At the restaurant random people kept coming up to us and asking to see Brooklyn. I was just like 'No, go away'. Everything on the menu was horrid, and I just wanted to go home. We were there for about half an hour when Brooklyn started screaming, so I picked her up and fed her her bottle that I made up before we left.

"You sure your not gonna eat anything babe?" Nath said, rubbing my leg.

"Not that hungry" I said, looking down at Brooklyn to make sure she was taking her bottle okay.

"You haven't eaten all day Katie, please have something"

"Nathan, I'm fine"

"Seriously Kate" Max said from across the table "You should eat"

Then everyone went crazy at me for not eating. After a while I just went "Screw it" and put Brooklyn back in her pram without her finishing her bottle, and walked, or should I say stormed, out of the restaurant.

Outside everyone wanted a picture. As if I wasn't pissed off enough.

"SHE'S A FUCKING NEW BORN BABY WHY CAN'T YOU JUST FUCK OFF AND GIVE HER SOME SPACE?" I screamed, pushing past them.

It was a short walk home so it wasn't long before I could finish giving Brooklyn her bottle, burp her, change her nappy and put her in some PJ's. I started rocking her back and forth to get her to sleep which didn't take long so I put her in her cot. The cot was in mine and Nathan's room because we didn't want to be far away from her at night.

I changed into some PJ's myself and sat at the end of the bed, up against the wall, pulled my knee's to my chest, wrapped my arms around my knees and rested my head on my knees, and sobbed.

Around an hour later I will still crying when Nathan stormed into the bedroom, slamming the door behind him.

"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?"

"Shh!" I said, snapping my head up at him and pointing to the cot "Brooklyn's asleep"

He looked at me shocked, probably because my face was red and blotchy and I has mascara running down it.

He came and sat next to me and pulled me onto his lap, leaning against the wall.

"Shh baby" He whispered as I cuddled into him as much as I could "Baby talk to me"

I shook my head and snuggled my face into his neck and I felt his arms go around me protectively.

"Please baby" He said "Why won't you eat anything"

"I'm fat" I mumbled into him.

"No your not, it's baby weight, it's not gonna be hard to lose it"

"Yeah, starting today"

"Baby look at me" He said sternly, pushing me away from him then lifting my chin up so I was look at him directly in the eye. "Starving yourself isn't going to help you lose weight, it's going to make you seriously ill"

Fresh tears stung in my eyes, because I knew he was right, and I knew how much I had disappointed him today.

"I'm sorry" I whispered, looking down.

He pulled me back close to him and I cuddled into his neck again.

"Baby come downstairs and eat something, please"

"What about Brooklyn?"

"The baby monitors on, she'll be fine"

We stood up and held hand as we went downstairs and Nathan made me a bacon sarnie. I didn't really want it. But I knew that Nathan would force feed me if he had to, so I ate it without complaining.

The next morning I woke cuddled really close to Nathan.

"Morning babe" He said kissing me

"Morning sexy bum"

"You sleep okay?"

"Yups, you?"

"Yeps, had to get up a few times for Brooklyn though"

"You should have woken me up Nath"

"Babe, you needed rest, I wasn't gonna wake you up to do something that I could do"

"Do we have to go out today?" I asked

"Yeah, got a few interviews and a mini gig tonight"

"Ugh really?"

"Afraid so"

He got out of bed and got dressed and I just laid watching him.

"Do you want a cuppa babe?" He asked

I nodded my head and got out of bed in search of some clothes.

"Okay one sec" He said, he walked out the room and to the top of the stairs

"PARKER PUT THE KETTLE ON!"

"ALRIGHT MATE!"

He walked back into the room and I laughed at him.

"Your never gonna change are ya babe?"

He came up behind me, snaking his arms around my waist and kissing my neck

"Never, ever, ever" He said.

I got dressed and picked Brooklyn up out of her cot.

"Can you go and get her bottle ready Nath?" I said, undressing her to put her in some day time clothes.

"Course" he said, sitting next me on the bed. "Hey baby girl, you want your breakfast?"

Brooklyn just started at him and I laughed.

"Go on" I said to him, kissing him.

He kissed me back before walking out of the room and downstairs. Once Brooklyn was dressed I took her downstairs and Nathan passed me her bottle and sat next to me on the sofa.

Jayne was already here, having a cup of tea.

"What time we gotta go?" Max asked

"Not until 12" Jayne replied.

Tom came back in, carrying 3 cups of tea. One for me, one for Nathan, and one for himself.

"Thanks hun" I said to Tom as he put mine on the table next to me.

"That's alright sexy" He said, winking at me

"Back off Parker" Nath joked, trying to hide his smile.

I smiled to myself as I got an idea

"Nath finish feed her" I said, passing Brooklyn to him.

I stood up and over dramatically & in a bad American accent said "Come on Tom! You were always the one I loved!" Throwing my hands around his neck.

He quickly got the idea and put on his American accent as well.

"Yeah, who need's Nathan! We can be together now! We don't have to hide it anymore!"

"Lets run away together and live in the land of happiness and rainbows!"

"Yeah come on!" He said, lifting me up and running out of the room.

When we came back in everyone was in stitches! Wetting themselves laughing.

"Well that was…. Unusual" Susan said

I looked over to where she was sat with Jess. I had forgotten they were here.

"Nathan we have to go or we will miss our train" She said

They we're leaving? YAY! Not that I don't like them, I just think we it was be nice to settle with Brooklyn, WITHOUT them.

"Actually, can I talk to you first?" He said, handing Brooklyn back to me.

She had finished he bottle so I started to burp her. But I wanted to know what Nathan was talking to his mum about, because he sounded worried.

"Can one of you burp her please?"

"I will" Said Jay, sitting down next to me

"Thanks" Is said, passing Brooklyn to him and wondering upstairs.

Our bedroom door was shut, there obviously in there.

I pressed my ear against the door and listened.

"This terrifies me, I- I just don't want to let Katie down, I'm not ready to be a dad! I mean I'm busy enough with the band and"

He sounded like he was crying

"But every time I look at Brooklyn, I fall in love with her all over again, I'm just…. Scared"

I bolted back downstairs and got Brooklyn's pram, saw that Jay was done burping her, and put her into the pram.

"Tell Nathan to meet me at the park" I said, wrapping a blanket round Brooklyn and walking out, down to the park.

I only had to wait about half an hour before Nathan came and sat next to me. I got Brooklyn out of her pram and gave her to him. He looked at me confused.

"It's okay to be scared. No ones expecting us to get this whole parenting thing right" I said.

"You heard me talking to mum" He sighed

"I'm scared as well Nath"

He put Brooklyn back into the pram and put an arm around me.

"I love you Kate"

"I love you too Nath"

Nathan's phone buzzed and he read the text

"Come on" He said, standing up "That was Jayne, we have to go"

First interview of the day. Half way through.

I'm just sat to the side and put Brooklyn in her seat on the floor (One of those seat things with the handle, and you can strap it in as a car seat? I dunno what it's called :L )

"So Nathan, you proposed to Katie?"

"Yeah I did, it's on YouTube somewhere haha"

"In the video it says something about you accusing her of cheating? Can you tell us what happened?"

"Sorry, it's not my place to say, it's in the past now"

"Um, can you explain who Brooklyn is? We're confused about this one"

Nathan pointed over to Brooklyn

"That's my baby girl"

"Aww she's gorgeous"

"Haha thanks"

"Right Max…."

I didn't really pay attention to the rest. I just went off in my own little world. Thinking of all the things that could go wrong with this baby. I wasn't ready for this. Nathan wasn't ready for this. I should of gotten an abortion when I had the chance.

I looked down at Brooklyn and sighed. But she was so beautiful. And I love her. I'm not saying I don't want her. I'm saying that I wish we didn't have her so soon.

I was snapped out of my daydream with arms protectively going around my waist and a kiss on the cheek.

I looked to my right and smiled at Nath.

"What's up?" He asked, sounding worried.

"Nothing, just thinking"

"Riight.." He said, not sounding very convinced. "Come on, the lads are already in the van"

He picked up Brooklyn's seat with her in it and, with one arm still around my waist. We walked to the van. I got in and Nathan strapped Brooklyn's seat in before sitting next to me. I leaned my head on his shoulders and wrapped my arms around him, and he done the same, resting his head on mine.

"What were you thinking about babe?" He mumbled into my hair

"It doesn't matter Nath."

"Yeah it does"

"No, it doesn't"

"But"

"Nath!" I said "Please, just leave it."

"Okay baby" He said, kissing the top of my head.

I cuddled into him a bit more then Brooklyn started crying.

"OH SHUT UP!" I half moaned, half shouted as I went to move next to her.

"Don't worry about it Katie" Tom said "Uncle Tom to the rescue!"

I laughed as I cuddled back into Nathan. Maybe things would be okay.