Chapter 11
APOV:
I wanted to meet Christian right away, before I left with Kate for her appointment. But when Kate called Taylor to let him know that she is taking me out with her, he informed that Christian is busy in a meeting. I didn't want to disturb him. And I wanted to think things through and figure out what to say to him before I met him. I guess it would be best if I talked to him in the comfort of our home once he gets back from work. So I let Kate dress me up and whisk me away with her. I must say, it felt good to let Kate do my hair and makeup. She even talked me into wearing a pretty blue sundress. She said I would want to look my best when I meet my husband later in the evening.
Accompanying Kate to the doctor was the best thing I have done in the last few months. It felt nice to step outside the house after so long. Her security drove us to the clinic and Elliot was there waiting outside for us.
To say that he was shocked to see me is an understatement but that shock was short lived. As soon as I walked up to him he had me engulfed in a bear hug.
It was sobering to watch both Elliot and Kate so giddy with joy about the pregnancy. All three of us had tears in our eyes when we saw the tiny baby on the ultrasound screen. It was so bittersweet.
After the appointment, I made plans with Kate to help her out with the wedding details. There was so much to be done and I was glad that I was finally breaking out of my gloom. Elliot told me about the family dinner Grace is hosting tomorrow and asked me to be present with Christian because they would be breaking the news of the pregnancy to everyone. I am a little overwhelmed that he wants me to be present tomorrow.
Its almost 6 when Kate and Elliot dropped me off home, where Taylor is waiting for me at the foyer. Oh! Cristian must be back early today. I guess Taylor informed him about my outing.
"Good evening Mrs. Grey" Taylor says.
"Hello Taylor" I smile at him. His eyes light up at my reaction. I guess I hurt him with my actions too. He turns to leave but I stop him, "Taylor, wait!" he turns around to look at me. "Thank you for keeping Christian safe"
So many emotions pass through his eyes, before he smiles and says, "I'm always here for both of you. Don't forget that Ana" with that he leaves. I'm touched by his words.
As I walk into the house, I start feeling a bit nervous. I wonder how I should approach Christian. How will her react towards me after being pushed away for so long…
I walk into the bedroom and hear the shower running. I debate whether I should just go in or not. It's been so long since I have touched him, undressed him, and showered with him. And then I think, what the hell! Might as well go in and tell him how much I love him. I have stopped myself from doing anything for 3 whole months, I don't want to wait any longer.
I pick up all the courage I have and slowly walk into the bathroom. And there I see Christian in all his glory under the shower with his back to me. I can't help but admire my husband. I sigh feeling sad that I stayed away from him for so long. And there was a time in my life when I thought I couldn't go for a day without touching him, without kissing him. I realize how much I missed out on and how much I hurt Christian.
He doesn't turn around, I guess he is lost in his thoughts, unaware of my presence. So I quietly walk towards him and wrap my hands around him, "I'm so very sorry Christian, I love you!" I hear a loud gasp from him.
Here I am standing under the shower fully clothed, trying to apologize. I feel his breathing quicken and after a while he turns around. I see his eyes are stormy grey. We don't say anything to each other; we just keep looking into each other's eyes, trying to figure out what the other is thinking.
It seems like minutes are passing by and Christian has still not said anything. I am worried that he's going to push me away and ask me to leave. My worry almost turns into panic, when suddenly his lips come crashing down on me.
I'm momentarily shocked. I didn't expect him to kiss me like this. I thought he would shout, or simply say something….
But I don't waste another minute before kissing him back. Oh I missed kissing him. I put everything into the kiss, trying to convey the depths of my feelings. And Christian seems to be doing the same. Soon I'm pushed up against the wall and I feel Christian's hands roam my face, my body with such desperation. It's like he's trying to make sure I really am there, that I won't vanish into thin hair.
I let my hands roam around a bit as well till I entangle them in his hair. He pushes into me deepening the kiss even more and I can feel his erection pressing up against me. Even after all I have done, he still wants me!
We kiss for minutes till we have to break apart for air. Both of us are left panting and wanting more. I lean in to kiss him again, when he stops me, "no Ana, stop."
And my world comes crashing down. He did come to his senses at last. He did realize that he doesn't want me.
Author's Note: Hey guys I would like to thank all of you who took the time review and especially those who PM'd me. Your comments and inputs mean a lot to me. So guys about this chapter, I was a little unsure writing this. I don't know if you'll liked it. I would really like to know what you guys think should happen next.