Jenna's doing her make up when Abel runs in "Air-wee falled."
Jenna glanced at him while doing her eyeliner. "She'll get back up babe."
"Her fall and be still."
Something in Abel's persistence and phrasing frightens her. "OK, let's go pick her up." She says it calmly but moves fast.
She's lying face down in the short carpet. She's not breathing. Jenna bails off into the floor next to her. "Abel call 911 like we practiced okay?" She turns the baby over and does CPR and compressions as both Gemma and Tara had taught her.
Gemma had taught her in case Jax's heart had started to act funny at some point; Tara taught her knowing she'd have to revive her own babies at some horrific time.
"I need help for my Air-wee. She's my sissy and she's one. I'm three. Okay I ask my Mama!" Abel speaks into the phone.
"What Abel?" She barks between breaths.
"Where do we live?
"1446 Oak Street."
"No, her not Mommy doing it. Hurry please." Abel pleads.
"Okay I open it for you, "He goes to the door. "We live at 1446 Oak Street. My Legos are outside and the car is out there too." Abel says for added insurance afraid they aren't coming.
"You're doing great baby." Jenna encourages.
"You too Mama!"
Jenna can hear sirens. "I am gonna go get em Mama."
She almost tells him to stay but he's already gone. He shoves the cat back inside and then runs outside.
"Watch over him Harry, 1..2..3…4.." She mutters counting out compressions.
-/-/-
They had voted to take Clay's patch but Bobby put a stop to mayhem because in his own words he wanted to stop Jax from becoming the thing he hated. Jax saw it differently. Sitting in this seat made you a savage either way. Opie was right, the gavel corrupted no matter the case or cost.
His quiet moment of the day is intruded on by the chirping of his phone. "What?"
"Jax, "Comes Unser's tired voice.
"I said what!" he growls out.
"I saw Jennasis; roll in behind a gurney, your baby girl was on it. You need to get here; they just called for a crash cart." Jax's heart completely stops.
He's on his feet and running for his bike. "We need to lock in the Chinese and cartel switch over." Bobby says.
"I don't have time, tell Gemma to get to St. Thomas Zona is sick." Bobby stands there totally dumbfounded. "I will get it all done but right now? I need to worry only for my daughter. Her heart stopped Bobby get my Mother!" He roars away on his bike without a helmet.
He blows through three lights to get there and skids to a halt in front of Jenna who sits deathly still. He notices she only has half her make up on any other time he'd find it funny. "What happened?" He asked holding his breath
He squats down in front of her chair. "An arrhythmia turned into a flat line, they got her back but she will need her heart fixed in the next few weeks."
"Did they fix it? Did Tara…"
"Sit Jax," She pats the seat next to her.
He does as she asked. "Tara fixed it in the short term but after her birthday next week they will need to patch the hole and put in pacemaker."
"She's a year old!" He said disbelievingly.
"I know baby." Jenna's voice shakes.
"Well they need to do it now, not next week! When Thomas was sick-"
"They have to schedule it and bring in a specialist; it's not a normal procedure with the CHD and the arrhythmia." She explains patiently just like Tara had for her.
Jax leaned over and kissed Jenna's forehead. "Okay, Can I go in and see her?"
"Sure…I'm going to check on Abel."
"Why?" Jax asked getting to his feet.
"He found her and then dialed 911 for me."
"He what?"
"He did really well, you'd have been proud; he even put the cat inside when we left." Jenna said with a sad smile.
-/-/-/-
Jax goes into the happily wall papered room. His daughter lay in nothing but her diaper tons of leads and wires criss cross her tiny chest. She laughs up at him chewing her fingers. "Dada!"
She reaches up for him. "Can I pick her up?" he asked the nurse hovering nearby.
"Who aree you in relation to the child?" She asks skeptically.
"Zona who am I?" Jax points to himself.
"Dada!" She said smiling.
He said to the nurse grinning down at Arizona. "You heard the tiny woman."
"Yes you may just leave the monitoring devices intact."
He weaves his hands in through all the wires. "Alright…you're getting big Arizona." He picked her up holding her too his chest. "You gave me a scare." He whispers into her soft red curls disheveled on the top of her head.
She doesn't acknowledge his words. She is too busy trying to rip the "President "patch from his cut. "You trying to send me a message baby? More Arizona less Anarchy?" He laughs.
She grunts. "Off! Damn! Off!" she said pulling harder.
"It's not a sticker Darlin'."
"Want!" She looks up at him expectantly.
Jax says swaying slightly. "I'm sure you do, who taught you Damn?"
She ignores his question entirely and instead tries sticking her finger up his nose.
"No, ladies don't pick their daddies boogers they pick their own." He said moving her hand and kissing the back of it. She leans her head back and puckers her lips. He kisses her. "Thank you Zona, do you feel better?"
She presses her nose to his. "She wants eskimo kisses Piney taught her just before he died." Gemma says from behind him."
"Hey Ma." Jax replied glancing behind him.
Gemma steps up beside him. "Go on be sweet to your daughter no one will see."
He rubbed his nose to hers and she giggled making him smile. "No one will ever love you quite like I do Zona." He whispered to her.
"So what's the verdict? How much shit does that baby have to beat back?" Gemma asked arms crossed like she's ready to fight for Arizona.
Jax bounces the baby slightly. "We need to cover the hole with a graft and put in a pacemaker to regulate her heartbeat Mom." Saying it out loud makes a lump rise in his throat. "When I think about it I can't breathe, last time I could tell Jenna it would be fine because I never thought we'd do this again." He confesses shaking his head.
"And you're here this time." She spoke the thing he kept silent.
"I'm here and I'm scared." He murmurs.
His phone rings. "That's Bobby, I gotta lock down the Chinese cartel trade off and pacify Galan."
"Gimme your girl." Gemma holds out her hands.
-/-/-/-
He walks out the room and there is a guy with long red hair wearing a rumpled suit coming from Joss' room.
"Are you Jackson Teller Jennasis Teller's husband?" the guy gives Jax a critical eyed up down glance. Taking stock.
"Who the fuck's askin'? What do you want with my wife?" Jax spits out impatient and blown away with the other man's gall.
"Details about my sister's attempted murder, she seems to be missing pieces of the event. I'm Lee Toric retired Federal Marshal. If you would please relay a message I'd like to speak to Mrs. Teller. You may keep the card, it's obsolete now anyway. Much like your club will be once I'm done." He turned on his heel and left.
"Asshole." Jax murmurs.
-/-/-/-
He finds Jennasis in the day care. "Did you know Joss had a brother?"
She looked over shoulder as she scooped up Abel. "Yeah she mentioned it, white bread Americana boy who hates Hap why?"
"She mention he's a Fed?"
"Hell no, I had Juice vet her if it had popped he'd of told me. Jax I am going to jail." She whispers the word jail like its taboo.
"No baby you aren't they aint got shit, it's all smoke and circumstance. Nothing will stick."
She shakes her head. "I was smart but not smart enough."
"Didn't vet the birth name did you Jenna?" Jax asks gently.
"No, I thought I didn't need to she seemed so earnest I'm going to fucking kill her!"
"Baby don't, then you will go to jail." He teased and she halfheartedly smacked his arm. "You good? I got stupid presidential shit to take care of." He asked.
"I got my statement to the ADA but I'll come right back here. Tara should release Arie tonight."
"Simple answers, give nothing." He said tucking a stray piece of hair behind her ear.
"Yes I know Daddy," She replied sarcastically.
"Careful I'll make you use it in bed." He kissed her.
"And here I thought you liked all hail King Jackson best."
He laughed. "I love you Jenna. My very twisted love."
=/=/=
"To answer your question, yes Jackson Teller is my husband and I was there out of a need to help nothing more nothing less." Jenna leans on the table. She eyes the ADA in his grey suit and pink tie. His eyes keep wondering to her cleavage.
"Were you aware of Delaney's intentions?" his eyebrows wing up on the word intentions.
"I ain't a mind reader." She shrugs.
"You interacted with him on three separate occasions and seem rather friendly with the victim."
"I interacted with many inmates not just Mr. Delaney, go on sparky check your little log it's all there. I am friends with Jossara Martinez Toric; she is the prison librarian as your records should also show. She needed volunteers and I am nothing if not helpful and giving of my time."
"Your prints are on the weapon." He taps the end of his retractable pen on the table as if to drive home his point.
"Ooh I touched a pen in a library; I'm a bad, bad girl." She said sarcastically slouching back in her chair.
"Mrs. Teller." Lohan warns.
She straightens and parrots dutifully. "What I meant to say is my touching the weapon was merely coincidental. I hope it will not hinder my freedom or your investigation sir."
She looks to Lohan. "We done?"
"You have more pressing obligations Ma'am?"
"You bet your Hugo Boss Darlin'" She grinned at him sharply.
-/-/-/-
Jenna sits in Joss' door way. "Were you going to tell me your dear concerned brother was a Fed?"
"I didn't think it mattered." Joss whispered bashfully.
Jenna leans forward arms crossed over her knees. "Your boyfriend is the hit man for a crime syndicate known all through the west coast. And you grew up in the only one with enough weight to run with us, come on Jossara. Don't bullshit the queen or the ally. You know that."
"Fine, I keep Lee a secret because he stands to threaten my place within my family. And I thought I'd lose Hap. "She confessed.
"You just might. You ride the fence in this life you will die." Jenna advised.
"He would never…"
Jenna's eyes light in anger and her voice hardens. "A lot of people would never until they do; you're not a little girl playing in her Mama's heels Joss. Pick a guy. Lowman or your brother. You have my number call me when you've chosen. You choose wrong and I die or go to jail because you played in the wrong sandbox and you will see the woman Gemma Teller built. You won't like her." Jenna turned to leave.
"I'm sorry."
Jenna glanced over her shoulder. "Regrets aren't afforded to those live on the fringe, just straighten up girl."
-/-/-/-
Jax comes running in. "We're on lock down babe; things went shit side up with Galan."
She nods resolutely. "I'll see if I can get Arie fast tracked. I didn't have anyone to watch Zona during my deposition. Wendy watched her; she has Abel playing by the vending machines."
"Wendy What? You let her what?" He said geniuenly perplexed.
"Jax lock down means we don't have time for this fight! Go get Abel and let's leave." She starts gathering Arizona's things.
"Why would you do this without consulting me?"
"She's his mother and she wants to try, this is a safe place to do it." She said calmly.
"You're his mother! You are Jenna!" He shouts at her and it makes tears sting her eyes.
She pitches the stuffed bear Chibs bought Arie at his head. "Not if I go to jail Jackson!"
He blinks slowly. "I'm screaming at you in our sick baby's hospital room. I'm not that guy."
She sighed."I screamed back, I always scream back that's who we are fight dirty love deep."
He steps to her and brushed away a stray tear. "Hear me when I say this Jennasis Winston, you are not going to jail. Not in this life time."
"Gonna do my time for me Cowboy?" She grinned up at him
"I just might." He said quietly.
"Last name's Teller lover. You gave it to me remember?"
"Oh I remember… something you thought lost to you returns you remember it. You don't easily slip my mind Jenna."
"You get the boy and I'll get your girl cleared."
"Did you really throw a teddy bear at me?" he joked picking it up.
She shrugged. "I am queen bitch ya know."
-/-/-/-
Jax finds Wendy with Abel. "I know Jenna gave you permission I just don't give a damn!" He said lowly from just behind Wendy.
Abel turned "Hi Daddy! Air-wee is kay!""
"I know buddy! Wanna go tell your teacher you're leaving?"
"Jax I just-"Wendy starts.
"We're doing this outside!" He cuts her off. "Monster… Happy will bring you outside with mama!" He kissed Abel on top of the head.
-/-/-/-
"You have no right to him!" Jax screamed.
"I'm his mother I stepped away from to help him." She shouted back.
"You should stay that way! I don't have time to rehash old shit with you!" he turns away from her walking in the opposite direction to cool off.
"Jackson a little help?" Jenna calls out then stops. "Jax… I think that Irish Dickhead just grabbed Wendy!" He turns in the five minutes he'd turned Wendy disappeared nothing but her bag and Abel's animal crackers left behind. "Got what I wanted just not how I wanted it."
"What Daddy?"
"Nothing Bub, you ready to roll."
_/-/-/-
"So I got a call from Galan. He wants five hundred K or he takes Abel." Clay walks in without his cut and sits in the chapel.
"The fuck he will… asshole may not have known Jax had married me but he will." Jenna said.
Clay glares at her. "You aren't even supposed to be in here Jennasis."
She shrugs a delicate shoulder as she's perched on Jax's lap at the head of the table. "Neither are you, but new queen new rules." She smirks at him enjoying watching the man squirm.
"Well Queenie any ideas?" Clay prods.
"I have Daddy's life insurance policy, but it even if we forget that was my kid's college fund. It's only enough to cover a quarter of the cost."
"I may have a solution my tiny redheaded rage machine." Nero says knocking on the door frame.
"Nero! I forgot to come in Zona-"
"It's fine sweetheart. Give us a bit?"
"Sure." She turned and kissed Jax. Help me back in?" Jax lifted her from his lap and sat her on the table then stood to deposit her in the chair. "Thanks Jaxy. You know Clay you get more flies with honey than pure evil. Didn't your mama teach you?" She rolled off.
"Just hope his mama taught him sweets, that chair kills and corrupts fully." Clay advised walking out behind her.
"I am not ragey! I'm quick tempered." She justified passing Nero.
"Baby it's a sexy rage." Jax calls after her.
-/-/-/-
After getting Wendy back from Galan. They sat outside the shop. "Galan told her about the kidnapping." Jenna whispered. "She threatened to take him; it wasn't idle either Jackson She meant it." Jenna confided with a deep swig on her beer. "I didn't mean to stir the pot Jax honest, she's clean and…"
"And…" he pushed.
"And I don't want our mothers raising my children. Gemma's so fucking crazy and possessive, my mama well God love her there's a reason she let my brother raise me. We can't stick our kids into our history and expect different outcomes, what happens this world finally eats us alive Jax, and you know it will. What happens to them? I won't lay them on Paige, Tara? Wendy? We can't give them to Lyla I'm practically raising Trey and Paige as it is."
"I know, I know you're right let's think it over. "He put his arm around her.
"I miss Opie, it never stops Jax. I keep waiting for someone to give him back."
"Where ever he is Jenna? He's proud of you baby, Piney too." She just looks at him. "You're a damn fine Mama to all of them."
She shakes her head. Eyes darkened by a shadow of guilt. "No I'm not I let my love for you put them second, the second I stepped through those prison gates I was a weapon in your fight against fate and I stopped being a good mother and the fact that you don't see it scares me."
"Jennasis…I never meant to use you."
"I'm not mad Jackson, I'm tired and I'm scared and I am going home with my kids before I can't anymore. She moves away from his embrace.
-/-/-/-
After seeing Clay's tattoos inked out and the threat of Wendy handled he means to head home but finds himself in the cemetery staring at Opie's head stone. "The last thing you said to me was take care of them but we both know you really meant her. You meant take care of her. The person you loved best and brother I think I am going to let you down." He said staring at the epitaph.
"I know how to love her. I can do that, but I don't know how to protect her from me. You knew there was no way, didn't you? That's why you were so against us I didn't realize until the douchebag handed his fed card but I am going to ruin her all because I loved the goddamned club more than her and you knew it!"
Nothing but crickets and night air brushing at leaves reply.
"Jenna's not the only one who misses you Ope. Goodnight Brother."
When he returns home Jenna is asleep with Arizona next to her and Jenna's hand placed on her chest. He nudges her. "I'm home my Jenna."
"Umm hmm" She mumbles.
"Even though you aren't mad anymore I'm mad at myself and I'm sorry baby."
"Jax regrets change nothing honey. I love you. Go to sleep." She rolls on her back to look up at him.
"I love you too."
AN: I own nothing but Jenna and Zona thank you for continued support of the series!-MM