Until then, every thought I had, had to be kept secret.

Bella's POV

Me and Emily were going back to Forks today. Only to see Charlie, I told her I couldn't see Edward. I would do that another time, alone. It had been forever since I'd seen Charlie, I still talked to him often. He assumed I left Edward, and I let him think that. I told him I had a surprise, I wanted to tell him in person, even if it was a little late. It had been a long time since I'd been in Forks. It all looked so different now. It was Christmas, so everybody would be home. I wondered who I'd run into.

"It's okay." Emily reached out and grabbed my hand.

"I know."

The car pulled up into my old driveway, and Charlie came running out. I took a breath and got out of the car.

"Hey, Dad."

"Bells, you're—you're."

"I know…" There was a long silence. "Be happy for me!"

"I am. . . Did you tell your mom yet?"

"No."

"Well, better get in then."

"Hey Charlie." Emily said, starting to talk to him.

I went immediately up to my old room. The first thing I saw was the dream catcher Jacob gave me when I had those nightmares, but that wasn't what I wanted to see. I lifted up my loose floorboard and pulled out the scrapbook of my senior year. It all seemed so far away now. I traipsed my hand around the pictures and pages. I wondered what happened to all my friends. If college was good for them, if Angela and Eric were still together, if Mike ever fully made with Jessica, and if they were all okay. I missed them, a lot. I picked up my phone and immediately called Jessica, hoping she still had the same number.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Jessica?"

"Yeah, who's this?"

"Um.. its Bella."

"Bella. Bella Swan. Oh my God really?"

"Yeah. Hey, I'm back in Forks for the winter, do you wanna get together?"

"Uhh, sure. Me and Angela are getting together later if you wanna join us."

"Sure."

"The diner at five."

"Okay."

I heard her whisper 'that was weird' before hanging up.

It was good to see Charlie again. He drank coffee while I explained to him the past three months. He wasn't too happy I was pregnant, but when I explained the very complicated lie I came up with, he finally relented.

He sighed. "I love you Bells."

"I love you too." There was a long silence. "I'm gonna go down to the diner with Jessica and Angela."

"Good." He nodded. I knew this was hard for him, but he was strong when it came to this kind of thing. My mother, on the other hand, would be ecstatic for me. I decided to call her after I met up with my old friends.

The diner bell rung when I entered the door. It looked so old, like tiny flickers of my old life coming back in full force. All of a sudden I was in junior year again. There are no words to describe how much I wish that was true. It didn't take long to find Jessica, although I was sure she didn't see me yet. I took a deep breath before re-entering my dream nightmare. Everything was so different now.

"Hey guys." I took a seat next to them.

"Bella." The shock in Jessica's voice seemed to overpower every other emotion in the room.

"Yeah."

"Bella, you're pregnant."

"Yeah."

"Oh my God Bella, Edward must be so happy." Angela cut in with her sweet personality, she was really happy for me.

"Oh..um.. well..uhh…It's not Edward's."

"Oh." Angela retreated.

"Who's is it?" Jessica asked, recovering from the shock.

"Jacob's." Both their eyes seemed to pop out of their heads. "Well who knows Angela, you and Eric might be next." I nudged her.

"No…he and I broke up." She looked like she was going to cry.

"Oh, Angela." I hugged her. "I'm sorry."

"It's okay." She pulled away.

"Well, I've been great." Jessica darted in, trying to lighten the conversation, or at least distract it.

"Great! What' s new in your life?"

"Well, I'm top of my class, and I just got an internship with a fashion company."

"Oh, great."

"And my boss…oh…"

"Jessica, that might not be the best idea."

"Oh really?" Her sarcastic demeanor was oddly comforting.

"Some things never change." Angela jutted in.

It was nice to spend time with them again. We were like we used to be, before everything happened, before the baby, before Jacob, before Edward even.

When I got home I crashed. I heard the faint sound of Jacob's car in the distance.