A/N: I tried to write the other chapter but the lemon between Kagome and Inuyasha just would not come out right. So I have altered the chapter.
Chapter 11
Rin and Sesshomaru walked through the door to their home, Rin sat on their bed and was silent for a few minutes. "Sesshomaru, I know part of this is due to my mix –up. Had I told you about my pregnancy sooner you would not have turned to Kagura, and the more I think on it, the more I feel it is in my best interest to leave for a while." She stated as she took a deep breath.
Sesshomaru felt his heart stop, "Rin, this is my own fault, not yours. If you feel that you must leave, I will not stop you. It is within your rights, while I will regret letting you go, you deserve better than what I can give you" He stated and turned to leave the room in silence.
Rin took her time packing up a few things, she would start over when she reached her destination. She was going to where she felt was home, back to Kaede, Kagome and Inuyasha. After she had packed a few suitcases, she walked down the stairs to see Kagome smiling at her. "Hey Rin! You ready?"
Rin nodded and walked out, glancing at Sesshomaru one last time. Once she got in, Kagome started the car and drove off. Rin knew running into him was impossible as Kagome and the others lived several miles away and would be ideal for her to begin again.
She smiled slightly as she remembered the final gift for Sesshomaru, one she hoped would live with him permanently. She had taken the last images of the ultrasounds and left them on the piano with her last song she created for him.
Meanwhile
Sesshomaru could feel the loneliness swarming around him and he had never felt so helpless as now. He had the one perfect woman and he lost her due to his own foolishness and pride. An envelope caught his eye as he grabbed it, opening it he pulled out papers. Some were of the ultrasounds, 2 healthy males, just as Kagome said. 'Males I will never see or be a part of' he thought. He placed the music on the holder and played it softly as he pictured her voice singing it.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Sesshomaru felt like a dozen kinds of fool. He had known Rin loved him, they had been a part of each other since they were in school and he played her even then. She always came back and he had hoped she would look over this as well, in the end she had enough.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know If I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Rin had reached her destination, Home. Kaede was standing at the door waiting for her, Rin blinked back tears and ran into her arms. Kaede had been a mother figure to her for as far back as she could remember. Kagome brought her cases in and Inuyasha silently took them to her room. After she unpacked and put everything away, Inuyasha was standing in her doorway.
"Come on squirt, I got a surprise for you, you are going to love it." Rin nodded and with a smile followed him to the basement, stopping when she saw what greeted her. A brand new studio for her to make her music in, she jumped on Inuyasha and hugged him tightly. "You're welcome"
Rin had set her disc up in the system as her music played through giving Rin a feel for the sound of it all. "I know a friend in music, he should be here tomorrow, he can help you put a disc together if you want. Music is basically the only thing that can help you"
He went up the stairs and left Rin to get acquainted with her new studio. Kagome pulled him aside, "How is she? She was devastated when I picked her up and I want her to be able to piece herself together and move on, with or without Sesshomaru."
Inuyasha glanced down the stairs before replying. "She is still upset, she had her heat broken again and music may very well be what she needs to immerse herself in to heal. She lost herself in music when he left her the first time, she was fine then. She just needs time Kagome. Give her that"
He took her hand and walked to their room. Kaede walked down the steps with a tray of food and a drink as she watched Rin tweak her music often, trying new sounds. "I have never seen you as peaceful as you are right now. Nor as beautiful" She set the tray down as she hugged her. "Why the long face Rin?"
"How can I be beautiful when my face repels my fiancé to make him lay with another?" She stated before sitting on her couch. Kaede sat beside her and pushed the tray towards her, no words would heal her, but perhaps some advice could help.
"Rin, you must find your way, it will only be simple when it is the right path, don't feel lucky or happy when someone expects you to. Feel happy just to be you. A strong and beautiful woman, one who will grow into herself when the time is right. Take your time, let your heart take some time to think who it loves the most and if it is worth it in the end."
Kaede went back up the stairs as Rin covered up on the couch and unknowingly fell asleep, unsure what the dawn would bring her.
A/N: What is in Store for him now that Rin left? How will he handle the separation from her as he struggles to get his own life back on track without her, again.