Our lips meet in the middle and I feel as if the whole world stopped moving. I couldn't believe that Kyoya was actually kissing me of his own free will. Wait why am I letting him kiss me. My eyes widen as the reality becomes clear and I push him away. I catch my breath as I stand up and take a few steps away from him. I can see that in his eyes he has very mixed emotion and I wonder why I mean they should be cold because he has dirt on me.

''Nile I'm sorry I shouldn't have,'' Kyoya gets up , his eyes pleading with me. I look away and bite my lip trying to think. ''I am so sorry. I don't want you to have problems with Yato so I'll- I'll just leave. He gets up in a haste and heads for the door.

''Wait,'' I grab his arm. I no longer held any fear of what would happen to me. I love Kyoya and maybe.. Just maybe he'll want to raise my baby with someone else. What am I thinking?

''What?'' Kyoya's eyes have a gleam of hope. I retract my hand slowly and look into his eyes. I am trying to search for some disgust or lust in his eyes but all I see is hope. A hope and a hint of joy.

''I was wandering if you'd like some coffee?"' I ask. I don't know why but it just slipped out.

''Oh sure,'' he sat back. I walked to the kitchen and started to make the drink I had offered Kyoya for some reason. What am I doing? If Yato comes back... No I can't think like that. Kyoya isn't stupid. I can't lie to him. So why did I offer to make him coffee. What is wrong with me.

There was another knock at the door. My heart stopped as I looked at the door. It couldn't be Yato since he would've opened it himself. I walk to the door and open it to find Kyoya's partner, Ryugga. He is in uniform and looks like he's here for business.

''May I please speak with you?'' Ryugga asks politely. For some reason I fel like he isn't used to asking.

''Yes. Um what can I do for you officer?'' I ask. I can hear Kyoya take steps towards the door.

''Ryugga pal what are you doing here?'' Kyoya asks. His eyes shift to the file he has in his hands. The manila folder in a little on a thick side but if he wanted some help, why not ask Yato about it.

''Kyoya, I had no idea you would be here. What are you doing here by the way? ''Ryugga looks at me and then back at his partner. I swear I can see a glint in his eyes. The king one would see on mischievous cat.

''Nile here is an old friend of mine,'' Kyoya replies. His eyes catch mine but we break it off immediately.

''Oh really,'' I can hear a bit of sarcasm in his voice. ''Any way I was wondering if I can ask you a few questions?''

I nod and we all make our way to the kitchen where we all sat down. Ryugga sat right in front of me and Kyoya was at my side. The manila folder was placed down and Ryugga showed me a horrific photo.

''Did you know your old doctor, Hikaru was found dead two weeks ago?'' Ryugga asks coldly.

''No I haven't seen her in a long time. I didn't know she was dead,'' I respond. Could Yato have actually done this.

''Then would you like to tell me why she was your doctor. She worked in a rundown little clinic, so why did yo go there? Surely there were other facilities that would be happy to take you,'' Ryugga says.

''Why does my choice in which medical facility I choose,'' he looked at me,'' fine I knew Hikaru when I was young. She used to read to me in this program at school,'' I lie. Well not all of it is a lie.

''Really now. Nile do you know if Hikaru had any enemies?'' Ryugga asked.

'' No. I don't think so,'' I reply.

''She was your 'friend' but you have no idea whether she had enemies?'' He asked.

''No she didn't have any enemies,'' I reply. My heart won't stop beating at a rapid pace.

''Nile you do know lying to an officer is a crime, right?'' I nod. ''Why were you visiting her so often. You are reported by the secretary to see her on a weekly basis. So what was so wrong with you that you had to visit her so often?'' that was the question that I didn't know how to answer.

I kept silent for a while trying to think. I can't just tell them it was because Yato used to thrash me around and Hikaru was the one to patch me up.

''Nile we need an answer,'' Ryugga said.

''I went there for a private reason,'' I reply. I needed Yato to come home because I doubt he is going to let me get away with not answering him. ''You don't have to know,'' I reply.

''So I take it you were the one who caused her death ,''Ryugga says.

''No why the hell would I do that,'' I say angered.

''Why so defensive then?'' Ryugga counters.

''I know my rights and if I am a suspect I am allowed to have my lawyer present. Besides I didn't know she was dead since I haven't been to that clinic since I found out I was with child,'' I reply.

''Who said you were a suspect?'' Ryugga says smirking.

'' Then why are these questions sounding like your interrogating me, officer,'' I say. I don't like this feeling that has rushed to my head.

''They are just questions Nile. Besides if you were a suspect I would have dragged you to the station. So there is no need to act defensive okay. All I want to do is serve justice to the criminal and behalf of the victim,'' Ryugga states.

''Than you should be on you way out of my home and onto the streets looking for this criminal,'' I get up to show him to the door but as soon as I stand, my knees give out and I fall to the floor. I can vaguely hear them panicking but in the midst of my mind all I am thinking is why would Yato kill her?

Than I remembered... She threatened to talk about my dark secret. My sorry- self had a hand in the death of the one person that actually gave a crap about my pathetic ass.

''

I wake up to a beeping that is annoying me to the point where I want to unplug the damn machine. I am in the hospital and I have no clue how I gt here or how long I was out. I think Kyoya and Ryugga were the ones to bring me here since I passed out in front of hem. I sit up immediately and realize that I am not alone, not only that but mr right hand is cuffed to the bed. Kyoya is asleep in the chair next to bed. What concerns me most is why am I cuffed? I thought Ryugga said I was no suspect yet here I am feeling like a prisoner.

''Nile,'' I turn my head to see Ryugga holding two cups of coffee and a water bottle. He passes me the water and sets his gaze on me. I'd hate to see that coffee spill on him.

''Thanks warden,'' I say jingling the chain to emphasize my point.

''Sorry but I thought you would the first chance you got. As soon as I found out about your situation , thanks to these doctor's notes. Man Nile who the hell treated you like a freaking punching bag?''

''You had no right to look at my medical information. Its supposed to be sealed to outsiders unless you have my consent, which you don't have,'' I glare at him. Inside I am afraid of what's going to happen to him. I don't really like him but Yato is probably going to kill him. Not only that but what is Yato going to do to me when he finds out I pretty much screwed the whole thing up. Not only that but I don't know how long I can delay not telling them anything. They seem to pressing pretty hard.

''I had all the right if your unborn child is endanger. Your what, 7 months along. Its no good for the baby to be beaten up. Don't you care for your childs life?''

Rage burns within me,'' You know nothing so how the hell do you judge me. I love this child-,'' I spat.

''A broken arm, fractured shoulder, swelling in the brain, broken ribs, raptured spleen, ruptured lung, broken femur, broken hands, dislocated fingers, fractured skull, fractured temple, broken nose, broken collar , a broken cheek and burns, bruises and cut up flesh. You can't tell me that that's not a long list of sadness. And you can't say you fell down some stairs of walked into some door. You think these wounds could be given to you by a certain crime-fighting idol,'' Ryugga says.

I look at the sheet. Not sure how to proceed.

''I'm taking your silence as a yes. So do you want to proceed and charge Yato for domestic abuse, attempted murder, murder and obstruction,'' Ryuuga says .

''No Yato didn't do anything. He never used me as a punching bag and he sure as hell hasn't murdered anyone. I think that the hero of the city would like to have a word with you when I get out of here,'' I say. I don't believe a single word that comes out of my mouth. I need to try to persuade him into thinking he's wrong.

''Oh really,'' he says, not believing a word I have said.'' Okay so how did you get a ruptured spleen or broken... .everything. I doubt even falling off a cliff would cause all these injuries. I am sure a jury or the press would want answers.''

''Yato has done nothing wrong,'' I state. ''I am clumsy by nation and that is where a series of those injuries were gathered. The rest was because I got in a bar fight,'' I say.

''Oh really, when was this alleged bar fight and I highly doubt that you could be this clumsy. If that were the case you would have off-ed yourself while getting coffee. Besides we found bruises that are hand shaped on your forearms. What did a tree grow hands and grab you. Not only that but also doubt the burn mark was done on accident. The one under your bangs isn't readable but the one on you abdomen looks like moon. Yato means night so I connect that to him. I am also pretty sure the only thing that usually gets burned like that are cattle. Last tim I checked you aren't a cow and shouldn't be treated like one.'' I sensed concern in his voice.

''Well you are wrong. No one is treating my like a punching bag or cattle. Yato loves me and treats me with respect and affection,'' I reply. For some reason protecting him feels like the right and only thing to do. Besides I love him and he loves me even though I am a horrible excuse of a human.

''Nile' I don't want you to end up in a body bag. Please tell someone about Yato. I know that you are kind and loyal by nature but Yato is an abomination that doesn't deserve you. The only thing he deserves is to put behind bars , to never see all his blinded fans. ' This was found on Hikaru's body. It was neatly folded in her pocket. Sadly you didn't receive it cause someone had killed her. She had a broken arm, three broken ribs, a dislocated shoulder, burn marks and slices that looked like it was made by an ordinary kitchen knife. Lastly she had had her head bashed in. Let's just say she didn't die quickly,'' Ryugga reveals the harm done t Hikaru before her death.

''Why?'' tears fall from my eyes,'' why are you doing this?'' Does he really want me to talk this badly.

''I am trying to fulfill Hikaru's dying wish. Besides I'd really hate to see you in a body bag. I would especially hate to see your son dead. Do you really want Kyoya to sit in front of your gravestone balling his eyes out. I know that you are the guy he loved and loves. You had that necklace in that first aid kit in the bathroom. We had a warrant and looked at all you possessions. You still love him don't you? ''

''He doesn't love me. I don't love him either,'' I can't meet his gaze.'' That necklace must have dropped in their when I moved in with Yato long ago, besides I take it you didn't find anything concrete since your here. Else you and the DA would be busy prepping for the non-existent trial you have for Yato. Wait. Why are you talking to me? Everything I say will be dismissed because of spousal privilege'' I ask. I no longer able to see what his goal is.

''Spousal privilege isn't used in cases of domestic abuse. So what you do and say will and can be used in court against you brutal, abusive husband,'' he losses his cool.'' Look Nile. I like you I really do. I think you are a swell guy but you are stupid if you think you are going to survive in the long run. I know that Kyoya loves you and I can tell that you can too. It will destroy him if he is going to have fish your body out of the river. Kyoya has told me you are a smart kid so why can't you see that Yato doesn't care about you. He will continue to bash you head in and soon he will be abusive to your son. Imagine your son bloody, broken and bruised. Yato will destroy and kill your son. He will beat you down and then he'll beat your son . Do you really want that for your son. I'm done playing games. This is reality and it ends with you in a grave alongside you baby boy. Not only that but Yato will still be living the role of the hero and eventually do it to someone else. Now is the time to stop cowering and make a stand. You have to help me. All I want to do is send him to jail so that he can never hurt anyone else. That he can never treat someone like they are property.''

''Shut the fuck up. Shut up. You know nothing about me so don't act like you actually care about me. The only person that ever gave a crap about me is Yato. Don't go acting like you care because I know you don't, no one does -''

''That's not true,'' I turned my surprised gaze to meet Kyoya's. It seems that out conversation had woken him up.

''You are different and so am I. I am no longer the Nile you used to love and you are no longer the person I used to love. We have each grown up to he point where I don't need you to take care of me and you can definitely live without me,'' I stare into those blue eyes that I dream about. My mouth keeps running but my brain had stopped thinking a while back. All my words feel strange and cold.

''This has little to do with me. I still care for you even if you don't care about me-''

I cut him off,'' wait so you had an alterior motive when you came to see me,'' I spat. He looks taken back. He is quickly on his feet by my side.

''I wanted to see if the feeling I had for you were still there. That kiss meant something to me but apparently you felt nothing,'' he looks down at the white floor. ''I wanted to tell you that we are investigating your husband for the murder of Hikaru as well as attempted murder and domestic abuse of you. The truth is I wanted to see if you would confess anything to me. I'm sorry for showing up and lying to your face,'' he looks at me with warm eyes.

''Let me tell you this very clearly. YATO did NOT KILL HIKARU and he certainly never raised a hand to me or TRIED TO KILL ME.'' I say. I don't know how much I can keep this up. They both no I ma lying and it is clearly etched on their faces.

''Nile I know you are smarter than this,'' he laid a notebook out on the bed. I know hat notebook anywhere. I am going to kill him for keeping it this long. ''Read the marked page.''

Do not let words put you down

nor let those with dominant natures suppress you.

You are a human and in your being lives a spark.

A lovely powerful light.

Don't let anyone suppress you.

Shatter you light.

Try to make it faint.

You are human and that is a beautiful thing to be

.You will be hurt

but just means you got to kick ass.

And whenever you feel like you are truly alone.

look to the sky

because somewhere.

I am looking at the same sky.

Thinking about you

~see you soon college boy, Nile

''It's the note you wrote for me. Now you know I can't right so I'm plagiarizing your words. Take your own advice and let me help you. these words mean a lot to me but you mean the world to me.''

Tears are now falling from my face and onto the paper. I can't believe he kept this.

I hope this long chapter makes up for the extremely long wait .