His vision was black, and his hearing was muddled. His shoulder ached a bit, and his head hurt.
Eventually, given some time, Eijun's eyes fluttered open slowly as a groan escaped his lips.
A sudden light invaded his eyes, causing him to flinch. His eyes took a bit more time to adjust, as color soon flooded in.
He winced as he sat up, holding his head gingerly. Where was he… what had be been doing? He felt very light headed and dizzy.
The questions that filled his head were soon answered, as his eyes met with a truck that had skidded to the side of the road. After that his eyes landed on a single person.
The person wasn't moving, and they were surrounded by something red. Eijun's mind slowly began to work again, and everything came back to him.
He stared at the person, fear invading his heart rapidly. He shook his head, as he noticed the very familiar brown hair and hat the catcher had been wearing "no…" he whispered, his eyes never leaving the unmoving figure.
Quickly, he stumbled over as tears stung his eyes. A man had tried to stop him, but he shoved him away muttering "I know him!" over and over again.
Once he got closer, there was no doubt in his mind of who the person on the floor was.
Miyuki.
A strangled cry left his throat, as he dove forwards towards his lover. How had this happened?!
He was in complete shock. Why was he covered in blood… why was there so much blood?!
He shook his head as he desperately hugged the body towards him "Miyuki, Miyuki Kazuya wake up!" he chocked.
No response.
He was crying harder now "come on this isn't funny, get up!" he said again, a bit more angrily.
There was no way he was gone right? He was breathing, he was definitely ok. He was just resting; yes he was just tired that had to be it.
If that was the case then why did he feel this devastation, this dread in his chest? He chocked a bit, "don't leave me damn it, I can't apologize if you don't wake up right now" he shouted.
That's when blue and red colors blurred together, the siren's loud shriek echoing in his ears.
He clutched Miyuki closer, burying his face in the nape of Miyuki's neck. He tried to stop the bleeding, he really did.
He was so hysterical that he refused to let go, even when the paramedics tried to get him away from the older boy.
Eijun would simply shake his head, and tell them to leave.
It was to the point they had to sedate him to get him to let go. Eijun cried out one last time, before darkness swallowed him.
The next time he woke up, he was staring at a blank ceiling. A soft beeping sound could be heard, as he moved his head to the side. He noticed another person in the room, his roommate in fact.
Eijun looked at him, confused. Had everything been a dream? Had he imagined Miyuki bloodied and cold?
He needed to know "did I… get hit?" he questioned.
Kuramochi looked up, his arms crossed "you hit your head against the pavement a bit when you were pulled aside. Nothing too serious, just a minor concussion" he explained.
Ejiun tensed "what do you mean… pulled aside?" he asked.
Kuramochi had a dark look on his face "Eijun listen when you ran off you weren't looking where you were going… by the time you may have realized what was going to happen it was too late… in order to prevent you from getting hit straight on it was Miyuki who yanked you out of the way… at his own expense" he answered.
His blood froze "no…" he muttered, tears already threatening to fall.
Kuramochi clenched his fist, his eyes looking at the ground.
Eijun let the tears fall "he took the hit for me… all that blood… it wasn't a dream it was real.. it… was… real…" he cried, his body shaking violently.
His fault, it was his fault "my fault… I did it… I… I caused him to… caused him to…" he couldn't finish as he cried loudly.
The pain he felt was so immense he thought he'd explode. How could he have allowed this to happen? How could he have been so stupid, so blind?
Kuramochi punched his arm, shutting him up momentarily "stop whining! No one blames you, and that truck ran a red light. I won't deny that if you had been paying attention you could have prevented all this, however, what's done is done. Besides Miyuki made the choice himself, you're not responsible for something he chose to do himself" he said, crossing his arms again.
Eijun continued to cry, not really believing a word he said. The others may not have blamed him, but Eijun knew it was one hundred percent his fault. He should have been the one who had gotten hit, not Miyuki.
Kuramochi stood up slowly, glancing at him.
Eijun had to know, had to know Miyuki's condition "how… did he you know… is he alive?" he asked weakly.
His heart hammered wildly in his chest as he waited for an answer.
Kuramochi clenched his fists again "he took a hard hit Sawamura, he lost a lot of blood too. Right now he's on life support and is in a coma, honestly it's a miracle that he's even still alive right now. However… they don't know when he'll wake up, or even if he will… it's only a matter of time before he's gone, I'm sorry Sawamura but… it doesn't look good" he whispered.
It was only then did he notice the small tears that ran down his friends cheek, he as crying. Kuramochi was actually crying. Kuramochi never cried…. If he was crying then he must have been telling the truth.
Eijun was too shocked to say anything else, as Kuramochi excused himself from the room. He was most likely going to visit Miyuki.
Eijun continued to stare lifelessly at the wall. Miyuki had saved him. How the hell could Eijun have ever thought the older boy hadn't loved him like he had?
It was painfully clear that Eijun had not trusted Miyuki as much as Miyuki trusted him, and it was clear Eijun knew nothing.
Eijun was the fool, he was the one who had drove Kazuya to sacrifice himself to save Eijun.
Eijun cried for hours before the doctor came in and checked him over. Not that Eijun cared; the only thing that seemed to get a response from the boy was whenever Miyuki's name was mentioned.
So when the doctor said that if he was cleared to leave he could visit Miyuki he cooperated the best he could. He was later discharged, and headed straight towards his lover's room.
Once there, he stood in front of the door that read 'Miyuki Kazuya'.
His hand hovered over to doorknob, as he stared at it. Did he even have a right to see him? Did he have the right to even try and speak to him?
Just then, the door swung open and Kuramochi stood before him with an annoyed look "If you're going to come it, just walk in damn it" he snapped, before walking past him and kicking him inside.
Eijun yelped as he landed on his face. He looked up, rubbing his head painfully as Kuramochi stared at him "I've already said what I needed to say, so make sure you do the same moron" he said, before leaving.
The door closed slowly after that, leaving Eijun alone with Miyuki.
The boy gulped, as he stood up and looked at the unmoving form of his lover. The sight of his lover was not something he ever wished to see.
He was so… so broken. Everywhere he looked there were bandages and res spots. Miyuki must have felt so much pain when he got hit.
Eijun cried as he got up and walked over to Kazuya's side. He then sat down and looked at Miyuki's miserable form.
It was hazy, but Eijun did faintly remember that Miyuki had flashed him a smile before the truck rammed him.
Why had he smiled at him like that? It was like he was relieved that it was him instead of Eijun who had gotten hit.
Eijun glared at the floor "you idiot… you… you should have let me…" he didn't finish the thought.
If Kazuya were still here he'd probably punch him, and tell him to stop thinking that way.
Eijun laughed sorrowfully, as his hand weakly reached for Kazuya's. He then squeezed it tightly, as he looked up at his lover once more.
He cried harder, his eyes puffy from crying so much "I'm sorry… so… so sorry… I… please wake up… please I can't… I can't lose you, please… I'm so sorry, it's all my fault… my fault... I killed you..." he repeated over and over again.
If he had just paid attention, Kazuya would still be awake and healthy.
Eijun broke down completely at this point, yelling at Kazuya to wake up and stay with him. Telling him he was sorry and that he hadn't meant for any of this to happen.
He did so for hours, until his throat was so sore he physically couldn't say anymore. He was at an all time low, and no matter how much the nurses or anyone else tried to get him to eat or drink he refused.
He never let go of Miyuki's hand, and he never bothered greeting anyone else in the room.
His mind had shattered, and his heart broken.
It was hard to believe that Miyuki was smiling, that he was fine hours ago. Now the boy didn't move, let alone respond to him. What could he do? What else could he do other than pray for another miracle to save Miyuki?
More tears. Eijun continued on like this for days, and only managed to eat a little bit of food each day thanks to Kuramochi basically shoving it down his throat.
Eijun only left Miyuki's side to shower, or sleep for a few hours when Kuramochi of course forced him too.
Each day Eijun would sit silently as he held onto Miyuki's cold hand tightly. He had sometimes broke down and cried for Miyuki to wake up, and other times he prayed more.
It was only when Eijun was at his lowest did he remember the night Miyuki had told him about that story.
He remembered the words, remembered the story:
"did you know? There was a man who had lost everything, lost all meaning in his life"
"that man was lost, he was completely broken… just when he thought he'd never truly live again he was given a chance"
"The man took this chance given to him, and he was allowed one chance, one life, and one goal to fulfill… he was sent back in time, and that's when he decided to steel himself and do everything he could to prevent his tragic future from occurring again"
"Course no one knows if that man achieved his goal"
The words made him truly wonder, was it all really just a simple story? Was there no way that it had been real?
He felt tired, so tried that he closed his eyes and rested.
When he opened his eyes again, he was surrounded by white. His eyes moved from one area to the other.
Nothing.
There was complete and utter silence, not a sound could be heard. That is until a voice behind him made him snap his head towards it.
"I see you've become more… aware of some things" it spoke.
Eijun blinked, confused "who are you, what do you mean more aware? Aware of what?" he asked.
The voice seemed to chuckle "don't tell me you haven't noticed? Surly you've seen the signs, what with your lover suddenly seeming a bit different and all" it said.
Eijun titled his head, it was true that Miyuki had seemed different… but was also the same in some ways. He thought more about it, then the story popped back into his head.
It was true that Miyuki seemed anxious before the game; it was almost like he knew he was going to get injured.
The mysterious man in black seemed to smile "that's right, deep down you've always known right? You've always known that the story your lover told you was in fact true… the only thing you seemed struggle to accept was that Miyuki was in fact the man who had taken the chance to come to the past to change his future" he said.
Eijun froze, "no way… was that… was that what he was hiding all this time?" he asked aloud, shocked.
The mysterious figure shrugged "I cannot tell you what you want to know, all I can tell you is that your lover wanted to change a horrible future. I find it my duty to tell you that Miyuki Kazuya was given one more chance at another life, another future. However, that one chance has now ended" he said.
Eijun looked at him as his breath hitched "what do you mean ended?" he asked.
The mysterious man gave him a sad smile "I mean his time has come to an end, he did indeed prevent the tragedy that occurred in the future… however, he did so at the cost of his own life and I do wonder if his fate really changed at all?" he asked aloud.
Eijun gulped, "fate? What tragedy, what was Kazuya trying so hard to change… what caused him to go so far as to give up his life for me like he did?" he asked.
He had to know. No, he needed to know why it was that Kazuya was so adamant about changing the future.
The voice grew cold "Miyuki Kazuya lost his most precious one due to a misunderstanding. Due to that he lost everything; his happiness, his job, and ultimately his will to live on without that person. So I gave him a chance to change his fate, I gave him a chance to make things right again, but..." the man didn't finish.
Eijun was still trying to process all this information, Miyuki had come back to save his most precious person? What was it, who?
Eijun looked up at the man "who was it that he was trying to save?" he asked.
The voice once again turned cold and sad "Miyuki Kazuya was trying to save the man he loved the most in this world. He was trying to save you Eijun… he was trying to prevent you from dying, and with all his strength he did so at the cost of his own life. No matter how much he regretted your death, he would not allow you to die a second time…. This led to his inevitable death" it said.
Eijun cried out "ME?! H… he did all this to save me" he said, stunned.
Everything clicked in place, the nightmares, the hesitation, the way he seemed to push him away. Miyuki was trying to save him, he was trying to do everything he could to prevent his apparent death.
More tears came, and he glared after remembering the bit about the man stating that Miyuki was dead "… stop…. Stop he's not dead! He'll wake up, he'll come back to me I know he will" he added, shouting the last part.
The man laughed so sadly it caused Eijun to flinch "no, Miyuki Kazuya will die… you cannot avoid it. Fate is a hard thing to change, as you've seen the red string of fate ties the two of you together… and you're also destined to live alone in this world in the end. One of you must die, it has already been written" he spoke.
Eijun shook his head stubbornly "no, no fate can change… our future can change!" he shouted.
The man shook his head "no, no it cannot be change. Miyuki Kazuya is a perfect example; try as he might your fates did not change. All that occurred was that your positions switched. Instead of your death, it was his. Instead of him being alone, you are now alone. All that's changes are your positions, nothing else changed" he explained.
Eijun gritted his head "I refuse to believe that! Let me try. Give me a chance… Kazuya may have used up his chance but I haven't!" he said, hope swelling inside of him.
He could save him, he could save Kazuya if he was given this chance.
He looked at the mysterious figure seriously "I can make things right again, I can change everything! I know I can… our bond is strong and we can get through this together, so please… please let me try just as my love did!" he shouted, never wavering.
The mysterious figure looked at him, before shaking his head "I will not, I do not want to see a tragedy happen a third time. It will certainly happen again, fate is too strong to rebel against… I thought Miyuki Kazuya could perhaps prove me wrong, however, the past will always repeat itself.
Eijun clenched his fists "you don't know that unless you let me try! I don't give a damn if there's no chance, I don't care if you don't think I… we can't do it! I'll prove you wrong, I'll show you that we're so much stronger together than we are when we're separated… so please let me try to save him… to save our future together!" he cried.
The mysterious figure watched him closely, "you would try knowing you will certainly fail?" it asked.
Eijun nodded without hesitation again "I don't care if we're certain to fail, all I know is that if I don't try then this fate will never change!" he said.
The mysterious man sighed "very well Sawamura Eijun, I will give you the same chance I granted Miyuki Kazuya… but be warned that you have one life, one chance, and one goal. Stray for your goal and you will fail, my only condition is that you tell no one of this future you came from… not a soul that has no idea of the entire situation that has occured, do you understand?" it asked.
Eijun nodded, fire in his eyes.
The man sighed, "very well, but know that I do not know where in time you will be sent. You could be blasted back ten years, or even ten minutes. It is a risk, you may not even go back far enough to prevent the accident from happening… do you still wish to proceed?" it asked.
Eijun nodded "I'm not backing down, I'm ready" he said.
The mysterious man smiled, and to Eijun's surprise his own eyes were met with deep golden eyes "I do prey you can prevent our tragedy, I wish you luck Eijun… and I hope with all my heart that you will be the one to save him from his suffering" he said.
Everything went black.
Hehehe did you guys like it? I gave a pretty good hint as to who the mysterious figure was, did you catch it? Sorry for the late update, college has started back up for me and it's pretty intense.
I will try to update the best I can. The story is coming to a close soon as well, so look forward to the ending!
Good luck to all you other college kids out there, and keep with it! Stay frosty!
~SpazzticPanda