Here we go with chapter 11!

Elesis

I ran to my room crying, why? Why did I have to enjoy killing? Why did I have to become a miserable wreck? Why couldn't I just stay home, in the past with my friends, my brother, and my father? How did it become like this? How did I become like this?

I'm a pathetic fool, I'm a disgusting ugly serial killer, I should be glad that I'm leaving soon... So why does it hurt? Why do I still want to stay? So many questions stayed in my mind, I can't get rid of them. The most strongest questions were, why did mom hate me so much? Why did I become friends with people if I was only going to injure them?

I stared at the calender, Thursday, today is the last day... I blinked back the tears, I can't move school just yet, but I can move dorms, tomorrow, I'll move far away. Then they can't ever find me, they will be safe from me. A sigh escaped my lips, no... wait... I didn't sigh...

I looked up and my eyes widened in shock, Add... Everyone... Add smiled at me, "Hey El, get up. You're not leaving us." I blinked and sharply looked away, the Add I knew would get hurt, or even cry. He would leave and give up in situations like these, and that was exactly what I was hoping to happen.

However I didn't hear any movements to leave, I heard footsteps getting closer. A had was placed on my chin and someone forced me to look up. Small tears were forming in my eyes, as the hand let go. I wanted to yell for him to come back, even though I wouldn't, because I thought he would leave. But no, he didn't leave. He stayed. With that determined look in his eyes.

His stubborness changed, no he still had the same old stubborness. I changed. I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks, to the floor, but I didn't care, no. All I cared was about what was in front of me. Add smiling kindly with a hand stretched out. He grinned, "Come on El, let's live life like the old days."

I stood up, my head tilted down. I cried out loud, "No!" I screamed. "You're too late! Way too late! You never cared did you?! I'm leaving tomorrow, there is no going back, how?! Why?! Why do you make it so hard to believe we are friends?! Weren't we friends?! Aren't we friends?! I though I was your friend... Someone you could believe in someone you could cast your worries to, even if it's about each other... But no. No! You never cared, it was only a onesided friendship, I had thought we were the best of friendds Add, I thought..."

I looked away a small blush appearing on my face, "I thought we could be something... I wrong wasn't I?" Add looked slightly startled, but he spoke in a calm tone angering me more, "El-" Then I ran, ran out yelling, "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I ran away, knowing that I saw my 'friends' disappointed looks, Els's disagreeing glare, yet Add had his bangs covering his eyes, I couldn't see it. I couldn't see his face.

Once I was out of breath someone far away and secluded, I rethought what had happened, I let my emotions take over me again... The more I thought about it, the more grief and regret was dumped on me.

I should've said yes, I should've accepted. Yet... that would only leave me with fake happiness, lies, no truth. I hate this world, I hate myself, I hate this life. My eyes flashed golden, you know what? A sword materilized in my hands. If I died I would get a new life to start over with right? Right? Of course I would... "Of course!" I gribbed the sword, I'm not only doing this for a better future, but also to pay all the sins I have made.

The sword was posed at my neck, I took in a sharp breath and closed my eyes, time to say good-bye.

This was short and a turner, I never thought it would end up like this, wow. Hope you enjoyed?