Chapter 11

Spencer

This day should just end already, but it hasn't. I wanted to see my daughter, she has been away for awhile now. I was in a meeting with people who clearly don't know what they want. They were managers for an up and coming musician, and so far he had no say in anything. His name was Jordan, and so far all he has said was hello. I asked him want he wanted, and of course his people spoke for him.

"Okay look. I don't want to hear anything more from you two. Jordan, I want you to go home and think about what you want. Figure out what you want your image to represent, and email me. You and I will be working alone, without your people" I looked at them.

"Now If you don't mind, my daughter will be coming soon and I would like you not to be here when she comes" They both got up and left, Jordan however did say thank you.

I let out a quiet sigh, and got up from my chair. I ran my hand through my hair, and looked out my window. Why did life have to be so complicated, why do people always try to make people do what they think is right.

"Spencer, you have a visitor" I rolled my eyes, great now who.

"Hey beautiful" I turned to see Nicole. God she was beautiful.

"Hey, what brings you by?" I asked, giving her a kiss.

"Well we haven't had time together so I figured why not hang out here" I laughed.

"Well Riley is getting dropped off here, but we could..."

"I get it, I'll leave" I reached for her hand, turning her back to me.

"Nicole, I do want to spend time with you."

"When are you going to let me in Spencer, when am I not going to be your dirty little secret?"

"You are not my dirty little secret, My whole family knows about you, my friends know about you..."

"Riley, does she know about me?" I bit my lip, here comes another fight.

"I'm not ready"

"Just stop Spencer, your never going to be ready for it. We have known each other for a long time, and we have been dating for a few months now. I'm ready to move forward, but if your not then please just tell me" I looked into her eyes, fuck I hate making people cry.

"I don't know why I can't let you in to my tiny circle, but I think its because I'm not fully ready to trust anyone. I thought I would be Nicole, but I'm not."

"Spencer someday you have to let go what happen with Ashley" We never spoke about Ashley, is was a big no no. "You deserve to be happy, and loved. I can give you that Spencer, I promise I'll never hurt you like she did. I love you Spencer" I looked down at my shoes, then back up.

"I just can't I'm sorry Nicole. I wish, god I wish I could love you. I wish I could give you all of me, but I can't. It was given to someone else, and she will always have that." Nicole nodded, wiping her tears.

She leaned over kissing me gently on the lips. I let my hands go up to her shoulders, kissing her deeper. I'm going to miss her.

"I love you Spencer, Take care"

"You too" I watched her walk out of my office, I just the door. I walked over to the couch I had in my office, and let the tears pour out.

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