Well, I've got alot of interesting questions and reviews last chapter lol. Don't worry :-/ it will all turn out well. I hope? Somehow the story plot in some people's mind are going way off the proportion lol. Don't worry people :) chill, relax haha. I promise not to make it too unrealistic or too dramatic.

THIS CHAPTER?

It's starts of with a filler chapter of this morning right after the Cafe Avare affair. Let's just say it is my version of Confessions and Interrogations from the first book Twilight. Haha. Enjoy this chapter!

PS - The last chapter I forgot to mention that the last POV by Edward was indeed after the Cafe breakfast meeting. Apologies for not mentioning earlier.

Disclaimer - Don't own it :)

Playlist - All You Wanted by Michelle Branch

Technically, this is the only song I could think of that is appropriate for Bella in this scene during the evening conversation between her and Edward.

Get the lyrics and you'll know what I mean :)

All You Wanted, I Could Be

Bella's POV

"Bye, Bella! See you on Monday!" Alice waved before she drove off in her stunning yellow Porsche with Jasper.

Emmett winked at me, "Ciaos."

Rosalie sighed but somehow I could feel it was a sense of fondness this time. Before she hopped into Emmett's jeep, she said, "It was good to see you again today. See you in school?"

I nodded. Although she was being perfectly friendly and warm, I was intimidated by her deeply down to my very core. But who wouldn't? Under all this, I could still feel that she was uncertain about me.

I turned to Angela, "Edward can send you home too, Angela."

Angela shook her head, "I've decided to start my exercise routine a little earlier this time. Did you know that the phrase 'Breakfast is the most important meal of the day' also applies to the meal that you put on the most weight with? The metabolic rate of the body is higher now with food that is burning up inside so it's good to start working out now."

I rolled my eyes, "I don't speak Fitness Fair, Angela. You and that dumb magazine. You know they are just trying to sell their magazine and not really telling you anything useful." But I knew her hidden agenda. From the sight of Edward beside me and his ever growing smirk, he knew it too. He began to twirl his car keys around his fingers in amusement.

"I don't live that far from here, Bella. Besides, if I can walk to your house, I can walk back to mine. No worries! See you at school!" and she turned and walked through the crowded street.

I stared after her as Edward said, "Well, she got one thing right."

"What?"

He shrugged, "It's good to start exercising in the morning."

I laughed and tapped the tipped of his nose gently, "You dazzle people you know that, Edward Masen?"

He looked into my eyes intently, "Do I dazzle you?"

I chewed on my lip slowly before deciding to say, "That's my little secret."

Edward sighed, "Not fair. I hate secrets. That's why I said we should never keep anything from each other."

I looked away from him to prevent myself from giving in, "Um, how about we go? It's weird to stand here because there are a lot of female audiences that linger their sights on you for a second too long."

Edward flashed those perfect teeth at me again, "Oops. I wonder if it's my charms or my obvious behavior to be a goof so they are just waiting to see what I will do to you next."

I blushed, "Funny, Edward. Let's just go."

During the drive back to Jacob's house, I began to think about the things that I discovered today during the breakfast affair at the cafe. Alice's full name was Mary Alice Brandon and she would literally kill sadistically to anyone who calls her Mary. Same went for Rosalie whose full name is actually Rosalie Lilian Hale, and she couldn't stand anyone who called her Rosey. Jasper fell in love with Alice because she was the first person to say that she believed in his predictions about people's moods, which of course she didn't. It was sweet that he still loved her for who she was though.

Rosalie's story with Emmett was more of a 'you-want-something-that-you-can't-have' type. It's a typical love story, or as what Alice would call it. Rosalie had not once laid eyes on the courting Emmett till he flirted with another girl during a party during the summer and Rosalie finally advanced on him. Rosalie finally did sincerely fall in love with Emmett in the end after those few years together.

Edward's birthday was also next Saturday. Emmett and Jasper had said that they were planning to get the grand hall of the school for Edward's party. Jasper even promised me that I would get to see Edward perform.

"He never sings normally, but he can. I don't get why he just wants to harmonize," Jasper complained before Edward kicked him under the table.

"Did you really mean it when you said that you were working off for the finals? Started already?" Edward asked, interrupting my thoughts.

I nodded, "Yeah, I can't risk it. I'm not a genius who can snap things up quickly so I'll need to build up my momentum slowly, I guess. I can't let her down…"

At that moment, we reached the house and I stole a glance at the porch. The driveway was empty which meant that Jacob hadn't returned yet.

"Who did you mean by her?" Edward asked curiously as he pressed on the break in front of the house.

When I didn't answer immediately, his cool fingertips came brushing down on my cheeks and he cupped his thumb and index finger around my chin and lifted it up for my eyes to meet his.

"You don't want to talk about it?" he asked gently.

"No…It's just Renee. She was the reason why I am here in the first place. If not, I could be dumped at the sidewalk right out of my boarding school…"

"I think that's a bit too much of an exaggeration," and Edward used his other hand to brush through my hair that sent shivers down my spine.

"I know, I'm just stating a point. I don't' want to lose focus now. I want to become someone useful in life and help those unfortunate ones like…her. No one deserves to live like that."

Edward removed his fingers from my chin and both his hands moved down to hold my wrists, "I'm sorry I couldn't have been there for you when you went through all those emotions."

I frowned, "We've never even met then so don't blow this thing out -"

"I'm glad we did."

It was that time of the moment once more where the anxiety of separation was lingering all around me. I better get out as soon as possible before I do anything that I will regret. The memory of that dream I had about him was still fresh in my mind. I was fighting with myself to keep my eyes from wandering to the wrong areas.

"Thanks for everything, today I mean. I have so many things to do now. I can't even begin to count them. In fact I might even start a checklist while I am at it so I can progress in the right direction."

Edward's eyes sparkled, "Alright. I'm just a few steps away. So if you need anything…"

Like, needing you, maybe? I thought quietly.

"Just go to the twenty-four hour store, right?" I teased.

Edward feigned a hurt expression, "Wow. Now I feel so small and insignificant."

Trust me, Edward. You have no idea how small and insignificant you can feel when the only thing you probably doesn't want you back the same way, I sighed softly.

He released his grasp on hands and leaned over closely till his face was inches from mine. I held my breath but exhaled in disappointment as I realized he just wanted to unbuckle my seatbelt for me.

"See you…" I muttered

"Bye Bella."

I didn't look back as usual. I still had no self control over this boy. I immediately went up to my room to begin working. Everything I said was true. I wanted to fulfill a dream to become someone and stand on my on feet. I didn't want to end up like how Renee did. I didn't want anyone to suffer because of mistakes that I did.

Just as I sat down at my desk, my phone began to vibrate and I saw that I had received a message from Jacob. I shook my head. I remembered how reluctant Jacob was when I asked him for his number. He wanted to return the phone to Edward and buy me one himself instead. I told him it was the thought that counted, and Edward beat him to it.

It's all Quil and Embry's fault. We're stuck in traffic on the other side of town right now. We've only got one car so we'll be stopping for lunch somewhere nearby. Then I will have to be sending both of them back before I can come home. Latest is by this evening. We will go out for dinner.

I typed back slowly. I still couldn't get used to the keypad. I was determined to learn though. So far, I haven't tried to text Edward. He had forwarded me some chain text messages though but never any personal text just for me to read.

Okay. Don't rush, drive safely.

It was late morning already and I was still pretty full from the breakfast. With the amount of work I had to do, I was beginning to decide that I should skip lunch. I wasn't very hungry and I couldn't be bothered to walk out of the house again to get some food. Then, I briefly looked at my bedroom window. Someone who was just a few feet away would be very upset if he knew I wasn't going to eat.

For the rest of the day, I spent finishing assignments and revising for practically anything I needed to catch up with. I was so absorbed in everything until I realized that I was thirsty. I went down to get a drink and I meant to watch the TV for awhile as break but fell asleep on the couch. I must have been pretty exhausted.

By the time I woke up, I gasped as I checked the time. It was already late evening and the entire house was dark. I quickly ran around the house to start switching the lights on. I went back up to my room to see that Jacob sent me another message again.

Sorry Bells. We're caught in a bottleneck. I don't think I will be able to get in time back for dinner. Don't wait up for me, it might be very late. I'm very, very, very sorry. I'm an idiot, I know. I will never do this ever again – I promise.

I rubbed my eyes tiredly and tucked the phone into my pocket. I began to think what I was going to get for dinner. I suppose I could boil some of that pasta in the larder and open a jar of sauce. I got to work as I cooked a small dinner for myself.

Suddenly, just as I was finishing my pasta, I jumped my phone began to ring loudly from my pocket. My eyes widened when I saw the number that was calling.

"Hello?"

"Bella, do you mind coming out of the house?"

I frowned. His voice sounded strange, like he was speaking with a very dry throat so his voice was coming out hoarsely.

"Sure. Now?"

"Yes."

"For how long?"

"For as long as I need you to be with me."

My heart skipped a beat. If only I could interpret what his words mean. Sometimes I just don't know if he says it with another meaning or it's just casually stating it in a matter-of-factly way. I pondered for awhile before his voice interrupted my thoughts.

"Bella?" He sounded urgent.

"Okay. I'll be out in just a second. Where are you?"

"I'm outside your main door already, Bella."

Our neighborhood I would say was fairly lit up brightly. The street lamps were classic with black frames around them and it was rather quiet and peaceful. The temperature usually dropped by the late afternoon when the sun began to set. But I was so happy to see Edward again that I forgot to grab my hooded sweater from my cupboard.

I cleaned up the table and brushed my teeth a little. The last thing I wanted was to come out of the house with a breath that smelt like I was trying to ward off vampires. I stepped out of the house and closed the main door. When I turned around, I nearly screamed when Edward suddenly appeared in front of me.

"Don't do that!" my hand flew up to my chest.

Edward grinned apologetically, "Sorry. I thought you would have heard me."

But there was something wrong with that smile. It didn't go the right way and as far up and his normal smiles did. I began to get nervous. What's happening? I wondered.

For a minute or two, he just gazed into my eyes. This time, I didn't want to pull away anymore. I was getting swept away by the mesmerizing green that was burning into my tame brown ones. The silence that was folding around us was never ending.

But he finally broke the gaze, "I need to talk to you."

"Okay. Want to come in?"

Edward threw me a look like I had said the most absurd thing, "Do you think that is such a good idea? I don't think I'm even allowed to step foot this close to the door, or even on their garden and porch."

I scowled, "Nonsense. What are you? Ten?" but when return my glare without flinching, I decided, "We'll go to your house, alright? We don't have to go in if you don't want to…"

"Not a good idea too."

"Let's go out for a drink then."

"I know it's the wrong time and wrong place right now to say this but I don't want to take you away from here tonight."

I looked at him in confusion, "Why not? Is there something wrong?"

He stared back at me like I was missing the point, "I'm worried about what might happen if I ever had a chance to take you away from here. It would be even more complicated if I decided that I didn't want to return you back here if we left."

I'm think I'm going to have a seizure, I thought as my heart began to speed up.

Edward sighed, "Let's sit on these steps." And he slowly placed me to sit beside him on the cold pebble steps of the house just in front of the door.

I was being placed so closely next to him till I could literally glue myself to his amazing body. He smelt extremely good and his breath that made my head whirled was so close. But I had to control myself or again, I would do something regretful.

I looked at him and my forehead was creasing with concern, "Is there something you want to say? If so, just say it. If you're worried it's going to hurt my feelings or anything then don't bother. Spare the -"

"Are you familiar with a rumor about my family affairs?"

I looked at him in surprise, "No, I don't think so. It depends what family affairs you are referring to."

"My personal life. Something along the lines of marriage."

I couldn't tell where this was leading to but there was nothing to hide, "Yes, I think I do re-call this. What about it? It's just a rumor isn't it? You shouldn't let it go to your head too much. You shouldn't care what other people think, remember?"

He stared at me again before asking, "What do you think about it? Marriage, I mean."

I thought for awhile before answering carefully, "I think its fine. Why?"

"What do you think about couples getting married at our age? Do you think it's strange?"

I looked down thinking before I looked up and said, "No, it's not. If they love each other and are ready for that type of commitment then its fine."

There was a new emotion that crossed over Edward's face but I couldn't quite make it out, "Really? You think so?"

I nodded, "Edward, tell me what's going on. These questions are very -"

"What if I told you that…the…"

I waited. It was darker now and the porch light wasn't that bright so it was quite hard to see his face. His silence was starting to make me uncomfortable again. He folded his arms together and I could tell he only did this when he was thinking very deeply about something.

He suddenly spoke very impatiently, "Those rumors, Bella. What if I said they are true?"

I blinked, "Sorry? I didn't catch that."

"The rumors you heard about me getting married, promised to someone is true. I am engaged to be married to someone already."

I felt like I was choking but still made no sound. His hands slowly intertwined with my now, rigid ones. Even though he was stroking my hands reassuringly, I felt like I had finally taken the courage to reach out for something that I wanted to take but someone had snatched it away. It was like I could see people in the background shaking their heads disapprovingly at me for even trying.

"If you never want to see me ever again because you hate me now or you are disgusted or repulsed by me in any way…" his voice felt so far away.

I snapped up, "Why would that ever happen?"

Edward looked at me closely, "Perhaps you think I lead you on for some sort of reason or I used you for just a bit of fun. I'm not sure how your mind works, Bella. You're the only person that I have ever met that's unpredictable. I wish I knew what you were thinking at times."

"Why would I ever want you to go away...?"

Edward looked down to our hands, "I never meant to hurt you. I just didn't know it would turn out this way…"

"You mean that you didn't know you were going to get married?"

"No, I did. For a very long time now, since I was little. Your friend, Jacob Black found out about this too and that's how the rumor spread. I never really gave much thought about it so the rumor settled down eventually but it never fully died off."

Then he looked up at me again, "As proven by you, after so many years, even you know about it…"

"And you never told me about this? That it was all true…?"

"I didn't know that you would mean this much to me." Edward said simply.

He's not making this any easier, I struggled with myself. I had to hold back every single emotion so it wouldn't turn to some unnecessary scene. I wanted to know the truth, about everything which included what was going to happen to us now.

"I had always planned to tell you, Bella. Please don't feel that I wanted to keep you I in the dark. It just came so suddenly. I was only informed a few hours ago that I couldn't break this engagement off, even if it didn't work out."

"Have you met her before? How long have you known each other?"

"I've never seen her in my life. Not even a single photo or ever spoken one syllable to her. I was never allowed to talk about her or ask anything regarding her. Strange as it seems, it is true."

I was shocked, "So, even if you don't love this person, you still have to?"

Edward sighed, "That's about right."

"Does the rest know about this? Including Tanya? Since she has an affection that is clearly more than a friend for you, I mean."

"Yes…they do."

I didn't say anything for awhile. It was much harder now to keep everything inside. I admit I was never someone who cried often. I would say I normally cried when I was angry and hurt, not because I was upset or depressed. My friends in boarding school used to say I was emotionless, but I was just much stronger than them. But it seemed impossible now.

Have I changed since I met Edward? What part of me is still the same?

"Is there really no hope then? For…us," and with that last word, I knew no matter how hard I tried, all the efforts failed because it was clear that my voice was cracking.

Before I knew it, Edward had his arms around me and clutched me gently to himself. The scent that was coming off him was making my head clouded again. It was then when I was so close to his warm body, I realized how cold I really was. My hands were probably colder than his now. He allowed me to press them against his chest although I wished I could have encircled my arms around him as well.

"If all you could ever be was a friend to me, then you would still be someone very special. There's nothing more that I want than you to be mine right now. Mine and no one else's. Would it scare you if I said I don't even like it that you're living in his house? Even when you're so nearby?"

I shook my head but I still didn't say anything. My heart soared a little but fell back down to reality when the truth sunk in once more. It can never be. His voice was soothing but even I could tell he was having a hard time saying it too.

"I hate this…" I muttered.

"I don't like it too. But I just don't want you to think that what we had these past few days didn't mean anything. I meant everything I did. You don't know how much you mean to me…"

I exhaled slowly, "Same here." Then a question drifted by, "Can I ask you something?"

"You know you always could."

"When are you going to meet her?"

He didn't answer immediately but when he did, he calmly said, "Tomorrow. I don't when tomorrow, if you were wondering. But I will be bringing her to the party on Saturday though. I'm just worried what you will be going through because of this and all this is partly my fault. No matter how much you deny it, some of it will still be my fault. Deep down inside, you know it too."

"I don't want to lie to you. She will be my wife. I have to try my best to give her the benefit of the doubt too. It wouldn't be fair to her." he finally added.

I felt like I was dying. I had no other words to explain how I felt but I knew I felt dead. Not only was this going to be hard to accept because Edward was probably the only person that I ever fell in love with, but I also would be meeting the girl that is taking him away from me. I wasn't the type of person who held grudges because no one could help it, but I would be throwing myself into the fire. It was like rubbing salt into the wound.

It would hurt – real bad.

When I stayed silent for too long, Edward murmured into my hair, "You should have stayed away from me when you had the chance."

"Even if I could, I wouldn't want to…" I sighed.

Edward took a little unsteady breath before saying, "Do you want to go in? Have you eaten anything yet?"

"I ate just before you came over."

"I don't want you to catch a cold. You should go in," Edward insisted.

"Why?" I stubbornly shook my head.

Edward chuckled, "To be fair, Bella? With all the things you've just heard today, I might be the last person you want to pour your feelings out to."

"You know that's rubbish. There's no one else I'd rather -"

Edward hushed me when removed his arms from around me and cupped his two fingers on my chin once more. He lifted my face up to his and kissed the top of my forehead softly. I felt my blood rushing all around very quickly but a strange feeling of calm and serenity washed over me as well. My heart was beating fast as usual. It got me thinking. If that was what it felt like when he just kissed my forehead, I wonder what it would feel like if it was a real kiss. But of course, it's now deemed to never be uncovered.

"Not today, Bella. You need a good dose of sleep."

"Will I be seeing you tomorrow…? Before or after the meeting maybe…?" I trailed off pointlessly.

Edward smiled but again, it wasn't the right crooked smile, "No promises. But you know I will do everything I can to make sure that I can come see you before school on Monday. You deserve to know what's happening at least. Within the limits of as far as I think you should know."

I nodded slowly, "Fair enough. Then, I think I'm ready to go in now."

My heart was heavy when I said goodbye to Edward. I dragged myself up to my room with a million of questions swimming in my head. I didn't know how to ask them even if I could. I finally could feel the exhaustion beginning to kick in. I didn't flip the switch on in my room when I went in so I fumbled around in the dark getting ready for bed. I brushed my teeth and washed my face slowly, trying to work out a lot of things that were stuck in my mind but came up with no answers.

Even as I lay there restlessly in bed, I still couldn't soothe myself to sleep. I wanted him to be next to me, telling me everything was going to be okay. But I knew that couldn't happen. Not now, not ever. I don't know how long I lay awake in bed but I heard Jacob coming home. I heard his heavy footsteps outside my door and he lingered there for awhile probably trying to see if I was still awake before he went past to his own room.

I didn't know when I finally drifted off to sleep either. I wished I wouldn't have to get up the next day to find out that I was going to lose him. I didn't dream that night either. It was just a deep, restless sleep that you would find yourself waking up too soon.

So this happened in the evening right. Edward DID NOT call Bella immediately right after where the last chapter left off. Just incase you guys were wondering haha. It was a cliffy I just put in for fun :p hehe

Before you guys bombard me with questions etc (although I'm not complaining, I love answering them haha) put it this way. Edward is a gentleman. Eventhough it is BxE meant to be, he still has to be a normal boy to everyone. Wouldn't you want Edward to be fair too? That girl could have been anyone else - you wouldn't want your dream husband (with the looks and personality like him) to have his heart for another girl no matter what right? Atleast he should give you a chance :) haha that's my opinion anyway.

This is as realistic as I could make it. Try not to be too hard on me. I'm only a rookie :) Haha -- so READ and REVIEW!

PS - Regarding those who have doubts about Bella, don't worry. I have my own plans for her. It would all make sense later haha.

PPS - Have you guys seen the Twilight Movie cast lately? Theres alot of people being casted already. Personally, I'm VERY VERY happy for the character they casted as Alice. She's probably the only cast I think they managed to fit the description pretty well besides Rachel Leigh Cook :)