Collision
Chapter Eleven :)
I know that I don't really have anyone following these stories anymore, but I wanted to finish them. It's been a pretty hectic year for me and I have missed writing so much. If there is anyone out there still reading this then I hope you enjoy this chapter. The end is near with this story. Love and hugs Ruthyroo xxxx
I leave Emmett's dressing room in a fluster; I mean is there anything that man can't do? I can't believe I've just had sex with him in there. I've just had sex with Emmett Scanlan at work and right now I should be feeling the shame but I'm not. How can I when it feels so right for me? I know my relationship with Carl has always been good and easy, but obviously something is missing. How am I going to tell him? He doesn't deserve this and I know leaving him will break his heart, but I can't be disloyal to him anymore. It just isn't right. I have to tell him, tonight.
God I needed that needed to know that Kieron felt the same as me. He leaves me hot and bothered, his hair all messed up with stubble rash all round his mouth. I couldn't help but laugh to myself, I shouldn't really, but I just can't help it. I'm sure everyone knows what's going on between us anyway. Of course that doesn't make it right, especially when Carl doesn't know what's going on, but I can't hide my true feelings for him anymore; no matter what it costs me. Life doesn't always work out as planned but I'm not giving him up, not now.
After a long day of filming I head home to an unknowing Carl. I'm nervous as hell and as I put my key in to the lock of our door I can see my hand shaking. This really isn't going to be easy. We've had great years together, happy years and I'm just about to give that up for something that might not even last. Either way I have to find out. Carl is sat on the sofa when I make my way inside and I know just by looking at him that something is wrong. My heart is pounding and as I make my wave over to him and join him on the sofa I can't stop the tears that are now falling from my eyes.
"Hey is everything okay Carl?"
"You tell me Kieron. I need to hear from you, the reason you're crying?"
"What do you mean?"
"Cut the bullshit Kieron…I know."
"You know what?"
"I know about you and Emmett! I had a little tip off from someone at your work."
"Carl I'm…"
"Just save it okay? How long? How long have you been fucking him behind my back?"
"Look it doesn't matter."
"It fucking matters to me okay Kieron?!"
"I never meant to hurt you…I'm sorry. We've been getting closer ever since he came back. I never meant for this to happen it just did. I don't know what to say."
"Tell me you won't see him anymore, that you'll stop all contact with him and then maybe we can try and save our relationship."
"Carl I can't…I'm sorry but I need to do this. I need to be with him."
"What! You mean to tell me you're going to give up on us and all the years we've spent together for some stupid fling?"
"I'm sorry…I'm just being true to myself and I really don't want to hurt you anymore. I might be throwing us away on some whim, but I need to do this. I'm so sorry."
"Just get out Kieron."
"But I live here too."
"Maybe you should've thought about that before jumping into bed with the king of Hollyoaks!"
I leave the flat in a state. I know that I could call Emmett to come and get me, but I really don't want him to see me like this, my eyes stinging and red from crying. I make my way to my local bar and slump down on the bar stool. I order a beer and take my phone out of my pocket. I scroll down to find Emmett's number; he needs to know that I've told Carl at least. I think about what to write, if I should tell him the whole story through a text message, but I don't think that would go down well so I settle for a quick text instead.
*Emmett I've told Carl, Kieron x*
Shit…he's told Carl. I didn't even know that he was going to do it tonight; he didn't even give me the slightest inclination earlier at work. I feel relieved though, relieved that it's all over and that now we can move on from our past and be together. What has he done to me? I don't think I've ever talked soppy shit like this before. I need to see him; I need to know that he is alright. I thought he might have called me…maybe he is still talking things over with Carl. Maybe he's having second thoughts about us.
*Where are you? Emmett x*
*I'm having a few beers at the pub…don't worry x*
*What pub Kieron? I need to see you.*
*The Queens Arms…just up the road from my flat.*
*Okay. I'm on my way x*
It felt good knowing that Emmett wanted to see me, I guess I should've just called him the minute I left my flat. He's not going to judge me just because I look like a bag of shit is he? Emmett enters the pub and I quickly down my fifth beer. I'm starting to feel a little light headed now and think that maybe drinking isn't going to help me tonight. I feel his hand on my back and when I turn to look at him he is staring at me lovingly.
"Hey Kieron…are you okay? How did it go?"
"It was awful…and to top it off he's kicked me out of my own flat."
"It's gonna be fine…none of that matters now. I've got you okay?"
"Are you gonna be my knight in shining armour Emmett?"
"Kieron, I'll be anything you want me to be."
"So I'm good to crash at yours tonight then?"
"You can crash at mine for as long as you want if it means I get to see you every day. Come on let's get out of here."
I wanted to take advantage of his drunken state, but that just wouldn't be fair to him. I could tell that he'd been crying and me coming on strong wouldn't be what he needed right now. I look on at him, he's only been in the car five minutes and he's already fallen asleep. He looks so beautiful and I'm not ashamed to admit that I am mesmerised by him. I still can't believe this is happening though. I always felt connected to Kieron, but I thought it was just because we worked so well together. Now here I am destroying relationships and falling more in love with him than I thought was humanly possible. Okay so tonight I watch him sleep, but tomorrow he owes me a lot of filth!
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