**AN: Thank you for the reviews guys, you are awesome! When I started writing this story, I hadn't written in anything in years and I didn't want to be one of those authors who say 'I need so many reviews before I update, etc..' so it's nice to read your reviews; it fuels me on to continue working on a chapter when I feel like relaxing- life is a little busy since I've got two little ones under 2. LTM is a good outlet for me I feel, I work on chapters whenever I get a free moment and I'm trying to update as much as possible. This chapter is kind of a filler I suppose- for lack of a better way to explain it- something lighter than the past couple of chapters but also to get Tris out of the infirmary without just skipping to it out of nowhere; next chapter will get more back on track with everything, including the big reveal to the group. Okay, enough of my rambling and on with LTM...
"I'm not doubting you, Tris, but how do you know for certain that she is the one behind this?" Tobias asks me.
"I was thinking about things last night when I couldn't sleep and I realized that I'm not the only person that was sent back with the information of what's to come. The universe is funny sometimes, but there is an undeniable fact: there is always a balance to everything. I remembered about this time in school when I had learned something about a butterfly effect. They call it that because when a butterfly flaps it's wings, the effect of it can be felt across the world and not always in a harmless manner. The world functions on balance- good and evil, for example- and I could not be here without something to counter that. I was selfish and I'm being reminded that this is bigger than me alone."
"Selfish?" He asks, confused.
"Ever since I woke up back here on Choosing Day, I have made it main mission to change things so that in the end I won't die. I didn't take into account what being here would do, like change the little things, and I was missing the bigger picture."
"What would the bigger picture be, Tris?"
"Maybe I'm not supposed to stop the war completely, that I was sent back to that specific day for a reason. I wasn't provided enough time to massively expose the truth, and it seems that Eric already knew who I was and what I was going to do that day when I jumped first. He has been after me in some way since initation started because he was told by someone. When he first came to Dauntless, he was sent here to be a spy for Jeanine. Jeanine has long been working with Max on a plan to overthrow Abnegation, how else is a faction of brainiacs supposed to fight- they surely won't be doing it themselves so that they have someone to blame if things go wrong. I figured it wouldn't do any good when I heard you went to talk to Max- I mean he's been in on the plan since the beginning, and though Eric may have been sent here, Max thought he could bring you in as a stonger leader than Eric; that's why he has pursued you with the leadership position even though you keep refusing. Being here in Dauntless may have helped to bring out the ruthless side of Eric, but he will always be Erudite first and Dauntless second." I tell Tobias, his face full of shock.
"What makes you say that?" He asks when he regains his composure.
"Where do you think he went when he left the compound? Eric is proving how much of a coward he his by hiding at the one place where he is safest- Erudite. Jeanine would not allow anyone Dauntless to come in since I now know about this latest scheme; and Max certainly won't be sending any of our people to investiage, so Eric has it made. He may no longer be in the compound, but there are still Dauntless-traitors in our midst so we have to be extremely careful on how we approach this." I see Tobias looking at me with what could be described as awe and I'm not sure why.
"What were your aptitude test results?" He wonders out loud.
"Abnegation, Dauntless and Erudite." I say quietly where nobody outside of us knew what was said.
"That explains it, then."
"What explains it?" I ask him.
"All of what you just told me sounded like it had been analyzed through a microscope, it was so accurate; so obvisously you would fit in well in Erudite."
"Well, maybe in a different life I would have." I say with a laugh, "I really hope Dr. Graham lets me go tomorrow, I'm so sick of this room." I say out loud after it's been silent for a few minutes.
"I know the feeling, small rooms and me don't mix," he says, "What did you mean earlier when you told Uri and Marlene that you wanted to talk to everyone?" he asks, changing the subject.
"After Dr. Graham left at lunch, I tried to go to sleep but I couldn't so I thought up a way to tell everyone what's about to happen. I wanted my thoughts and words to be a little easier explained than when I told you. I hadn't quite figured out how to approach the subject with you so it all came out in a jumbled mess."
"Yeah, it really did. I almost thought you were just crazy, just for a second." He says jokingly.
"Wow, you've got jokes, who knew?" I playfully tease.
"I'm a regular stand-up comedian, didn't you know?" He smiles at me and his smile is so contagious that I can't stop myself from doing the same.
"Anyway, l couldn't sleep so I thought of a game plan to tell everyone at once so it's easier to deal with questions the best that I can. As I said before, things have changed somewhat and I'm not sure what the new course of events will be, but one thing is for certain: the war is still going to happen, just the casualties will be less if we manageto pull this off."
"Stage two of initiation starts soon." Tobias says as if sensing that I wanted to change the subject.
"I know. I wonder what my fear simulation will be now; my worst fear has already presented itself to me. I hope so, at least." I say.
"Whatever it is Tris, you'll make it through it; you're a very tough person." Tobias says before he glances at the clock on the wall, "it's getting late, I should probably go." He says.
"Do you have to?" I ask, not wanting to leave the saftey of his presence.
"Do you want me to?" As if he has to ask.
"Well, yeah. That's kind of the reason I asked if you had to go, duh." I state like it's a given that I want him with me.
"Then I can stay tonight." He says as he gets up. He goes over to the door to the room and slightly opens it. Tobias exchanges a few words with the guards and they leave for a couple hours to rest. When they leave, he closes the door and comes back to the bed-wrapping his arms around me. I lay my head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat drum a rythym similar to a lullaby. I let out a huge yawn and snuggle up closer to him.
"I've missed this," I say sleepily and he chuckles a little, "good night, Tobias."
"Sleep well and good night, Tris." He says as we both relax and let today's problems and tomorrow's worries drift away for the night while wrapped in each other's warm embrace.
For the first time since I woke up in my room back in Abnegation on Choosing Day, I sleep the best I have in ages. I awake to find Tobias still with me on the infirmary bed and still sound asleep. I glance at the clock on the wall and see that it is five a.m; it will be another couple of hours before Dr. Graham will come in to re-examine my injuries so I decide to go back to sleep. I wrap my arms back around Tobias and nuzzle my head in the crook of his neck, taking in his sent- as it's been a while since I was able to do that too- and fall back asleep almost immediately. After what seems like thirty minutes, I feel someone nudging me.
"Ughm, five more minutes." I say groggily.
"Tris, is here." Tobias says gently. This seems to jolt me awake instantly.
"I'm up," I say looking around and settling my gaze on the doctor.
"Good morning Tris, Four." Dr. Graham greets us, "how have you been doing?"
"Been doing pretty good considering, Doc. So, when can I leave?" I ask.
"That depends on how the exam goes but I think you should be able to leave today. Four, if you could excuse us, I'm going to examine Ms. Prior and we'll see where things are after that." He politely kicks Tobias out of the room.
"I'll be right outside, Tris." He says, kissing my forehead.
"Okey dokey, Pokey." I reply and he shakes his head, laughing slightly. Dr. Graham waits until Tobias is out of the room before he starts an exam of my body from head to toe.
"What's the damage, Dr. Graham?" I ask when he's done.
"Well, your ribs are healing nicely so as long as you don't get into any fights you'll be okay. There's not really anything that we can do here that you can't do on your own so I'll be getting your discharge papers together soon and I will also prescribe you some pain medication for when it gets to a point where it is not tolerable; if you start feeling more intense pain, go ahead and take the medicine- don't wait until it's full blown or it won't help. Remember what I said yesterday Tris, it is probably a good idea to talk to someone about everything that has happened and I expect you to follow through with that recommendation. Do you have any questions?"
"WIll the pain medicine make me loopy, like yesterday?" I ask.
"I won't be prescribing quite as strong of a medicine for your use at home as we give here so it shouldn't be as bad; however, if you start feeling odd or intense pain to the point where you can't move at all I want you to come back here straight away. It could indicate something serious going on and the longer you wait, the more of a risk it is that you won't be able to recover from it. Take it easy for the next couple of days and you should be ready for the second round of initation; at least this stage isn't physical. It is important though that you start to deal with things that have happened or it could come back to you worse in the next stage." He says heading towards the door.
"I promise, I will try to talk to someone about how I'm feeling, Doc." I tell him as he lets Tobias back into the room.
"Good. Well, then Ms. Prior, once I get your papers set up, you are free to go."
"Thank you for everything, Dr. Graham." I say and suddenly I feel like a thank you isn't enough.
"That's what I'm here for; I mean this in the best way but I hope to not encounter you here for a while." He smiles and leaves the room.
"So, you get to go?" Tobias asks me.
"Yep." I reply, a small smile playing across my lips.
"Where do you want to go when you're free of this room?" He asks.
"I really would like some food, believe it or not I am famished." As if on cue, my stomach growls loudly and Tobias laughs.
"We'll stop by the cafeteria then." He says as he sweeps the hair out of my face. By the time that Dr. Graham gets the orders put in for me to leave, breakfast is over.
"There goes that plan." I mumble to myself. Tobias looks at me for a minute before he speaks.
"I've got a plan; stay here, I'll be right back." He says as he directs me over toward a table and disappears. He's gone for a few minutes and just as I start to feel paranoid that Peter or Eric is going to pop out of the shadows any second at me, Tobias comes back with a couple of bags. I notice one on the right says 'pharmacy' so I know he got my medicine for me as one of the things he did.
"What happened to 'I'll be right back?" I ask him, with a slight tone of playfulness.
"Well, I figured I'd go ahead and get your medicine while I was waiting so that you don't have to worry about it."
"My hero! How very kind of you," I say, "Waiting for what, exactly?" I ask a second later.
"Sshh, don't tell anyone I can be kind; reputation to watch and whatnot," he replies with a smile to let me know he's joking- and I must admit, I like seeing Tobias joke- before continuing, "but since breakfast is over, I, being the gentleman that I am, got some food for us." he holds up the bag in his left hand for effect.
"Nope, they're getting ready to clean up." Tobias says when he sees me start towards a table.
"Okay, well where are we going to eat?" I ask, wishing we could be wherever by now- my stomach is getting angry at me, it sounds like.
"I've got an idea; but first we need to stop by Zeke's so I can get him to let the others know you're out of the infirmary so they don't start freaking out or something if they come to see you and you're not there."
"Well then, by all means, lead the way oh mighty leader." I say while I try to hold back a laugh at the look he gives me. I see the corner of his mouth twitch before he turns around so I know he's not mad, and we take off towards Zeke's. We make a few twists and turns before I realize that I've been this way before. I didn't realize Zeke lived down the hall from Tobias, although it makes sense. I knew from conversations past- or future now I suppose- that Zeke was the first one in his initiate class that he considered a friend; after his night with the Dauntless-born playing some game that I'd never heard of- and I know Zeke considers him like a brother, so it would be fitting that they'd live near each other. We reach the door and Tobias knocks a couple of times, each time knocking louder, until I hear the door unlock.
"Four, my man, I think they heard you all the way out to Amity- I swear I thought you were going to break my door down," he says until he sees me. Zeke grabs me in a hug before I can react.
"Tris! Good to see you're doing better." He says before setting me down. I don't miss the look Tobias gives Zeke and I give a short laugh before I respond.
"Well, better-ish but it's really nice to be out of that place."
"I would imagine so, it's so boring there."
"Right? They need some kind of entertainment for people; like maybe set up some water guns in the room and as people pass, you can squirt water at them or totally soak them. The best part about it is they can't really be mad for it because the person in the room is hurt or sick."
"I knew you'd be the perfect sister I never had," Zeke says with a smile before turning to Tobias, "Dude, she's totally a keeper. So what can I do you guys for?" He asks.
"I wanted to let you know that Tris was out of the infirmary and I know you and Uriah can get the word out to everyone else rather quickly." Tobias says.
"Yeah, we're good at shooting our mouths off," Zeke says with a grin, "I'll let Uri know, and I know he'll let the others know."
"Thanks Zeke, I appreciate it man. Tris is hungry so we're gonna get going." Tobias says as he starts to turn around and head to his apartment. I hesitate for a second before I open my mouth.
"Can you actually do me a favor?"
"Anything for you, my darling." Zeke overpronounces darling so it sounds more like 'daaaa-ling.'
"Would you mind if later tonight we could all meet up here at your place? I've decided to tell Uri and Marlene what they want to know and I want to share it with the group as a whole so it'll be a little bit easier." I say while not meeting his gaze.
"An excuse to get a bunch of pretty girls in my apartment? Now, why would I mind that?" He asks me with a lopsided grin.
"Didn't think you would, but a girl's gotta ask before she just invites a bunch of people and shows up on a guys doorstep." I joke back with a wink, "seriously though Zeke, thank you." I give Zeke a quick hug and follow Tobias to his apartment. He unlocks the door and lets me go in before he closes the door behind us. I look around and it is exactly as I remembered it; I feel like I'm home and for now, I smile at that thought.
