Sauli's POV

When I saw Adam through the clearing, my ears twitched and my eyes brightened. Thank god he was here! I was getting worried he wouldn't come to me, but then I mentally slapped myself because it was my fault we were in this predicament in the first place. I was just being stupid and I wished my brain would stop telling me to do all these things and think all this nonsense. Adam didn't have to do anything for me, especially stalk through the wet forest when there was a thunderstorm going on overhead. He could have easily left me out here because I was the one that caused all this to happen with my freakiness. But he did, and something in the back of my mind told me he would do that because he was so incredibly sweet, and he just wanted everyone to be happy…he was so selfless. He was like one big ball of perfect wrapped in his gorgeous body. It was my fault we got into a fight in the first place, so I should apologize to him—for being stupid and running away like a moron. As soon as I walked out of the door, I knew I shouldn't have. I watched Adam walk over to me and position himself down on one knee, grabbing my face and looking at me intently.

"Sauli, I'm so sorry," he said, leaning his forehead against mine, and I looked at him, shaking my head slightly. Why would he be sorry when all this was my fault? He shouldn't even have come out here, but he did. God, he was just like, a god or something. Not one person that I know of would do anything close to what Adam has done—become what he naturally is. I should count my blessings because he's everything that is just wonderful in the world (I'm gushing over him; I can get as deep as I would like).

"No, Adumb, I shouldn't have run away. I'm sorry," I mused, frowning lightly. I looked back up at him and his eyes held so much emotion, but I wasn't sure which one exactly. I just wanted to go back home with him and act like nothing had happened. That I wasn't craving his every being because I was in heat, or that he yelled at me and I ran away…I just wanted—

Then I felt his lips push against mine in a gentle, but forceful manner. It wasn't like any of the other kisses we shared; this one had all the meaning in the world. There wasn't any tongue or anything; it was simply a lovely kiss with a story behind it that we shared in the rain. It was…enchanting and I was intoxicated by it. The feeling of his lips against mine always made me weak to my knees, but this one was so much different because Adam initiated it and he didn't stop after a couple seconds, and I wasn't the one that forced myself on him because of my heat. It was just random, but it wasn't at the same time. This had meaning and it was something we needed…

I wrapped my arms around his neck, pushing him closer to me, but he pulled away and I frowned looking at him. His black hair was completely soaked, hanging limply over his hair, but his enticing blue eyes were hard, truthful. He looked so beautiful right now, even though the scenery around us was far from that, being dark and wet. I hated it when the day got like this, but I wasn't paying attention to that. My eyes were fixated on Adam and his unreadable expression.

"I love you." Was all he said and my heart crashed against my chest, my eyes widening. My ear twitched, trying to catch what he said so I wouldn't make a fool of myself if I mistook it… He…loves me? No, he can't! He doesn't know who I truly am, he just thinks it, and that's all my fault. I mean…I've never felt the way I feel about Adam with anyone else…Does that mean I love him too? I mean, my heart yearns for him, I want everything to do with him, and I always want to be with him…Oh my god. I think I love Adam too. And not just in the way I thought first—like, only as a friend. Maybe something so much more. I just never realized it before because I never felt this way about anyone, and I'm twenty-six, so I'm kind of late if you think about it. I should have responded with something else, but my head was so clouded and confused, I didn't say anything except stare at him with my mouth open wide.

He smiled, picking me up bridal style and began walking back towards his house. I didn't know what to say, so all I did was look up at Adam, my tail wrapping around his arm, and before I knew it, I was purring loudly, burying my head into his chest, nibbling on his wet shirt. He laughed, kissing my forehead. I blushed, gripping onto his shirt. There was nothing else I could do now except accept the fact of what he said was true and I just had to sort out my own feelings and figure out how I felt about him. I mean, I think I know I love him if that makes sense, but I just don't know how to say or express it to him. So for now, I think I'll just keep my mouth shut and be with him.

"Adumb…I'm sorry," I said and he sighed, shaking his head.

"It's not your fault Sauli, it just happened," he inquired, carefully walking over roots and rocks he could possibly trip on. I nodded, shivering slightly and I felt his arms tighten around me. I sneezed, shaking my head and shutting my eyes, breathing softly and listening to his heartbeat. It sounded phenomenal and I could listen to it all day long. It's one heartbeat I didn't want to destroy…

When we finally arrived at the house, I was so tired; I didn't even want to take a shower or anything, even though I was dirty and soaked to the bone. All I wanted to do was fall asleep in Adam's arms. Adam opened up the front door and made his way upstairs (after kicking off his dirty boots) into his room. "Do you wanna take a shower?" he asked and I shook my head, clinging to his shirt, my purring never once ceasing. He laughed, nodding and setting me on his bed, wrapping his arms around my waist and laying besides me. I shut my eyes, snuggling into him while purring, curling into a tight ball before, falling into a light sleep. But before I was completely gone, I heard Adam whisper, "I love you."

It felt like I didn't even sleep for an hour. My chest hurt so bad, my head was foggy and I felt extremely hot. I woke up from sneezing and whimpering so much. My head was spinning and I felt like I was gonna throw up.

"Sauli? Are you okay?" I heard Adam ask, and I shook my head, sneezing again, curling up into a ball in his arms, feeling like Adam's skin was burning against mine. "Sauli?" he asked again. I moaned lightly, my ears lying flat against my head, and I shook my head, looking up at him and seeing the worry spread across his face. He raised his hand and pressed it against my forehead, gasping lightly. "Oh, no…You're really hot…Hold on." he said. I gripped onto his shirt, shaking my head, not wanting him to leave. I felt like I was going to explode and I refuse to feel like shit and Adam to leave me to deal with it alone. "I'll be right back," he cooed and I whined, hugging the pillow when he left. I felt like shit and I wanted to die it sucked so bad…

When Adam came back, he had a thermometer and he told me to open my mouth. I did and he put it under my tongue and I groaned, reaching out and grabbing his shirt, he was not going to bail on me this time. He smiled a little. "I'm sorry, Sauli. I think you're sick…," he said and I whined. Shit, I was sick? With like what, a cold? I mean, I was in the rain for over an hour and then I went to sleep in my wet clothes, which in retrospect wasn't very smart, but I was so damn tired. Man, I shouldn't have run away, I was so stupid. But I'm suffering, so I guess I deserve this.

The thermometer beeped, and Adam took it out of my mouth, inspecting it. He frowned deeply. "Shit, you have a 102 temperature…," he said and I opened my eyes, looking at him sadly, sneezing again. He lay back on the bed, hugging me close to his chest and kissing my temple. "Don't worry, it's just a cold, I'm sure it'll go away in a couple days," he said, but my head was so clouded. Have you ever had your head crushed? That's what it felt like…

"Adumb, I so hot…" I whined and he sighed, nodding and picking me up gingerly from the bed when he stood up. "Whatttt?" I whined, leaning my head against his chest and he laughed lightly. "Tyhmä kylmä…" I mumbled, blinking then shutting my heavy eyes once again.

"You're gonna take a cold bath," he said, walking into the bathroom and placing me on a chair (yes, Adam Lambert had chairs in his bathroom). He walked over to his large bathtub, turning on the cold water and putting some bubble bath in there. He walked over to me with that same charming smile. "I'm gonna take your clothes off, alright, Sauli?" he asked and I nodded, not even sure what was happening. Normally, I would have started freaking out with a blushing tantrum, but right now, Adam could do anything and I wouldn't know what was happening because I was so sick…

I lifted up my arms so he could take off my shirt and he unzipped my pants and took those off. "Do you wanna leave your boxers on, Sauli?" he asked and I shook my head, clinging to his shirt, nibbling on it slightly.

"Adumb take it with me?" I asked and I saw him blush and nod. I smiled and little, my head feeling like it's gonna explode, "Good…" I murmured, nuzzling into his hand.

"Can you walk over to the tub and take off your boxers, Sauli?" Adam asked and I nodded, getting up from the chair and walking over to the tub, taking off my boxers and sinking into the water, purring lightly, shutting my eyes and enjoying it. I heard some shuffling and before I knew it, there was a soft splash in the water, I opened my eyes, and Adam was on the other side. He hadn't gotten his hair wet yet, but it was pretty bedhead looking considering it had gotten all wet then dried, but I wasn't complaining because it looked just as sexy as ever.

"Adumb!" I exclaimed, reaching my arms out, grabbing for him. He blushed a lot and leaned forward, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me close to him. I purred, burying my head into his chest. The tub was big enough so I could be on one side of him. The water was so cold, and it made me feel a lot better, even though I coughed a little and Adam ran his fingers through my hair, humming slightly.

"Do you feel better, Sauli?" he asked and I nodded, nuzzling my head into the crook of his neck, moaning lightly.

"Not…as hot," I whined, wrapping my tail around his leg and enveloping his waist with my arms, pressing myself closer to him, completely oblivious to the fact that we were both naked. It didn't really matter to me because I was in cold water and I was next to Adam. Then it just came out. I think I was so sick, I didn't know what was going on with the world, so I didn't even consider what I was saying. "I love you too, Adumb…" I said, licking his neck and purring loudly. I heard his heart beat quicken its pace ten-fold, but I didn't hear anything else because I was already falling asleep, remaining as close to Adam as possible…