Chapter 11 Learning to talk

Rory burst into tears and fell on his chest. The short pain showed him that this was not a dream. Rory had not lied to him this time. She had told him the truth. Her small shoulders shook in his arms. Just then, Jess noticed that he had hugged her. How and when that had happened, he could not remember. However, Rory had buried head in his arm and cried like never before.

'Jeez, Rory!' Jess whispered in her hair. 'Why didn't you tell me? Why you kept all this pain in you?' Rory could not stop crying in his arms. She had been through a lot. Jess clenched his teeth and buried fingers in her hair. He could only imagine her pain when this had happened.

'I'm sorry.' She sobbed and her tears wetted his pajama, but Jess did not care. He just held her close to himself. Rory needed this. 'I was so… confused and … and… angry!'

'Sh-sh.' He kissed her temple, cursing his inability to do more. 'I'm here now. I am here and you know that I love you no mater what.'

'I wanted to die then.' She sobbed and he felt her fist clutched onto his pajama. 'I was so angry. I just felt completely happy and that happened.'

'Why you felt anger?'

'I was anger at myself. I should've read the signs.' She burst into tears again. 'I should've read them! Why I was so careless? Why?'

'Sh-sh.' Jess clenched his jaw. Now he felt angry, because he was not there to help her. She needed him and he was not there. 'Calm down now. Calm down…'

'Then I wasn't the same. After I came back from New York and saw you with the kids, it hurt too much. It was too much for me to take.'

'Does anybody know about this?' He whispered, because honestly, his strength was over.

'No.' Rory shook her head on his chest. 'I kept it only for myself.'

'I think you took that thing from me.' Jess kissed her temple again.

'I never meant to hurt you!' Rory sniffed and felt his hand slipped down on her back and lying over her waist. He sighed.

'You hurt me more by hiding this.' He made short pause. 'You cannot even imagine my thoughts then. I thought that you stopped love me.'

'That's absurd.' Rory sniffed and looked up at his face. 'You know how much I love you Jess.'

'I wasn't sure then. You were like a foreign to me.' He tried to shrug, but crooked his face painfully.

'Are you okay?' Rory studied his face. She tried to get off his bed, but Jess pressed his hand over her waist.

'I'm okay. It hurts when I make a sudden move.'

'But…'

'Stay here.' Jess stared into her eyes. 'I want to hold you. It's been a long time since I held you like that.'

'Okay.' Rory sniffed once again and cuddled in him. She was careful with his wounds, but she felt good lying in his arms. 'I missed that.'

'I missed it too.' He leaned his chin on the top of her head.

'I'm sorry I didn't say anything, but I wasn't ready then.' Her voice was thick.

'I could only imagine how painful for you that was.' Jess closed his eyes and one tired sigh slipped through his lips.

'I'm sorry.' Rory said instead and her eyes closed too. She felt his steady breathing and knew that he was falling asleep again.

It was tough job sharing with him. However, she realized that she felt better now. Rory sighed. Jess was right. She felt good in his arms. She had missed that.

Nothing seemed different on the next morning. Well, jus one thing, but it was something Rory had missed it too. She woke up from a soft kiss. When she opened her eyes and saw Jess staring at her with love, her heart ached.

'Good morning.' She smiled shyly.

'Good morning.' Jess rubbed her back. 'I was wondering… when we get back home, can I come back in my own bed? My back hurts from the couch.'

'Your back hurts?' She looked at him with concern.

'I really meant the couch, Rory!' Jess frowned.

'Oh.' She released her breath. 'Okay.'

'Well?'

'Well what?'

'Can I come back?'

'I would love that.' Rory smiled and that was the first smile, touching her eyes from long ago.

'I love your smile.' Jess obviously had noticed that. 'You should smile more often from now on.'

'I'll try.' She hesitated, but her lips touched his.

'That's all I need to know.' Jess stared at her with love.

'Breakfast.' One nurse knocked on the door and Rory got off the bed blushing.

'You are such a girl sometimes.' He teased her while the nurse placed the try over his nightstand.

'Jess!' She hissed, but apparently could not hide her smile.

'We have four kids you know.' He looked at the nurse.

'Jess stop!'

'It's okay dear.' The nurse just smiled and looked at them. 'It's nice to see two young people so in love like you two.'

'Thanks.' Rory blushed again and saw the old nurse walked out of the room. 'Was that necessary?'

'You are so beautiful when you're blushing!' He teased her.

'Right!' She snapped, but she could not get angry with him today. Her face faded.

'Rory, what's wrong?' He looked concerned.

'I'm sorry I kept that secret from you, Jess.' She went back to him and sat on his bed. Jess took her hand.

'We have to share more, Rory.' He nodded. 'Look how long we are together and we still can talk to each other as it necessary.'

'Look who's talking?' She smiled nervously.

'Yeah, strange right?'

'No.' Rory stared at him. 'It's not strange. I think it is wise. We have to talk more.'

'Agreed.' Jess nodded.

'It's so nice to see that picture.' John walked into the room with smile.

'Why? You have more good news?' Jess asked carefully.

'I have.' John nodded.