Lost

Chapter 11

Thank you for all your reviews. Sorry no smut again… It just sounds stupid if I write it!

Ranger and I took a very long earth shattering shower. I could get use to showering with him every day. I reached for the shampoo but he grabbed it from me and started to wash my hair. It was heavenly. "Are you going to do this every time we fight? Because if you are I might try to fight with you more often."

"Or we could just shower together every morning Babe." He suggested.

"Are you going to drive to my apartment every morning to get me out of bed to shower with me?" I asked him trying to be a wise ass.

"Well actually I was more thinking you could wake up here every morning." Oh was that all. Wait back the truck up! Did he just say he wants me to wake up here every morning? Like move in with him wake up here every morning? "Yeah Babe like you move in here."

"Out loud?" I asked him still stunned. I really need to learn how to use my internal voice.

"Yeah Babe all of that was out loud. I am serious though will you move in with me?" He stopped moving his hands through my hair while waiting for my answer.

"You are sure you really want me to move in with you?" This was still not quite computing in my head.

"Yes Babe I really want you to move in here with me. I love you and I want you to be the first person I see when I wake up in the morning and the last person I see when I go to bed at night. Stephanie please move in here with me. After the past two nights with you here and knowing I will never be called away again I can't imagine having to sleep without you again."

"Yes I will move in here but I don't want to get rid of my apartment right away. Maybe it could be our place to get away from here when you don't have to work in the morning? At least until my lease is over in six months and then I will be done with it." He started scrubbing my scalp again.

"I think that is a great idea. Maybe after your lease is up we can look somewhere else for a getaway home? Rinse you hair so I can put the conditioner in it."

"You are really all in now aren't you?" I asked him as I rinsed my hair.

"Yes I am. Are you all in?" He asked as he ran the conditioner through my hair.

"I've been all in for a long time now Ranger I was just afraid to admit it." I turned around to face him. "I'm sorry I yelled at you in the gym. I was scared and I should have thought about what I was saying."

"Babe I should be the one apologizing. I should have never grabbed you like that." He picked up the wrist he grabbed and looked at it then dropped it. I could see a dark look come over his eyes. I looked at my wrist and it was a little red but nothing that would stay like that and to be honest I could barely notice it. I looked at Ranger and he looked even more broken. The tears were starting to pour down his face. I wrapped my arms around his neck but he seemed pretty inconsolable. "I knew I would hurt you that is why I have stayed so distant for so long. I can't do this Babe." Oh hell no, this is not fucking happening right now; he is not going to do this shit.

"Carlos we are not doing this." I skipped the whole Ranger thing because it has gotten me nowhere the past three days. "You didn't hurt me when you grabbed me. It hurts me seeing you like this and I hate when you shut me out." He finally wrapped his arms around me and held me like he was afraid I would run away.

"I am so sorry Babe. I am so, so sorry. I love you please don't leave." He was whispered as he was kissing me. I could hear the tears in his voice.

"I love you too. Shhhh, I'm not going anywhere. It's okay I promise you didn't hurt me." I said as I was rubbing his shoulders. He was so tense. He really thought I was going to leave. Eventually his tension melted away and he kissed my cheek.

"Thank you Babe."

"Feel better?"

"Surprisingly yes I do feel better. Lets go upstairs both of us look like prunes." I looked down at our hands wow we look like Grandma Mazur. "Babe NEVER say that again. I just don't want to picture that!"

"Eww I said that out loud didn't I?" He started laughing and not just a little laugh it was a full blown chest rattling laugh.

"Yeah Babe you said that out loud and it was not something I wanted to picture!" With that we got dressed and headed up stairs.