A/N: This story is taking a different turn a new direction. And to be honest I do not know how I feel about it.
Disclaimer: The characters are not mine, sadly.
(Edward POV)
I tugged at my hair. "Yes… No? I don't know. Why are we talking about this?"
"Just curious. You don't have to tell me." Bella whispered as she traced my jaw line.
"I'd rather not talk or think about anything that happened before I met you." I said honestly. "I just… don't."
"Okay. Then lets talk about us." Bella said, changing the subject. "Where do you see us in ten years?"
"Uh, is that a trick question?" I asked in reply. Bella shook her head, no. "Here?"
"You want to stay here? Always?" She asked me and brushed her fingertips on my cheek.
"I've never thought about going anywhere else." I admitted. "Even though I'm not that well known here and from what I am known for isn't good, it's still where I live. Even if I don't have that many friends."
"Would you move?" My wife asked nervously. I didn't want her to be nervous with me; I wanted her to be able to tell me anything.
I slowly nodded. "Well, yeah… If you wanted to, I'd do anything. Go anywhere…"
Something clicked in my mind then.
"Do you want to move?" I accused.
Bella looked down at her lap. She was on my lap, on the front porch, on our newer bench made of wood. I looked down at Bella's hands that she was fidgeting. "You do?"
"I was thinking…" She slurred. "It might help."
"Help what?" I questioned. "Please explain because I am deadly confused."
"It would help us." Bella started to explain.
"With what?" I demanded in as soft of a tone as I could manage.
"Everything." She murmured in reply. I tightened my arms around her and pulled her tighter to me.
"What do you mean?" I asked in a whisper.
"We both have a lot going on you could say. Our past just knocks on our door everyday and there isn't much here except… dread."
"We just sit around in apprehension. I don't like it." Bella admitted.
"How long have you been thinking like this?" I asked her warily. I put my finger under her chin and got her to look up at me, knowing her eyes would show her emotion. She looked… nervous?
"A few months." She tried to look past me but I kept making eye contact with her.
"You want to move." I said more to myself, as though I was trying to comprehend it. "Angel, you should have told me a long time ago."
She looked away. "You aren't mad?"
"Why would I be mad?" I asked completely dumbstruck.
"This is your home… And I just want to leave it." Bella murmured and I barely heard her from the wind rustling the trees. I watched her pull her sweater over her shoulders further to block out the chill. I brushed some stray hairs away from her forehead before placing a kiss to her forehead.
"Bella, you are my home." I whispered. "Always."
I looked around the yard. "This is just… land. And a cabin… It never treated me like a home. It was just where I resided and stayed alone. I'm not alone anymore."
"But you like it here." Bella accused.
"Not so much anymore." I told her honestly.
"What?" She looked at me.
"Here it's so secluded. Where I spent my time alone and as I said, I'm not alone anymore. I have you… It just makes this place seem cold. And even though it's filled with our love and happiness, it's still a secluded cabin." I tried to explain the best I could.
My brain works in strange ways and I certainly wasn't used to explaining myself.
Bella played with the collar of my shirt. "But Alice…"
I shrugged. "Truth is, I've spent most of my life without her. The important years… She left me and came back years later expecting everything to be the same. Bella, nothing holds us here. It's our choice and no one else's."
"Where would we go?" Bella asked.
"We don't have to leave instantly." I answered. Inside, I couldn't believe I was talking about moving. About leaving.
The cabin has been my house for so long, it was where I ran too. Where I could hide. It's a strange feeling not having to hide anymore and to be part of the world for once.
It felt great actually.
I kissed Bella's forehead. "We can look into places, homes. It would be nice not having to drive two hours to get to the nearest grocery store. To the nearest town…"
Bella laughed and I felt her body wiggle from it. "That would be nice."
"To have neighbours." The words slipped out.
"You miss that?" Bella asked me.
I nodded and for some reason I blushed. "Yeah, I miss people. Nice people."
"It would be nice to have a neighbourhood. People around us, and kids." Bella murmured into my neck.
I swallowed.
Kids.
Was I ready to talk to her about that?
Perhaps she noticed my uneasiness. "What is it hubs?"
"Nothing."
"Don't lie to me." She kissed my neck. "Did the word kids bug you?"
"I don't know. I haven't seen a kid in a long time." I chuckled trying to play over with a joke.
"Well, do you want kids?" Bella asked me slowly.
Kids. With Bella.
I could picture I little child running around, laughing. Having Bella and I watching in amusement.
Being in a neighbourhood. Having people around.
Kids.
In a small house on a nice street with green grass and a garden since Bella loved to plant. A front porch where we all could watch the night sky and talk… And be a family.
It would be a fresh start.
Sprinklers in the front yard in the summertime while our child ran through them squealing. Teaching my own child how to ride a bike.
Because I never did, I taught myself.
"What do you think you're doing?" Ally asked. "That doesn't look like how you ride a bike…"
I shook my head before another flashback found it's way into my head. I wouldn't let the damn past ruin my happiness. A good reason to move…
I've been doing well, Bella's been with me a lot and I haven't had nightmares or flashbacks. I've been thinking a lot.
And even though I never told Bella, a family was something on my mind a lot lately.
I just didn't think about moving. Now to think of it, it was a perfect idea.
Anyways.
Bella and I didn't have normal, fun, childhoods.
Damn it, giving the kid a childhood Bella and I never had would be perfect.
Having Bella by my side always.
Shit.
I yearned for that.
I needed to have that. To have that with the only person right for me.
Bella.
"Edward, tell me what you're thinking." Bella placed her hands on either side of my face.
"I… want that." I paused between each word." I looked at her again and instantly pictured a little girl just like Bella. I smiled.
"Want what?" Bella asked. "Kids?"
"A family." I nodded. "Us."
"Good." Bella replied. "Because I do too."
"First… we have to move." I smiled.
"You know," Bella sat up in my lap. "It would be nice to have a computer at a time like this."
"We may not have a computer." I stood up with her in my arms. "But we do have the newspaper."
…
"Dude, you know Alice is gonna kill you. Rose will kill ya too. Poker night won't be the same. I'm not gay but I will miss ya." Emmett nodded to Rosalie and Bella who were in the living room talking over a cup of coffee. Emmett and I were in the kitchen as I just handed him a beer. I took a water bottle out for myself.
"I know." I looked down at my water bottle. I twisted the cap until it came off and took a sip. I put the cap back on and swallowed before continuing. "I just think it's best for Bella and I. This isn't our neighbourhood. Hell, it isn't even a neighbourhood. A random house in the middle of the woods and that's just not right for a married couple."
"When you were alone it was perfect though eh?" Emmett asked and popped off the lid on his beer bottle.
"Yeah, I guess. Lonesome, just like I was." I shrugged and Emmett and I walked out to the porch to sit in the brisk air.
"I'm happy for ya now. Beautiful wife…" Emmett nodded. "Not lonely anymore are you?"
And just when you think Emmett is being serious he waggles his eyebrows suggestively.
I smirked. "Not really."
"When are you moving?" Emmett asked.
"As soon as possible." I kept playing with the lid on my water bottle.
"And you won't move to the closest town?" He asked hopefully.
I shook my head. "Sorry, nah. That's not what we're interested in. Those towns are horrendous actually. Remind me of the past… Not a place to raise a family."
Emmett choked on his beer and sat forward coughing. He lowered his voice. "Shit, Bee isn't pregnant is she?"
I chuckled. "Nope." My mouth popped on the 'p'.
Not yet anyways.
"Good, and you're using precautions…" Emmett babbled.
"Damn it, Emmett. I don't need the damn sex talk from ya." I shook my head incredulous. "You're crazy."
"Just making sure. I don't want it to be that the next time I hear from ya Bella is on her eighteenth kid." He shook his head in almost pure disgust.
"Don't get carried away." I joked and took another drink of my water.
"Rose is gonna miss Bee. Rose is a stubborn bitch at times. Okay, I didn't say that… Well she is." He argued with himself. "But she gets along with Bee. She doesn't with Ally so what the hell. It's going to be hard to get a guys night now."
"Sorry." I said without emotion.
I wasn't really sorry.
I actually couldn't wait to get out of town.
"What are you going to do with the house?" Emmett asked.
"Well seeing that I didn't legally buy it, that it was abandoned and I just intruded… I'll leave it that way." I shrugged. "Bella and I wouldn't need the money from selling it."
"True, true." Emmett nodded. "So… You're going to be like a normal dude for once?"
"Trying." I nodded.
"How's that working?" Emmett asked.
"I like it." I told him.
"So when ya move are ya getting a job or something?" He asked.
"Didn't think that through yet. We didn't even get a house or choose a neighbourhood." I admitted. "We've only discussed it a few days ago."
"What places do ya like?" Emmett asked curiously.
"Well I was talking to this guy who's a realtor and he's buddy built a few houses from scratch. He described one house that just fit the picture and it's new, so it's not like someone lived there. It's pretty awesome." I explained. "It's not modern either, just a typical house which Bella likes."
"Where is this perfect house?" Emmett set his beer down and looked at me. "How far away?"
"Plainview
. That's the town. Not even twenty thousand people there." I quickly said. "But we're just looking into there… It's nothing official."
Yet.
"Not even twenty thousand people." Emmett scoffed. "That's a big leap. These towns don't even have two thousand people. And where you live now… The woods have you and Bella and a shit load of animals."
I laughed at that. "True. But, I can't explain it. Plainview
, it just kind of sounds right."
"How far?" Emmett asked warily. "'Cause Rose and I are definitely visiting!"
"About eight hours." I looked at my lap.
"Only eight hours, awesome." Emmett's voice leaked with sarcasm.
Suddenly the front door flew open and Rosalie ran outside. "Is this true, Edward?"
Bella came out after her and we made eye contact. She bit her lip. I opened my arms and she slowly passed Rosalie, making her way to me and sitting on my lap.
"You have to be more specific Rose." I admitted and wrapped my arms around Bella.
"You're moving." She mouthed.
"Yeah." Emmett's the one who answered. "That's what Ed and I were just talking about."
"But…" Rosalie stuttered. "Emmett guess what?"
"What?" He asked dumbly.
"We're moving too!" She said seriously.
Bella giggled.
"Babe, my jobs here." Emmett said. "You can't just have some damn thought pop in your head…"
"Well discuss this later." Rosalie smiled.
"Shit, something's going down." Emmett looked at the ground.
…
It has green grass, a porch.
Soon it will have a sold sign in front of it.
I just knew it.
I watched my wife as she gazed around.
"So here it is… Two bedrooms an office, an ensuite from the master bedroom, a finished basement though it's pretty small. Uh the kitchen has new appliances and the living room has new carpets…"
Greg, our realtor continued to speak but to be honest he had me sold with the green grass.
I had to pretend I wasn't interested though, right? I couldn't easily give in.
"Lets take a look inside." We walked up the path that let to the steps to the porch and finally the front door. There was a window on either side of the front door. Greg used a key to unlock a door before letting us inside. Bella and I walked inside first, hand in hand as we looked around.
No upstairs, I liked that.
The living room was first inside and it was open and spacious, it led to the dinning room, which was connected to the kitchen. It was great I could already picture our wedding photos hanging on the walls.
"The walls were painted neutral colours since the designer didn't want a theme that attracted only certain crowds. They could easily be repainted. The baseboards are nice too, just painted white to give contrast." Greg said from behind us.
"I love it." Bella murmured into my ear.
She wasn't picky at all. Neither was I.
"The neighbourhood is great. There's a school about a block away and kids are all around here. Not to noisy and not by any main streets so it's not loud with traffic. The grocery store is in the centre of town, and so is the gas station." Greg continued to explain. "Here, this way is the hallway.
We followed him down the hallway that wasn't near as narrow as the one back at the cabin. "To the left is the bathroom and the first door on your right is a bedroom. You know, guest room or kids room."
It was strange, now every time I heard the word kid or child my stomach did this little eager flip flop of happiness. Not that I mind.
"Ah, down here at the end of the hall is the master. Very spacious." Greg opened the white door and we all walked inside. "The windows are nice and since the backyard is fenced in the windows don't ruin privacy."
I chuckled.
"A king bed could easily fit in here." Bella noted and I knew she too was picturing our belongings inside the room. Even a bookshelf would fit since I knew Bella wanted one.
"The ensuite bathroom is right here." Greg pointed to a door. "Go inside if you want."
Bella and I walked over to the door hand-in-hand and I opened it.
"Pretty good size." I nodded.
"Ooh, a claw foot tub." Bella smiled. "I like that."
It had a tiled shower and a floor with two bathroom mats. The walls were a beige colour. It was really, really nice.
"It's so nice." My wife awed. "I love it."
She loves it too.
Okay, where's the sold sign?
"Now," Greg walked into the bathroom. "We can go to the finished basement and talk budget if you want."
I nodded and led Bella out of the bathroom.
This house, this neighbourhood, this town… It was all worth the eight-hour drive.
I certainly didn't want to go to a hotel for the night and drive back to the cabin in the morning, I just wanted to stay at this place.
This house with the green grass and the porch.
…
"We can't just pack up our things and leave Edward." Bella giggled tugging on my arm as I opened an empty suitcase that was on top of our bed. "Though I love how excited you are for this."
I stopped my movements and faced Bella. I wrapped my arms around her and picked her up tossing her to the bed gently. I instantly hovered over her and kissed her face all over. "Yes, I am very, very excited."
Excitement - A feeling of great enthusiasm and eagerness.
A new feeling for me but still an amazing feeling, I looked down at Bella under me and kissed the tip of her nose.
"I can't wait to get out of here." I whispered into her ear.
"But hubs." Bella gasped mockingly. "You pictures us here for the next ten years. That's quite some time."
I chuckled. "Yes but you opened my eyes love. This isn't the right place for us."
"You get to tell Alice." Bella looked up at me with a mischievous smirk. "Unless Rose already told."
It's been a week since Emmett and Rosalie have been here. Funny thing, Bella and I had no intention of telling them we were planning on moving –well that we are moving- it just slipped from both of us. That's how excited we were.
Alice still doesn't know…
"If Rosalie told I bet Ally would be on our doorstep with a hammer and nails sealing us inside." I kissed her cheek. "So I think we're good if we make a run for it right now."
Bella giggled. "You know," She turned serious. "We aren't just picking up and leaving. We're telling Ally."
"I know." I breathed.
"I can't believe how easy it is to move." Bella sighed. "Well for us it is. We aren't picky on houses. We just need to buy one now."
"Hey, the realtor liked me." I smirked and bit my tongue.
"Liked?" Bella gasped. "You mean."
"What?" I asked with a smirk.
"Did we…" My wife stuttered.
"We got the house angel." I smiled and kissed her lips. She squealed against my mouth and I stifled a laugh.
She pulled back and smiled ear to ear. "We're moving."
"And seeing that no one lived there previously, it's all ready to move in. We just need to get there." I explained. "As I said, the realtor actually really liked me. And he lives in the neighbourhood so I actually know a guy."
"Plainview." Bella mouthed.
"Perfect." I kissed her cheeks.
…
"So nice to see you again guys!" Ally tugged at Bella and I, hugging us tightly. I breathed in deeply and looked at Bella. She looked nervous. We both wondered how Alice would take the news. I knew that Jasper would be happy for us and understand completely but Alice… well she's rather selfish.
And I had a feeling she'd want us to stay.
I wouldn't though; I was done with that, with listening to her.
"Ditto." Bella smiled and walked over to hug Jasper. He looked at me warily as though he knew I was hiding something. Sometimes he just knew how everyone felt. Their emotions… It was weird. I tried to smile but it came out weakly. I wouldn't let it ruin my mood though. I was happy to leave and nothing and no one was going to stop that.
Maybe they'll be like Emmett and Rosalie.
I doubted that.
"So what's up?" Alice asked once we were all on the couch. I shrugged.
"How are you and Jasper?" I asked easily. Bella clasped my knee and squeezed it tightly. Was that a rude question?
"Pretty good now." Jasper nodded. "We've been talking about our future a lot lately."
Alice clicked her tongue.
"Us too." Bella said and I knew she was smiling.
"Yeah?" Alice asked. "What do you see in the near future?"
"We want a family." I said happily. My stomach did that somersault flip-flop of happiness inside of me again.
A family in Plainview, my smile grew.
"Really?" Alice gasped. "Really, really?"
"Yeah." I watched my wife nod. "We are actually looking forward to that."
Jasper chuckled but frowned. "That's great you two."
I looked at him cautiously.
"Yeah, Jasper and I don't really want a family right now." Alice spoke.
Jasper's frown deepened. "Even though we've been married for two years…"
Alice shot him a look. "Okay, I don't want a family."
"I'm just saying…" Jasper shrugged. "I like babies."
Bella and I laughed but Alice rolled her eyes.
Jasper sighed. "One day."
It was awkwardly silent for a while until Jasper spoke up. "So how are you too going to get a room for a family? Where will the kid go to school?"
"Uh… that's what we wanted to talk about with you guys." Bella said nervously. I used my free hand that wasn't around her to tug at my hair.
"What is it?" Jasper asked instantly.
"Bella and I are moving." I managed to say.
A/N: Ah! They're moving! How do you feel about that? Oh and Plainview isn't based off a real town or anything.
Review please!