pIt was getting late, I kissed everyone goodbye and headed back home./p
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pI held Amelia in my arms, she was beautiful. I touched her little fingers and toes, i smelt her face. I really feel sorry for James, his line of generation had ended. Apart from his sister, know one will remember him. Noone will carry on his legacy, noone will know his name./p
pJames wasnt at my apartment, i couldn't feel his presence. That was ok though, i needed time alone. I sat at the table and had a cigarette, i thought about what my children looked like and, if i had them with James what a good parent he would've been. Flashes of the tent scene filled my mind. I let my mind slowly wander back to that amazing night. It was a cold night and Davy, Miles and Bill had decided to sleep under the stars. It was already planned out what would happen, it was my gift to James before he died. "Where's everyone gone", James asked looking around. I was so nervous, I've never done anything like this before. The boys wanted James to have every experience before he died so they asked me, even though I was little taken aback and felt strangely cheap, I was happy to give him what he wanted. "The boys have decided to sleep out tonight", I asked nervously. "Its just going to be you and me". "Oh", James looked down, even though he wasn't told I guess he kind of knew. "I guess we should go back to the tent then", Kelly kinda mumbled. "Yeah", James mumbled. I help James up and we stagger back to the tent, I gently help James down onto the sleeping bag. I sit next to him and take of shirt, leaving me in jeans and singlet. I scootch closer to James, clasp his face with my hand and kissed him deeply. James puts his hands on my back and kisses me back, I pull his jacket off and take his shoes and socks off. I keep kissing him, not sure what to do. Even though I was in my early 20s back then, I had no experience whatsoever. I completely went off instinct, I pulled James shirt off and kiss his neck. James abruptly pushes me away slightly, his arms are still on and he look at me with concern, "No, Kelly im sorry" and he starts getting up. Kelly hold James down, " Why, Have I done something wrong"/p
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p"No Kelly its just, Are you sure you want to do this", James worriedly asked./p
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p"I do, I really want you", I look down. "Ive always wanted to experience this with you". I mumble shyly./p
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pJames tilted my head up and kissed me gently on the lips. I pull away slightly, "Um I warn you im not really experienced in this", I mutter./p
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p"Its ok, Im a little bit rusty as well. Im not going to be as good as I usually am", James smirked./p
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pI laugh and kiss him. I run my fingers through his hair, I kiss his collarbones. I run my fingers across his stomach, for someone who had cancer. He had a defined, lean stomach. His body was taut and lean with the tiniest of bones peeping through. His body was glorious and beautiful./p
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pI pull James and my pants off, I huddle into the sleeping bag with him. He kept touching my lips,stroking my face, my collarbones, my body. It was like he was trying to take on as much as he can of a woman's body./p
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pI cover him with the sleeping bag, I gently touch him. Not wanting to hurt him, "I don't want to hurt you", I whisper. James looks at me with deep love, "Don't worry love you wont". I keep kissing him and caressing his skin and the world swam around me in a bliss of love and ecstasy./p
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pI wake up next to him, he's asleep in my arms. I look at his smiling face. Last night was beautiful, James treated me like I was gold. I tried to be so gentle and thankfully I didn't hurt him. He was passionate and controlled, he let me have my way. He was amazing, he knew exactly what to do. I now knew the concept of making love, you actually make love. It hurtles itself around you, it embeds in your skin. Controls your mind, sees through your eyes./p
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pI close my eyes and rest my chin against James head, I wake up to a touch on my neck and waist. James is covering my neck with soft kisses, I look down at him. "Hi", he smiles ad kisses me deeply. I cradle his face, "You were bloody amazing last night", James exasperated. "Well I tried my best", I shrugged. Just then James face was wracked with pain and he cries out, I quickly get up, "Hold on". I get the morphine kit and hold the bottle to James lips, he drinks and then his face is slack again. "Thank you", he whimpered. I stroke his face and calm him more./p
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pMy memory ends, I'm back at my dodgy apartment, only this time James was sitting across from me. "Having good memories", James smiled. "Yeah the tent scene"./p
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pJames smiled, "That was probably the best memory I currently have"./p
p"Yeah me too", I smiled./p
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pJames leant over and kissed me, his lips just touching mine./p
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pI kissed him back holding the moment./p
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