As Logan traded the CD for the next one he looked down, his vision becoming blurry yet again. He didn't know how much more he could cry, he felt so drained already but the tears still came.
This was the ninth CD already, meaning there was only five left and still no trace of his name. When was his name going to show up?
Logan sighed, running his hand through his soft brown locks that laid more flat today. He had slept on his hair last night and had not done it for the day so it was still quaffed but flatter than usual and stuck up in odd places, something he let slid for once.
When Danielle was alive he never would have done that, she loved his hair up. It was because of her that he started sporting the look, before he just let it grow out and kept it against his forehead not caring, just combing it in the morning and letting it takes its natural course through the day.
Then Danielle asked if she could do his hair one day, both being bored out of their minds. It was a unseasonably warm day for a winter day and the lake that was frozen nearby was not safe enough to skate on, and the indoor rink wasn't open to anyone during the winter, except for sport reasons.
Who needed it anyway? It was winter and they had enough snow and ice to skate outside.
Since practicing that day became a bust, the rest of the guys went to see a movie, the latest slasher flic that Logan couldn't even remember the name of now, but Danielle didn't want to go. She hated slasher flics, loved scary movies but slasher flics were not her favorite so she decided to stay behind. Logan joined her, thinking it was perfect time for them to hang out alone, something they did not do very often.
They were at his house, in his room; something his parents allowed only for Danielle and if his door was open so they could always peek in when they walked down the hall. Which they did, very often.
They were in his room, staring at the celling, both of them on his floor completely bored when Danielle sat up, making Logan follow her, leaning on his elbows.
She looked at him, smiling a smile that made his skin crawl, in a good and bad way. It was the 'I have an idea' smile, something that she acquired from Kendall and usually meant trouble for Logan.
Logan stared at her for a minute before speaking, "What?" He questioned.
"Have you ever thought of a different hair style, Logie?" She asked, a smirk on her face.
A shudder went down Logan's spine at the nickname. He hated it, which is why only his mom and Danielle were allowed to call him that. Logan couldn't deny though that it sounded sexy coming off Danielle's lips, something that always made Logan blush. He never understood how she had no idea he was head over heels for her since he moved to Minnesota in third grade.
Or, if she did, she often pretended she had no clue.
"I thought you liked the whole shaggy look?" Logan questioned, the only reason why he didn't just chop it short like Carlos' was Danielle after all.
"I do, but ever since Bieber became famous, ever guy does it. And you're not like every guy." Danielle said with an eye roll.
"True, what do you have in mind?" Logan asked, looking a bit fearful.
"Don't look so scared, Logie, I'm not going to cut it, I just want to quiff it." Danielle replied with a sweet smile, something that melted Logan's heart.
"What it?" Logan asked, confused, he was a guy he didn't know hair styles.
"Quiff it. It's kind of like spiking it, but more forward. Can I try." Danielle pleaded, knowing Logan could not say no to her.
"Okay?" Logan said, still skeptical.
"Yeah! Do you have a hair dryer and gel?" Danielle questioned.
"Erm, my mom should."
"Okay, I'll go get it." Danielle said with a smile as she went to Logan's parents bathroom, she was practically family and not odd for her to go in there.
Danielle returned minutes later before dragging Logan to his desk chair. She plugged in everything and started at work. After ten or so minutes, his hair was done.
Logan looked at it in his mirror, actually liking the style. His bangs were mostly just forward, and the rest of his hair was lying flat like usual. But he still liked it.
"I like it." Logan said with a sideway smile as he looked at Danielle.
"I'm glad. It fits you, looks very nerdy in my opinion." Danielle joked.
"Hey! Says the second best student in our grade!" Logan protested.
"I would be number one, if it wasn't for you little Logie." Danielle teased.
Logan couldn't think of a comeback and just stuck out his tongue.
"Mature." Danielle said with a laugh as she took Logan's hands in her own, making his heart race. It was normal for her to do it, but still got his heart racing every time. Danielle smiled before kissing Logan's cheek.
"You missed." Logan muttered, his eyes widening as he realized he actually said it out loud.
"You have been hanging with James too much." Danielle said with an eye roll before gently pecking his lips and letting go of his hands.
"Do you want to go to my house? The guys should be back from the movie soon. You can show off your new hair style." Danielle said with a smile, ignoring the fact that they had just kissed.
Something the pair did often; it wasn't the first time they had kissed after all.
"Sure, let's go." Logan said with a blush on his face before following her out of his room.
That was one of Logan's favorite memories, every time they kissed became one of his favorite memories.
His happy memory was interrupted when he realized he had to finish what was at task. He started the next CD, really wishing his name would just pop up already.
Number nine already wow, we really are rolling aren't we?
Some people say being beautiful or handsome is all you really need in life, but it's those people you need to look out for.
For they may seem just a pretty face, nothing behind it, but boy did I learn that was wrong.
After all, it's the pretty faces that hold the most secretes, sometime not even their own secretes.
Am I right, James Diamond?
I know everyone on this tape knows you, probably all of the girls have had crushes on you. Well besides Mamma Knight, that would cross a line that shouldn't be crossed.
Of course, some lines have already been crossed that shouldn't have, right Kendall?
Oh well, James you're on here for not what you did, but for what you didn't do.
Confused? Let me enlighten you.
Now while the whole Kendall raping me thing happened, I forgot to mention one important detail.
Someone had come into the apartment that first time while Kendall was doing what he did to me.
That's right folks, James walked into the apartment. I had no clue who had opened the front door, only learning it was James later.
After Kendall was done I left his room, feeling completely disgusted with myself. I met James eyes and his once smirk faltered into a frown.
My guess is you thought Kendall was getting lucky, because from your reaction I know you heard Kendall's moans and groans.
I know you heard everything. But I didn't want to be a hundred percent sure, so I went to my room to block you guys out.
Problem is our walls are paper thin and Katie's and I room are right next to the front room so I heard you tell Kendall that you had come home because the date you were on was a bust.
Did I mention our walls were paper thin, so I know you heard us James. There was no way you couldn't; Kendall is loud when he is getting pleasured.
How you magically turned up most of the times Kendall did that to me, I don't know how you did, but you did.
You heard most of the raping that was going on and did nothing about it.
You turned a blind eye, because how could Kendall the leader be raping his younger sister.
Well guess what, it happened and you knew but pretended you had no clue what was happening.
James, you aren't the brightest but you had to have known.
Not only did you know that Kendall was raping me and did nothing but you also knew Carlos had called me fat.
It was late one night when I was going to the kitchen for a glass of water and I heard you two in the hall way. I heard Carlos whispering about how he accidently called me fat and how he felt so bad about it. He asked if he should apologize.
And what did you say.
'No, she will forget about it by tomorrow. No worries.' And the conversation was dropped.
After all, Carlos always listened to the guys; they were supposed to guide him on the right track.
But you didn't do that James. You told him the wrong answer, if Carlos had apologized I would have forgiven him. It was an accident after all, oh and Carlos. I do forgive you, so don't let guilt consume you like I know it does often.
James you knew two things that ended up breaking me, and did nothing about it. You pretended it all never happened.
That's why you are on these CD's James. Not because you actually did something physical/emotional to me. But because you could have stopped it.
You could have stopped my own brother raping me and could have told Carlos to apologize, which would have helped with my self-esteem.
Hope you're proud of yourself.
The CD stopped after that, making Logan hang his head between his knees.
How could James not stop it? He freaking knew, and did nothing.
Furry built in Logan; he couldn't trust anyone could he?
Logan had no clue who number ten was, but he prayed it was his, after all, all of his 'friends' had already gone and he couldn't wait any longer for his name.
What did he do to make Danielle want to commit suicide?
Short, but not as bad as Gustavo's! So I know James was not the juicy, but I really wanted one who knew what was happening but would not do anything about it and James fit perfectly. After all, I already ripped apart Kendall's and Carlos' persona, might as well be nice to one.
The next chapter excites me, but I can't talk about that yet ;)
I hope you guys liked this chapter! It was a lot of fun to write, it was also nice to show Danielle before she became suicidal. I had to show that there was a reason why Logan liked her and I hope I was able to showcase Danielle in a bit of light and not dark and demented.
Hope you guys liked this one!
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