Resistance Is Futile 6-5-07

Chapter 9

The Fear of Knowing……

why do i just wither and forget all resistance
when you and your magic pass by
my heart's in a dither dear
when you're at a distance
but when you are near, oh my...

We got only four hours of rest last night, but I'm too excited about Hales finally being mine to feel tired. We sat up talking, among other things. We did discuss "our" future "Our future", I like the sound of that!

She told about her new job. Haley will be a waitress, but the place is suppose to be big on tips. No, it's not a strip club!

Its not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me,
oh no
Its just the nearness of you



We decided to choose an apartment before my time is up next Sunday. She will stay in the city and continue working. Unfortunately, I will go back to Tree Hill and finish out the six weeks left of school and graduate. It's going to feel like an eternity. I'm going to dread every day without her, but it will be worth when I come back here permanently to be with her and go to culinary school. We're going to make this work because I can't be without her and she refuses to go home and straighten out this mess with the police.

It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation,
oh no
Its just the nearness of you

Our first day "together" was spent showing her the apartment she had me view yesterday. She loved it! It was affordable if I send money from home to help with the other expenses and get a job when I return, so we put a down a deposit under Ginger and Nathaniel Scott It has a nice ring to it, huh? Although I prefer Haley and Nathan Scott.

Next, we had a picnic lunch in the Piedmont Park before going to the Carter Center. Hales and I weren't even born when he was president, but I had a really good time. I learned a lot! The man has done a lot of great things. Hales has always been into educational field trips at school, but I use to dread them. After today, I think I'm going to be hooked on them in the near future. Especially with Haley giving me a big kiss every time she asked me about an exhibit we had checked out and I recall what it was about. You so rock, President Carter! I have never been this happy, never!



When you're in my arms
and I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams
came true



It was close to five o'clock when Hales and I strolled down the corridor to Suite 214.

Earlier this week, she had uploaded some selections into my IPod. She is singing along to some chick named Nora Jones. She's hott in the same way as Haley, but I wouldn't dare tell my Cupcake that! She told me Sinatra had a version of this song as well. Who? I thought I hated this type of music, but hearing Haley's soulful voice is totally mesmerizing. I know the words are meant for me and I feel like I'm flying.

I love the way I had to lead her up the walkway and through the halls of the inn because she closes her eyes several times when she singing. I just want to sneak a kiss, but it might deter from the beauty expelled from her mouth, so I'll wait.

need no soft lights to enchant me
If you'll only grant me
the right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night
the nearness of you.



I place my backpack with the leftovers from our picnic on the counter while Hales puts down the drink cooler and ending her serenade. In an instant, I have her trapped between the bar and me. Hungrily, I start planting sweet kisses up her delectable neck and smooth jaw line. Her skin is like the finest satin a lovely peach color. Brandi was always doing all this girlie crap to her face and body, but she never felt as heavenly as the pretty little redhead wrapped in my arms. She smells of cocoa butter and pineapples, sending me into fantasies of making love to her under a waterfall of a tropical island for the fifth, maybe the sixth time today.

She twist in my arms, lifting up on her tippy toes and giving me a sly smirk before putting her own spin on our make out session. Her tongue invades my mouth and I long to be even close to her. I raise her onto the counter and stand between her legs as our kisses become more passionate. She keeps brushing her hands over my chest in a circulating motion while treating me with a variety of tantalizing smooches, from a simple peck on the cheek, to a sultry French lock, and greedy sucks along my collarbone to name a few. We are on sensory overload with groans, giggles and gasp of delight sounding from either of us at the slightest touch from the other during our intimate session.

My hands are far from idle as they roam the small of her back, gently clutching as her firm bottom and then escalate up ward and under her tee resting at the top lace trimming her demi bra. Disney World has nothing on Victoria Secrets! She slides her hips to the edge of the counter and latches her shapely calves behind mine, bringing our bodies almost flush. I take this opportunity to deepen an urgent open mouth kiss. Her swollen pink lips are inviting and as sweet as honey. If I were any more aroused, I would ruin the black boxer briefs and the loose fitting jeans I'm wearing that are becoming more and more constricting. I reluctantly, pull away before I embarrass myself .

A vexed Hales, stares at me. Her cocoa eyes are filled with hurt and desire. I can sense her insecurities mounting. She feels rejected and that certainly was not my intention. With haste, I return to our previous position and look directly at her lovely face.

"Cupcake, I had to stop. Trust me, I would rather be holding you... kissing you, but I can't right now." I state sincerely, running my fingers through the fiery strands that framed her face. She seemed so lost and childlike, glaring at me with those big brown saucers. "It's like fireworks, earthquakes, and free falling all at the same time when I'm with you. I get excited... not just mentally, but sexually, Hales... very, very, very excited! I almost. You know." I confessed, bashfully turning my head.

"Oh." She ponders my words through her brain getting my true meaning." Ohhhhh! I'm sorry!" She gasped and couldn't help but laugh as I looked back to see her whole body was a deep shade of purple.

I tapped her on that cute button nose with my pointer finger.

"I'm not." I chuckled and I walk over to the living room to turn on the television. "I love the way you make me feel." I take several deep breathes, hopping to lighten the pulsation of my rapidly throbbing organ. I'm talking about my heart! You have a dirty mind!

Haley jumps down and follow me.

"Ummm... I think I'll take a shower and try on my uniform for work.. I need to make sure it fits before I start tomorrow."

The air has become thick and uncomfortable. I detest when we're distant so I trail her, bringing her to a halt in the hallway.

"Don't feel weird because I want you so bad, Cupcake. I always have and will, but I know making love will come in time." I honestly remind her before we share a sweet kiss and go our separate ways tension free. That's the way I like it! Uh huh! Uh huh!

Haley has to be under the warm spray of the shower by now. Her tiny hands was every part of her curvy frames with Dove soap. Maybe she needs me to wash her back side, I mean back.

I rattle my head, to dispel the dirty thoughts. I guess I should start dinner.

I walk away from the local news blaring on the television when I hear:

Tonight, there's more information on Georgia Tech's Jeff Murray's alleged attacker. A close friend of Haley James has reported that she recently contacted them by cell phone. Ms. James told the friend, who chooses to remain anonymous that she and a male friend purposely set up #1 draft pick and quote "I wished we would have killed him." end quote. The friend says her only reason for the brutal beating of Mr. Murray was for the thrill of it .She was nobody and bored with her life. Now she was infamous.

If anyone has information on the whereabouts of Ms. James or her accomplice please contact the FBI or the Tree Hill, NC police. A description of the accused can be found on our website.

I clicked the power button on the remote to cut off the television while simultaneously hitting 3 on my cell phone without even realizing it.

I hustled down the hallway and listened at the bedroom door to make sure Hales was still in the bath. I was out on the balcony by the time he answered.

"Cool Hand Luke, Holla at me!"

"You limp dick , punk ass bitch! How could you do something so low?" I bark.

"Nate? What are you talking about?" His voice was arrogant and rigid.

"Don't lie, asshole! Why did you tell the police Hales said that shit?"

"Why did you fucking steal my girl" You knew I loved her ... that I still love her!"

"I'm sorry! But that does not excuse what you did! You know that slime ball deserved what he got! I told you what happened. Why would you screw us like this? We're family!"

"Family wouldn't have played hero so he could steal Hales and run away with her... Oh God! This is why you were freaking out about she and I having sex! You planned to be her first! ………Tell me, was she good? Was it worth loosing your cousin, your best friend, and hopefully your freedom you son-of-a-bitch? I hate you!"

The words stung me to a point. I love Luke and regret ruining our relationship over a woman, but Haley's no ordinary girl. I had thought of telling Luke my true feeling for her thousands of times, but I had been afraid my dearest cousin would either make sure he kept her far away from me or feel betrayed because we happen to love the same woman. Luke's currents actions showed I was right to be hesitant.

At this point, I'm was to irate to make one of my closest kin and comrade understand that I didn't plan to hurt him. Haley and I had only been an item after her break up with Luke, that I wanted her from the beginning, that Lucas could never care for her like I do. My emotions and fears of loosing my Cupcake override logical thoughts.

"Well, the feeling is mutual! If your so-called conversation with Hales ends up bringing her the slightest bit of agony, you may not live to regret it." I command in a low and icy tone so terrifying I almost intimidate myself.

"You're threatening me now? Hmm... maybe I'll tell the police who's really hiding out with Haley. Make them think she manipulated you into helping her with sexual favors." He drones smugly.

"When did you become such an evil prick? You claim to love Hales, why would you do this to her?" I demand pacing back and forth on the balcony.

"Because if I can't have her, I'll make sure you or no one else does!" hanging up before I can respond.

Ambling back inside, I hit the end button on my phone and toss it on the sofa. Ahhhhh! What the hell am I going to do?

Well, I'm not telling Hales and making sure she doesn't hear or read about this. She will completely freak and send me packing to Tree Hill! I'm so anxious and frightened right now, I want to cry and punch a wall all at the same time. Before, I would go shoot some hoops or bake. Presently, there's only one remedy for me.

Stepping inside the bedroom, I suck in my breathe. Haley is standing there wearing matching cotton bra and panties. They have pink butterflies all over them. She's putting her hair in a high ponytail and is startled by my reflection in the mirror. She jumps into attack mode, shaking her brush at me.

"You scared me!" She chastise, but I'm not listen.

I go over and take her by the hand before leading her to bed and placing her on my lap. I put my weary head against the top of her breast while my hands rest on the small of her nude back and left thigh. She just snuggles in closer, running her nimble fingers through my short cropped raven locks and nuzzling her nose along my forehead. We sat there for at least a half an hour and she never questioned me or tried to leave. This is exactly why I'm so enraptured by this woman. She is completely in tune with me. She has yet to say speak those three little words, but I don't doubts she loves me. Eventually, she raises up and studies my face. I can't stop from staring into her inquisitive brown pools. I answer without her thoughts ever escaping her mouth.

"I'm good." I smile that must be contagious because she's beams brightly at me before pushing down on the bed and moving her legs so she is now straddling me.

"Your oh so very good, Nate!" She taunts, kissing me and humming that song she was singing earlier.

need no soft lights to enchant me
If you'll only grant me
the right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night
the nearness of you.

Rekindling our previous make out session is well underway. I guess dinner will have to wait.

Pamela