Do You? Chapter 11: Faceoffs, Friendships, and a Letter, a gossip girl fanfic

Here is another chapter my lovely Dairlings!

In my hurry to update amidst my hectic university life, I totally forgot to say in the previous chapter of author's notes: CONGRATULATIONS to newlyweds Blake Lively and Ryan Reynolds! I found it to be a bit sudden and surprising, but I wish them happiness, nonetheless! (Esp. because Ryan is from my home city!) Also CONGRATULATIONS to Snooki and Jionni on their newborn son, Lorenzo or Enzo for short! That little Guido is going to be GTLing quite soon!

Sidenote 1: I heard she invited her costars from The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants but there have been no reports of Blake inviting anyone from GG. That's a little fucked up – c'mon you've worked alongside these people for 5-6 years and you don't invite them? Ok, maybe not Penn because they were exes or Leighton because I hear they are not friends off-set, but seriously – Do you have a beef with everyone else on the show, Blake?

Sidenote 2: I was randomly going back to previous seasons of GG and I noticed S3 when everyone was "supposed" to go to college. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THAT STORYLINE? It's like they had a bit with Dan and Blair at NYU but that was basically it so it could become the Chair show once again! Then S4 started in Paris! Stupid plot holes and lack of continuation! Seriously, way to drop the ball on that arc GG writers! (Sarcasm accompanied by huge eye roll on continuous loop). I really should've seen the shit hit the fan a lot sooner because of that! Anyways, I really liked Dan and Blair's interactions at NYU, so I'm happy to read fanfiction authors write college stories of them whether they are at NYU or Yale!

Sidenote 3: For those of you who watch Big Brother USA: OMFG I'M SO ECSTACTIC TO SEE IAN WIN! I really thought Dan would win again actually (although I've been rooting for Ian all season), because of his ballsy moves such as his "funeral." I respect him and his game, though others may view him as ruthless. Again, it's a freakin game worth $500 000, so make ballsy moves! GO BIG OR GO HOME! NO FLOATERS! BUT BE SMART AND STRATEGIZE!

Sidenote 4: Is the word SWAG dead or alive? I still use it! If it's dead though, I blame it entirely on Justin Bieber. I may be from Canada but I can't stand Justin Bieber! I LOVE Usher and Carly Rae Jepsen, and I like Selena Gomez, but I just don't like Justin Bieber! Anyways, KEEP CALM AND SWAG ON!

I'm happy to learn people like my sidenotes and my dream! I am pleased as well, that not many of you find the previous chapter confusing and that you agree about Chuck's whispering!

Shoutouts and thank-you's to: Magnus57 and frenchyy for submitting reviews for each chapter! Another shoutout to a guest reviewer, 2Legit2Quit, also for submitting many reviews. You should make an account so we can PM. To answer 2Legit2Quit's question of what I ate to dream a strange dream: one of my favorite meals – Salisbury steak with mashed potatoes and gravy, and seasoned veggies.

Song lyrics in this chapter: "Want You Back" by Cher Lloyd and "She Ain't You" by Chris Brown.

I don't own GG but I own up to the fact I horribly suffered years and years' worth of the Chair show! Mistakes are all mine but I don't mind if you blame the GG writers, instead. Thanks for all of the support from people! As always R&R please! KEEP CALM AND SWAG ON! I WILL BE PERFECTING MY GANGNAM STYLE DANCE!

Blair and Audrey spent the night at a hotel. Blair is finally free from the hold Chuck has over her. Although it seems a little too late because Dan's clearly moved on. And now, Blair has to think solely on Audrey and what will be beneficial for her. In the heat of the moment, Blair knew she and Chuck said nasty things to each other and that whatever happens, it will affect Audrey. So after sleeping on it, Blair is planning to be civil to Chuck. Well… as civil to him as she is to her, for Audrey's sake.

Damn Humphrey! He warned me about everything going to hell! But did I listen, no of course not, as usual! Now the shit has hit the fan and Audrey may have to suffer through the childhood's both Chuck and I suffered through!

Needing to get a piece of mind, Blair planned on talking a stroll through the park with Audrey for the day and maybe talking to Chuck about Audrey. Locomoting down the hotel hallway of her floor to the elevator, she was not pleased to see a blonde absentmindedly strolling to the elevators as well.

"Oh my freakin' god! You have got be to kidding me! What kind of sick joke is this? Am I being Punk'd right now? Where's Ashton Kutcher?"

"Blair, if only you were being Punk'd, then everyone around the world could see your face right now! It's priceless! Oh! Who do we have here, a little baby wearing fashionable clothing? Is this Audrey Bass, who is wearing originals from Waldorf Designs, I presume?"

"Yes, this is my daughter, Audrey. And of course she is wearing Waldorf originals – I wouldn't want her growing up wearing tasteless trash like someone I know. That someone starts with S and ends with ERENA!"

Instead of responding to Blair, Serena whispers to Audrey's ear, "Beware of your mommy Audrey, because she is the big bad wolf."

Despite her petite stature, Blair tears Serena away from Audrey's stroller with a vice grip and slaps her – hard.

"How dare you! How dare you whisper into my daughter's ear that her mother is a big bad wolf! Who the hell do you think you are?"

"I'm Serena van der Woodsen." Serena states blankly with a certain air of arrogance – the way Chuck would normally introduce himself to anyone.

"What are you doing here, Serena? I am on my way out so I don't have time for your drivel."

"Well, this is my hotel floor because as a visitor, I need to stay at a hotel, unlike you. Why are you here Blair, aren't you supposed to be living in that mansion of a place with Chuck?"

"Our housemaid never lives up to my expectations, so I thought going to a hotel would give me decent service. Now that I know you are staying here as well, I'd rather suffer through our maid's inadequacies than be in the same vicinity as you!"

"LIES! I KNOW A BLAIR WALDORF LIE WHEN I SEE ONE! What happened now, Blair? Did Chuck fuck his secretary or did you fuck Dan? Oh wait…that was me wasn't it? Yes, he ended up crawling between my thighs! Where is Chuck right now? And tell me Blair, where's your engagement ring? Don't tell me you didn't realize you weren't wearing it or you are getting it resized! I just saw you yesterday afternoon with Chuck, with the ring perfectly fitted."

FUCK.

THE ONE TIME SERENA IS NOT OBLVIOUS TO A SITUATION! I JUST WANT TO KICK THAT BITCH'S HEAD IN UNTIL BLOOD POURS OUT, LIKE THE MOVIE DRIVE WITH RYAN GOSLING!

"Fine! You want the truth Serena? Chuck and I are over… for good this time! I realized I made a mistake but none of that matters except for Chuck and I being civilized adults when raising Audrey!"

"Oh come on Blair! You say you and Chuck are over, but everyone knows that's not true. It will be just a matter of time once again before it's the Chair show! What is it now, like the 913th time you've ended it? I can just imagine the timeline of your marriage! Probably shorter but more repetitive than Kim Kardashian!"

"Get out of my way, Serena! I'm not planning to warn you again! Why don't you just leave and never come into any of our lives ever again?"

"Well I can't exactly do that! At least not until I've completed what I've set out to do!"

"What would that be? To take Dan away from his fiancé, your friend? You certainly have had some experience in that department!"

"No, because I think Sienna is a good match for Dan, not you! Since you've given me the "truth" I guess it would only be polite to return the favor. So Blair, my personal mission this time around is to MUTILATE YOU TO COMPLETE AND UTTER NOTHINGNESS. And you think I have experience taking things away from others, well look at you! You took Dan away from me! The one man who I truly loved and like everything else I've ever had, you wanted and had to manipulate into taking! You may have had Dan love you in a way that he never did for me, but you fucked that up, like you fuck up all your relationships! At least Dan can now clearly see you for who you really are!"

"Have fun trying to annihilate me, Serena because like many of your relationships, it's doomed for failure! I don't see why we were ever friends to begin with! We are always competing for everything! We hurt each other and then forgive each other!"

"I'm surprised you see that pattern with us but are completely blinded with your marry-go-round with Chuck. They are exactly the same thing!"

"This conversation is over!"

"Sure, this conversation is over but I'm far from over with destroying you, Blair – remember that!"

Blair finally got Audrey and herself into the elevator as Serena was headed towards the staircase. As the elevator doors began to close, Serena sticks her hand out to reopen the doors, just to enunciate some more garbage.

"One last thing Blair, now that you and Chuck are supposedly over, what do you plan to do? Are you just going to wait for Dan to make the same realization as you and end his engagement with Sienna? He waited on the sidelines for you for like a year, had his shot with you, and was shot down by you. Do you really think he is going to drop his happiness that he's been looking for since dating you, for a second chance that may end up hurting him more as a repeat performance from you? He's learnt the hard way because of me, that you should stop returning to the same person! That's all! You're dismissed!"

And with that, the elevator doors closed, sending Blair and Audrey down to the lobby from the 12th floor. The whole ride, Blair was filled with tears because Serena had a point about Dan. Blair was not patient like Dan and wouldn't expect him to leave Sienna for a "what if" scenario with her. Blair could care less about being destroyed by Serena but what fueled Blair was the thought of Serena coming anywhere near Audrey.

For now, Blair's thoughts of Dan would have to wait on the backburner. Right now, Blair has to do everything in her power to protect Audrey from the evil blonde wrath of Serena.

Uh!
Mmm, yeah.
La la la la laaa
Uh!

Hey, boy you never had much game
Thought I needed to upgrade
So I went and walked away way way
Uh
Now, I see you've been hanging out
With that other girl in town
Looking like a pair of clowns clowns clowns
Uh

Remember all the things that you and I did first?
And now you're doing them with her
Remember all the things that you and I did first?
You got me, got me like this
Uh
And now you're taking her to every restaurant
And everywhere we went, come on!
And now you're taking her to every restaurant
You got me, got me like this
Uh

Boy you can say anything you wanna
I don't give a shh, no one else can have ya
I want you back
I want you back
Wa-want you, want you back
Uh
I broke it off thinking you'd be cryin'
Now I feel like shh looking at you flyin'
I want you back
I want you back
Wa-want you, want you back
Uh

Please, this ain't even jealousy (jealousy)
She ain't got a thing on me (a thing on me)
Tryin' to rock them ugly jeans jeans jeans
Uh
You clearly didn't think this through
If what I've been told is true
You'll be crawling back like boo hoo hoo
Uh

Ohhh, I thought you'd still be mine
When I kissed you goodbye uh oh uh oh
Ohhh, and you might be with her
But I still had you first uh oh uh oh

Let's go! Astro!
We used to be, but now there's a separation between you and me
Baby I'm moving on to another girl that understands me more
Dated her in front your place so you can see it all
I remember the times, when we used to bond
But I never realized that you wanted to be mine
So I gave her the ring, instead of you, nickname too
I can tell that you're upset, because it ain't you
Met a new girl, and I gave her my heart
Not noticing that you wanted me from the very start
You want me back?
We can just be friends, don't try this thing all over again

Ohhh-Oh-oh-oh
Boy you can say anything you wanna
I don't give a shh, no one else can have ya
I want you back
I want you back
Wa-want you, want you back
Uh
I broke it off thinking you'd be cryin'
Now I feel like shh looking at you flyin'
I want you back
I want you back
Wa-want you, want you back
Uh

(Let me know)

Ohhh, I want you back
I want you back
Wa-want you, want you back
Uh

When Dan left after their heated argument, Sienna fought for ways to occupy the many hours spent without Dan. They rarely fought, and when they did, it was never to this degree. They would sometimes disagree about certain aspects of Dan's writing, but in the end Sienna obliged to Dan's creative license.

So tonight, after hearing the door slam shut with a boisterous echo, she slumped against the wall and began to weep a river. Not knowing what Dan was like when truly cross, Sienna feared that Dan may get super wasted and do something reckless, that something reckless could potentially be seeking refuge in the arms of a brunette. Hopefully, in Sienna's mind, the worst Dan could do was to get a few drinks and end up at Brady's to crash and complain, and then the next day it would be all better.

After what she thought was a decent amount of time to weep, which was clocking towards an hour (who weeps a river for that long?), Sienna stood up and cleansed her face of any residual tears.

Breaking out from her teenage insecurity phase, Sienna knows Dan is not that guy; he would not run to Blair. The thought however, does seem to haunt her, so she is going to make sure that potential does not occur. Cut their ties here and now.

Sienna wanted to call Serena and discuss the next stage of utterly destroying Blair Waldorf but didn't however. Having just dropped Serena off at her hotel, the blond goddess was clearly tired and jet-lagged so Sienna let her rest. Serena was not going to be of any use to her plan if she was not well-rested, anyways.

Sienna just watched Rear Window on Dan's Netflix queue (his favorite movie) then called it a night. She needed to be well-rested as well. Going to bed without Dan lying next to her proved difficult but eventually she drifted off.

In the morning, as Sienna was scrubbing her features, the water – as if it were holy water – seemed to reinvigorate a new life in Sienna, one that did not include salty tears. Knowing Dan is not at all stupid and oblivious, Sienna realizes he will eventually have his suspicions in regards to the whereabouts to Blair's pathetic Please forgive me, I love you letter (oh how Sienna just wants to hurl; cue Sienna's eye roll). Taking out the letter, stashed away safely in the box of her heels, she critically observes Blair's distinguishable handwriting.

After hours of memorizing the smoothness of Blair's elegant and classy writing, Sienna pulled out several sheets of scrap paper and began to mimic it all the way to how Blair dotted her "i"'s. Sienna thanked the heavens that she aced her calligraphy classes back at Knightly. That and the fact she and Serena would forge their guardians' signatures to skip class a couple times. Attempt after attempt, Sienna began to get the job done with more precision and accuracy; holding the pen as light as a feather, Sienna was pleased at her progress, seeing the words flow and glide harmoniously across the page, like Blair herself had written it.

The eighth attempt was for the real deal. Grabbing the most Blair-esque type of paper she could find amongst her assortment of stationary, Sienna rewrote Blair's letter. Of course, it was not going to be a pathetic letter like the original but it would be cruel and heartless to make Dan stay away from Blair once and for all. Cruel and heartless. The way Dan had painted Blair in Cast Out.

To Sienna, Blair Waldorf was like an annoying butt itch that you'd feel at the most inconvenient of times like when saying your vows on your wedding day. Distracting and aggravating.

Finally finishing the letter by dripping drops of water and drying them – to give affect as dried tears on the page, like Blair mentioned – it was placed inside Blair's envelope, sealed and was placed on the antique coffee table as if Sienna magically "found it." Blair's version was again stashed away in the shoebox. Who knows, maybe it could come in handy to blackmail the Queen of Schemes?

No sooner than that, Dan swoops inside the condo in between heaves of breathing and a flushed face.

"Dan! Where were you last night and why does it look like you just ran a marathon?"

"I had some drinks and crashed at Brady's. Don't worry, I took a cab last night and just now because I honestly have no clue where my car is. I ran up eight flights up stairs because the elevator was being uncooperative. I needed to get here right away to apologize to you and because I just remembered that I must've dropped Blair's letter in my pile of smelly laundry!"

"Aha! I goddamn knew it, Dan! You lied to me! I knew that letter was written by Blair but when you called to ask me if I ever saw it, you said it was from Jenny!"

Oh shit.

Dan totally handled the situation in the worst possible way in letting that fact slip. Now, he was in some serious shit and probably far worse than their fight last night.

"Look, Sie-"

"Please don't even try to explain your reasoning for lying to me! I'm not asking nor will I be listening. Last night you called me out for being insecure because of you and Blair. Each time you reassured me that you no longer have any feelings for her; yet you're here looking for some goddamn pathetic letter she wrote to you even though she's engaged to that guy you refer to as a motherChucker. I guess it's your turn to be in the hotseat, Dan."

Staring at Dan with a coldness Dan himself was unexpected to see from Sienna, she was expecting his predictable ramblings of an answer but was met with silence, instead. The only sound Sienna could find solace in was the now apparent trickle of rain that bestowed Paris.

Well, if Dan Humphrey learned anything from having been best friends and even lovers with Blair Waldorf, it's the art of denial. He's been denying over and over again to Sienna and himself, but he couldn't do it anymore.

"I do not love Blair…b…but even after everything, I still manage to wish her happiness. Even if that happiness is with Chuck and not me, I just want her and Audrey to be happy. I've been destroyed by her yet I still considered her as my best friend. But that doesn't change the fact that she's marrying Chuck and that I'm in love and marrying you, Sienna!"

"Wow! I finally get the fucking truth out of you! Is this supposed to make me feel better? You, mentioning Blair as your best friend? My impression of her is of a female Mafioso that could bury you alive in the unknown Las Vegas desert! If this is supposed to be your way of apologizing after disappearing last night, this is not the way to do so, Dan."

Dan opened his mouth about to respond before Sienna's hand shoots up to stop him.

"By the way, I found the letter Dan! I was doing laundry because when I'm upset about something, I do laundry. Like the Gods were playing a cruel joke on me, the force of luck worked its magic so that I'd come into possession of the letter. I have enough self-respect to not open the letter but it's sitting on the coffee table waiting for your eyes to view it."

"Dan, listen to me carefully. I'm not trying to make you hate Blair because you are way too good for that, but don't expect this letter to be sappy with I'm sorry, I love you and I wish I was marrying you bullshit like that. It's probably going only going to hurt you as she tries to justify her previous actions and rehashing those emotions you felt a couple of years ago."

Dan tried to listen but ignored her as all he could do was stare at that letter. That piece of paper could either be his worst nightmare or sweetest dream. Forgetting all about his fiancé expressing her anger with him in the living room, Dan snatched the letter off the coffee table and was nearly about to read the letter… until his iPhone rang. He was planning to let the call go to voicemail without looking at his caller ID but the distinct ringtone he gave the caller let Dan know that he couldn't dismiss it.

Dan ended up being convinced by endless harassing to put Justin Bieber's "As Long As You Love Me" as his buddy's ringtone. Oh, how he resented that now! Grabbing his phone, Dan settled into his room and shut the door, leaving Sienna behind in the living room, before accepting the call.

"Look, this is not a go-"

"We're here at the terminal of Charles de Gaulle Airport! You said to come ASAP, so here we are! Aren't you going to come and greet us, Dan?"

"Yeah, I'll meet you soon then. Wait. Did you just say "we"? Who else did you bring?"

"Yes, I brought someone with me. You know this individual Dan but I want you to see for yourself. We're hungry so why don't we meet at a restaurant we spotted not far from the airport?"

Like the night before, Dan walked past a badgering Sienna to grab his coat. Dan made sure the letter was securely placed on the inside of his jacket pocket.

"I'm going to catch a cab to the airport to pick-up my friends. Just because you brought Serena into our lives that doesn't mean I can't bring back my old friends, too!"

Only nodding, as to not pick another fight, Sienna just asked, "Won't Brady be pissed knowing that he's being demoted as your sidekick?"

Dan chuckled a bitter laugh, as he thought that question sounded something Blair would've asked him.

"At first, but he'll be chill with it. They'll get along because they are basically the same person!"

Stepping through the restaurant's door, it was a typical French restaurant. The class and finesse from its physical structure and lighting to the expensive and hard-to-pronounce options from the menu. There were beautiful paintings hung around the walls the accented the rest of the restaurant's décor in a meaningful and subtle way – not clashing and trying too hard. The diners whispered amongst one another and contrasted against the clashing of plates and pans of the hard-working chefs within the kitchen.

Dan brought Sienna to this restaurant when they first moved out to Paris, to celebrate. Dan's heard many great reviews about this specific restaurant. Because it's close to the airport, there is a lot of traffic. As well, it is very discreet, with soft music and romantic setting for that special someone. The service is impeccable, never seen, but always there when you need them and very attentive. The food is a gastronomic fantasia and delights all the senses. It's refined, varied, and delicious in all its aspects. The wine cellar is second to none and reasonably priced.

Glancing around the scene, he finally spotted them. Nate and Vanessa.

"Hey Dan!"

"Wow! It's good to see you… both! Nate and Vanessa! You guys have to tell me how this happened!"

"Wait. I thought you needed us? Wasn't that the whole point of your 911 call to me?"

"Yes, but that can wait a bit longer as long as you tell me how" Dan pointed between Nate and Vanessa "this all happened."

So, over some food and wine, Nate and Vanessa explained.

Nate had moved in and settled with Lola. They were doing fine but just naturally drifted apart and split amicably. Lola continued chasing her dream as an actress and Nate continued to build up his own legacy at The Spectator, without the help of his cousin Tripp or grandfather.

Vanessa, having been off the radar since sending Dan's manuscript for print, without his permission (he's forgiven her, by this point), has been travelling around Spain to film docu-dramas and being involved with helping the less fortunate kids in the area. Though she was flirting with a few Spaniards, those relationships didn't last long.

Nate and his fellow Spectator colleagues were covering stories during the Toronto International Film Festival (TIFF), where one of Vanessa's films was being viewed. Nate sought a personal interview with Vanessa and you could say the rest was history, as here they are now together and deliriously in love.

"No we've told our story; it's your turn, Dan. Tell us what's got you so bothered that you had to get me to fly out across the pond just to talk."

So, Dan explained his predicament over more wine.

After listening to a mouthful from Dan, Nate and Vanessa, who barely interrupted, just shared a look before blurting out,

"You're still in love with Blair!"

Of course, Dan immediately rejected that statement.

"Dan, from what you've told us, Sienna is a wonderful woman and you're grateful to have found her and be marrying her. On the other side of that coin however, she sounds too good to be true. She's not Blair, nor will she ever be – from what Nate and I could gather – that's the problem! You're still in love with Blair but Sienna's not Blair!"

Nate, normally the unobjective one from his small circle of friends, chimes in, "Yeah, I agree with Vanessa, man. You need to figure what and who you want in life. You can't keep reassuring Sienna and marrying her under false pretenses when your undivided attention is on Blair, Chuck, and Audrey."

"You sound so… so Dr. Phil! Haha! Nate sounding like Dr. Phil!"

"Hey! I have my moments and I think of myself more as Socrates than Dr. Phil, though he does have good points!"

"Man, you would like my friend Brady and his wife, Evangeline; they are just like the two of you!"

"We should totally meet them, and maybe Nate and I could talk with Blair."

"Vanessa, you would do that? I thou-"

"I've had time to get past all of…that."

"Well, while you're at it, why don't you guys try talking to Serena, too?"

"Serena's here in Paris as well? Well, it looks like the Original 6 are conveniently in the same city together, without the manipulating of Gossip Girl. Well, the Original 6 with the additions of Sienna and Audrey of course."

After giving their thoughts on Dan's life crisis, Nate and Vanessa headed out to take in Paris before getting some early rest. Dan, insisting to pay the bill as he invited them to Paris in the first place, stayed behind.

Pulling out Blair's letter from his jacket pocket, he finally had time to read it. He tried in the taxi cab on the way, but it had been getting dark out. Besides, Dan didn't like reading while in a moving vehicle; it seemed to give him migraines. He opened the envelope as he ordered another glass of wine to the waiter.

What were the words Blair had written that awaited Dan?

You make It hard for me to see somebody else
I'm calling her your name
Yea it's messed up, cause I'm thinkin 'bout you
It's your fault babe
I never wanted us to break up
No not this way
But you don't understand it girl
When she touches me, I'm wishing that they were your hands
And when I'm with her it's only 'bout the sex
With you I had a bad romance
And if I could, just trade her in I would
Cause nobody compares to ya

I think I better let her go
Cause I can't leave you alone
Every day that I'm with her, all I want is you
I wanna leave but I'm afraid
That you don't even feel the same
And now I realize that she ain't you
Oh (no she ain't you)
Whoa oh oh (Na na na)
Whoa oh oh (Na na na)
She ain't, no she ain't you

I've been sleeping out
For quite some nights now
It's not the same in my bed
But if she found out what's going on in my head
It'll be all bad, have me right back
But you don't understand it girl
When she touches me, I'm wishing that they were your hands
And when I'm with her it's only 'bout the sex
With you I had a bad romance
And if I could, just trade her in I would
Cause nobody compares to ya

I think I better let her go
Cause I can't leave you alone
Every day that I'm with her, all I want is you
I wanna leave but I'm afraid
That you don't even feel the same
And now I realize that she ain't you
No she a-ain't she ain't you[x8]