I wish

"Oh how I wish

That you were here

Oh how I wish

That you were near

Holding me tight

Spending some time

Wish you were mine

My thoughts revealed

I'm showing all the signs

When we're face to face

I can't look in your eyes

Sometimes I findI just can't help myself'

Cos I want you

Want nobody else

My heart skips a beat

Whenever you are near

And I just don't know

What I'm gonna do"

Rae

Slap! That's reality for you it comes with a big fat amount of shock and possibly a bit of pain. This time it was when Alice coughed hurtling me back to earth. I broke away from the angels gaze and felt my heart burst into life again for a moment there it had stopped. Was he real? Please...please let him be real.

"Rachel meet my brother William, William this is Rachel the girl that Alice told you about" said Edward looking between us.

William I had always loved that name I had planned to name my first son William. I avoided William's eyes as I tried to find the ability to talk. He beat me to it.

"Please call me Will" he said his gorgeous voice velvet and oddly he had a European accent that made me weak at the knees.

Heaven have mercy with an accent I have no chance I thought.

"Rae" I managed to say "I prefer Rae"

I still avoided those perfect melted gold eyes staring at the floor.

"Rae's perfect..." he breathed probably thinking I would hear him.

I blushed the feeling was unfamiliar – how long had it been? I could still remember how that boy's smile could make me blush and my heart flutter how different this felt from then. I known him less than a minute and he already out shone the love I had kept closer to my heart over the last four years.

"We're going to introduce you to Esme and Carlisle today. Esme has been going on all week about how you two should be properly introduced" said Alice.

I hadn't realised that William was now in the room staring at me with those dangerously beautiful eyes.

"Sounds cool" I said grabbing my brown leather bag with the word 'love' written in Chinese on it.

I slung it across my shoulder and made for the door before our eyes could meet again. In the car Alice drove and I sat next to her in the front seat the both of us discussing heatedly our dislike of the younger years at school.

"You know sometimes they make me reconsider my diet they're that annoying" she flashed a quick look in my direction seeing is this upset me.

I just laughed and said "sometimes it makes me feel almost cannibal" my teeth bared and my face darkening.

Alice laughed and said "trouble is they wouldn't make much of a meal they're that small"

"so true I've eaten chicken nuggets that are bigger than the whole of them put together"

Suddenly Edward asked me a question.

"Don't you mind how fast we drive?" he asked a hint of sadness in his voice.

I looked out at the world flashing by.

"nope" I said shrugging " I heard vampires were good drivers.

Alice laughed her voice like the chiming of a bell. I don't know why but I could only feel safe in a car if I was with someone I trusted those who I didn't trust I also believed couldn't drive. I have always been a strange person.

We were soon at the grand Cullen house a house which I could even imagine been within a hundred mile radius of my house. It was a large house and although it wasn't that pretty on the outside on the inside it was beautiful. Esme and Carlisle were just as I had imagined them. They stood waiting for me. I shook Carlisle's hand and gently kissed Esme on the cheek they both stared at me in shock knowing I should be afraid of them but it was evident I was quite the opposite. Emmett also popped his head into the living room not long after.

"Hello Kiddo you look different today" he said with a grin

"yeah the uniform does that to people – it makes them look funny - Emmett you should know" I said returning his grin.

Rosalie walked in after him smiling at me.

"Hi Rae" she said open and friendly .

She came over and to my surprise we shared a small hug of greeting; it wasn't awkward it was comfortable like sisters. We pulled away from the hug and grinned at each other.

"We have so much to do today" she hissed in excitement.

I kept smiling "I can't begin to imagine what torture your family has in store for me"

We both giggled.

"ah... Rose just giggled surely the apocalypse in nigh" said Jasper dramatically as he came to greet me.

He still worried about his self control but I completely trusted him so I walked up to him and stretched to my tip toes to kiss him lightly on the cheek.

I do have male friends but no close male friends no one I can really talk to. This week the whole Cullen family has been very supportive through my one sided war with my friends they just seem to keep throwing everything my way and I'm way too passive to respond. I'd become very close to them all although more distant with Edward.

Right now though I wasn't looking for what I had originally wanted in Edward. I had wanted him to fall in love with me (by some miracle) and we'd be just like the Edward and Bella in the book. All I wanted now though was friendship and all though Edward was perfect in every way I could see he was suffering at the moment. I didn't love him the way I had expected myself to instead I found sisterly feelings there in there stead. it was all so different with William.

I owed them a lot they'd taken me under their wing and ate lunch with me – well I ate lunch they provided company – they had walked me to lesson, sat next to me in lessons, kept me smiling, and thanks to them I'd stopped myself from crying.

I cried at everything, films, books, adverts on T.V, poems, cards and any simple sentiments that I bore witness to. But I cried very little when it came to my own life I believed that I should be strong to overcome the problems I am faced with and cry at those which I don't have to face like a kind of release.

"So" said Alice "Do you want the grand tour?"

I nodded.

"Will you tag along I don't suppose you've seen the house yet" she said taking my hand then his in her other hand.

She showed us round the huge house then my nose picked up the familiar smell of chlorine. I took in a deep breath I always loved the smell of swimming pools. Alice noticed my eyes searching wondering.

"What's the matter?" she asked.

"Nothing" I said lowering my head "I just thought I could smell a pool"

I blushed embarrassed. William was watching me again as if I was fascinating – obviously I must be amusing been so stupid.

Alice beamed a smile at me then dragged me through a set of doors and there before my eyes was the pool. I can imagine my eyes lit up like a kid in a sweet shop. Ever since I was little I had loved to swim although I'm still not very good at it I love the water. We had a swimming pool at our school I loved it when our class did swimming and in primary school we had a pool too.

I felt my skin itching to jump in but instead I calmed myself and said "it's pretty"

Alice's eyes glittered with mischief. 5 minutes later I was walking through the corridors as quick as I could to get the pool in a tankini. Alice was so dead after this little escapade. Leaving me to change then kidnapping my clothes and leaving me to find my way back to the pool feeling very revealed.

I have this really bad habit of talking to myself... a lot.

"How dare she? Look at me this is so embarrassing just wait until I get my hands on her she's going to wish she very laid eyes on me" I growled taking a look around.

Then it hit me...

I.Was.Lost.

Only I could do this within the space of a minute whilst going back in the same way I came not to mention the fact I was in a tankini. Nothing was really changing that last fact even as the situation got worse.

Oh just great! I thought glaring at another familiar looking door which I'm quite sure I had just passed.

"Curse you door of evil. How dare you stand there in all your woodenness and dare to mock me? I should think you'd be glad I didn't have an axe or a lighter for that matter, I sure I could even do some damage with my nails" I said pointing at it accusingly and threateningly .

"Do you usually spend time threatening innocent doors?" asked a velvet accented voice of total brilliance.

I blushed and I'm sure this time it went from the tips of my toes to the top of my head.

"you weren't supposed to witness the madness" I said not turning round to look at him for fear of fainting in his presence.

"You got lost didn't you?" he asked the amusement clear in his voice.

"Maybe but the goblin king kept messing up all the walls of the labyrinth so I couldn't find my way to save Toby" I said turning round to him pouting "and this door" I jabbed a finger in its direction "thought it was funny to trick me"

He stared at me a grin on his face "and if you've never watched Labyrinth that is going to make no sense at all and you are about to call the nice men in the white coats who will put me in a nice white jacket in a nice white padded room" I grinned manically this was me been me the strange freaky creature I was I knew it would scare him off but I felt like I'd be a lie if I didn't say the first thing that came to my head.

I needed to be honest with him.

"Good job I've watched it then else I'd have Carlisle section you" he said returning my grin.

Suddenly finding courage I turned my head up to look in his eyes. I felt my knees go weak as the liquid gold warmly penetrated my own eyes. He looked at me as though he knew me. As though he'd seen every part of my strange personality and accepted it with open arms. Worse of all he looked at me as though he'd seen me naked like there was nothing hidden from with.

Rae (the author ) : sorry this chapter took so long i got a lot going on with school work and i few home truths about one of my bet friends i got a lot on my plate but heres the next chapter R&R and i'll answer all your qu's provided it doesn't completely reveal the plot thanks to all those that have already review i love you all really i do. Thanks for reading x