Jade had gone out of her way to avoid the Latina in school. She'd been ditching classes and ignoring most of her friends. Especially Beck. School was the last place in the world she wanted to be. She couldn't be around the majority of the people there. She bloated more and more everyday, much to her disgust. Being eighteen weeks pregnant meant Jade was nearly half way through her pregnancy. Although being four months pregnant, her bump was still petite and round; and luckily she hadn't put on weight anywhere else on her body. From behind she still looked like the old Jade.
She lay across her double bed, her green eyes planted on the ceiling. How did everything change so much? And so quickly? Beck was the father of her child and apparently a rapist. Who could she trust anymore?
The summer sun burned through her tight blinds, leaving lines across her room. The light reflected against the various strange objects she had in her room. Her vast scissor collection, a butterfly collection pinned carefully to the wall and her horror movie collection all sparkled in the sunlight. Photo frames painted her room. It was the only normal thing about the teenagers room. Mainly photos of Cat and Tori. She'd burned all of the ones with Beck in. She couldn't stand to look at his face. Her favourite photos were her childhood ones. The innocence shone through every photo. The memories still clear as day. When Jade was happy.
Picking up a small black photo frame the Goth glanced at the photo. It was from when she was eight, the summer she went to summer camp. It was her favourite vacation. She spent eight whole weeks in Camp Callaway's. She'd played soccer, done archery, went fishing, swam at midnight and even performed in the end of summer talent show. It was the perfect summer camp experience. The tiny girl had even made so many friends. This was before she learnt how to be mean and to scare everyone off. Everyone adored her. She felt so loved. She never wanted to leave.
Jade sighed as she looked over the photo of herself and another small brunette. They'd become best friends on the first day. Another loud sigh left the pregnant teens lips. She couldn't remember the girls name. Biting her lip harshly, her brows crossed as she thought. Before she could even take another breath, her bedroom door flew open.
"Jade."
Her eyes peeled up from the photo to her doorway where her father stood. "Martin?" She cocked her eyebrow and smirked.
"You have an ultrasound next week. Make sure you go." He whispered the words as if they were curse words.
"Sure." Her eyes returned to the photo.
"Also, your Mother and I have arranged for you to meet a nice couple who are interested in adopting your..baby." Martin gulped as he waited for his daughters reaction.
Tears stung in her eyes as she took a deep breath. "Fine." Was all she could manage.
"Only a few more months and then you can go back to being normal..well to being you again." He corrected himself.
Jade ignored him as he lingered in her doorway for a few seconds before finally taking the hint and closing the door with a click. Her fingers caressed the photo in her hand as tears spilled down her cheeks. Why couldn't she be innocent Jade again? The Jade everyone loved? Who would love her now?
…
"Hi Tori. I'm here for our sleepover!" Cat barged into Tori's house without knocking; her arms full with a sleeping bag and pillows.
Tori looked at her best friend with confusion. "We didn't plan a sleepover, Cat?"
"Uh huh! We did! You text me!" Cat held her phone to Tori's face. "See!"
Tori read the text. Trina had obviously text Cat whilst Tori was napping earlier. She hadn't gone to school today. It was three weeks since the party and she didn't feel like facing her friends. Or Beck and Jade. She'd been doing her best to stay out of Beck's way. Even just thinking about him made the Latina shake in fear. Being in the same room as him made her feel like a victim. She hated the way he made her feel. No one should ever feel the fear she felt around him. Whereas she was doing everything she could to make Jade notice her.
The brunette smiled at Cat. "Put your sleeping bag down. You can stay." She smiled.
Cat threw the sleeping bag onto the red sofa, jumping into Tori's arms. "YAY!" She giggled. "I missed you today! Jade wasn't in either so I hung out with Robbie and Rex." She rolled her eyes. "Rex is such a creep sometimes!"
Tori sat back on the sofa once Cat had left go of her. "Jade wasn't in either?" Tori tried hard not to sound obvious.
Cat shook her head. "She text me and said she was sick." She sucked on a piece of her red hair. "If she gets sick does that mean her baby is sick too?" Her face dropped slightly.
Tori thought for a second. "No. Her baby is fine Cat." Tori reassured.
"Oh that's good. That baby is a miracle." Cat smiled angelically at Tori.
"Sure is Cat.."
The best friends watched a rom com late into the night. They both giggled as they made a new 'Funny Nugget' video for TheSlap. They even baked cupcakes at 2am. It was so nice to feel normal again. Something Tori hadn't felt in weeks.
A yawn ripped out of the tiny red heads mouth as she finished her third cupcake. "I'm sleepy Tori!" She stretched her arms over her head.
"Come on, you can share my bed." Tori dragged a sleepy Cat into her room. "Get comfy Cat. I'll be back in a second." Right on queue, Cat wrapped herself in Tori's purple duvet, snuggling deep into Tori's pillows.
Splashing her face with cold water she smiled into the mirror. "Be happy Tori." She whispered to herself. She'd been on a high with Cat and was coming down fast and hard.
"Who are you talking to sweetie?" Deanna slid around the bathroom door.
"Mom why are you awake?" Tori jumped slightly as her Mom entered the room.
"Two giggly teenagers are invading my house." She winked at her daughter.
Being in only a strap top and shorts, Tori felt awfully on show. "Sorry. We're going to bed now."
"It's fine kiddo." Deanna wrapped her arms around her daughter. "How's Jade? We haven't seen her in a while?"
"She's fine." Tori lied. "Mom?"
"Yes sweetie?" Deanna pulled her brown hair into a ponytail as she yawned.
"Jade's pregnant. That's why she was here a few weeks ago. Her Dad was furious and she wasn't allowed to go home. I'm sorry I didn't tell you before."
Deanna pulled her daughter into a hug. "I kind of guessed. She was craving, she also had mood swings and you could see her tiny bump." She smiled. "She's always welcome here. Let her know that."
Tori smiled at her Mom in the mirror. "I love you Mom."
"I love you too, Torbear."
Tori blushed. "Mom.."
"I mean it." She planted a kiss on her daughters head before blowing a kiss and leaving for her bedroom.
Tori slipped into bed beside Cat, who was fast asleep by the time she came back into the room. She lay awake like most nights, just thinking. She was hurting. No one knew. She was so good at faking a smile. It was like second nature to her now. She could pretend she was okay, she could tell everyone she was fine and people would believe her. No one questioned the pain in her eyes. No one guessed that she was breaking everyday. No one knew.
…..
"RAWR" Tori was ripped from her deep sleep as a weight collapsed on her.
"Cat?" Tori croaked as she opened her eyes to see the red head laying on top of her.
"Wakey, wakey, wakey!" Cat shook Tori until she was sure she was awake.
Pushing the girl off her she sat up, stroking her hair down as she positioned herself upright. "Why did you do that?"
Cat's eyes widened. "You were asleep." She giggled.
"What's the time?" Tori rubbed her eyes hard.
"Nine." Cat bounced on Tori's bed as she giggled again. How was she so awake?
Tori groaned. "It's so early Cat! Go back to sleep."
With another bounce, Cat had stolen the duvet from Tori. "I have to go at ten. Please wake up!"
Tori groaned again, this time sitting up and half glaring at her best friend. "I'm up!"
Cat's lip quivered as she let go of the duvet carefully.
"Don't cry. I'm sorry. I'm just being grumpy." Tori faked a huge smile. "See. Happy Tori!"
"Good!" Cat hugged Tori. "I don't like sad Tori!"
"Neither do I.." Tori whispered as she let go of Cat.
Tori saw off her best friend from her front door. She peered into the small car, trying to catch a peek of Cat's strange brother.
"BYEEE!" Cat squealed; her head hanging out of the car window as she left the driveway.
"Bye Cat." Tori waved until the car went out of sight. Just as she'd shut the door tight, it swung open behind her. Not skipping a beat the Latina turned around in fear, only to see Jade stood in front of her. Her black hair hand limp over her exposed shoulders. She had on a laced black shirt and a mini skirt, finished off with black fish net tights and black boots. The door closed behind the pale girl as she stepped closer to Tori. Her eyes locked onto Tori's, she blinked several times as Tori opened her mouth to say something.
"What?" The brunette mumbled. Shock riveted through her as she saw Jade standing in her home once again. She hadn't seen her properly for weeks. She couldn't help but look at the neat bump that had formed under her shirt. It was so round. Her eyes scanned back up to meet Jade's, who was now glaring at Tori. No words were said. Silence echoed through the house as the two girls stood facing one another.
"Do you want to sit down?" Tori offered. She watched as Jade pulled a face at the request. "Okay…" She trailed off.
Jade knew that look in Tori's eyes. The look of total fear. She was lost. A smirk appeared on Jade's face as Tori relaxed slightly. She had no idea why she was here. She as running off adrenaline. She hadn't slept in over twenty four hours. The silence wasn't awkward for her. In fact she liked it. She took a good look at Tori. The girl she had neglected and ignored in her time of need. The cuts and bruises had all faded, she looked like the same old Tori now. But she was hiding something. She was hiding behind a mask. No one knew what happened to her. And it was killing her.
"Why are you here?" Tori finally said, breaking the silence completely.
Jade fumbled for words. "I- I don't know." Her scraped her hands through her hair. "I just needed to see you."
Tori scoffed. "Isn't it a bit late for that Jade."
Jade genuinely looked hurt at the fact that Tori was biting back. She wasn't used to people arguing against her. "I'm hurting too." She screaned. "This isn't right." Jade yelled the words aggressively to Tori. She wanted to scare her. She wanted her to feel the way she was feeling. Scared. Lost. Alone. Hurt. But she couldn't hurt her anymore.
Tori stood still, not letting Jade's words scare her. She didn't deny what Jade had said. In fact, Jade was right. Tori nodded. "I know." She whispered, her eyes falling to the floor. "I'm so sorr-" Tori was cut off by warm lips being pressed against her own. She responded immediately, pushing her hands around Jade's neck, moving her dark hair out of the way so she could feel their skin contact. Feeling her warm lips crashing against the Goth's she could taste salty tears as the kiss deepened. Both the girls took quick breaths in between kisses. Neither of them wanting it to end. Jade's hands caressed the Latina's hips, toying and playing with the hem of her shorts. Before Tori could even think of letting Jade touch her, the kiss was ended. Jade pushed Tori away from her, wiping her lips ferociously. "I can't like you. I can't fucking like you." She screamed. "It's these fucking hormones. This is so fucked up. I don't like you."
Tori didn't try and stop her tears. She was sick of being hurt by people. Sick of feeling so confused. "I like you." She sobbed. "I like you, Jade. I care about you. I don't know why. I should hate you. I wish I could. But I don't. I can't."
Hearing Tori sob so helplessly angered Jade even more. "SHUT UP!" She screamed. "You don't like me. No one fucking does. No one wants me. Don't fucking lie to me Vega."
"I'm not lying!" Tori screamed back.
Before she could stop herself, Jade's hand slapped Tori abruptly around the face; making both the girls freeze. Jade immediately recoiled her hand, shock covering her face as she watched Tori place her hand delicately on her red cheek.
"Tori I-"
"Get out." Tori didn't have to say anything else for the Goth to realise the damage she had caused.
A/N - I don't know how I feel about this chapter? What do you guys think? Reviews are awesome, I love reading them all! J Thank you!
Paige xo