~Catch Me~

I didn't talk to Niall for the next few days. I missed him, but I was still angry at him. Sometimes when I was alone, I would wonder why I was even so hurt by his actions. I knew I was being selfish. I thought back, and realised that I had indeed been spending a lot of time with Zayn lately, and no boyfriend would be happy seeing his girl with another boy, even if he knew they were just friends. But everytime I was able to find a reason not to be upset with him, the fact that he didn't trust me overpowers all the other reasons and before I knew it, I was back to being upset with him.

But after a week of not talking to him, I found it in me to forget the whole thing. I felt it was kinda stupid of me to keep blaming him for not trusting me. And honestly, I was tired of trying to avoid him, and ignoring him. Because I really wanted to talk to him. I could see him making an effort to talk to me. But usually it'll end up in an awkward silence. We didn't know where we are in our relationship. But I did notice the little gestures he did to make things right with me. Like how he always sided with me whenever I had a friendly argument with Liam about something. Or how he'd casually shooed Harry and Louis whenever they disturbed me. There was a period of time when he would hand me a bottle of water with a little Post-it that said 'Drink Up:)' every day. He still was the sweetest guy and it was so hard to stay angry with him. And one thing's for sure; the more I wasn't talking to him, the more I find myself wanting him more. I kept repeating moments when I was with him, so very happy with just us knowing. And after a week, the feeling was unbearable. It was like he was so close, but so very far.

I didn't have anyone to talk to, so I've been tweeting vague tweets now and again. I decided to tweet a very vague one again. I tweeted: When we're together, nothing else matters x

My followers didn't suspect a thing, but a few minutes later, I got a text from Zayn. He asked me out for a walk, so I agreed. I knew he knew something was up. And I secretly wanted to tell him. He was my best friend, and I guessed it's about time he knew, even if it's possibly not the best of times to reveal the secret. He met me outside my room and we headed off. It was awkward at first, because both of us didn't know what to say to each other.

"So..." Zayn started.

"So..." I replied.

"You're not telling me something, aren't you?" he asked.

I played with my fingers as I answered him," Yeah..it's supposed to be a secret. And I wasn't ready to tell you" I drifted off.

He continued to be silent, so I continued."Erm..you see, there kinda have been someone in my life right now and.."

"It's Niall right?" he interrupted suddenly.

I was surprised he caught on so fast, and I wasn't ready for how he's going to react. But then he smiled widely.

"I knew there was something up with the two of you. Always hanging out during lunch and stuff." He nudged my shoulders playfully.

I laughed,"I was nervous about telling you! Didn't want you to be angry with me or anything. And I really wanted your approval, but I just can't tell you"

"I get it. I know how these things work. But you could have told me earlier you know. How long has it been now?"

"Nearly a month..actually, we're kind of in a break right now. I think we're still together. It's just that, I haven't been talking to him much"

He noticed the disappointment in my voice, so I told him the whole story. When I finished, he smiled and laughed it off. I asked him what was so funny.

"That actually happened to me quite a few times when I was dating. The girls were just crazy jealous of you and I. I thought the boys would have much more sense if one of them was dating you. I turned to be wrong then"

I pondered over what he said. He'd never told me some of his ex-es had been jealous of me.

"So what happened when the girls got jealous? You told them we were just friends right?"

"Duh. Most just started freaking out and being all control freaks. I mean, see what happened to all of them now. If they don't like you, then we're done. Simple as that."

He saw the worried face I had when he slipped out that he broke up with his girlfriends when they got jealous. He quickly defended himself.

"I mean, no, that won't happen with you! NO. You guys are cute together. I like you with him, at least I know he won't hurt you. Well..hurt you like really hurt you. This "break" you guys are having now is stupid and pointless. You should forgive him already. By what you've told me, it seems like he really wants you back and he knows he did something wrong. Don't punish him like that girl. I know Niall. If he loves someone, he'll go hardcore."

"You think he loves me?" I shot up.

He stopped in his tracks. I stared at him, wondering what he had just thought.

Then he continued but this time, his voice was softer,"Yeah, he loves you. I'm sure of it."

"We've never told each other that before, you know" And I drifted off, thinking about those three words.

I didn't know why but the mood just changed after that. We continued walking in silence, then he sent me back to my room. I said goodbye and was about to go inside, but he stopped me. He held my hands with his, and stared at me for a few seconds. I was lost at what he was doing but he seemed so serious. Then he suddenly hugged me, and we stayed in that position for a few more seconds. We've had a lot of hugs before, but somehow this felt different.

He let go of me, and I thought he was going to say something after that so I continued standing there. But he immediately turned and walked away. My mouth was literally hanging. It was so weird, even for him.

A/N:

Sorry I haven't been posting much. As many of you are right now, it's been a busy start to the school. So I'll try my best to post a chapter every week or so:)