He was sitting on floor in dark room..Folding his both hands around his both legs..Hiding his head under his legs.. Complete silence covers the area with so many unspoken words, feelings and thoughts…hearing so many voices…
""Daya tu wapis aye jaa na yar… (teary tone) yar muja teri bht yaad ati hai…bht sari..yaad kye main tu tera mein he jeeta hoon""
""Wapis aye jaa na yar…tera bina kuch acha nai lagta muja…muja bhi bht dar lagta hai…bht sara…tuj sa bhi zyada…dard bhi hota hai… yar tu sun raha haina …Aye jaa na yar…""
""tu badla main kuch bhi laa lay muj saa..par mera pas wapis aye jaa..wapis aye jaa meri jaan..tera bhai tera bina bht akala hai..wo mar raha hai…tu sun raha haina Daya..tera bhai…ussa teri zarorat hai…tu aye jaa na…aye jaa….""
""choro..choro muja..Dayaaaa…mera Daya muja da doo…""
""chooya kasa..haan tu na kasa chooya mera bhai ko asa…ussa kitna dard hua hoga…(tears rolling down) asa kasa chooya tu na ussa… ""
""maro muja…muja marna chata hona? (tears falling down) Maro… (he hits himself with his hand) aur maro (again hit) jitna marna chata hona maro muja..apna sara gusa nikal do muj par… maro aur maro (hitting himself again n again) jee bar ka..main kuch nahin kahon ga tuma….""
""Best Friends, wo friends sa bhi zyada bara hota hai…jis sa..hmm..(thinking) jis sa hum sab kuch bol sakta hain..jo bhi chaya wo sab..jo bhi yahen (pointing to his heart) dil mein ho..kuch bhi nai chupata…Aur wo humari baat aur (meaningfully) kssi sa nai bolta…aur bura bhi nai manata..danta bhi nai aur gusa bhi nai hota…kabhi bhi..""
Man slowly moves his head upward in that darkness…looks around and feels that darkness around him and in himself too.. he closes his eyes and took a painful sigh.. Silence can hear that painful breath and can feel the hidden and unspoken feelings…
Suddenly a Door open with great bang..he looks towards that direction..and found a Man standing there and looking at him..he was not be able to see the clear face of that man.. he can found him only like a shadow.. he can't see the expressions of that person..who was now slowly moving towards him with great voice of his foots in that silence… he can understand that the feet's coming towards him only...he slowly starts standing with the support of wall with scare… he stood up completely..Still his hand was on wall supporting him..
A man comes near to him and just stops in front of him... A dim light present in room was helping them to recognize each other face…bcz they were face to face now..he just look at that person and tries to move his gaze but the next person fixed gaze was making him puzzle..he looks in those eyes…he can sense the pain and strange feelings in those fixed eyes.. for few second he feels that pain and then he starts looking another side but the person gives him tigh slap on his cheek with so much pain in his eyes and harshness in his hand.. he looks at him with pain and teary eyes… his hand was on his cheek...which was red now due to that hard slap… he looks at those fixed eyes and can see watery drops clearly coming out from those eyes… A whisper came out from his trembling lips….
He (whispers): Sirrrrrrrrrrrrr ?
One more tight slap he faced after this teary whisper… he was shell shocked..tears came out from his eyes… he was silently crying now..bcz tears were falling down from his eyes….when he hear as…
ACP (teary broken voice):Chup (pointing finger towards him) aik dum chup.. bas chup (tears falls down from his eyes) chup… he just pressed his both fingers on his both eyes just to stop his tears..but he burst out into tears.. which was really painful for him to watch… how can he watch him like this..but how can he stop him now? How? He just moves forward and tries to stop him by placing his hand on his shoulder….
He: sir…r plzz…plz sir… but ACP jerks his hand away so harshly…
ACP (pointing finger towards him ): hath mat lagana muja..choona mat…
He (crying): sir main
ACP (interrupts): kye main?(looking him wd great anger) Haan…kye main? Kye bolo ga tum ab Daya…hai kye kuch bolna ko tumara pas? Muja tu yakeen nai hota yah sab (shocking tone) yah sab sach hai? Tum asa kasa… he just moves forward and grabs him by his shirt color.. asa kasa kar sakta ho? Haan..asa kasa kar sakta ho humara sath..uss masom ka sath..kye bigara tha uss na tumara (looking in to his eyes with great anger and tears) kye bigara tha? Kye kasoor tha uss ka jisa tum toor aya ho? Sirf yahi ka uss na tuma apni jaan sa bar kar chaha..choota bhai smja nai banya bhi..har cheez sa yah baat sabit ki.. apna khyal sa..apna andaz sa apna pyar sa.. kye nai kiya uss na tumara liya.. tumara yah halat dakna , smajna ka bad (crying helplessly) kitna roya wo.. kitna toot gaya pher bhi kud ko smbala ..(again harsh) kis ka liya? Haan? Sirf tumara liya..tuma wapis pana ka liya.. wo sochta tha ka apna pyar sa…apna sath sa tuma wapis paa laa ga… wo bolta tha sir (again crying voice) doctors khata han Daya ka ander sab hai…sab jo uss na ajj tak kiya usski memory mai lock hai..main apna pyar sa ..apna sath sa ussa wapis laa ayon ga.. sir app janta nai han ..sab teak ho jaya ga.. vishwas kijiya..main sab teak kar doonga.. kye kye nai kiya uss na tumara liya? Tuma asa haal mai dhak kar..paa kar..pal pal toota wo..per kud ko jorha raka..smabala rakha..kye asan hota ha yah sab karna.. ? haan? Kye dukh nai hota yah sab karna sa? Haan? Bolo jawab do? Leave him so harshly.. par tuma kye pata… tuma kye pata asa karna sa kye hota hai? Tuma tu bht maza aya hoga na? bht maza.. yah sab kar ka..enjoy kiya hoga tum na…achi acting ka award mila ga tuma tu….
Daya (weeping): sir..meri baat..tu..main..sir..
ACP: bas..muja tu laga tum ab bhi apna natak continue karo ga he..par sharm aye gayi tuma? smaj aye gai ka Abhijeet na tuma kyun nai roka.? kyun ana diya yahen... (so harsh) Abhijeet na mujh sa kaha tha ka ussa ab kuch nai janana..yah tak nai ka tum na yah sab kyun kiya uss ka sath..koi justification nai chiya muja bhi ab Daya.. kuch bhi nai… main tu tuma bas itna batana aya tha ka huma tumara iss jhoot ka bara main sab pata chal gaya hai..sab.. abb tumara yah natak aur nai chala gaa..par tuma tu shyad pehla he andaza ho chukka tha..After few seconds..janata ho tum Daya.. muja yakeen nai ata tha jab wo reports tak dakhi maine.. (teary tone) par jab yahen tumara samna ankhon main jank kar dakha..tumara behavior..tab bhi muja yakeen nai aya ka tum asa kasa kar sakta ho humara sath..akher kuch bhi ho..asa kuch kasa? Ka..kasa? kasa khel sakta ho humari bhavanayon ka sath?humara dilon ka sath? ka..ka..kasa..akher ? And with those last broken words he just moved towards room door… Daya looks at him..tears were continually falling down from his eyes..he just runs to stop him…
Daya (crying): sir.. sir…rrr… ruken..meri baat tu suna..sir..aik baar... tu sunen sir..sir Abhijeet wo…sir..meri baat..aik bar…
But ACP left the room after closing the door with bang with same angry and rash mood.. Door just closes on Daya's face..even it hurts Daya's face little bit...he sats down after holding door handles with same crying mood..And screaming as…
Daya (crying): aik bar meri baat…meri baat tu suna..sir..aik..bar..meri baat tu… and he was just crying… his each and every scream was telling any painful story…
At Night DUO Residence:
Abhijeet was sitting in his room with closed eyes…when door bell rings..he hears it but he was not looking interested to open the door..Again n again door bell was ringing..At last he stood up n moved out from the room..And without asking or checking just moved back after opening the door lock…ACP enters inside the house with irritation….
ACP: Abhijeet yah kye tareeka hai? darwaza kyun nai khol raha tha tum? (really worried tone) Malom hai main kitna pershan ho gaya tha?
Abhijeet (sitting on bed): kudkushi nai ki hai maine…fikar mat Karen app sir…
ACP (shocked): Abhijeet? Yah kye kah raha ho tum?
Abhijeet: sir app kyun ayen han yahen? Muja akala chor dijiya plz..main iss waqt kssi sa baat nai karna chata..kssi sa milna nai chata..plz sir…I m sorry…but…
ACP (sitting beside him):Kyun ? tumara kye kasoor hai iss sab mein jo tum saza do kud ko iss sab ki? Bas bht ho gaya Abhijeet.. ab uttho..choro yah rona dona.. koi zarorat nai hai uss ka liya ansoo bahana ki yah pershan hona ki…jisa tumari parwah tu dor balka...And he stops after seeing towards Abhijeet...acha muja yah batio ka tum na kuch khaya peeya bhi hai yah nai? Yah bas sog main he betha ho? Acha aik kam karta hoon..ajj main tumara liya nashta banata hoon (he smiles)….
Abhijeet looks at him..Acp was abt to move, when Abhijeet instantly holds his hand with..
Abhijeet: sir yah app kyun kar raha hain? Kis sa apna dard chupana ki koshish kar raha hain app? Uss sa jo kud iss waqt dard ka bana hua hai? Beth jaiya sir… plz.. (ACP sat down but still not looking at Abhijeet) app yahen mera haal chaal janana aya ..(Smiles) ka kahen kudkushi wudkushi tu nai kar li…(relieving tone) nai karon ga sir..main itna kamzor nai hoon..app janta han muja achi taran sa… And he looks downward… ACP looks at him with teary eyes.. he placed his hand on Abhijeet's arm with…
ACP: Main gaya tha Daya sa milna.. (Abhijeet looks at him wd shock) wo...wo (teary tone) asa kasa kar sakta hai humara sath…? Tumara sath…
Tears came in Abhijeet eyes..but he instantly hides his eyes from ACP…he knew well why ACP is saying like this..he just want to tell him that Daya accepted that he is fine..After few seconds…
ACP (calm tone): Abhijeet… tuma kasa..Stops for a second..i mean tuma kasa pata chala ka wo Natak kar raha hai…
He looks at Abhijeet…who was looking downward…he feels really sad..he thought that this question is not suitable for the moment so he was abt to stood up when he heard…
Abhijeet:usski ankhon sa.. Usski ankhen muj sa kabi jhoot nai bol saktien..(ACP looks at him wd teary eyes) wo chaya jitna jhoot bolna chaya..kabhi meri ankhon mai ankhen dal kar jhoot nai bol sakta sir.. issi liya uss na kabhi muj sa meri ankhon mai ankhen dal kar baat nahin kii…koi bhi harkat meri nazron ka samna kar ka nai ki..aur jab kabhi wo meri ankhon mai dhakta..wo jhat sa apni nazer gooma lata.. Par iss sab ka bawajood..muja pehli bar asa tab laga jab uss naa gher ana ka bad muj sa aik dam normal behave karna shuru kar diya..mai heran tu tha par kush bhi.. aur meri kushi na har cheez pa parda dalna shuru kar diya..mera dil par..demag par..sab kuch smana hota hua bhi mai peehchan nai paya.. Daya ka room mein hum dono ki bht sari tasveeran hain.. maine jan boj kar aur tasveeran bhi rakien..yah soch kar ka ussa kuch yaad aya ga.. wo kuch poocha ga tu main yaad dilyon ga ussa.. tu shayad..shayad ussa kuch yaad aya.. (tears falls down from ACP's eyes after hearing happy tone of Abhijeet, like he was living same in aura) bht umeedan then muja un tasveeron sa..par uss na poochna tu door..aik bar Dhaka tak nai mera samna… khana peena sa laa kar kssi cheez pa uss na kabhi koi aitraz nai kiya..kyun ka wo sab uss ka man pasand tha..par jab daya ko kuch yaad he nahin tu pher ussa kssi cheez main tu mana karna chiya tha naa? Aur sab sa bara jhatka tu muja uss raat laga jis raat main kssi awaz ki waja sa jag para.. pora gher Dhaka kuch bhi asa nai mila.. muja laga mera weham hai..par wo weham nai tha.. Daya shayd room main kuch dond raha tha yah kuch ..kyun ka room main mojod humari kafi sari pictures gyub then.. jab maine bad mai apna shak ko parkna ka liya check kiya tu wo muja drawz mai milen.. shayad Daya una dakana nai chata tha issi liya wahen rak dien.. maine bhi pehla dehan he nai diya..aur jab dehan aya tu socha shyad maine kud he asa kiya ho…par muja sath he sath yah bhi yakeen tha ka maine asa nai kiya..aur subha jab meri parosan na muj sa poocha ka raat ko terrace pa daya ko Dhaka tu bht kushi hui…tu main tu heran he rah gaya.. wo bolien ka shadow tha..par daya ka he..aur jab maine una daya ki halat ka bara mein batya..tu wo dukhi ho gayen par confused he rahen ka pher wo kon tha.. maine sab baton ko jutla diya sir (looks at ACP wd teary eyes) halan ka aksar jab Daya ko nened nai ati tu wo raat mein terrace par chala jata hai..per pher bhi maine sab baton kon ignore kiya...uss ka mirror ka samna muja pehchan kar pher na pehchana.. uss ka jan boj kar wo baten karna jis sa muja acha laga.. mera ansoo na dakh pana..muja dard main na dhak pana..par sath he sath apni har waqt ki chooti bari harkaton sa muja apna pagalpan ka yakeen dilana.. par uss roz..jab wo apna room sa bahr nikla aur app sab ki wall pictures dhak kar uss na apna ansoo poncha tu mai heran rah gaya..wo yah baat nai janta..kyun ka mai uss sa kafi fasla par peecha khara tha.. lakin uss ka front image muja samna almarh ka mirror par dikh raha tha.. wo team ki tasveeran dhak kar kyun roya ga? Kyun ansoo poncho ga apna? Tabi jab wo una janta ha..peehchanta ha.. pher wo yah manta kyun nai? Salunkha sir jis roz gher aya aur un sa maine bola ka Daya aik dam sa shant behave karna lag gaya hai.. aur yah cheez mera liya bht shocking hai..achank uss ka bad sa he daya na aik ka bad aik asi harsh harkaten kien ..jis sa mera shak aur mazboot ho gaya.. maine app sa baat karna chiye..team sa..par main janta tha ka koi meri baat nai mana ga..aur main sab sa kye kahon ga akher? Kye? (broken tone) sach tu yah tha sir ka main ander he ander tooth chukka tha Daya ka yah sach jan ka.. asi chooti chooti beshumar baten hain jino na muja har pal uss ka teak hona ka ahsas dilya.. par mai kud bhi apna app ko yakeen nai dila paya tu app sab ko kye? issi liya maine sab sa chupa kar aik private hospital main Daya ka sara tests karwya… ta ka sach aur jhoot ka samna kar sakoon kud bhi aur app sab ko bhi dikha sakoon…(teary tone) jis Daya ko teak dakna ka liya meri ankhen tars gayen.. wo teak hai..ussa kuch nai hua..yah sunana ka liya mera kan taras gaya… yahi words sun kar un reports ka bad muja koi kushi nai hui sir..muja koi kushi nai hui…(And he burst out) kyun koi kushi nai hui muja sir? Haan? Kyun? Main kitna bura hoon na? bht bura insane hoon na? (ACP nodded as No) nai sir..boliya na main he bura hoon..wo kuch galat nai kar sakta mera sath..nai kar sakta.. ACP pulls him towards himself and hugs his elder son so tightly.. Abhijeet really cries hard wd voice…expel out all his pain…
ACP (thinking): Daya main tuma kabhi mahf nai karon ga iss ka liya..kabhi mahf nai karon ga…tum na bht galat kiya hai yah humara sath.. bht galat kiya hai..yah nai karna chiya tha tuma humara sath.. humara pyar..vishwas..saman ka badla asa tu nai dana chiya tha tuma..akher asi bhi kye majbori the tumari.. nai daya..kuch bhi ho..tuma yah nai karna chiya tha..bht galat..bht galat kiya tum na..
He patted on Abhijeet's back and after feeling his relax sighs…he asked him as…
ACP: Bas Abhijeet bas (clears his tears) bht ho gaya.. ab aur nai.. byht roo liya tum na..abb main tuma aur takleef mein nai dhak sakta.. asa iss haal mein tarpta nai dhak sakta…
Abhijeet looks at him …
Abhijeet (teary tone): Sir usski koi tu majbori rahi hogi? Jabi tu uss na yah sab…he stops.. (in low tone) app na uss sa poocha nai…?
ACP looks at him wd shock..
ACP (shocking voice): Abhijeet tum muj sa yah sab pooch raha ho? Uss na tumara sath kye kiya aur tum yah sab? (angry) nai maine nai poocha uss sa iss sab ka bara mein..shyad wo batana bhi chata par maine ussa moka he nai diya…aur na dana chata hoon...
Abhijeet: sir app aik bar pooch tu
ACP stood up with shocked and angry expressions…
ACP (harshly interrupts): kye pooch lata main Abhijeet? Kye? uss ki koi bhi justification kye humara wo ghum. Wo dard khatm kar sakti hai jo hum naa ajj tak saha? Kye wo sab khatm ho jaya ga…mit jaya ga humara ander sa jo ab tak hua? Wo tu shyad ab bhi muj sa jhoot he bolta.. par shyad meri ankhon mein dhak kar uss sa jhoot bola nai gaya… yah pher… mera thaper kha kar.. Abhijeet looks at him wd shock and pain…
Abhijeet: sir app na ussa mara?
ACP: haan… mara.. aur bhi marta ussa.. ager acha kam karna par tum sab ki peeth thaptapa sakta hoon mein tu galti karna par (teary tone) mar bhi sakta hoon..yah haq bhi hai muja.. aur tuma kitni takleef ho rai hai yah sun kar ka maine uss par hath uttaya..ussa tu koi takleef nai hui tumara sath wo sab karta hua...tum kitna dukhi ho..kye haal hai tumara yah sab janta hua..smajta hua bhi uss na sab kiya tumara sath..koi dukh nai hua ussa.. (Abhijeet starts looking downward) tu main kyun na… aur (angry) ager tuma sach janana ka bht shok haina tu jaa kar kud pooch lo..smjha… (Abhijeet still sitting with head down) aur kal sa kam par aye jana.. yah sog manana ki koi zaorat nai hai.. kssi ko kuch nai hua..sab teak hain yahen…
He said so and left the home in few seconds..Abhijeet locks main door which closes wd high voice..he can feels the anger of ACP.. who was there to console him but now angry with him as well…
He sat down on floor and remembers each and every moment he spends wd Daya after this incident… tears falls down fro his eyes…
"Tum roya mat karo…asa…malom hai..yahen (pointing to his heart) bht dard hota ha..tu ansoo girta hain"…
Abhijeet (murmurs): haan Daya (tears rolling down from his cheeks) bht dard hota hai yar.. bht.. jab koi takleef data hai..dil dukhata hai.. wo bhi asa koi..jo yahen (pointing to his heart) rahta ho.. jab woi choot data hai tu bht dard hota hai yar..bht… tum tu yah baat samjta tha na yar..pher asa kyun kiya? Haan.. nai Daya.. muja yakeen nai hota ka tum..tum asa kasa kar sakta ho..
Abhijeet (teary tone): muja humesha har dard sa bechana wala…muja asa kasa takleef da gaya daya? Haan… har pal apni chooti chooti baton tak sa mera khyal rakna wala muja kasa takleef da gaya? muja hansana wala asa kasa rula sakta hai? And he stops.. clears his tears from his face and thinks as… par Daya na mera khyal tu iss natak mein bhi rakha na? uss saa mera ansoo nai Dhaka jata tha.. wo muja tang nai karta tha.. usski baton sa khyal uss ka pyar jhalkta tha.. uss na muja mara peeta uss waqt jab ussa yah laga ka uss ka calm behavior muja shak mein dalna laga hai..asa kyun? Kye Daya kssi musebat mein tha? Kye wo cha kar bhi sach nai bol sakta tha? (again confuse) Yah pher wo kud kssi waja sa asa kar raha tha? Per kyun? Kahen (scared) mera Daya kssi musebat mein tu nai haina? Muja uss sa milna jana chiya kye? nai nai.. main nai jayon ga Daya sa milna.. jo bhi ho..uss na jo kiya ..uss ki saza bhi milna chiya ussa..nai.. bilkul nai..main nai jayon ga uss sa milna.. nai..main asa kasa bhool sakta hoon sab..?
And he lays down on bed after closing his eyes… but open it again.. after sometime thinking…he again tries to sleep..but all in vain... many times he changes his sides on bed..and was feeling really uncomfortable.. just one thought was hurdle between him and his sleep…
Abhijeet: Daya..kyun..akher kyun kiya tum na asa…kye tuma mera dard..meri takleef kuch bhi nai dikha?he stood up in anger.. iss sawal ka jawab tu dana he hoga tuma… And he was abt to move out when he looks at clock ..and noticed its 1:00 am… he was shocked to see that… he did not noticed before what time is .. he sat down after making sad face… starts waiting for morning..so that he can get his answer..,
Whole nigh he spend with same pain.. and with so many mixed thoughts..in morning he gets ready for bureau…but his first destination was somewhere else.. he was looking very much composed..he moves down from quills after reaching at Asylum… looks at the place where he remembers that how much he was happy when he was moving out from that place with his Daya.. tears comes in his eyes.. without entering inside the asylum ..he sat down in quills and moved towards bureau in hurry…
After reaching at Bureau..he enters with same rough n tough look and expressions..team was present there with really sad mood.. ACP was attending phone call..after looking at Abhijeet he comes towards him…
Freddy: Good morning sir
Abhijeet: Morning..
Freddy (hesitate): Sir app kasa ho? Teak tu haina?
Abhijeet (looks at him): main teak hoon Freddy…fazool baton mein time waste mat karo..aur apna kam pa lago bht kam hai..aur muja bhi kam karna do..pehla he bht time waste ho chukka hai... (freddy looks at him in shock, but really understands his pain) smjha..(to Rajat) muja case ka bara mein report karo…(to Shreya) aur shreya tum muja files ka bara mein update karo.. pending files meri table par rakh do… aur and he looks towards ACP who was standing and looking at him with fixed eyes… where All team eyes were also fixed on him..either they were listing his orders…
Abhijeet (to ACP): Good Morning Sir…
ACP: Abhijeet..Daya Asylum sa baag gaya hai….
All looks at him with great shock… while Abhijeet was stand still at his place…
AUTHOR's NOTE:
I m sorry guys for late update..but I m not getting any time to type any single word…what to do.?i m losing my track also.. muj sa kuch likha he nai jaa raha teak sa.. readers are also not finding it gud I guess.. will try to end this story asap..but for now..time he nai mil raha.. sorry once again.. Hope u will like this chapter.. thanks for ur support..urs poonum