An Email of my Life
Chapter 11: Do not give up
DreamBlaze
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hope you liked the chapter……..
To authors:: I NEED HELP!! My italics and bold words aren't showing up… plus my indentions…. How do you make them show on the fic? Please answer me… domo for helping…
Standard: you know the drill, I own nothing, now leave me be.. ::swats a lawyer with my story notes::
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This is what the letter looked like…
To: AngelMoon@destiny.com
Fr: Skylover@destiny.com
Cc: look at this, the most sweetest email ever~M.K.
(The sentences above are made up.)
Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second
or Two
1. I love you not because of who you are, but
because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one
who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you
want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with
all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your
hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting
right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you
never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one
person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't
willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe god wants us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one, so that when we
finally meet the person, we will know how to be
grateful.
10. Don't cry because its over, smile because it
happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you
so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just
be more careful about who you trust next time
around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you
are before you try and know someone else and expect
them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you
least expect them to.
REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
True friends: How many people actually have 8 true
friends?
Hardly anyone I know! But some of us have all right
friends and good friends!!!
You have been Tagged by the Green Dog!
,-._,-.
V)"(V
(_o_) ruff!!!!!!
You will Have Good Luck For Two Years if you send
this to 8 people or more and if this is sent back to
you then you are a true friend……
You must send it in 5 minutes or your good luck will
run out.
&& Is what email said &&
Chapter 11: Do not give up
&&11. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.&&
Don't I know it.
Eying the email that I decided to print out and put in a silver lily bordered frame. The touching sentences have meaning for my life.
I did get hurt.
By the ones I've loved the most. Rei, Ami, Minako, and Makotowere my best friends. Before anything they'd take care of me and be there for me, albeit they treated me like a child who didn't know any better.
The fact was, I wasn't, and they couldn't see that.
Of all the Inners, Rei had been my best friend, more like an older sister who watched out for her little sisters well being.
Before their betrayal I've always thought that Rei was so harsh and criticizing because she wanted me to be better than I was. She wanted me to be the princess from a thousand years ago.
Although they were my protectors, I only wished them to be my friends. I did not wish to be an obligation to a past that I no longer considered as a part of who I was. I did not think myself a princess. We may share the same soul but that doesn't mean the being could be different. Times have changed, and I have changed. For the good, if I had the choice I would wish to be me, Tsukino Usagi, not the Princess of the Moon. My self worth is more than that; I won't sell myself to be something I'm not.
For a while, I had to cope with the fact that people wanted me to be her (the princess). I adjusted but I could only take so much. That was when I started to behave more badly than I'd usually be.
I admit it, my worsened personality may have been the final straw for the Inners but if they couldn't take me for who I am, then I don't deserve friends like that.
Friends stick with you, through good and especially the bad. They are what supports you in harsh conditions where you feel you can't even go on. Friends are people you turn to when you can't go to family, knowing your family are to close to your relation. They are that family away from family.
They're betrayal had caused a hurt in me so deep that I didn't think I could cope. I had no one to turn to. I couldn't go to my family, they didn't know the situation I was in. The Outers were in America following Ruka's tour and I had drifted so apart from Naru and Umino that looks of sadness and disappointment are focused in me in their eyes.
I feel that way too.
I had let my duties overtake me and drift me away from the life in which I lived. Naru had been my best friend ever since childhood, she knew me more than anyone, even myself. With the start of my duties came the secrecy of the Senshi. Not being allowed to disclose and confide in my once best friend. The Senshi took her away from me too, busying myself with 'study group' otherwise known as Senshi Meeting that had become pointless and boring over some time.
Naru and I barely talked after that. There was that once in a great while old friend bonding but it always had to be destroyed by the youma trying to drain her energy. I've tried many times to call her up this past year, but every time it rings, I hang up.
Before the boys and after the betrayal I realize I would never have any 'normal' friends do to my abnormal activities. It saddened me a great deal knowing I would never ever cross the bridge that separated me from the people of the world.
I felt alienated.
Thinking dryly, with no bit of humor, she could say it was true. She was an alien or currently had a job in alien form.
She cursed the day she met Luna. But then again, how would she meet wonderful people? Everyone she had met and love had been introduced to her by unusual circumstances, ones that would never have happened were she a normal girl.
To be normal.
Meant everything and yet meant loss.
Yes, she was depressed for her duties, saddened at the thought of never having to really be friends with the ones she would meet everyday.
Thinking this, she knew she wouldn't let that stop her. It would have been easier to just close everyone off knowing they wouldn't be your friends but she never stopped. For a while, her cheerful attitude towards people had drawn people to get to know her, it still does.
Then the heartbreaking shatter of her life came, the Inners hated her, and because of the way she acted.
It tortured her, unsure whether she should keep her fun attitude when it was a hard thing to do. The pain that resided in her refused her to be happy and unsure whether people would like her attitude when her 'best friends' didn't.
Her trust in others wavered and weakened to a point where she'd actually shy away from human interaction. It hurt her, her best friends betrayed her: friends and protectors. They had meant so much to her and to know that they could easily turn their backs when they were so close greatly disturbed her.
What would it say to normal people? People who knew nothing about her? Would they judge in the way that the Inners had? She had always believed the Inners had good judgment and to know they thought that way, what did it say of her?
It said that she wasn't worth much.
It greatly bothered her but she stayed true to her heart.
She had to work hard to get back to the way she was. Once in a while, she'd be nervous of peoples reactions towards her, especially when running into one of the Inners, who would scorn her. After a while, it came as easily as it was to 'klutz' out when she needed to hide herself.
She continued with her sunny disposition and it worked out.
She won the hearts of the boys that way. And that in itself was the most rewarding and completing accomplishment ever.
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All done… for now.. Sorry its so short..
Tenshi-chan: I wish I wrote them… but no, I'm not that creative…
When she talks about friends she means TRUE friends.. the one you can really rely on.
I think this chapter was a bit confusing.. hehe.. I'm not sure whether people will get it. I kept going past to present blah blah blah…
I hope you liked this chapter… Only a couple of more to go for me to complete this 'fic'.. my first completion.. and hopefully it will finish with a success..
Much mahal and mahalo
~~DreamBlaze..
can email me at: xxxangel_dreamerxxx@hotmail.com or swt_artistia_gherl@yahoo.com or MauiDrMr3sSpNai@asianavenue.com
or aim: dreamerpnai75
Chapter 11: Do not give up
DreamBlaze
*******
hope you liked the chapter……..
To authors:: I NEED HELP!! My italics and bold words aren't showing up… plus my indentions…. How do you make them show on the fic? Please answer me… domo for helping…
Standard: you know the drill, I own nothing, now leave me be.. ::swats a lawyer with my story notes::
*******
This is what the letter looked like…
To: AngelMoon@destiny.com
Fr: Skylover@destiny.com
Cc: look at this, the most sweetest email ever~M.K.
(The sentences above are made up.)
Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second
or Two
1. I love you not because of who you are, but
because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one
who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you
want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with
all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your
hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting
right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you
never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one
person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't
willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe god wants us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one, so that when we
finally meet the person, we will know how to be
grateful.
10. Don't cry because its over, smile because it
happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you
so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just
be more careful about who you trust next time
around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you
are before you try and know someone else and expect
them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you
least expect them to.
REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
True friends: How many people actually have 8 true
friends?
Hardly anyone I know! But some of us have all right
friends and good friends!!!
You have been Tagged by the Green Dog!
,-._,-.
V)"(V
(_o_) ruff!!!!!!
You will Have Good Luck For Two Years if you send
this to 8 people or more and if this is sent back to
you then you are a true friend……
You must send it in 5 minutes or your good luck will
run out.
&& Is what email said &&
Chapter 11: Do not give up
&&11. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.&&
Don't I know it.
Eying the email that I decided to print out and put in a silver lily bordered frame. The touching sentences have meaning for my life.
I did get hurt.
By the ones I've loved the most. Rei, Ami, Minako, and Makotowere my best friends. Before anything they'd take care of me and be there for me, albeit they treated me like a child who didn't know any better.
The fact was, I wasn't, and they couldn't see that.
Of all the Inners, Rei had been my best friend, more like an older sister who watched out for her little sisters well being.
Before their betrayal I've always thought that Rei was so harsh and criticizing because she wanted me to be better than I was. She wanted me to be the princess from a thousand years ago.
Although they were my protectors, I only wished them to be my friends. I did not wish to be an obligation to a past that I no longer considered as a part of who I was. I did not think myself a princess. We may share the same soul but that doesn't mean the being could be different. Times have changed, and I have changed. For the good, if I had the choice I would wish to be me, Tsukino Usagi, not the Princess of the Moon. My self worth is more than that; I won't sell myself to be something I'm not.
For a while, I had to cope with the fact that people wanted me to be her (the princess). I adjusted but I could only take so much. That was when I started to behave more badly than I'd usually be.
I admit it, my worsened personality may have been the final straw for the Inners but if they couldn't take me for who I am, then I don't deserve friends like that.
Friends stick with you, through good and especially the bad. They are what supports you in harsh conditions where you feel you can't even go on. Friends are people you turn to when you can't go to family, knowing your family are to close to your relation. They are that family away from family.
They're betrayal had caused a hurt in me so deep that I didn't think I could cope. I had no one to turn to. I couldn't go to my family, they didn't know the situation I was in. The Outers were in America following Ruka's tour and I had drifted so apart from Naru and Umino that looks of sadness and disappointment are focused in me in their eyes.
I feel that way too.
I had let my duties overtake me and drift me away from the life in which I lived. Naru had been my best friend ever since childhood, she knew me more than anyone, even myself. With the start of my duties came the secrecy of the Senshi. Not being allowed to disclose and confide in my once best friend. The Senshi took her away from me too, busying myself with 'study group' otherwise known as Senshi Meeting that had become pointless and boring over some time.
Naru and I barely talked after that. There was that once in a great while old friend bonding but it always had to be destroyed by the youma trying to drain her energy. I've tried many times to call her up this past year, but every time it rings, I hang up.
Before the boys and after the betrayal I realize I would never have any 'normal' friends do to my abnormal activities. It saddened me a great deal knowing I would never ever cross the bridge that separated me from the people of the world.
I felt alienated.
Thinking dryly, with no bit of humor, she could say it was true. She was an alien or currently had a job in alien form.
She cursed the day she met Luna. But then again, how would she meet wonderful people? Everyone she had met and love had been introduced to her by unusual circumstances, ones that would never have happened were she a normal girl.
To be normal.
Meant everything and yet meant loss.
Yes, she was depressed for her duties, saddened at the thought of never having to really be friends with the ones she would meet everyday.
Thinking this, she knew she wouldn't let that stop her. It would have been easier to just close everyone off knowing they wouldn't be your friends but she never stopped. For a while, her cheerful attitude towards people had drawn people to get to know her, it still does.
Then the heartbreaking shatter of her life came, the Inners hated her, and because of the way she acted.
It tortured her, unsure whether she should keep her fun attitude when it was a hard thing to do. The pain that resided in her refused her to be happy and unsure whether people would like her attitude when her 'best friends' didn't.
Her trust in others wavered and weakened to a point where she'd actually shy away from human interaction. It hurt her, her best friends betrayed her: friends and protectors. They had meant so much to her and to know that they could easily turn their backs when they were so close greatly disturbed her.
What would it say to normal people? People who knew nothing about her? Would they judge in the way that the Inners had? She had always believed the Inners had good judgment and to know they thought that way, what did it say of her?
It said that she wasn't worth much.
It greatly bothered her but she stayed true to her heart.
She had to work hard to get back to the way she was. Once in a while, she'd be nervous of peoples reactions towards her, especially when running into one of the Inners, who would scorn her. After a while, it came as easily as it was to 'klutz' out when she needed to hide herself.
She continued with her sunny disposition and it worked out.
She won the hearts of the boys that way. And that in itself was the most rewarding and completing accomplishment ever.
********************************
All done… for now.. Sorry its so short..
Tenshi-chan: I wish I wrote them… but no, I'm not that creative…
When she talks about friends she means TRUE friends.. the one you can really rely on.
I think this chapter was a bit confusing.. hehe.. I'm not sure whether people will get it. I kept going past to present blah blah blah…
I hope you liked this chapter… Only a couple of more to go for me to complete this 'fic'.. my first completion.. and hopefully it will finish with a success..
Much mahal and mahalo
~~DreamBlaze..
can email me at: xxxangel_dreamerxxx@hotmail.com or swt_artistia_gherl@yahoo.com or MauiDrMr3sSpNai@asianavenue.com
or aim: dreamerpnai75