Started: Sunday, August 13, 2006

Finished: Monday, August 20, 2006

R.S. Hello! It's about…(checks watch) 2:49 in the morning, but I'm basically nocturnal, so who cares! According to my watch its story time! This is the best time. Nobody awake to kick me off, nobody to complain about my music, and all the time in the world to write!...

… Well, until six. But I'll probably crash before then, so let me get started now.

Oh! And I think I need anger management.

Now Enjoy the story!

P.S.: Check out my Freewebs! It's Rampaging Demeanor. It's really cool and I'm about to put an original story up there called "Famished" Not up yet, but it's about to be! 

Now, onto the story!

(KxK)

Morning calls for pain relief
A line above the step beneath
The worst that you could do
And the best that you could hope for
Is hardly the best

-Morning Calls by "Dashboard Confessional"

Who'll raise you up to heaven and drop you to hell

By: Rampaging Sorrow

Chapter Ten: I'm on a crazy swing of emotions PART ONE

"We'll see each other in June! I promise."

"Don't break it, okay? I'm going to miss you so much."

"Hey, we got myspace, and xanga, and AIM, and MSN, and e-mail. We'll be in contact a lot. Now give me a good-bye hug and smile."

Kaoru jumped in Allusius' arms as he held them out and Allen balanced him as the two best friends hugged and swayed left to right with soft laughter. The others just stood there and had soft smiles as the two seemed happy and Allusius rubbed her back as she did his in the same hyper motion.

"Don't loose my ring, okay? I'll kill you if you do."

"I won't. Promise." Kaoru said and she let go before she put her hands behind her back and she smled softly for him again. She fixed her skirt and then she pulled down her tank-top before she put her arms behind her back again and smiled once more. Suddenly, she jumped into his arms and they laughed as the two hugged again. Misao said, 'awww' as they shared a soft kiss and Allusius got another one before she let go and he turned with Allen.

"Bye Llusi!"

"Bye, Yahiko! Sia buono per la vostra sorella, approvazione!(Be good for your sister, okay!)"

"Approvazione! Dovete ritornare alla vigilanza! E porti i giocattoli!(Okay! You have to come back! And bring toys!)"

"Will do, baby boy! Bye Aoshi! I love you, husband!"

"Love you too, faggot!" Kaoru waved again with the others and lauged as Allusius pretended to cry and kept moving along with his crutches. Allen gave one last wave with him before they turned and vanished from sight.

"I know he's going to come back, so I'm not worried. France is a pretty place and he'll be okay at his Aunt's house. She's a real nice white lady."

"White lady? But he's black."

"He's got white in his family too. Have you seen that boy's eyes? He's so mixed up inside that it's sad. Let's get going. I have an essay to finish before I leave tomorrow morning."

As they left the airport and they headed towards the parking lot, Misao smirked as she got an idea to ask a question. She bounced up to Kaoru and as she opened her stride to keep up with the talle girl, her smirk turned into a grin.

"Hey, Kao-kao."

"What's on your mind, pip-squeak."

"Um… don't hit me for this question but…kare ga tsui te iru sei o yuushi ta ka?"

Misao shut her eyes waiting for the hit. Instead, she felt Kaoru pull her closer and give her a smile.

"What do you think?" Misao gasped as she read Kaoru's smile and she said, 'I wanna know, I wanna know!'

"I'll tell you when we get to my room, okay? I promise."

"You'd better. How could keep that from me! I should totally kick you!" Kaoru laughed as they got to the cars and they got in each one.

"Genia, switch with me! I gotta talk with Kaoru! It's important!" Genia laughed and said 'okay' before Misao slid over the trunk and she jumped into the car. Kaoru just laughed as Genia ran to Aoshi's car and jumped in since the roof was down. As Kaoru followed him and Michael's car came to join, Misao quickly turned down the radio a little bit and she put on her seatbelt.

"So, tell me! Really! How'd you feel!"

"A million emotions at once. It was…"

"Was what! Come on, Kaoru!" Kaoru gave a soft smile as she ran her fingers through her hair and saw Misao with her fists balled below her mouth and waiting in excitement.

"A time I'll never forget no matter how hard I try."

(KxK)

"When! … I thought he was asleep! … I'll tell her and I'll have her see into it, okay Kenshin? I'm really sorry. Is Soujiro okay? … Just some cuts and a swollen cheek. At least he's not hurt… Okay. Bye-bye."

Genia hung the phone and as she saw the others looking at her confused, she sighed and she sat down, her blonde locks falling over her shoulder as she shifted and she laid her head back.

"Soujiro got beat up by Allusius."

"Are you serious." Kaoru said first as she sat up and she looked full of disbelief. Genia nodded and pointed to her cellphone before Misao said, 'get real.' Before Michael spoke up

"He…he beat Soujiro before he left? How? He's on one foot!"

"Genia, it was a prank call."

"I'm so serious! Kenshin just called and said that he was going to kill him because he found Soujiro on the street and beat him up when he was walking past this area." They were all in shock.

"So he hunted him down?"

"Who knows. But Soujiro's not that bad. It's just the fact that he got beat up and he's sore all over from getting whacked with the crutch." Kaoru said 'sneaky bastard.' And she slammed herself against the couch with a frown.

"Did he get any decent hits in?"

"Kenshin said he only got two hits in before Allusius punched him to the floor and gave him a lot of hits with his fists and the crutch. That kid's violent. Kaoru, what did you see in him?"

"Hey, I'm violent too." Kaoru said as Yahiko laughed at her hanging him upside down and shaking him for money. She looked unfazed as she did it and he just kept laughing as she acted as if he was some kind of animal.

"Though, I wouldn't think about fighting with crutches. He had a disadvantage and an advantage all at the same time… Kenshin's going to want to kill him at the races."

(KxK)

"I know she sicked him on me. That bitch."

"She didn't do it, Souj. She's not that evil. If anything with anybody having somebody come for you, Aoshi should have been down your throat and not him. Kaoru fought you by herself without any problems, so she didn't do it."

"How would you know? Kaoru's been plotting for me ever since the club incident."

"Because when Kaoru fights herself, she doesn't ask for help. I know she wouldn't sick him on you. And you said he was on crutches, right?"

"Yeah."

"Then she really wouldn't want him to do it. She's afraid for him getting hurt. But still… how did he know you were coming? What the fuck was he doing, hunting you?"

"That's the same thing I'm wondering."

Kenshin raised his head up, his eyes a heated violet as he saw Kaoru walk the kitchen in with some 'sorry' flowers and a teddy bear. It was well around four o' clock and as Soujiro just watched her with a glare and held the ice on his arm. Kaoru put the flowers down and as she went and leaned agains the wall, she heard two more voices.

"Netalia! Tai!"

"Oh no. You're evil." Kaoru gasped in shock and hurt as they sat down and shook their heads. She then pretended to tear and said, 'W-what did I do!'

"I came and brought flowers and stuff! I feel awful about this whole thing, you know."

"You sicked him on Souj. That's what he tells us." Kaoru gave Soujiro a glare before she shook her head 'not me' and she asked for a stool. Tai slid one over to her, green eyes slightly annoyed at the whole ordeal and she thanked him and sat down. Netalia threw her a water and she caught it before she thanked her and she spoke.

"I wouldn't sick Allusius on him. Reasons are really simple. One. I fought Soujiro myself and I don't want anybody to finish what I did. Two. Allusius is on crutches. I wouldn't want him to hurt himself. And Three." Kaoru laughed as she thought of it and then she spoke.

"If anybody was supposed to come and tackle Soujiro out of nowhere, it would be Aoshi because Misao's his wife. We're all shocked because nobody knew that he left the house. At all. We went groccery shopping and to drop some things off at the Salvation Army. When we got home, he was asleep on the couch with his laptop out blasting music."

"He didn't look like he was fighting?"

"Not at all." Kaoru said softly and then she shifted and bounced to get a good seating arangement, her hair slightly swishing over her shoulder. She put her hands together and she bowed her head.

"I am so very very sorry for this. Truly and deeply, I apologize for this whole ordeal."

"Yeah, whatever. And I suppose my car having a broken window was Allusius too, huh? He just so happened to hop like ten miles on crutches to smash my windows."

"Huh?"

"I said my car got trashed, you loser!"

Kaoru was shocked as she put a hand over her mouth and gave him a nasty glare for his name calling. As she thought about who did it, Soujiro glared and threw some grapes at her.

"Stop it! That's something that we have no part in."

"Oh, sure. Just what makes you think that he wouldn't do this if he came out of a fucking apartment complex to BEAT MY ASS!"

"Because we don't damage cars. Business policy—" Kaoru gasped and covered her mouth before Kenshin arched his eyebrow and said, 'what?' Kaoru shook her head, but they all weren't buying it.

"What business policy? What are you, a gang member like the brothers now?"

"Hell no. Don't have the energy to do it. But seriously. We don't trash cars. It's against our code—fuck, where is my mouth today!"

Kaoru swallowed down water and let out a 'shit!' before she sighed and she sat up straight. She pulled her hair from her eyes and then she put her hands together once she knew that she had said too much.

"You must be wondering now, huh?" they all nodded and she cursed mentally before they saw her give a soft smile.

"Well, while I was in Italy we did a… how to put this in nice words… a beat-down business." Netalia widened her eyes as Tai said 'wow' and the two Himura brothers just gaped at her in shock.

"So you're saying you beat people up when somebody else wanted to!" Netalia asked shocked.

"Nonono! Not like that! It wasn't in that sense at all. What we did was we figured out who was picking on who. When he learned this, we went into action and stuff. It was a school thing. Michael and Tytto were the first ones to start it when they beat up this soccer player for picking on this girl about her hair. After that, I natually joined for the thrill."

"So you guys were good guys doing bad things, huh? Laugh Typical."

"Why don't you shut your face before I do it for you, eh? I'm talking to Netalia." Kaoru turned to Netalia again and she flipped Soujiro the finger before Netalia just flipped her red hair from her eyes and blinked her blue eyes in interest.

"So, that was basically it. We beat people up in the wierdest places, but we didn't mess up cars or skooters. Just people. And that's basically it."

"When did you start this?"

"During the summer last year. When we got there, they were still in school, so we just jumped into school after a two weeks of settling in and we saw that things needed to change immediately."

"So when you got there, Tytto was there?"

"We actually went to Japan first to pick him up. It was a two-way thing. Then we went back to Italy and settled in and then started up school."

"Ah, I see. Hey, did you take lots of pictures?"

"Of course." Kaoru said with a smile and she promised to send them to her. Netalia thanked her with a smile before Kaoru shook the hair from her face and she laid her head back against the wall. As she began to daydream and doze off into sleep, Soujiro's clap brought her back to her senses.

"Get out. Thanks for the sorry gifts, but time to leave."

"Whatever, Souj. I was just thinking before I leave. Hey, Netalia, you wanna go out with me and Genia and Misao tonight? We're gonna go for dinner and a movie."

"Sounds like a plan. What to wear?"

"Jeans or a skirt and a top. I'm going with a polo shirt. Yawn Time to go and take a nap and wait for the phone call."

"From who?" Kenshin asked curiously. Kaoru simply bid goodbye to Netalia and Tai before she turned and she headed off towards the door. Kenshin watched her form with a slight longing as her hips slightly shook with each footstep. She got to the door and then she said 'bye!' before she shut the door.

'I want her again.' Kenshin thought to himself and he sighed as he said he was going to fill a vase for the flowers.

(KxK)

"This is so much fun! Misao, thanks for buying this for me!"

"Anytime! I know how badly you like things like this, so I said what the fuck and bought it!"

Aoshi shook his head and he just rubbed his ears as he watched his sister and his girlfriend finish up playing Dance Dance Revolution, his laptop in his lap and his fingers moving against the keys as he was writing from memory. The two girls moved the playing pads and they moved the playstation as well before Kaoru grabbed a remote and she turned on the stereo.

"Kaoru, are you finished unpacking your clothes and whatnot?"

"Yes, Aoshi."

"Are you done getting all your schoolwork from Misao?"

"Just one more report and five homework assignments."

"Get started. I leave in two days early in the morning and I want to run with you before I depart." Kaoru nodded with a frown as Misao arched her at the music that was starting to playing. She saw Micahel pop his head out with a 'yes!' and immediately start to dance.

"What langauge is this techno, Kao?"

"German, Misao. It's a long story" Kaoru replied with a laugh before she got up and put her notebook down. Michael said, 'come on! Do the dance with me!'

"I am!" Kaoru laughed and Aoshi just cracked a small smirk as the two cousins started to do a dance routine. Misao just laughed as Michael shook his hips with her and spun with her before Kaoru danced back to her seat. Misao asked about the story before she just smirked.

"Well, Allusius took us out there for a weekend of fun since one week we got out on Thursday."

"What about Yahiko?"

"Allusius' cousins live out there, so he had a lot of friends on the street. We all went out there to party because there was a weekend long bash going on. We met the person who made this song too. Real cool. Allusius is the only one who could speak to her, though. Turns out she's in love with my music."

"He's that fluent?" Aoshi asked with an arched eyebrow.

"It's a must in his family. His family is in almost every European county. They're scattered all over. And he's in Austrailia and he's in some parts of Africa too."

"None in Asia?"

"Well, his cousins just moved to Japan for school and his other cousins on his father's side moved to the Phillipines."

"Cool. But, how good was the parties!" Misao asked.

"Misao, when I say that I was paralyzed from the waist down after dancing so much, I couldn't even go to the bathroom without somebody helping me."

"She tells the truth. We were all so fucking gone on Saturday night that we almost missed our flight on Sunday. Kaoru's hangover was ridiculous. The little bugger passed out on the plane."

Kaoru glared as Misao laughed with Michael and then she crossed her legs and went back to her work. As she wrote what she thought for her opinions, her phone rang. She instantly pulled it to her face and sighed once she saw it wasn't who she was waiting for.

"You answer it, Misao. It's Shuichi and he might be pissed at me." Kaoru handed it to her and she went back to writing as her thoughts were fresh and she didn't want to loose anything. She grabbed the stereo remote and made the CD change to the other one inside. As the rock played out, she scratched her head as she figured out what to write. Then she said 'ah!' and began to write once more.

To say that you are in love is to say that you will do anything for that person. When I say do anything, I mean that you are willing to give things up in order for a relationship to work. That you can change your ways and stand by the person that you deeply love and care for. When you love somebody, you don't let simple things like secrets break you apart. As long as you know that they love you and are behind you all the way, simple secrets don't matter. After all, secrets shouldn't harm relationships if you're deep in love and trust each other.

"Kaoru, Shuichi says that he's on his way here. Should be an half hour. He's not here to tell you to move back, he just wants to see how you're doing. Also he said he better have a bed to sleep on."

"Where's he coming from, Misao?"

"Sigh he flew here from his new college for you"

"He's transferred! Aoshi, you didn't say that! I thought that he was just out there to be there when I"

"He said not to tell you. He was going to wait until you called him, but you've been so busy. You'll be surprised when he says where he's been."

Kaoru just grinned at that before she went back down to writing her essay of her opinions on emotions.

At times, I think that love is not needed. I know people say that love makes the world go round, and love makes people happy, and all this other stuff that I've heard millions of times before. Hell, I've even said it once myself. But, my point is if love truly makes you happy, then why do we do so many things that are wrong to achieve happiness? Why should we kill for love when we know its sin? Does love really mean that much?

I think… no, I know that love isn't needed. It's not needed because most of the time… love keeps you waiting. It keeps you away from other things you want to do. It makes you forget about who you are. To wait with a soft smile and let it turn into a depressing emotion. To cry for a long time for nothing. If love is so special, it shouldn't have ou crying and wanting to hurt yourself.

"Kaoru, you're really into this assignment. What is it?"

"Some freewrite on emotions. I have to write about three emotions and why or why not they're needed for at least one." She answered to Michael as he sat down and let Tytto go on her other side. They kicked their legs up at the same time and then she saw them both with work in their hands as well.

"What emotions did you choose? I choose hate, anger, and lust."

"I choose love, lust, and hatred. Those are the only three that you can get almost every emotion in. You know this has to be at least six pages, right? Front and back."

"Yup. That's why I got wide-ruled. I'm smart." With a laugh, Kaoru saw Micahel was doing math and then she went back down to her work. As they turned their eyes to her paper, they both began to read and got to where she was writing at quickly.

No emotion is worth killing youself over. None whatsoever. Not even love. I say this because how do we truly know that if we die, that person would do the same for us if the tables were turned? How do we know that the love is true? People in this world are actors and their surroundings are a stage to see how well they can toy with people. For all we know, our love could be their hate. Our love could be their anger. Why would I die for something false? What if… what if it's just lust?

"Kaoru, you know we have to read this out loud because we are the last two, right?"

"Yeah, I know. On Monday… you ready to shed some emotion?"

"Yeah. It's going to be interesting." He replied to her and Kaoru just nodded before Aoshi took a picture of them working.

"The infamous Kamiya trio defeated by education… sucks, don't it?"

"Bite me, hoe." Kaoru barked playfully and Aoshi snapped his teeth before he went back down to his own assignment.

(KxK)

"I'm going to Greece for vacation!"

"Hey, hey. Who said?"

"As of now, you did. Now hug me! Hug me, hug me! I want love, Shuichi!"

Kaoru laughed happily as her older brother caught her and held her up in the air as she planted kisses on his cheeks. His light green eyes looked electrified and as he just kept her up and he let his small suitcase sit on the floor with his book bag, Aoshi went over and he carried her off.

"Nice pad, Kaoru! Very very warm feeling!"

"Thanks! Sexy accent!" she said as she went to the kitchen to get some drinks. Aoshi took his suitcase to a room down the hall from the living room and then Shuichi fixed his polo shirt and he sat down. He had a white chain around his neck, his jeans were light and they suited him well, and he had glasses on top of his head. His tan fit him perfectly and his hair was still the same but a little bit longer.

"Hey, Michael." Michael waved to him and then did a handshake from across the table before Shuichi turned his eyes to Tytto. A grin came up on his face and Kaoru gasped as she stepped out of the kitchen with Misao to see Shuichi hugging Tytto for all he was worth.

"It's been such a long time, baby Tytto! Look at how big you got! Are you a man now!"

"Get off of me! You're a perv!" Misao began to laugh as Kaoru just sighed and put the treats down. She smiled as Shuichi went back to sit and then she ran her fingers through her hair. Aoshi sat down once Kaoru did and then Kaoru just shifted so that Michael and Tytto were not squishing her.

"Don't you look happy. You found new brothers to replace us?"

"No." Kaoru laughed and she just hugged the two before the cousin Kamiyas gave smiles. Aoshi snapped his camera and he whistled softly as to show he was innocent before they laughed at him and he sat the camera down. Shuichi shifted and he ran a finger throug his spikes before Kaoru said 'muscles.'

"Yeah, I've been running and whatnot over there. Easy scholarship. But that's not important right now. I heard some things about you, little sister."

"Like what?" she asked curiously and Shuichi thought that her facial expression was cute.

"That you're being a bad bad girl."

"I can explain that. Anything else?"

"Yup… I heard that you and Kenshin are over." Kaoru looked down for a moment and then she said 'yeah' before she looked up with a 'what can I say' expression.

"He hasn't been there for me for a long time now, so it's okay. It's not like I was really expecting for him to be there a hundred percent, but he could have at least tried, you know? Sigh Aoshi was right when he said Kenshin would break my heart." Shuichi frowned as Kaoru took a sip of her iced tea and then gave a smile and put her hands in her lap.

"But I'm okay now, Shu. I got Aoshi and Misao, who are always there for me. I got Genia, and she's always there no matter what. Even little Yahiko defends me."

"Really now? Did he get taller?

"Yup. Speaks fluent Italian now too. You should have a chat with him. It's fun." Shuichi nodded with a smile before Kaoru hugged Michael and Tytto close.

"And I have these two to love me. The other boy who loved me just left, so now it's only two groupies."

"Other boy?" Shuichi asked with an arched eyebrow. His smile showed his interest and Kaoru just raised her eyebrows twice with a 'yup' before she began to fill her brother in on a lot of things.

"You're lucky you have taste. I would've hit you if he was ugly."

"You think he's cute?"

"… I'm not saying all that. I'm just saying that he's not ugly and that's a plus on my side. Now Michael can think of what I'm saying."

"Um…Sexy boy?"

"No. I was thinking he's good looking for her. Yawn let's go to bed."

Kaoru nodded as she shut down the computer and then she left it on the table. Misao had gone home for the night and as the three remaining Kamiyas retreated, Shuichi whistled.

"This penthouse is sweet. It's huge, you know."

"Well, duh. Music doesn't make me cheap, you know. I wanted something that was nice for me. And this is it."

"Laughs I can tell… Night Kaoru."

"Night." Kaoru said with a smile before she went into her room and she untied her hair after locking the door. She then stripped her shirt from her body and she shook the hair from her face before she stretched and she slipped into bed.

"Now for this tank top and these shorts… there we go."

Kaoru sighed again and she then turned over with a soft frown as she stared up at her ceiling. She looked out the window with a soft sigh escaping her lips once more and then she turned over onto her side as she got ready to sleep. Once she shut her eyes, a smile crept up on her face as she heard music.

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore…

Kaoru reached over onto her nightstand and she grabbed her cellphone before she opened it and she answered with a 'you remember me?'

"Of course. Our flight just got in a few hours ago and we had to make it to Aunt Alena's house first. Sorry I didn't call sooner."

"Don't worry about it. Yawn I was about to go to sleep because I thought you wouldn't call."

"That's mean, amore. You know I keep promises. Yawn i'm tired myself. Do you want me to sing you to sleep?"

"Yes, Daddy Llusi." Kaoru joked before she got comfy and she put the phone on speakerphone. She heard him lock something and then she let out a yawn before she said, 'my brother came.'

"Your eldest brother, right? His name was… Shuichi?"

"Hey, you said it right. And yeah, that's him. He came from school in Greece to check up on me until Tuesday. He rushed over after talking to Misao and he thinks you're good-looking."

"He's gay?"

"No!" Kaoru said with a laugh. "He just thought you'd be ugly."

"That boosts self-esteem."

"Laughs you're so funny at night."

"Only for you. You know I live for you, Kao-baby."

"I know. And now... I can live for you too."

(A/N: Poor Kenshin:( im so mean and i feel horrible! But, its all in the story, eh?)
(KxK)

"Very good, Tytto. Your report was very… different from all the men in this room."

"Is that bad?"

"Oh, not at all! It just shows you think on a… more mature level. Now I'm not saying that none of the boys in here are mature. I'm just stating that his writing shows a higher level of maturity."

Kaoru smirked as they all sat in english class, the rows going downward to the teacher's desk as Tytto bowed form standing there and he took his report and went back up to where Kaoru was seated at. It was a slow Monday, and the past two days they had been spending time with Aoshi and Shuichi since Aoshi left early in the morning for sports practice at his school.

"Misao, you sure you fine with Aoshi leaving?" Kaoru whispered as she saw her daydreaming and spinning her eraser on her binder cover.

"Yeah. He'll come back next weekend, so no biggie. Besides, he needs to go. He'll be relaxed with all the problems that's been going on around here."

"True… do you know where Shuichi said he was going?"

"All I know is that he's going to pay a visit to some places. Probably go to your Uncle's house." Kaoru arched an eyebrow as Misao just nodded in thought that she was right.

"Why would he go there—"

"Miss Kamiya." Kaoru looked up with a 'huh?' before some soft laughter went around at her being caught. She then sat up and apologized before the teacher asked her to come and read what he had as an report. Kaoru nodded and she grabbed her papers before she put them in order and she walked down with the two different sets.

"This is my typed one, like you asked, and this is the written, Mrs. Alvaray."

"Thank you. Please read your written one." She took the other paper from Kaoru and then Kaoru sighed and she spun around before she started to read her paper.

"My three emotions were love, lust and hate. I choose these three emotions because theese are the only three emotions that you can get every other emotion with. Anger, Sadness, Happiness; they all will cross with these emotions at one point in time."

Kaoru sighed and then as she began to look up at the with her words memorized in her head, she started to speak and tell her words. The class looked at her and as they listened to her words, they all felt something different about Kaoru just by the way she was speaking. They felt something… darker in her. Just by her words they could tell that she truly had changed from what she used to be.

"These words are deep, eh Kenshin?" Kenshin turned his head to Sanosuke, the rooster head's light brown eyes looking at him for an answer. He just simply nodded and as Kaoru shifted her self and she then looked out towards the window as she kept going. Kenshin knew just by the way she was speaking that this had something to do with him. As he kept listening, his heart hurt at the way she said her next paragraph so coldly.

"No emotion is worth killing youself over. None whatsoever. Not even love. I say this because how do we truly know that if we die, that person would do the same for us if the tables were turned? How do we know that the love is true? People in this world are actors and their surroundings are a stage to see how well they can toy with people. For all we know, our love could be their hate. Our love could be their anger. Why would I die for something false? What if… what if it's just lust?

"To me it doesn't make sense for me to break my back over somebody who won't do it for me. It's not an equal exchange and love is supposed to be equal. Where on the other hand, with lust, there is no strings attached that you show."

"True." Tytto said and Kaoru just gave him a soft smile as a few others said 'yeah'

"The definition of lust emotion wise is Intense or unrestrained sexual craving. With lust, you don't have to love somebody or hate somebody. It's just one emotion that keeps everything balanced. The way you lust for somebody is different from anything else, am I right?"

"Yeah." Some people spoke up to say and Misao just nodded and gave a thumbs up.

"With lust, it's just the way that person looks at that moment. You don't want to get to know their feelings, you really don't want to see if they're your soulmate. You just want that person the way they are at that moment not knowing anything about them. It's not a time where you want to find somebody special. It's just a time where you want their body and nothing else.

"I think that lust is the easiest way to not get your heart broken. It's easiest because with the way lust goes, sometimes you don't have to go farther than you want to. One night could be all you need, ya know?"

"Preach!" Tytto yelled and some guys agreed with him as Kaoru just nodded.

"But then again, lust is the middle way for love and hate. When you lust after somebody, you get jealous easily when that person goes to somebody else. That is a sign of hate. It could be your best friend, but if they get the guy you wanted, you will easily show signs of jealousy and give secret dirty looks."

"Hey, I've seen that before with Megumi." Misao whispered to Tytto and he just nodded to her before they looked back down at Kaoru who just kept going.

"Lust can easily lead into clingy behavior. For example, once you learn who that person is, you don't want to let them out of your sight. You'll begin to stalk them, even if you don't want to and you'll always ask them questions. It doesn't make sense because you're not going with that person, but it's just sometimes how the human mind responds. You can say Oh, that bitch don't mean shit or that guy's nothing to me. But when time goes by and you keep seeing that person popping up in the places that you do, you begin to want more of them.

"And when they don't want to be with your, they don't want to return your sudden love, you get a serious hate. You want to make them suffer the same way you are. You start to get murderous thoughts depending on how serious you felt. You get depressed, you get angry, you get relieved you can't feel that emotion anymore. You shut down, you wonder if that was the only one for you. You hope that it wasn't somebody who got away."

Kaoru shifted slightly as she was deep into her words and she kicked at the floor absent minded. She then got a small sympathetic smile.

"Sometimes that's how men kill their wives or wives kill their men. Sometimes that's how people go psychotic and kidnap others. Because they want that person or people to themselves so they don't want anybody to see them and mess up their chances to have their eyes only on them. It's a sick way of thinking, but that's just how some people think—excuse me—all humans think at one point in time."

"Hey! I take offence to that!" Megumi yelled out pissed and then Kaoru just leaned against the teacher's desk with a grin and looked up amused. The teacher just laid back and she didn't interfere with the discussion Kaoru started.

"So you're saying that if you wanted Sanosuke for… I don't know, ten years. You were seven years old when you met him and you've been trying for ten years. You're saying that if Sanosuke kept your hopes high! And then had the nerve to just go and get a girlfriend. You wouldn't have one thought of wanting to kill him. At all."

"Well, no! This is highschool!"

"And that's where I know that you're lying. You know it inside that you would kill to have her place."

"Kaoru, you don't even know!"

"You've been chasing him for ten fucking years! That's just denial, Megumi and you know it. That's just how the human mind works sometimes and we can't change it! We're not perfect people and if we were perfect, we'd be god himself! Don't give me that bullshit!"

"Kaoru." Tytto barked and Kaoru apologized quickly and bowed before she finished up her lust part and moved straight into hate. As she spoke it cold and showed the meaning of hate, Kenshin winced as she glanced up at him.

"Hate gives you the power to do the worst things. Leave somebody, kill somebody, break things, destroy many people, you have to have some kind of hate to be able to do this. If your heart is pure and you don't have hate, hateful people will eat you alive in this world."

"Why?" Misao asked.

"It's a dog eat dog world, Misao. You have to be strong or else you'll get burnt out in the long run. You gotta work hard to achieve any kind of greatness. Rich or not, things come at a price and if you want to keep up without having to see that price, you have to be in tune with yourself. And that concludes my report."

Clapping went around and she bowed, her hair falling over her shoulder as she said 'thanks' and she gave another bow.

"Are there any questions for Ms. Kamiya!" many people raised their hands and that had the teacher surprised as Kaoru picked one with a bandage on his hands.

"What do you have with these emotions? I mean, you didn't just pick them out of a hat, right?"

"Nope, I chose them personally." Kaoru answered.

"So, why did you pick them? What made you speak so strongly on them?" Kaoru sighed softly and she put her hands together with a soft smile.

"I had a lust, it turned into a love. A deep love too. That deep love ended and it slightly turned into some hate before I found another lust that turned into love again."

Sanosuke turned to Kenshin to see him look down at his desk with a frown on his face.

"Ah, a heatbreak of sorts and then a rebound, huh?."

"...Yeah, you could say that. Any more?" a few people put their hands down, but others kept their hands raised. Kaoru answered each question easily and with confidence in her words. Misao raised her hand and bounced about before Kaoru just laughed and picked her.

"Last question, Misao. Make it count."

"Okay… is this the reason for the songs on your CD?"

"...What do you mean by that?" Kaoru asked with an arched eyebrow.

"Kaoru, you and I both know very well that from last year to this year, you've matured a lot. Hell, when you came home, I almost forgot it was really you. The way you talk, the way you carry yourself, it's in a more mature manner. Even if it's getting you in trouble, you've matured really quick.

"Now, you know your new songs on your album are not like the old ones that I used to watch you write about. Come now, Kaoru. You know it as well as I do that they're different. So…is it the reason? Because of what happened over the year with emotions and the few things that have happened here?"

Everybody was shocked at Misao's statement and as Sanosuke leaned out to look, he asked, 'Misao, are you okay?'

"That sounded…deep. You on drugs?" Laughter went around and Misao just shook her head 'no' before she looked at Kaoru and arched her eyebrow.

"Well?" Kaoru then gave a smile and she nodded before she said 'yes, Misao.'

"That's exactly why. I've matured, so why can't I just put it in through my music? Seems fair enough to people to show them that I've grown up, right?"

"Right." Misao said with a soft smile before they clapped again and Kaoru bowed once more before she went back up to her seat and shook hands with Misao and Tytto.

"Thanks for asking questions."

"Anything to help you be relaxed down there."

(KxK)

"Alrighty! Let's do one lap on the track and then we're going to get ready for our daily fights! Anybody interested in racing today! It'll determine who runs two laps!"

"Kao! Test yourself!"

"Okay… I DO I DO!"

Kaoru jumped up and down and she raised her hand so the gym teacher knew that she wanted to go. Kaoru tied her shoelaces and as she moved over towards the track, she heard a voice that she hadn't heard in days.

"I wanna race too!"

"Come on, Tara. Let's see if your sister can beat you."

"Nah. She hasn't been running from what I've heard."

Kaoru rolled her eyes as she stripped her shirt and was left in her sports bra. Men whistled at the action and Kaoru just rolled her eyes with a cold face before she tied her hair up tighter and she stretched out. Tytto leaned her more forward as she touched her toes and Kenshin just sat in the bleachers interested with the others as Tara stretched with Soujiro helping her out.

"Now! Pick your lanes!"

"I got four, no questions asked." Kaoru said coldly and she walked over to where she wanted to go before she just touched her toes at the line and she stretched. Tara went to lane five and she did the same before the gym teacher pulled out his capgun and he held it up.

"Today, this is to determine whether Kaoru's side of the gym has to run or if Tara's side has to run! We're going to do a full lap! I want you going all out and just using it! This also is to determine whether we have a new female champion AND to tell which sister is the greater racer! Are you to ready to start this!"

"Yeah!" Tara yelled and she jumped up and down hyperly. Her blonde hair was tied up into a bun and her light green-hazel eyes excited. Kaoru kept calm though as she nodded and they stood straight and waited.

"Good luck sis! You're gonna need it!" Tara gave a thumbs up and then Kaoru just said 'whatever' before Tara turned around with a 'hmph!' The gym teacher smiled softly and then he raised the gun up. Tytto held Kaoru's stopwatch and Kenshin held Tara's as they waited.

"On your marks!" The two got down onto the line and as cheers went around for them, Kaoru blocked them out and she got her hands right. Tytto was cheering her on in Italian.

"Giusto come voi stanno correndo Llusi! Giusto come voi desideri batterlo male, Kaoru! Urli il suo asino!(Just like you're racing Llusi! Just like you want to beat him badly, Kaoru! Whoop her ass!)"

"He speaks Italian?" Sanosuke asked Kenshin. Kenshin just nodded before he looked back at Kaoru and Tara, his eyes mostly focused on Kaoru and how cold she looked.

"SET!" the two raised up a little, just hovering over the line. Kaoru's balance with herself was perfect and Tara's was the same, their bodies completely still as the gym teacher had raised his other hand.

With a shot of the gun, the two were off and the stop watches had gone off. The cheering was loud and as Tytto had jumped off with Misao to wait at the finish line with water, Kenshin nodded to Soujiro and they did the same.

"Whoa! They're completely tied up!" people began to say and Tytto just laughed softly as he watched them head for head.

"STOP PLAYING AND MOVE IT!" he barked and Kenshin's eyes slowly widened as he saw them going for the last two hundred.

'no… she's not that fast… is she? … Holy shit'

"GODDAMN!"

Misao and Tytto began to cheer as the gap between Kaoru and Tara opened up big time. Kaoru's legs were moving in a blue and as Tara tried to catch up, Tytto just moved up towards her lane and he cheered her on. Kenshin's eyes were wide with Sanosuke, Soujiro, and just about the rest of the class as Kaoru kept going and she ran past the line, Tytto pushing the stopwatch once more.

"That's my girl!" he said and as she ran right into his arms, he grabbed her and he spun her around. Kaoru just smiled softly as Misao came over and gave her some water. She drank it down and as Tara walked over to her, her eyes were angry.

"They said you didn't run! Why lie!"

"I don't know who told you that. I've been playing every sport imagined up. They just fed you lies."

"That's bullshit. I can't believe you beat me and I was running my hardest!" Tara said jealously. Kaoru then arched her eyebrow as she saw her sister's cheeks flushed and her breathing hard. Suddenly, she let out a smile and an arched eyebrow.

"That was your fastest?"

"Yes, damn you!" Kaoru then looked to Tytto as he walked over with a small handtowel and she said, 'hey cuz!'

"What's up?"

"Questo dice che era il suo più veloce.(This one says that was her fastest.)"

"Really! Il suo più veloce!(Her fastest!)"

"Yup. Told you we had nothing to worry about."

"Kao, you speak italian too?" Sanosuke asked confused. Kaoru just nodded before Tara glared at her sister.

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean! You have nothing to worry about; what the hell is that, Kaoru!" Kaoru gave a smirk and then she let her hair down to run her fingers through it.

"Well, Aoshi kept telling me to watch out for you. That you're going to beat me and be faster than me. If that's your fastest… then you're going to have to come better than that."

"And why is that?" Soujiro asked now interested with Kenshin and Sanosuke. Tytto then began to laugh to himself and he let it out louder.

"What's so funny!" Tara asked angrily. Tytto then put his arm over Kaoru's shoulder and gave a cool smile.

"Do you really think that Kaoru was running her fastest?" Tytto chuckled again and just looked at Tara, eyes amused.

"Cousin Tara, this is gym class. Why show the whole package for a school thing? We're not that dumb. Come on, let's get you seated while they're running their lap."

Kaoru just nodded and she said 'see ya' before she flipped her hair onto one side and walked away with Misao and Tytto. Tara kicked at the floor angrily before she joined her class to do the lap. Kenshin was still shocked.

"What's wrong, Kenshin? You act as if Kaoru was a ghost."

"Sano… she was five seconds behind me."

"WHAT! It's fucking Jou-chan, Kenshin! You're the fastest guy in school! How is she catching up!"

"I don't know!" Kenshin barked back at him and then he ran a finger through his hair frustrated.

"I just know that if that wasn't her fastest and she can catch Aoshi who's a second behind me… then if her friend Allusius heals his foot in two weeks… I'm going to have a hard time."

(KxK)

R.S.: And that is where I stop! This is the first part for this chapter! Lol, i'm splitting it into two parts to update something.

Hope you enjoy it! And Please read and review! The button's so cold down there! And I'm so clueless as to what people think! No reviews, no reason to write, ya know?

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