The last few chapters have been drama filled so I figured that last chapter needed some fluff, I love fluff(: Anyways thanks Everyone, Oh! And I have a song in this chapter, Hear You Me, by Jimmy Eat World. Feel free to skip the lyrics; I know I'm not the only one who does that, yeah I'm calling you out! But yeah love the reviews and just thanks! My favorite thing is looking to see if I have been favorited or followed or whatever! Me writing awesomeness + Reviews = Faster updates! And not I'm not going to keep the chapters to myself unless I have a certain amount of reviews, I don't roll that way, Anyways…READ!
I was still savoring Jace's embrace when someone cleared their throat. We jumped apart and looked in the direction of the noise. My eyes immediately hardened.
"What do you want, Jocelyn?" I made sure I put emphasis on her name, trying to hint to her that she is no longer welcome in my life; she made that decision when she left me a year ago, all alone.
"Look Clary, I know you don't want-"
"No…What gave you that impression, Jocelyn?" I sneered, sarcasm over-coating my words. I peeked at Jace next to me, he was nervous. I could tell because he always plays with his fingers when he's nervous.
I turned my head back so I was facing her, and I could see a scowl forming on her lips. She continued anyway, probably doesn't care if I wanted to listen or not, "…me here, but can you just hear me out for a minute, I have something I wanted to tell you."
I sighed, "Jocelyn, I told you I don't want to listen to you, just go away. I have only had two days to think about this, I need more time. Just go walk away and ruin someone else's life!"
Hurt flashed on her face, making me instantly regret that I yelled at her. Sure I was mad and I definitely have the right to be, but I could have been less….bitchy. My face softened. "Just please give me time to think, I'm already stressed out as it is, just quit harassing me," I whispered, not trusting myself that I wouldn't forgive her.
She slowly nodded, and made her way towards the door. In the doorway she turned her head around, "I love you Clary, and I always will."
Bullshit.
As soon as the door slammed shut my legs gave way and I waited for the impact of the ground, but it never came. I looked up and I smiled when I saw a golden halo, and he returned the gesture. Jace lifted me off the ground and picked me up bridal style carrying me to my room. I opened my mouth to protest but he put a finger to my lips. "Shh, you look exhausted, why don't you take a nap?"
It wasn't until then that the exhaustion sunk in and I nodded. Jace kicked open the door with his foot and gracefully laid me on my bed, but as soon as my head touched the pillow (A/N or for Jane "pellow") I was called to a deep sleep.
POV Change! Jace! (God I love him!)
I looked down at her beautiful sleeping form. How did I end up with such a wonderful girl? Oh yeah, I forgot, I'm gorgeous, I mentally smirked.
I smiled at her fiery hair that cascaded across her pillow in soft, luscious curls. My eyes shifted towards the top of her head and I immediately frowned upon seeing that her roots were noticeably gray. The gray started at her roots and were about an inch in and then gradually started to brighten into that fiery red color that we all know and love.
It was then that I came to my senses and noticed how creepy this was.
I backed away from the bed and laid down on the ground, waiting for sleep to come. Sadly it never came. Groaning, I got back up and headed downstairs where music softly played from the radio in the living room, one of my favorite songs, (A/N Ha! I fooled you guys! I bet you thought that Hear You Me was right now! Author-1 Readers-0 (Sis-XD Good times, Good times)) Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop, by Landon Pigg.
I smiled realizing that this was our…wait we Clary and I didn't meet at a coffee shop, and I'm in love with her, not possibly falling for her. Why was this our song? Oh right….Clary loves it, and I got to admit, it's pretty cute….not that I would ever say that out loud.
I hummed along to the tune when I heard the creak of the staircase. My head snapped towards the noise, "Clary, what are you doing here?"
She gave me a look that clearly stated 'what do you mean "what am I doing here"? This is my house.' "Jace, this may surprise you, but you don't live here," she told me like she was talking to a five year old, slowly and carefully.
I decided to play along, "Oh yeah, sometimes our fun times make it feel like I'm longer here than I actually am." I wiggled my eyebrows up and down, suggestively.
She smacked my arm and playfully glared at me.
It was then that I noticed how pale she was. I looked her up and down and realized that she was only skin and bones. "Clary," I asked cautiously, "when was the last time you ate?"
She momentarily froze, before she composed herself again. Not everyone would have noticed it; then again I'm not everyone. "A f-few hours ago," she stuttered.
"Bull," I responded bluntly. I got up and grasped her hand. I was about to pull her up when she yelled, "No! Jace I told you I can't eat. I have an apple now and then, but other than that I can't, it's too painful."
I narrowed my eyes at her, "It's not that you can't, it's that you won't." She didn't respond, just stared blankly at me, so I continued, "Look Clary, I know it's painful and all but-"
Her face burst into red hot fiery flames, "YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING JACE! UNLESS YOU HAD A TIME WHEN YOU KNEW YOU WERE GOING TO DIE BUT YOU WERE IN SO MUCH PAIN THAT YOU HAD TO TAKE AWAY YOUR NESSESSITIES."
She burst into tears and fell to the floor. I scooped her up and cooed, "Shh… it's ok, it's ok."
I rubbed her back while she snuggled into my chest.
I looked up at the clock and noticed that it was past midnight. I sighed while picking her up and gently carried her back into her bedroom.
I laid her down once again on her bed and looked at her snoring form. We should get back to school tomorrow, I'm sure everyone is freaking out…..especially since I haven't checked my phone…whoops. My hands grasped her shoulders softly and shook her awake. Her eyes fluttered open and stared right into mine. They still had that sleepy appeal to them but she couldn't have looked more beautiful.
"We are going to go to school tomorrow. If you are up to it that is. I'm going to wake you up and we'll see if you are feeling well enough."
She nodded and instantly her body relaxed.
I don't think Clary would be too happy if I dressed her in her pajamas while she was sleeping, but that doesn't mean I can't. I went over to my bag (I keep a bag here at Clary's house in case I needed anything) and grabbed a set of pajamas. I shifted uncomfortably at the silentness. I'll just keep her radio on low. I tip toed over to her radio and found a good station. My ears perked up as I instantly recognized the tune.
There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I stood there frozen, as my eyes began to sting.
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
The realization began to drown me, as reality sunk in.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
I fell to the floor with my head in my hands, tears staining my face.
So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
It had never occurred to me that losing someone could be this painful.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
Throughout my entire life, I've never been loved nor have I loved
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
until now.
May angels lead you in.
I'm not ready yet. "Please don't leave me Clary. I can't do this without you," I whimpered.
I almost cried the end of this chapter but it dawned on me that A.) Jace never really showed that much that this was killing him besides when Simon pointed it out to him. And B.) They missed a ton of school….and I didn't have an explanation…so they are returning. Yay!