Hey guys sorry for the big gap between updates but unfortunately some very sad circumstances prevented me from getting back to the story.

To all You Adrian fans I've given you a little something in this chapter to tie you over and to all you Dimitri fans I know you guys exist so bare with me I haven't forgot about him and Rose

Chapter 11 Dreams and Decisions

I don't know how long I ran for but I eventually found myself back in my hotel room. It had been a close call with Dimitri. One more second and I'm sure he would have seen me hiding in that hall. Then again even if he had seen me I'm not sure he would have chased me. I was pretty sure his only concern would have been whether I left Lissa alive or not. God I was losing my feelings and emotions but I was still managing to feel jealousy it figures that the strongest of emotions would be the hardest to lose. I'm not even sure why I cared that Dimitri would check Lissa before chasing me, none of it should matter. Dimitri made it clear Lissa was important to him and that he wanted nothing to do with me. I'm Strigoi now it's time I stopped wanting him to care.

I decided to have a shower and change. I still had a growing burn in my stomach that I needed to satisfy, but I couldn't risk leaving my room tonight. Instead I lay on the bed that I would never be able to sleep in and decided to pay a visit to Lissa's head.

Lissa was sitting on the bed, her knees were up to her chest and she was resting her head on top of them. She had been crying a lot but I could feel through the bond that she was exhausted and couldn't shed another tear. Across from Lissa on a couch I could see Abe he looked sad. You could sense through Lissa that he felt he had failed me. Next to Lissa on the other side of the bed I could see Christian there was resolve in his eyes.

"I know what you're thinking Liss but it's too dangerous" Christian said with a sad voice. Lissa's head shot up and glared at Christian.

"What are you saying...I should give up...I will never give up Christian...Rose would never give up on me and I will never give up on her" Lissa's voice was pained and angry.

"She would see it coming Liss...Dimitri didn't expect you to stab him with a stake...you had the element of surprise...you don't have that with Rose" Christian replied in a soft, pleading voice. Lissa looked toward Dimitri who was sitting on another couch with his head in his hands. Dimitri looked empty his eyes appeared glazed over there was no emotion to them at all. All of a sudden Lissa noticed something sparked in Dimitri, he lifted his head and began shaking it.

"Dimitri what is it?" Lissa asked.

"I just don't understand it...I...I can't see how victor got the better of her...rose is to good and she fought me tooth and nail when I wanted her to be Strigoi" A pain flashed across Dimitri's face at the memory. "Rose would rather have died than been Strigoi" Dimitri kept shaking his head.

"That's what she thought was happening to her" it was Cindy who spoke in a very soft voice. Everyone's eyes shot toward her. Her body tensed under everyone's glares.

"What happened? ...I need to know what happened that day with Victor" Dimitri had walked toward her now shaking her on the shoulders.

Lissa quickly jumped off the bed and run over to Cindy and Dimitri. "Dimitri don't scare her" Dimitri's eyes flashed shock when he realised he was touching her. He slowly let go of her shoulders.

"Cindy what did happen that night?... Rose was very good at what she did...she could have got the better of him Like Dimitri said...help us understand what happened...please"

A tear began to slide down Cindy's cheek at the memories of that night. She walked over and sat on a nearby couch. "Victor had me around the throat and was about to snap my neck when Rose screamed for him to stop...she told him to kill her not me. Victor had asked her to choose for you and she chose to let me go for you" Cindy began sobbing and Lissa urged her to go on. "She thought he was going to kill her...I don't think she ever considered he would turn her...she gave me goodbye messages for all of you and then the light just switched off in her eyes...he bit into her neck and she didn't even flinch she just sat there...that's all I seen before they pulled me from the room I'm so sorry...I'm so sorry" Cindy was really crying now the memories of that night clearly still haunted her.

"See that makes no sense Rose would never just sit there and let herself be killed" Dimitri said as he stood up and began pacing the room.

That's when someone laughed a haunting laugh and Lissa's body spun around to the sight of Adrian downing another bottle of vodka. "Adrian what's a matter" Lissa seemed concerned for Adrian's mental health.

Adrian looked up to Lissa and then across to Dimitri. "The Rose you remember would never give up...but the Rose you destroyed that day in the chapel well that Rose would absolutely give up" Adrian smiled at Dimitri knowing he hit right where he wanted to.

Pain flashed across Dimitri's face at Adrian's words. Lissa caught on to how hurt Dimitri looked and fired back at Adrian. "How dare you say those things Adrian no one is to blame for this except Victor...Rose would never give up, there is no way I would have sensed she was feeling like that." Adrian laughed again and looked right into Lissa's eyes.

"You were too busy worrying about Dimitri's feelings to actually take time out and listen to what it was doing to Rose" Adrian looked mad now and Lissa gasped at his words.

Christian jumped of the bed and headed straight for Adrian "You shut the hell up Adrian" It looked like Christian was about to go punch Adrian until the sounds of Lissa crying stopped him. Christian spun around and then headed straight for Lissa to offer her comfort. "Liss shhhhhh come on he doesn't mean it" Christian whispered into her hair.

"His right " Lissa said between sobs "He is right I never once tried to comfort her through the bond...I just always kept telling her to back off and Give Dimitri some space...I should have been there for her." Christian grabbed Lissa tighter and rubbed her hair as he looked over at Adrian with a glare.

Adrian downed a bottle of vodka "I'm over this pity party I'm off to bed ... and if you all think I'm full of shit about Rose giving up ask Abe what his thoughts are on the matter..." Adrian walked to another room and slammed the door shut.

Everyone looked over to Abe who merely lowered his head to the ground. Lissa Knew as soon as she seen him do it that I had given up and I could feel the pain in her through the bond. "Well I'm going to fix this, I'm bringing Rose back ... I don't care what anyone thinks on the matter" Lissa's voice was full of conviction.

Dimitri stood up and looked directly at Lissa "Well I'm helping...so what do we do...where do we go from here" Lissa smiled at Dimitri and I felt a confidence shoot through the bond that with Dimitri helping her she could pull this off.

I decided not to stick around in Lissa's head any longer. I still didn't know how I felt about any of it. I certainly wasn't sure I even wanted to go back to my old life. I decided that instead of thinking about it I would pay Adrian a visit instead. I concentrated hard and before I knew it I was sitting on my old bed back at court. I looked up at Adrian who was looking around the room confused and then he spotted me, he instinctively took a step backward. He was obviously still taken back by my new appearance. I slowly pulled myself up from the bed and stepped toward him. "You're not scared of me are you?" My voice was cold and chilling and filled with sarcasm and I added a slightly chilling laugh to it.

Adrian froze and swallowed "Yes...and no" I smiled at his response and took another step toward him. I placed my hand on the side of his face. Adrian's whole body tensed at my icy touch. I slowly ran my fingers softy down his face.

I leant in toward his ear and whispered "What is it that scares you exactly hmmmm" I pulled back and looked at him directly in the eyes with a chilling smile that exposed my fangs.

Adrian swallowed again his nerves taking hold of him he was looking at my teeth for a while before looking up into my newly red rimmed eyes. "Rose..." Was all he was able to say.

I smiled back at him I had to say this power I had over him that was making him so nervous was a total turn on. I slowly circled his body maintaining some sort of physical contact with him at all times. His body was still tense and jumped at every small touch I made. As I reached the front of him I placed my finger on his chin and gently pulled his face toward mine so that we were only centimetres apart. "Have you thought about my offer Adrian" I grazed my top teeth over my bottom lip to draw his attention to my mouth something I knew he could never resist.

Adrian paused looking at my lips. I decided to take the opportunity to remind him of what he was missing. I leant upwards until our lips met and I kissed him softly just enough to make him want more before I pulled away. Adrian was tense the whole time but he didn't stop the kiss I knew he wouldn't be able to. Strigoi or not I knew Adrian still craved me.

"So have you given any thought to my offer or not" I was looking directly into his eyes and our lips were still close.

"It's all I've thought about Rose...I miss you" I smiled my wicked smile at him and then pulled him into my body. The kiss started slowly but before long intensity took over. I had pulled him toward the bed and pushed him down onto it. I climbed on to the bed straddling him before I leant down and resumed the intense kiss. Adrian was at first hesitant but before long he too was lost in the passion that was between us. I lifted his shirt and ran my hands up his body. His entire body broke out into goose bumps. He followed my actions scrunching my shirt into his fist and running his other hand along the base of my back. Adrian grabbed me and rolled me under him; he pulled away from me slightly and looked down into my eyes searching for something.

"Rose...why didn't you kill us back there...why would you just let us go?" Adrian's eyes were still searching mine for something.

I pushed him off me slightly "I told you I never follow rules and its way too much fun having you guys around at the moment"

Adrian looked at me before shaking his head from side to side "It's more than that Rose... you couldn't do it could you because you still care...you still care about everyone"

I pushed Adrian off me and onto the bed before I straddled him once again. I leant in toward his face "You're wrong you know I don't care...I could kill you if I wanted to and I wouldn't give it a second thought" My voice was more chilling than ever and Adrian tensed at my words.

"I...I don't think you could Rose...I think you already would have but you can't...you still love everyone Rose... Why won't you let them help you Rose...if there is still some of the old Rose in there why isn't she fighting to get her soul back"

I pushed myself off of Adrian and climbed off the bed. I could feel anger building in me I spun to look at Adrian and he must off sensed the anger in me either that or my red rimmed eyes showed him because he pushed himself back from me nervously. "Don't for one minute think I didn't kill you all because I couldn't... I didn't this time but if you all keep trying to hunt me down I won't hesitate next time"

"Rose I'm sorry" Adrian seemed upset that he had aggravated me.

I looked at him before realising that he was never going to choose to be awakened by me "So I guess I know your answer to my offer then" I had to admit I was somewhat relieved I never really wanted Adrian to become Strigoi for me especially when I didn't know how I felt about it myself.

"Rose I meant it I miss you and I want to be with you" Adrian climbed of the bed and walked toward me.

I laughed my chilling laugh "You mean you want to be with Dhampir Rose...well I hate to break it to you Adrian but she doesn't exist anymore"

"Rose please" Adrian was shaking his head with pain in his eyes.

I walked over to Adrian I was feeling calmer now. I leant in and kissed him on the side of the cheek. I stayed there next to him "Tell them I know what they're planning and they're wasting their time...tell them I can see them through Lissa's bond so I can't be caught by surprise" Adrian gasped at my words about still being bonded to Lissa. I leant in and kissed him one more time before leaning into his ears and whispering "Goodbye Adrian" Adrian went to say something but before he could I dissolved the dream.