

But enough's enough... they're going to have to chat about Demi to me wherever they like it or not. Especially the day when me and Demi decide we may be starting a relationship.

And if they're against me and Demi together, I won't care because it's not their say to date who I want to date. I'm just going to inform them and let them fight to the battle about it, but I would steady myself to prepare for whatever grief I'm going to get.

If I'm lucky, they could be mature about this whole situation for once... considering it has been a year and they could have changed how they feel now.

But to be honest I doubt it. I wish they would, but I can't let my hope get mixed with what the reality really is... they can't deal with Demi because of her issues.

They feel guilty for being crappy towards her and can't face up to their mistake.

Why? Because they're being my cowardly brothers.

I wish I didn't have them as brothers sometimes... because they judge me for my actions far too many times. Okay sure, I judge them for their actions sometimes, but they really think that most of the decisions I make are stupid. They've always thought that my mind goes down the drain when it comes to Demi.

But they have the nerve to judge me when they don't exactly make the best choices.

To be honest, I think we should just give advice to one another... or just back up each other's decision even if they don't agree because things would be a lot easier and then we'd all learn from our mistakes because what's the point in avoiding mistakes? We never learn if we do that.
My brothers overprotect me, and they have to stop doing that.

They protect me more than my own mother does! That's definitely saying something.

I know they might mean well... but they just make matters worse.

They just don't understand... they really don't understand.

Out of nowhere, a knock on my door jumped me out of my thoughts.

I walked up to it, "Who is it?"

"Erm.. it's Dallas."

I frowned. Dallas? What on earth could she be doing here?

Not that I didn't want her here, it just surprises me she knew where I was staying. I guess Demi must have told her in case she needed to speak to me, and I suppose this is one of those strange times.

I opened the door and gave her a smile, "Hi Dallas, it's a surprise to see you here. What's up?"

She gave me a polite, weak smile. "Can I come in?" She asks.

I open the door wider for her to get in, stretching my arm out as a gesture for her to be welcomed in.

She walks in, looking round at my hotel suite.

"A really nice suite you've got it. I'm guessing this is just temporary?"

"It's where I stay when I come to New York. It's reserved especially for me."

She nods, still looking around... seeming quite impressed.

I ask gingerly, "So... what's brought you here?"

"I've come to talk to you about Demi."

"Right. What about her?"

Dallas sits down on my sofa. "Well, I just wanted to ask a few things."

"Go on..."

"Erm... well how do I start? I guess I wanted to know how you feel about her."

"Well, I care about her very much if that's what you wanted to hear."

"Mmhmm... and, do you... love her?"

I sigh, biting my lip. "Yes, very much so."

"Are you sure about that?"

I frown slightly, "Of course Dallas, do you not believe me?"

"No it's not that I don't believe you... it's just... are you willing to cope with her?"

"Are you kidding? I would do anything for your sister!" She has no idea.

"Okay, okay... but one last question."

"Yeah, shoot."

"Do you want to have sex with her?"

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Did I hear what she just said?